Maybe instead of putting up a brave front, i should go overseas for a walk?

Happily alone in Taiwan!!


At ease alone in Thailand...


Sometimes i wonder how can i be so happy out there alone and be depressed when i have all my friends around me :)

Well, today after work, i had to go to orchard to settle some deals.

When i was walking pass wisma, suddenly a girl stopped me...

Thinking that she is some promoter, i told her that i am in a rush..

She handed me a namecard, and said her company is looking for new faces...

"Oh those modeling scam??" i thought in my head...

Guess the easiest way to get rid of her is to pass her my number as requested...

i give her my number and hurried off...

while on my way to the destination, i was thinking,

"My hair is so messy"
"My attire was so sloppy"
"Why did she approach me of all people?"

Then i tried to imagine myself on a magazine page...

"I threw that magazine away in my mind, YES it's that horrible"

hahaha, well maybe they are looking for a "before" model for plastic surgery!! lol

Well, www.createtalents.com

i am laughing at what happened as i am typing this :)

well, at least i can tell pple i had been "talentspotted" before?

Joseph in SOap is cute!!!!

Wonder if he is or not, even if he is, where on earth do i stand a chance? :P

Date:	2008-07-28 18:44
Subject:	:(
Security:	Public
Mood:	gloomy

Why is the one i am interested in always not interested in me??

Busy with?

Sch, assignments, quitting, handing over, house chores, tennis...

So long never update LJ leh...

will update more when i am less tired...

and i really need to spend less money

Voice out to my Boss that i want to quit.
have to go through two more interviews before i can actually tender and decide on my ord date!

That's s.....a.....f....

Anyway. First job interview went bad....but he wanna hire me as a part timer instead...arghz...

No mood to study....Exam coming. New Module coming...

thinking of holding the module till i find a job so that i don't need to eat into my savings...

turning point in my life, a lot of decisions need to be made...
would all these be easier if i have someone by my side??

Nobody knows for sure....

Have to quit before i find a job :(

cause no company is willing to wait for 3 months!

What if i can't find any job within this three months????

Anyone has any job opening to intro?

After so long, i finally feel nervous about going out with someone again :)

Hope everything goes fine :)

Worked on Vesak Day while everyone is out having fun.

Was compensated off on Tuesday...

woke up early today and started looking for people to go out with.

So tempted to go movie alone again, but yeah i resisted it.

All either working or studying or no reply at all...

so even if they compensate me on Tuesday also useless...everyone else is not free...

Slept the whole day away again.....

I realised i can not sleep for long hours...or just sleep for long hours....

Sat night was clubbing till morning, then went malaysia without any sleep.

Sun was in malaysia till night, then mahjung with poly friends till Mon morning.

How many hours of without sleep is that? i dunno...

You are feeling down, and you are so tired of smiling,

you look through your phone list on your mobile,

and all you can do is to lock yourself in your room,

blast the music,

and cry to yourself hoping that no one will hear it.

What's wrong with you?

There's nothing wrong with me.

I am acting this way cause i cherish you as a friend.

It's real bad when u feel unappreciated even by friends.

Ya maybe i am childish and girly to you by behaving this way.

Maybe i am taking it out on you.

Maybe i am in the wrong,

Maybe...maybe...

maybe i am just tired of everything.....

Nothing!

Just totally leave me out.
I dun need to tag along like a dog.

It's frustrating when concerned shown AS A FRIEND is deemed as nothing.

Asked someone to sms me when he reached home but he did not sms till now....

I understand he wants to be alone.
I know he rather the concern came from another person.
First time hear him like that...
Sigh

Well...having lesson tomorrow...better sleep now...

Just hope that that someone is fine, and will be better tomorrow.

:|

Been feeling down quite recently...

Was it me breaking down on Sunday night after clubbing that made my body weaker?

And when i am down, it's always the same old question i would ask myself.

"If i die someday, would anyone actually shed his/her tears for me?"

Like to smile when i am feeling down, but some friends will scold me for smiling when i am sad.

why? smile is infectious, why cry when you can still force yourself to smile?

Feeling real bad after reaching home from work at 0030hrs,

i decided to get my temperature checked.

"...37.7...i am going to the doctor" i told my sis..

After checking out the 24hr clinic in the west, i took a cab to the Shenton Family 24hr Clinic.

"Wow! 50 bucks? consultation so expensive ar!!

"you decide whether you want or not then call me"

I was like, wtf, this is the way you treat a patient?

After considering for 10 mins, i relented.

"Hmmm you got a Fever, 38.5"

"...."

"any other symptoms?"

"Diarrhea, headache since 2 days ago"

He went to the standard procedure then...

"Ok nothing serious"

"So what am i suffering from?"

"Something like food poisoning, viral infection"

WTF you dun even know the exact thing i am suffering from?

"ok you may go now"

"Are you gonna give me any mc?"

"i will give you one day mc"

"Huh only ONE day?!"

"If you are still unwell tomorrow, you can come again"

Frustated, "So i would need to pay the consultation fee again!?!"

"No"

I walked out of the room, feeling very giddy

can't believe i got only 1 day of mc for having a high fever plus diarrhea.

Stupid short ugly pimply doctor....not cute still so mean!!!

this morning i dragged myself up.....

after ensuring that i am not running a high temperature,
i headed for work....

Ard evening time, the fever came back again, was it because the paracetamol's effect is running off?

anyway feeling very terrible now...cold and hungry yet can't eat...Diarrhea :(

am supposed to start work at 5pm tml...hope i can recover as there is very little manpower at the unit now :(

These are the times when i seriously wish i am not single

After two nights of clubbing...

I am sick, think must be the lack of sleep and dehydration caused by alcohol..

off to sleep nitez...

hope i will be fine when i wake up :(

Been very busy lately.

Work work work and more work coming.
Might go into shift mode.
School starting soon.

Lot of changes in a short time.
Feel like flying again.
But why Taiwan again?

Things had changed too.
There no one there anymore.
Wu is not there waiting for me anymore.

Changes is something we have to deal with in life.
But my love life remains unchanged.

:)

It's been a long time since i cooked something special...

Finally dragged myself to cook dinner to eat...
Dinner itself wasn't special.
But it reminded me of something special.

Took the pan out to cook instant noodles.
It's the same pan that i would use to cook for Dale when he is staying with me.

There was once that i fed him only after letting him go hungry for one day.
As usual i would sit there and watch him eat otherwise he would refuse to eat.

Normally when I reached out my hand to stroke his head, he would just wag his tail.
That day, he actually bared his teeth and growled.
But after Dale turned his head, and saw it was me, his expression changed.
He did not know whether to continue eating or whatsoever.

After which, he shifted his position and sit right beside me waiting for me to say "Go"
Of course i let him finish his meal without scolding him.

He CAN be so sweet and obedient at times :)