In the face of adversity, anyone who chooses to throw in the towel inevitably loses. There's no point fighting at the frontline for so long, only to crash at the very end. I honestly think I've been patient enough to have roughed it out for so long, given you more than enough time to make the necessary amendments, and yet at the end of the day I'm always the one to blame. Fuck this, really. I don't doubt the fact that you've tried but I think you know you're not up for this at all.
Also, I don't know if they even give a shit anymore, but I really do miss the people I hung out with alot last year. We have our differences and fair share of misunderstandings but as much as I've tried, one can't keep banging on the door when it's already glued shut. I don't know if it's intentional but the ignorance and indifference that you throw at us really makes me feel like you all don't give a shit about trying to even maintain friendly relations at all. Truthfully speaking, I miss the lot of you so damn much and even if you don't care anymore, I know I tried. Because even though you knew something was wrong a few months ago, it was so insignificant to the point that you chose to do nothing about it. But what's the use of saying all this anyway, when we've all grown so comfortable to this arrangement that we walk past one another like we never knew the other in the first place.
Fuck life. Though it's made up of ups and downs, the downs really drag you down so hard sometimes (especially at times like these) that you'll drown way before you even meet the surface eventually.
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