this place never mattered

sticks & stones & weed & bones.

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 16:32:36 GMT

i'm not sure how many people still use livejournal,
but it was brought to my attention that i should probably update those who do.

i promise i am going to try my best to make this as least confusing as possible, stick with me.

first things first...
i am at a time in my life right now, that is so beautiful. a time like no other, words can not even begin to describe my passion for life right now. so much change, so many new people, new things, new places. the only way i can think to describe it is beautiful. as i go on in this post, you will find what i'm talking about (or maybe you wont, depends on how you look at the situation).

i hope that what i'm about to say will maybe motivate someone, whether it be now or later on in life. its so easy to get wrapped up in something due to excitement, emotion, security, but mostly love. let me say though, that my eyes being opened could quite possibly be the best thing that has ever happened to me. i made a descision to end my relationship with kile for several reasons, the hardest thing i've ever done. i recall in my last entry talking about us getting married. it was so sudden. in fact, i went into my moms office talking about my wedding ideas and left crying because i had just then realized that i had been ignoring the fact that i KNEW that i was not ready to get married, or to even be considering it. there are many other reasons why i made this choice, if you wish to know, ask. but selfish as it may seem, i have never been happier. i've been able to grow as an idividual, do things i've always wanted to do but couldnt due to being in a committed relationship. its an incredible feeling.

one of the things that i've always wanted to do is travel. SO...
next april i'm leaving. not sure how long, but that is the beauty in it.
it doesnt matter how long im gone.
london amsterdam heidlberg paris florence rome barcelona madrid kyro the french reviera the swiss alps stonehenge bathe back to london to live for who knows how long.

life is incredibly precious. delicate. dont let it go to waste.
here's to the best summer i've ever had, i'm completely prepared for a kick ass fall/winter.

something so pure

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 16:29:31 GMT

i am in love with my best friend.
and there is not a better feeling in the world.

soon, he is going to ask me to marry him.

i am so glad with the decisions that we have made,
and our relationship is so strong because of them.

four years this december, its fascinating to me.
who would have thought while i was only fourteen,
writing each day about this amazing boy.

when we first started dating, we made the choice
to wait until we were married to have sex.
and i am so glad that we have kept to that,
because it will be the most beautiful thing.
so perfect.

i am so in love with this man,
he never ceases to amaze me.

i'm so excited.

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 22:37:19 GMT

OH YEAH.

and if you're wanting to see some of my work, check out my myspace and go to my photography album.

loooovee♥

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 22:30:11 GMT

To anyone who is interested:

I am doing photoshoots now. I am no professional but I have good quality work. I am willing to go wherever you want the pictures done, as long as it is reasonable. I dont have a studio yet, so these would probably work best being outdoor casual photos. If you are interested, let me know and I will contact you with details as far as prices go.

Hope all is well with everyone and I hope to hear from you soon!

Julie

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 03:16:02 GMT

Well my last entry explains my interest in not wasting time.
AND i did just what i said i would.
I went out found myself a good job. two good jobs. I'm getting paid $10 an hour making phone calls, and Saturday nights I am an assistant for a photographer. I go to weddings and shoot with him. He teaches me a lot.
And its a lot of fun. I had an 8 hour wedding today, so I'm pooped, but I'm so in love with it. I feel like I'm accomplishing something and ohh. what a rewarding feeling.

4 months left of school.
anxious? yes.
excited? of course.
nervous? beyond belief.

hopefully moving out over the summer with my lovies. kile and i are absolutely wonderful. the 10th was our 3 year anniversary..i am so blessed. although i'll once again be spending new years eve without him bc he's out of state with family, i know he'll be thinking about me just as much as i am of him.

i miss everyone..i feel like i havent talked to anyone in a very long time. how is everyone? i love my friends, even if i havent talked to them in forever. i love everyone i know..just so you know.

Happy New Years.<3

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 16:04:15 GMT

i'm sick of wasting time.
i'm sick of living a "whatever" life.
i want to live with a purpose.
thats why i'm quitting panera.
thats why i'm applying at photostudios all over town
i'm sick of thinking that if i wait long enough life will come to me.
thats why i'm not wasting time anymore.
thats why i'm taking the first step, thats why i'm not waiting. wasting time.
bye

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 17:35:29 GMT

I have a job now.
Panera, at Redbug and Tuskawilla.
My first day is tomorrow from 4-8.
This job is just until I get the one at Washington Mutual.
I'm really upset. I just took my exam for math and thought I did really good on it but I ended up with a C in the class. I was shooting for a B. A high B. That worked, ha.
Me and Kile are doing great.
I'm getting really excited about the trip to El Salvador.
My birthday is in 21 days. I'll be going parasailing and me and my friend Michelle are throwing a toga party. I dont know yet.
I want to hang out with Mariah. I miss her.
I'm tired. I need a break.

Wed, 31 May 2006 19:05:06 GMT

Would anyone happen to have the tabs for any Stage Fright Remedy?

Anyway, life is good. A bit hectic. But there's nothing like a little chaos to spice life up. Lately I've been spending alot of time thinking about how I could make the world a better place, then do nothing about it. Honestly, is it just me, or is America losing its moral value more every day? We are being so desensitized to where everything is "normal". Remember the good days when the movies were family oriented and there were always life lessons behind the stories? When now, the majority of the conflicts are always based on drugs & violence. And a movie is no good without at least one sex scene. Didn't sex used to be a private, passionate thing? Looking at the small picture, it seems to be no big deal. But do any of you ever think of what it could eventually lead to? Correct me if I'm wrong, but last year, the count of murders in Central Florida alone was approximately 22. It is just the beginning of the 6th month and already there have been 23 murder counts..in Central Florida alone. Girls being raped. Girls giving themselves away to boys who say they love them. Girls giving themselves away to men. Grown, nasty, men. Some just to have the attention they never got. Some come from bad homes. I'm sorry if I offend anyone while speaking my mind but my heart goes out to these people. What about drugs? Has our world become so lazy and weak that some people depend on drugs soley to escape reality? True, there are some who do drugs responsibly, but it would be impractical to say that most drug users are responsible, taking care of themselves, and living a sucsessful life. Anger, lust, jealousy, pride, fear, hurt, depression, suicide, drugs, alcohol, stress, anxiety, its all just "normal". And as we let it happen, America, "the land of the free", will continually sink farther and farther into misery. Girls, look into the future. If you think that you arent safe to be alone today, if you think that they way girls today are treated is wrong,look into the future. Most of you plan on having kids. Do you think that by the way things are going now, they will be better when you're raising your little girl or boy? Absolutely not. Does anyone understand where I'm getting with this?

Sorry, I may be venting. But this is reality. And someone needs to face it.

Wed, 17 May 2006 01:47:23 GMT

it feels nice when people like me for me =)
KillaCam (9:16:58 PM): guess what
browneyyedangel (9:18:47 PM): what
KillaCam (9:22:20 PM): ur the best
KillaCam (9:22:38 PM): i think i mean that too
browneyyedangel (9:22:52 PM): aww why
browneyyedangel (9:23:01 PM): are you like drunk or somehting
KillaCam (9:23:09 PM): nope
KillaCam (9:23:15 PM): couse
KillaCam (9:23:19 PM): u are just mad cool
KillaCam (9:23:34 PM): and u care for others
browneyyedangel (9:23:42 PM): aww thank you
KillaCam(9:23:52 PM): yup

so a lot of things going on.
summers comin up..bring on the beach.
schools almost over and i've got most of my grades up,
also i have to brag that I have an A in math. an A.
I've never in my entire life had higher than a D. So, kudos for me.
I'm learning a lot. Growing a lot. Wanting to grow more. Wanting to learn more.I think I may never stop going to school. I want to have a degree in..everything. Honestly, I just suddenly love to learn.

I've got my license now, thats always fun. I've been staying very busy with school, church, of course Kile. I'm also trying something new. Karate? Haha, my mom is in Vietnam right now and my little brother has been taking Karate and me and Kile have been bringing him to his lessons and Kile some how talked me into doing it with him. So..that's interesting. My brother is in the hospital in Alabama due to a 4wheeling accident. That may leave my stepdad flying up to Alabama. Which leaves me here taking care of not only my 5 year old brother, but my sister, the house, the car, the pets, AND my life..fun, right? Prayers for my brother, though.

I've been staying very busy with church and loving every minute of it. I'm singing now in a church band. And loving every minute of it. I'm learning acoustic over the summer. Maybe one day have an album. Maybe one day do open mic nights, anyone who loves me would be happy to come see me, right? =).

(In hopes) of getting a job at Washington Mutual. Bank teller. $8.25 an hour..not bad. plus the people there are very cool.

I'm very in love with life right now. Things are going pretty good.
I'm still very very in love with the boy. I know you guys are sick of hearing it now after 2 and a half years, oh well. I'll never be over it.

I'm rambling incesantly, so I'll stop.
I love you guys, and I'm here for anyone who needs me.
<333

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 23:41:57 GMT

prom was saturday night.
i think there was too much stress for just 4 hours.
it went by too fast. after prom was even better.
jen danny preston holly michelle brandon
brittany chris lindsay allie skylar tory
kile and i
all rented a limo for the night
after prom we all went back to prestons for french toast
and played pool the girls left at 5am to brittanys
the guys stayed at prestons
no one got to bed till 8am.
good times. check out my myspace or IM me for pictures.

i'm going to el savador this summer. i need money.

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 14:18:29 GMT

SPRING BREAK O6
tuesday brandons boat with kile brandon preston & keelan
wednesday beach call me if you want to come
thursday dont know yet
friday beach again, call if you want to come.
saturday IOA with kile

i got a car last monday. its a 1977 chevy nova supersport. it needs a lot of work done to it but for now i'm just replacing the seats & seatbelts.
other than that it is an awesome car white with black racing stripes. i'll post pictures later.
got my license yesterday yayyyyyy..watch out ha.

ohgosh& i'm TAN. believe it.

i may be going to El Savador this summer...i hope.
ok well thats about all lovies. byye.

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 01:12:19 GMT

For Valentine's Day I'd like to get Kile a Miles Davis cd and also create a mix of some of our favorite tunes. I suprised him today at his appartment with a cupcake and a cute letter.

He is the gravy for my buscuits.

Tomorrow--Winterfest. Let me know if you're going. Hope to see you there.

Extremely annoyed with two things right now.
1. My toes are frozen.
2. I am full of chimichanga and my stomach will blow soon. =X

Anyway, I'm doing better. I'm not getting the Tuscani..too much. Sucks.

Oh yes, annnnd, I'm going to Prom...again. =)

Later gators.

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 01:12:00 GMT

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 06:42:58 GMT

This week has taken everything out of me. I am completely drained. And all I can say is I miss him.

Thats it.

Oh and, I need strength. Lots of it.

Go here: http://www.autotrader.com/fyc/vdp.jsp?car_id=182408179&dealer_id=55779904&car_year=2003&search_type=both&make=HYUND&distance=25&model=TIBURO&sponsorModel=&address=32707&certified=&advanced=&max_price=12000&bkms=1139034747752&min_price=7000&end_year=2006&start_year=2000&isp=y&lang=en&cardist=20

This is my baby. I test drove her. She was beautiful. Ohhh yes. Mom's thinking about it.

Ok well its 1:30 I'm going to try and fall asleep now. G'nite.

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 02:38:43 GMT

i hate capital letters and proper puncuation. but by golly if you odnt use the correct for of your (your(posessive) or you're(you are)) i will secretly hate you.

cameras never seem to catch the same

i took this one in alabama, love it.

as my eyes.

I really dont get anyone anymore.

i've really started feeling like a better person though in the past few months.

like i want to wake up on time and go to coach jone's world history class;

like i want to do my homework, even if its a monday;

like i want to run my heart out to get my mind off things that shouldnt be stressing me.

like i want to be the best girlfriend in the world

like that.

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 23:23:59 GMT

I fell in love with a thousand different things today.
I also started hating one.
Everything is defeating me in my head. Only in my head.

I saw a mullet today. heartwarming.
I'm enjoying my book so far. Citizen Girl by Emma McLaughlin.

Lord, give me strength.
Give him strength.

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 22:06:08 GMT

I got 6 new books today!
-the five people you meet in heaven
-citizen girl
-a long way down
-a crack in forever
-friends to die for
-the magician's tale

I can't wait to read them I'm excited!!
Calm down. Going to see the big mosterrtrucks with daddy tonight.

imstarving, lata.

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 03:48:07 GMT

Way to let PMS choke a good day

i'm on firrre=)

very long time.

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 01:51:33 GMT

wow, its been about 3 months since I've updated. Amazing.
How's everybody been? Leave me some comments or something.

I think this will be my schedule next year.
English4 Honors
Int. Algebra (i'm dumb.)
Economics/American Gov.
Business Systems
Weight Training/Modern Humanities
Photography 3

I'm really looking foward to it. I can't believe I'll be a senior.
Anyway, Kile and I are still going strong. His birthday is next week.
I'll probably get him some stuff for his guitar.

Idk.

Ok well hopefully I'll update more often..
Lata.

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 00:20:16 GMT

so i totally forgot i had a livejournal.

i love kile riggs.

december 10 will be 2 years.
yeah. 2.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 20:43:41 GMT

long time no update.
not much really going on.-lie.
tomorrow is court date. i find out if im moving or not.
if yes, then i'll probably be gone this weekend.
i love and miss all of you.

annnnd livejournal is gay.

NOT LIKE ANYONE COMMENTS ANYWAYS.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 01:50:54 GMT

01! Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
02! I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
03! I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
04! I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
05! I'll tell you my first memory of you.
06! I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
07! I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
08! If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 23:15:22 GMT

3 weeks
if i spent every last second with him
its just not enough..

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 18:08:37 GMT

after laying out by the pool with Jen on tuesday,
and spending the day at the beach yesterday. i'm a little bit darker.
i saw Taylor and Bryan tuesday.
that was pretty cool.
hung out with Whitney tuesday night.
had an awesome day at the beach yesterday.
staying home today i'm exhausted.
tomorrow i'll probably hang out with kile.
maybe go to city walk with him preston and lauren.
saturday i'll be with my dad.
sunday beach againnn..woot.
cells not working again.
i think my mom needs to pay the bill.
i start my job soon. i'm going to talk to ben(my boss) tonight.
hillary got a car. i'm jealous.
annnnd..right now i really need some doulbe A batteries.
thats all thats in julie's life right now.
same old boring shit.
<3

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 03:17:00 GMT

happy one year and a half sweetheart.
you're mine foreverrrr. <33.