||[Apr. 14th, 2005|08:05 pm]
|[||She'll expose you
|[||When she snows you
Damn. What a shitty fucking day.
According to my dad , it's impossible for me to pay for college on my own. And it's also impossible for me to go to any college that's not close to home. Cause dorms cost too much, so I have to stay home. I only live once. I don't want to stay here. I want to leave home. Isn't that part of what college is about? He also, said that all college is , is for the degree so you can just get paid more. But that's not true if you go into any kind of art. Because if one school has better professers and courses then you learn more which you need in art. I'd love to go to Scad, but it's a private school so it's go very few scholarships and dorm costs would be too much.
I wish people would just say what's going on instead of waiting days to talk. I'm stupid.I really wish that my fucking voicemail worked.
My sister is being a freakin bitch today.I don't know what crawled up her ass and died but I can't stand her right now.
I want to be in New York, be in love and have incredibley brilliant and worldly friends. I have some of that last one already. I also want to be beautiful but some things just aren't meant to be.
I wish I knew what I want to do after college. I wish I had a passion for something, anything at all. I mean even basketweaving at this point, would send me in some direction. It makes me so jealous when these people that love what they do, get excited about it and they turn out such good stuff. I have nothing in my life like that at all. I'm so , just, lukewarm about everything.
I just don't know.
Oh, yes. I decided that running prom and all junior class activities is not my idea of a good time, so I switched to running for VP of Fundraising. Cause I don't want Prom tickets to be like 65 dollars again.