Throats raw from screaming and I haven't said a word

Thu, 29 Apr 2010 04:38:02 GMT

I've never felt so alone in my fucking entire life than i do at this moment right now.

Interview.

Tue, 27 Apr 2010 15:47:17 GMT

Haven't written in here in forever,
have an interview @ british yale art museum today.
can't wait.

Sat, 30 Jan 2010 18:18:55 GMT

I am through with trying to be people's friends and caring way too much about people who clearly don't give a shit about me. Fuck yourselves.

Fri, 22 Jan 2010 07:19:02 GMT

Let me know when i'll stop hating everyone please, fucking please.

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 05:08:29 GMT

I need a job/money. ASAP.

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 03:56:36 GMT

It fucking disgusts me how fake and childish people are.
It really is gross.
How people talk bad about you to others, to try to impress them.
How people can change over nothing.

I only have 4 people I actually can tolerate in my life right now, and have always been able to tolerate.
Everyone else, fuck off.

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 20:44:53 GMT

I never update this anymore, I feel like no one uses Livejournal anymore anyways. Hah.

I start school in a couple weeks, I'm getting a Macbook soon.
My summer has been going good. I wish it was longer, but it's chill.

Blink 182 is in a couple weeks. With Weezer & Taking Back Sunday, should be amazing.

I went to the Bronx Zoo yesterday. My first time ever going, or going to New York in general.
Yes, yes I know, weird. Never been to New York.
I loved it, and I just want to go on more day trips out of CT. I need to go on vacation asap.
PLEASE.

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 16:36:09 GMT

So in about an hour I am going to shoot a wedding with my boss.
I am very nervous, cause my boss is AMAZING at photography and weddings & I just don't want to fuck it upppp.

I think i'm overthinking about it, and it'll be fine.
I think today is just more me learning than anything.
I'm so excited for it, but so nervous!

HERE I GO :D
Barns @ Wesleyann Inns.

dotdotdot.

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 17:46:06 GMT

say what you need to say..

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 21:26:37 GMT

Huge picture post. :) WOO.

met cait at ihop!

me, norko, cait & erin went to the clinton crossing outlets :)

then we picked up clara, dropped off erin and went to chilis :]

met up with justin and bijan there.

obv got molten lava cake.

i slept at steph's house that night with kristen, oh her petting her kitty how presh.

we made a salsa dip, this picture is very gross lmao

me, kris & telesco went to west farms mall..and tried dresses on at jessica mcclintok or whatever it is.

went back to kristen's house afterwards

& then to steph's where we could not figure out what to do for the night so we just had a dumb photoshoot instead...

her glasses, LOOOOOLLLL.

the next day i went out with amber and vin to the diner and out to vin's house

vin's toast wallet lmao

spamber :)

vin's awesome painting.

grey kittyyyy

hi driver

fighting as usual

then a few days later melissa and i went to trumbull mall & west farms mall.

melissa @ the disney store

found reese cause she's manager of steve madden and hung out with her for a while

melissa's swollen ear.

i would buy this shirt.

then melissa and i went on a dinner date to cracker barrel :)

what a fun game

what a cute little place

our dinners yum

and desert

the end :)

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 03:01:12 GMT

Christmas ruled.

I got...

(except not that much hahaha. :P

& last but not least...

WHAT'D EVERYONE ELSE GET? POST PICS.

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 20:05:55 GMT

CHRISTMAS EVE<3
love it.

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 01:15:56 GMT

final week is always the most stressful week of all fucking time for me.
i hate matting all my stuff.

i needed jimi to come over tonight to help me and he didn't cause he's sick.
i'm so stressed out & i haven't seen jimi in like 7 days :(

when i get this stressed out all i want to do is cry.
but that won't get anything accomplished now will it.

i went out with jocelyn today
it was nice to hang out with her cause i'm sick of everyone else and their stupid bullshit.
i need jimi, wes, steph, joc, and kristen.

just ugh. that's what i have to say.
and i wish my ear would unpop & i wouldn't have a cold anymore.

Sun, 07 Dec 2008 23:27:07 GMT

I have double pink eye. wtf.

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 00:28:38 GMT

go to www.myspace.com/thetiredandtrue

the main pic on top, the individual pictures of them, and under pictures the album "press pictures" i took all of them.

they came out sweet, i just wish they'd credit me now O_O and give me the rest of the money. but whatever they look sweet.
check the pictures out and tell me what you think

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 04:32:49 GMT

I just got another job offer.

Doing the same thing I do now, except in Branford.

I would never quit Steve's, so i'm going to do both I guess. :) :)

I got an email saying:

<B><I>Hi Ashley- Steve Depino gave me your email and said you might be interested or know someone who is interested in helping me out with some editing. I have a few school contracts and need some help editing the sports action shots I have taken for the school.

There are about 200 files in each folder (close to 20 folders) and they need to be edited down, corrected, cropped, and burned to DVD.

I am working with lightroom…Steve said you are very good with lightroom, but if it isn’t you…they would have to have a good working knowledge of lightroom.

This could start as soon as five minutes ago (just kidding…I am completely buried and really could use some help). If you are interested, let me know if you have some other names…that would be great too.

Thanks and I look forward to hearing from you.</B></I>

I'm excited. :}

Frustrated.

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 01:49:40 GMT

Ugh. I tried to shoot pictures tonight for my.. "TWILIGHT ZONE ROMANCE (WEIRD ROMANCE)" picture and it just FAILED miserably.

I honestly am not creative when it comes to weird shit like this.. I don't even have ideas. Nothing. Nada. I've been thinking about it for weeks. I fucking hate these assignments I've been getting in this class. I don't like shooting this shit. When in my life will I ever have to be shooting WEIRD ROMANCE..never.

Last week, my pictures came out so good for scary lighting & my teacher "loved them" two weeks prior. I put them up for critique and he was like, "umm, you didn't understand the assignment it was supposed to evoke scary emotion and these are boring..you didn't try very hard or put any effort into this huh?"

Like fuck you, honestly. I wish he fucking told me that two weeks before when I was done with it, cause I would of reshot it.
It makes me not even want to put up shit for this assignment's critique either cause I'm not into it at all, therefore it's going to suck. If I even think of ANYTHING that is...

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 03:29:46 GMT

lEtZ AlL pUt Up PiXx oN fAcEbOoKk EveRydAy oF Uz DrINkIn, SmOKiN, bEinN NaKedD, & HaNgIn wiTh SoOo mAny BoyZ

i'm so fucking sick of seeing pictures on my friend's facebooks of them drunk..smoking when they never did before..all over boys..taking shots..beer pong. like grow the fuck up. do you really need that much attention? O_o

i'm so sick of the way college changes people.

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 13:22:03 GMT

It's my 19th birthday today!!!!!!!! :D

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 10:23:56 GMT

I'm so scareddd.
I borrowed my dad's gps for florida.
& I had it at Jimi's the day we got back, it fell out of my bag onto jimi's floor and i was like "oh i'll just get it later"

& now we can't find it anywhere.
at least it's not lost in florida.
but ughhh, i'm so nervous

WHAT DO I DOOO

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 00:00:19 GMT

last day of stop and shop = april 22nd.

i did it.

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 22:25:07 GMT

I have mono, sweeet. O_o.

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 00:42:38 GMT

Lately, today especially. I felt very weird.
My lightheadedness has gone away, and all that stuff that was occurring before.

I was making myself worse by getting nervous.
But lately, I feel weird.

It feels like when you are REALLY tired, and you are zoned out. Like you are watching yourself do everything around you but you aren't really doing it.

It's so hard to explain. But it was so uncomfortable and it scared me.
I was wondering if maybe it was from lack of sleep. But I did sleep last night.
Maybe i'm doing the same thing, getting nervous about it and making it worse.

Any thoughts/

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 02:33:57 GMT

I wish it wasn't so fucking damn hard to maintain a decent friendship with people.

Someone show me what a really friend is like, cause I don't have many.

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 05:46:03 GMT

why does everything have to end up involving me?

i didn't even fucking do anything wrong, no chance to even explain myself.
i'm so tired of being involved in drama.

dkfjdskfdfdsf
gayyyyy.

picture post comin soon.