| anniversary. |
[Oct. 28th, 2010|10:28 am]
|
so, it was the anniversary of his death yesterday. six years. i cried twice, a big improvement of last years four days of babbling. i'm still a little "emo" today, i feel my eyes heavy and moist. but i'm doing pretty well in the strength department, and i think i'll be able to ride this episode out without another burst of tears. it's funny how we can hurt for someone that broke our spirits and damaged us. and when they're gone most of the thoughts turn to good, and all you wish is that you could see them once more. he was my grandfather. he was my father. he was a bi-polar/domineering/drunk and unfaithful husband. but i still loved him; and i miss the pleasant instances we shared.
and i definitely miss his cheesy jokes. |
|
|
besame_