http://bacolicio.us/

THIS

JUST GO

USE IT ON LIKE EVERYTHING

BECAUSE HOLY SHITBALLS THAT IS DAMN FULL OF AWESOME AND WIN

also, the lovely mystress has asked me to contribute again to in rotation on morbid outlook! i havent done that in uh, god. 5 years? i'll be up in january.

[hint hint, bands. feel free to send me material for consideration]

also. i started something this month that might possibly lead me to one of the personal transformations that i've wanted to achieve. i'm not going to really say what it is now, because it will take months to accomplish, and i cannot be definite about the end result. i know a few of you know. er, if you read my profile on that other site i update regularly. heh. i dont even know why i am mentioning it because i am being so cryptic. seeing as i really cant do anything financially right now [yay, economy], ive decided to tackle this and see how far i can go. i hope it works.

so let's make the list of how batty has Fucked Her Shit Up this summer, shall we?

1. poison ivy scars
2. the lovely smattering of hot oil burns from making lentils
3. falling down, and up, pretty much everything at convergence

and now...

4. my left hand bird finger. [shut up, thats the scientific name] tonight i was digging at a spike and YET AGAIN the damn ball jams itself right into my finger. it is now about 25% wider than the rest of them.

holy hell. its like my subconscious is trying to destroy me. if i'm not using some type of motorized scooter by fall, i'm going to be lucky.

we had the worst. series. ever. tonight. really, it was embarrassing. we all just kinda walked off the sand and left for home without saying a word to each other.

i think the post-c* crash is upon me. probably because i'm sitting here with the windows open, no tv on, nothing but the sound of the crickets outside. i'm really cranky now. i havent biked in over a week and the forecast calls for minuscule chances of thunderstorms, so you know if i so much as put a foot on a pedal i'm doing 12 miles in the rain.

so i finally met wildelf after, what, how many decades? hahaha. dude. it was a pleasure, you are awesome.

then my unsuspecting ass had to spin up a set at the chamber tonight. thank god i come prepared.

i beatmixed numa numa, fyi.

i should probably be in bed.

one of the awesomest feelings in my life right now is waking up in the middle of the night to find a boog with arms full of his blankie and pillow, plopping them in my bed so he can sleep with me.

jeremy had taken boog to see the stars play on saturday and got him a shirt. boog refuses to take it off.




this is the only picture i can show from the weekend. i am doing some drunken swing dancing with cat.

did you know that i am spinning the prom of doom?



neither did i!

kathy, who runs the chick league on thursdays, is fighting for me to go back to the thursday chick league. now, i have a lot of fun on tuesdays and my current team roster dictates that we stay on the mixed league. there's no way in hell i could afford to bowl 2x a week, either financially nor liver-wise. but it surely is tempting. just to give you an idea of what thursdays are like if you are not familiar, last week i stopped by to say hello to the girls. i saw more bare boobs within the course of an hour than i have over the past month.

srsly.

anyway.

uh, thank you guys for your support/insight on my last post. i'm not really upset about it all as i am baffled. you'll have to excuse me as i'm rather new to certain experiences with my life changes. its expected, we all do it, yanno?

also, this just in: my fair town has BANNED SMOKING OUTDOORS. THIS IS SO STUPID THAT I CANNOT TYPE MY FEELINGS ABOUT IT.

i don't know what amuses me more here: that a michael myers wants to be my friend, or the fact that he used debbie rochon as a reference.

so i was at the doghouse last night enjoying a tasty beverage when a jager chick walks up to me and hands me a flier.

"you look like a person that would like this event!" she says.

the flier was for organ grinder's.

el oh el.

sup i kinda gothed out a little bit.

check out the sexy toilet.

:tbp: presents:

11.10.01 [saturday]

OUTPUT.NOIZE

with performances by:

b00le [http://www.boole.org]

"boole is a rare breed these days, an electro band with a sense of humor. And i'm not talking the straight-faced laibach kind of humor, either; this is more just plain wackiness..." - dan hinds

and

DeLIEN [http://www.delien.com]

Started in 1997 by Peter Greko, Delien is a sense of order underneath chaos. To achieve this unique sound, the band uses electronic devices, Pythagorean mathematic principles, and a combination of three totally different individuals.


featuring DJ android

@ the symposium
11794 detroit ave., lakewood
$8/18+ $5/21+, doors 9 PM

anything you've ever had before? i'm better. i know.

i'm a fate worse than bliss.

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and to make my ego even larger than it is, this nugget of joy was posted as an intro for me on a list i recently joined:

When you think Cleveland, think Batty.
She's a DJ and promoter who brings in the big names... but she's very
helpful and books us little guys too.

..and she's more of a rockstar than any of us will ever be.

Welcome! ;)

(shaddup you-who-knows-you-wrote-this)

pray that i dont go into financial ruin tonight.

ya think after all these years doing shows this wouldnt bother me anymore.

but tonight i have nothing backing my ass up.

geez. weird. not a lot out, ok maybe a good amount...i know everyone is saving up for razed in black tomorrow ;)

slow start - people packed ni near the end. i'm glad the legion of doom is regarded as fun.

DAD came over - saw my beer, screamed "NO DRINKING ON THE JOB!!"..i FREAKED, worried that i was getting someone in trouble. but oh no. this 82 year old owner of the phantasy was pulling my leg. he might be a tightwad and can be an asshoe at times, but he's really cool. tonight he told me about how he and mom got together.

they're 12 years apart in age.

razed in black showed up tonight. that was cool. i havent seen them play since they were touring with swithblade (weird night. thomas thorn made out with me and then i vominted on the tour bus. ha ha.) - and then? then i thought they sucked ass. i told cable this. i dont think he was too happy about it. heh heh.

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ok, serious part, cuz i've been talking to them for a couple of days about this. moco and melody run the cruxshadows fan club. they're rabid fans, follwing CXS all over the place, giving them gifts, etc. they are the SWEETEST people in the world. anyway, they're having SEVERE problems with their landlord. there's a lot of legal shit, but it all comes down to the fact that their landlord is fucking with their poor animals. apparently, now a few cats are missing.

i'm a big animal lover if you dont know this by now. ANYONE that fucks with the fuzzy ones gets castrated in my book.

moco and melody are due to move into a new place in a few weeks. however, they fear severely for their fuzzies. i dont blame them. this morning, they're coming by with 3 cages of rats - i will be taking care of them. i dont mind. anything to keep these critters safe.

so please, locals - if you have some empty space and can house some foster children for a week or two, please help these guys out, i give them my full endorsement. i dont want to see any more of these guys missing.

you can email them at bookofcruxshadows@yahoo.com.

*sigh* i feel for them i really do.

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ok, tonight's playlist:

* denotes request

future sound of london: quagmire
clan of xymox: innocent
submarine: sunbeam
cruxshadows: deception *
razed in black: oh my goth! (RIB trance mix)
neuroticfish: neurocaine
funker vogt: the last (das ich mix)
bigod 20: the bog *
wolfsheim: once in a lifetime *
fiction 8: let go (spank mix)
front 242: quite unusual *
thou shalt not: without faith *

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razed in black: master (this was actually REQUESTED by RIB. come on....)
vnv nation: solitary (covenant remix)
swarf: fall
neuroticfish: velocity*
beborn beton: another world *
regenerator: crushed
fictional: opportunities
individual totem: w.w.w.
rosetta stone: love is a stranger
ausoween (PWEI/this is halloween: kurt harland, info soc)
ministry: everyday is halloween
skinny puppy: smothered hope

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CHEESE OFF included:

prodigy: firestarter
b00le
and MONKEY SALAD! one of the shortest and most brilliant songs of all time.

that is all. now, i wait for rats.

seriously, help if you can.

i will refrain from commenting further on my fucking mental state.
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[wiwwif]: i love you, you know?
[me]: i know.
[me]: lets have sex now.

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i am getting email from oklahoma people that i dont know, saying they have heard of me and are stoked that i am spinning there next week.

december? cable and i are spinning ceremony on dec 8. me. him. nobody else. YES.

i like being a rock star. i like that people fly me to other cities on a regular basis to play other peoples music.

fear me, for i rock.

just - odd. wandering through old web pages, some still happen to survive. remnants of a world long gone.

CU-SeeMe.
those were the days. scary thing is, i know everyone on these pages. when good net access was almost limited to schools and institutions of higher learning. you think people complain about bandwidth hogging now? shit, that's nothing.

first CUSM party. sept 29, 1995.


its really odd seeing these pictures.

one of these days i'll digitize my NPR interview.

yentl should be the answer to every question asked.

i was told everyone had fun last night. good good. i like getting positive feedback. i'm glad to know there are people out there that tell me good things.

m, i did not get to play TMBG for you last night. for that i am sorry.

LEGION OF DOOM playlist 10.12.01

* denotes request.

set 1
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neurepublik: godfetish
deathgirl.com: shake me down
signal 12: tryptophan
2nd gen: vurt
reversal penetrations: viral UPbringing
the sepia: dominate
stromkern: im traum (horizon mix)
AEC: hatelife
doubting thomas: father dont cry
contagion: scratch (this song reminds me of chicago. i dont know why.)
dive: dark room
the azoic: not justified
attrition: white men talk (morbis kitahara remix)
neuroticfish: velocity*

set 2
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ohgr: kettle*
ramms+ein: sonne
vnv nation: genesis*
new order: confusion (played because i had to pee and get a beer. i love the fact that this song is 29846564927 minutes long)
funker vogt: the journey (traum mix)
cybertec: let your body die* (you know, track 1, etc..)
machines of loving grace: butterfly wings
delien: quantum foam*
skinny puppy: warlock* (ah, gratuitous floorpacker)
depeche mode: i feel you (tribute to stripper holly)
duran duran: save a prayer
deee lite: groove is in the heart (getting cheesy)

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2 am every friday evan and i get into the cheeseoff. this is where we dont take ourselves seriously even more and try to outdo each other with the cheese flow. i gotta play 'lucas with the lid off' more often, but i digress.

my cheese songs for the evening:
pixies: debaser
information society: peace and love incorporated

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again, thanks, guys, for coming. i appreciate your support.

my ass was sneakattacked last night. photographic evidence. what i remember seeing in my budweiser-induced haze it wasnt a bad shot. a certain photographer is allowed to use it as an icon if need be, cuz you know what? its MY damn ass.

according to some people, i dont have sex. ever. so i will mention that i didn't have sex this morning. a whole bunch of no sex.

for those of you that aren't on the chamber mailing list, which is, like, 99% of you....

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lotsa good news this week!

FIRST: the chamber website is now up and running! theres not a lot of content on there, but that will change as time goes on...

the url is:

http://www.phantasyconcertclub.com/chamber/

link link link!

ALSO:

WEDNESDAY OCT 17:

CD LISTENING PARTY
for
NEW ORDER
playing the new cd along with the best of
incuding joy division!

10-11:30 pm!


UNHOLY COMMUNION - sundays! cover is now FREE for 21+! come out, support bLIGHT and caleb - they spin amazing stuff! look for recent playlists on the site soon.
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[random AIM message person]: When my friends and I went to the chamber the weekend of convergence you kicked ass for dj....
[random AIM message person]: Made me miss home cause it was so reminiscent
tHEbELFRYinc: awwwh!
[random AIM message person]: I first listened to you spin at convergence in Seattle cause thats where I moved from


*sniffle* yay, i'm appreciated.

i had something amazingly witty and introspective to say as my opening line, but my memory isnt as it used to be. i'm getting old.

another night at das chamber. was late, thanks to a certain swoony THG, but that's ok, i wasnt particularly caring.

psychocharger. my boys. played at the phantasy tonight, they made a special trip down to the chamber to say hi to me. i am a rock star yes yes. or something.

note: they need to go back to the saran wrap. its much more alluring. plain skivvies dont do it. but then, i'm a boxer fan anyway. jimmy shoots me a wink from the stage and i'm all "them's my boys." such talent they are. yay for the underground. fuck flickerstick.

bastards didn't stop by afterwards. was gonna get them shots. i will now be minutely angry. was kinda hoping to jaunt to dianna's and to the laBomblette.

suck in gut, try to look good while dispensing beer.

cautious steps i make now. my feet are sore from being stepped on, as well as that thing that, uh, circulates blood through my body. every nerve, every sense is extended beyond its reach. groundsniffing searching for temors. i cannothave my mighty fortress collapse. therefore, at the slightest sign of an earthquake, i will pack up my wagons and move to safer pastures.

listen - do you smell something?

for those of you that are bemused by the infamous clown nose picture, the full size image can be found here. en-fucking-joy.

i have a flag tattoo on my arm.

Saturday Night DJ (SND) actually complimented me on my promotional abilities tonight. of course, it was to smackdown something else, but hey- i was flattered nonetheless. its cool to see that perhaps i might have clout around here, finally.

long day ahead. tired. need kitties. beer enhancing my paranoia so i will not say more.

why am i so suspicious? why do i expect the worst?

cuz when it happens i'm not disappointed.

i've been snooping. i have discovered that almost everyone i associate with here in clevo has a LJ. this amuses me. its like a secret underground life that's been here all along.

".....you're one, too?"

bitter truths come out. thngs that i have seen, seen through another person's eyes. objectively. voyeurism.

doubt that will last long.

i remember, about 1995 or 1996 or so, when i found LJ, and i thought., "why the hell would anyone want to use that service? i can make one for myself" - and i did, actually, for about a year or so.

and now, i am here. go figure.

but yeah, i sit here and continue to write. if people discover me, hey, that's cool, if not, fine too. but i'm not about to stick giant neon blinky arrows above this journal. nosir.

who says goths can't be patriotic? particularly proud of this makeup job on friday. friday. evan's bday, he got smashed, i ended up closing out the night. what fun.

oh wait, i got a closeup, too:

wow, i look silly. gotta love fisheye lens.

saturday was insane. forgot that tool was playing. unfortunate, because of my milkbaby show. lost maybe, eh, $80 on that one. TSN = rule. milkbaby = beautiful as ever.

took one particular tall and handsome gentleman back to his car. smoochy smoochy.

monday. MONDAY. M O N D A Y absolutely SUCKED the hairs off a dead goat's anus. driving down 480, about 7:30 am - blammo, that tire that i've been meaning to change finally dies on me. i'm quite impressed - it lasted 2 trips to rochester and 1 trip to dc.
have the damn thing towed to a dealership. that was my first mistake. i was blown away by the shitty service i received - now, last time i was there the manager was REALLY cool, in fact, he took $100 off the price of the last repair. the guy i had yesterday was a dolt. told me i should change all 4 tires (he showed me, i believed him) - fine. 5 @*@*^$ HOURS LATER, i'm in a giant green fog of pissedoffness - do these people give a shit that i might be missing work? oh yeah, of course not. the guy was a pure prick - didnt give me a written estimate, every time i asked when my car would be done, he said he'd go check, and then neve come and tel me. last time he said he'd do it after the phone call he was on - which consisted of talking to a buddy about watching a browns game.

revenge will be had. i will invoke the wrath of batty uponthe evil overlord ganley imports.

last night was better, though - i took milkbaby bowling, cuz they wanted to. tall and handsome gentleman (hereby known as THG) came as well. i was happy about that. i suck at bowling because i havent done it in like 16 years. the bar, however, was amazing. was something left over from the set of 3's company, i swear. i loved it. i want to become a regular there, except on wed and thurs cuz they have karaoke. and i want my own locker.

my body is pining for some solid sleep, but the mind is telling me to keep going, that i dont want to miss anything. that if i DO sleep, everything will just pass me by. time to live - sleep later.

thank god for coffee.

i will miss milkbaby. they leave today. wish i hung out with them more when i lived in chicago.

..so i was just emailed my contract for becoming the midwest rep for dark moon entertainment, go me.

completed my interview for starvox, well, this iteration of it. i'm probably going to make myself looking like a fool, especially talking about gothic music. BUT hey, i have my opinions, and they are just that. opinions.

yay me #3: my artwork might be published. there was a 600x800 competition a few months ago. i apparently was selected for this piece of junk i whipped out, i was still waiting to hear back from them on whether or not they had room int he book.

i probably just jinxed myself by telling about it.