March 11th, 2010
i hate that picture. bad lighting, i look like i'm smelling farts, and i was incredibly bloated from aunt flo. after i sent it out sunday night, i kept looking at that picture and it brought me to tears. half of that was hormonal, i know, but the other part of me is all 'that's not what i look like in person!" and it got a little frustrating.
i'm getting too close to basing my progress on the scale and that isn't the point of my goals. i mean, it kinda is, because i'd like to reach that elusive 150 lbs that i can never attain, but on the other hand, if i can attain good muscle definition and not lose another pound, i'd be satisfied with that, too.
i also fell for the 'east as little as possible to lose weight' trap that i preach about SO MUCH. sometimes i ignore my own advice. 1700 calories is way too low for me - just doing my regular workday without working out, i burn like 2100. and contrary to popular belief, the stuff that i do for working out burns me only around 300-400 a go. when i start doing sizeable distance on the bike, this will change a bit, but that's how it is right now. my tabata workouts are awesome and they kill me and make me sweat like whoa.
i got in 10 miles on the bike on monday, and it didn't kill my knee. 10-12 miles is pretty much the max i can do at lunch because of traffic and time. no, not on the new bike - he's still in the shop. i gotta go get him.
i can SEE the changes happening despite the scale. i've got oblique definition that i haven't had before. a crazy thing happened when i put on the bike shorts monday - my inner thighs didn't touch. barely, but there ya go. i thought my waist was getting wider, but it's actually my hips getting smaller. i didn't think that would happen because i've got a wide pelvis.
i've inadvertently gone paleo in my eating habits this week. my decision to do this was influenced by casually reading the nutrition label on the "new" design of the detour lower sugar protein bar that i eat once a day. i guess a "new" design also included doubling the sugar alcohol content of the old ones. F that, i'm making my own. and i made them completely with nuts, seeds, and peanut butter....which isn't paleo, but i don't want to give it up. however, i am feeling better, not as tired as i used to be, and considerably less bloated. now the only processed food i eat is the scoop of protein powder i put in my PWO shake. i love that i've been able to do that.
that's all i got.
