i am selfish.

growing up, i was known as THE ARTIST. i dont really know why, because i recall a few kids who were infinitely better than i was.

in 3rd grade i started drawing this cartoon-y dog and for some reason it became wildly popular with my classmates. i would have to spend homeroom and break time drawing this dang thing over and over again for friends. but it made me feel good because 1. i was getting attention, and 2. i thought i was gaining popularity because people liked me.

our teachers would hang pictures, etc given to them around their desks. one day, i looked over at one teacher's desk and i see one of my dog drawings.

on it was written: "to: $teacher by: $kid_i_drew_the_picture_for"

i flipped the crap out and refused to make any more drawings for anyone, and pissed off a lot of kids.

i do more than i let people know about. i routinely hold back my ideas in brainstorming sessions until i get them down on paper and prove that the ideas were mine. and, finally, i keep a lot of things i take seriously to myself, because i know if i share, it will be disrespected. i also do this with things that i find, or activities that i do. there was someone in my past who was notorious for this. if i did something, they'd have to do it, too. if i got something, they would acquire it shortly thereafter. it drove me nuts.

basically, i really hate it when people jump on my bandwagon instead of me letting me be me. i confess that while each thing individually is not particularly original, its the collective of these things that makes me separate from others.

this is one of my quirks.

edited because the comments were going away from the point i was trying to make.