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Tue, 17 Jun 2008 04:48:45 GMT

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You do all this big talking, So now lets see you walk it, Yeah lets see you walk it.

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 05:03:05 GMT

I GOT MY LICENSE

super stoked
hell yeahhhhhhh

uhm my job cut my hours because its the "dead season" till september again :/
sucks d00d
might have to get a new job with more hours. yikes.
schools good.
love my classes.
fashion analysis is awesome and i'm starting to enjoy ceramics with Heatha and Natalie.

SUPER STOKED FOR AP Psychology next year :D

take a gander....

SNOW!!! we totally got dumped on with abou 6 inches at some point over X-Mas Break:

Then The next day i had to clear all the books out of my room so we could put em on the book case, I didn't really realize how many i had till then. hha.

Ha, Me doin what i do. Read and Study. N3RD F0 LIF3!!!

call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead.

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 20:45:55 GMT

hmmm so life has been super duper chill right now.
Hanging with Gina alot.
Going to Oddysey
chill. chillin. yep.

My jobs alright. lame in some parts, but Ben and Amanda kick ass.

I just watched Green Street Hooligan for the first time in like 2 years. and Half Nelson.
Go see them. NOW

Things coming Up
* babysitting wed.
* Work Saturday
*Angel's and Airwaves the 29th of Feb.
*Bayside the 22nd of March
*Kati's Birthday the 26 of March
*Three Day's Grace the 28th of March

ps. its always complicated when you get over something, only to realize you fell for a guy who has a girlfriend. hmmmphfff. bummer hahahahha damnit.

Just fix me fast, Wrap me up so I can last

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 03:55:20 GMT

The BAD
Definatly not friends with Sam anymore.
That was seriously a waste of time, I knew she had a new best friend every weeek but like seriously, I still fell for that shit. She ruined my fucking life right before my eyes and i didnt realize it until it was too late.
Ha, Wow, i'm seriously so fucking stupid. I really have never met such a selfish person in my life. I was finally getting over him, and I was doing ok, but she couldn't fucking wait. She KNEW my feelings but they didn't even matter to her. My friends dad was right when he said she only does things for herself. ugh. Whatever. Stupid bitch. She can Kiss my Ass and watch the fuck out for me.

The Family
Dad: Danielle, i'm sick of this shit, your mom needs to stop asking, and the only way she'll do that is if you end this, and the only way to end this is to fucking kick her ass goddamnit! id do it but she isn't my kid! she needs a good kick in the ass. Just deck her in the face, and walk away, you have no clue how great it will feel!
Me: HAHAHHAHAH
Mom: DANIELLE ANNE! If you ever even THINK of hitting her, i'll kill you and ground you and I WON'T bail you out of school for that
Me: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
Dad: Psh, whatever, i'm ruler of the house and I say, you wont get in trouble, or grounded and I will bail you out, even if i'm at an auction, i'll drive all the way back here and get you out of it.
Me: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAAHHA
^^^ Great Dinner Conversation Aye?

The Mentor/Hero
So this morning I went for my choice book Check for Sociology. After talking about the book LeBre asked me what i thought of the course, and I told him this is the only thing i look forward to everyday, when i roll out of bed and 6 am. It's something iw ant to do with the rest of my life and I'm glad to have him as a teacher. He countered with telling me he loves to have me in class and he thinks i'm a great person and i'm going to do alot of great things with my life and the world. He even said something like We all turn out great, even if it isnt' what our parents had in mind. It hit home beacuse i've never been able to please my parents with anything I do, and he made me realize that they may not like my choices for my future right now, but in time they'll accpet the choices i've made and stand by me. I'm excited for that day to come.

The Friends
After everything with sam and Mr. Confusing, i really realized who the people in my life that really matter are:
Kati Andrist- the new kid on the block. She's my newest friend but the one i'm closest with. She knows just about everything about me and if she doesnt know? she can ask and i'd tell her. I can trust her with anything. We goof around and have alot of fun, but this past saturday we had a short serious conversation in a way about things and its nice to have somebody that close to you that you can be happy with, sad with, goofy with, serious with and vent to whenever possible. I'm glad to have her here and she's the only thing i can thank Sam for.

Maddie- The permanent BFF. Girl's been around for the longest time. She has an amazing mind and a great head on her shoulders and always has some great advice to give. WE never have a dull moment and I enjoy all the time i have with her. She always know show to make me feel ok about everything even if it was something pretty bad. She knows how to be a great friend and a great listener and she uses it!

Davi- Come and Go? I dont know how to describe Davi. I know she means alot to me but sometimes we can go months at a time without talking. It really sucks. She is a great person to the fucking core. This girl is the best mother fucker around, we've had so many good ass times together i'm never gonna let her leave my life because it would never be the same without her, and at that i want her to be in my life even more. i'm going to make sure that happens too!

Zentia: :D. i dont even know how to describe my friendship with Zenita besides :D. we have so many good times together, we've seriously never been not laughing. we can always laugh with eachother and not feel stupid around eachother. but lately we've had a more serious side of the friendship come out and its great. i've put alot of trust in her and she's done the same. she's somebody i've built up alot of trust in and i know she'll never fail me. She's got a big heart, a good head on her shoulders, and shes a fuckin badass :D

The recreation
Work is seriously becoming something i look forward to everyday, This past thursday i was in the worst mood ever when my FES Ben bought me chocolate and let me vent everything to him since the store was dead as hell till 10:30. and this past Sunday was good fun too. Elizabeth, Lauren, Melissa S and I goofed around and i also was helping Amanda and Nick put some stuff up. Nick and I talked about Snowboarding and TRANSFORMERS, thanks to him, being manager and all, i got some sweet Transfomer wall decal's for 40% off!!!! I currently love my job and going to work everyday.

SNOWBOARDING! i have a board & boots. and Greg actually had some free bindings he let me steal from him! My dad agreed taht if i pay him and my mom back in installments i can get a coat and pants on wed. with him or my mom. i'm stoked, and Tk is going to help me set my bindings and shit up so i can go up to Sunburst with Zenita and Cassidy on Saturday after work! i'm so excited to be active. I've never been active and its showing lately, so i'm hoping if I start working hard in weightlifting in gym and work hard at snowboarding I can change that.

+++final words+++
school's got 2 more weeks then its CHRISTMAS VACATION! Poor Kati is stuck going to Minnesota :(
Let's make Plans. i'm going to be snowboarding alot i hope and working but make plans with me
i need to catch up with alot of people and i'm going to be super busy but please :D

******STILL TO COME******
Bayside Pictures
Homecoming Pictures
Thanksgiving Break Pictures
Sorry, i'm Lazy, nobody reads this anyways.

when you realize you made a mistake, i'll be sure to kick you while your down

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 06:29:25 GMT

alex pyskir says (9:34:55 PM): I want you to have a good night
alex pyskir says (9:34:56 PM): and hang in there
alex pyskir says (9:35:01 PM): becauase for good people
alex pyskir says (9:35:05 PM): everything works out someday
alex pyskir says (9:35:07 PM): I promise
alex pyskir says (9:35:08 PM):

if there's one thing i wish would have come true, its that.
i love her and know she meant well. but that was something i was clinging to,
and things have crashed down so hard and fast and out of nowhere.
it was like reality slapped me in the face.
I dont know what i'd do without Kati or Zenita.
those are the two keeping me from going back to Freshman year habbits,
and even then i'm still struggling with it, more than they know.

on the plus side my dad gave me $80 twoards my snowboarding stuff
cassidy is selling her board and boots for 90
all i need are bindings and pants and a coat :D

++++ Bayside was amazing. thanks to Kati! uhm i'll be posting alot of pictures soon of homecoming, thanksgiving break and bayside since i never did those. i just have to get un-lazy.

And that's what we're waiting for aren't we.

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 04:05:08 GMT

nobody even reads this anymore and i never get advice. but whatever i still write. and still hope i can get insight from other people.

Things are soo fucked up still. Sometimes I think im' actually over it and i'm moving on, and something comes along and proves i'm not over it. This whole process is proving, getting over something that lasted so little time but meant so much to me, is going to take a long time to get over. I dont know what to even do with myself anymore i'm confused on everything. I have nobody but Kati, nobody else truely understands and as much as Kati does help, she can only help so much. I need help. I NEED FUCKING HELP. but i have no idea how to get it.

PS: Modest Mouse was truely an amazing concert. The fact that they played Doing the Cockroach and Talking Shit about a Pretty Sunset made it awesome. I was very pleased with the preformance. I was slightly bummed when i heard they played longer in Madison and they played Trailer Trash in Maddtown, and since thats my favorite, i was dissapointed but whatever. it was still fantastic. it would have been perfect had they played Trailer Trash and Little Motel.

went to lunch with brad last week.
wasn't a good idea
good car ride there though....

So basically the back of Brad's van only has one seat, its not locked into place so when he stops it kinda flies forward. Zenita and i were on the seat, Kati sat on the floor, she sat on a SKATEBOARD. not realizing IT HAS WHEELS loser flies into the door on the board when he turns a corner.
this is what that looked like once she fell back onto the floor, haha:

zenita and i sat there laughing and being idiots
then bitches tried to not include me in a picture but i wouldn't let them block me out :P

Its like I'm in a room full of people screaming, and no one even looks up

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 04:04:43 GMT

going through my favorite quote website, there was an update and i found a quote that fit everything right now so perfectly it freaked me out:
"Maybe I'm scared, scared that the person that has meant so much to me for so long, might actually be falling out of my grasp...and there's nothing I can do to stop him."

everything in my life is completely off balance. When i'm happy with friends, something else comes up.
When my friends are bad, everything else is ok. Except now. Now, i'm lucky to have everything screwing up. Family has so many issues going on with everybody. School is getting difficult and feels like its piling up on me, Friends are turning into backstabers and liars that i feared they were. and realtionships are hopeless. that boat has sunk for now.

Today i was so ashamed i resorted to my sad habbits from 9th grade. I couldn't believe i stooped that low to get happiness from life. I hope i dont do it again :/

Last weekend i had a sleep over with Kati that was quite an adventure. Her and i have gotten so close. we're alot closer than Sam and I are now. I really can trust Kati. She is the only person i tell everything now. i can go to here with anything and get help and she comes to me with alot and i try and help. I'm glad i have her around, I'd truely be lost without her.

First off Kati and i decided to go to Brookefield Square and we get there at like 8:45 and found out it closed at 9, so we just went and got 6 cookies, Buy 3 Get 3 Free!!, from Ms. Feilds and pigged out in her car a bit.

Then we went and visited Zenita since she had been sick from school all week and was feeeling alot better but her parents wouldn't let her go anywhere and goofed around there till 11

Kati: SHIT I THOUGHT IT WAS DONE TAKING THE PICTURE!!! ahhaha

Since I was sleepin at Kati's that night, we had to be back to her house at 11, we were slightly late, since curfew in her household is 11. She then proceeded to dye her hair.

I really was no help to her at all since ive never dyed my hair before so i went in her room and talked to Brad online while he was "a little drunk" haha and then Kati and i played dress up since she had stolen my pants and a sweater of mine at my house. I stole some of my favorites of her's and we goofed around.

Goofing around...

Kati: "Look! i can be a pretzel!"

I look so dumb in this but i love her glasses!

We got bored inside so went outside on her awesome jungle gym imma get better pictures of next time and we got some more pictures out there!!

Dear Darla,
I hate your stinkin guts!
You make me vomit.
You are the scum between my toes!
Love, Alfalfa!

I'm her Darla and she's my Alfalfa! Friends till the END!

my eyes look so weird here i dont even know whats going on with them

...and then we fell off the swing
haha.

Ended the night at 4 am with Corn Dogs, Coffee, Youtube and Waiting :)

The End.

Or he'll say he's just not the same and you'll begin to wonder why you came

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 00:37:31 GMT

Wow. what a rapid change in direction life has taken me.
Homecoming had its ups and downs. pictures and dinner was a blast.
the dance seriously sucked so bad. I was ditched a bazillion times, though most of the time my friends didnt mean to, it still happened. and I looked for one person the whole night, found him, and lost him 5 minutes later. I was soo frustrated i stormed out of the school while Kati and Sam got my shoes. i ended up falling and cutting my toe open on the cement. I cried in the back of Kati's car till Sam came over and was crying so I sucked it up and was there for her.

The rest of the week was eh. I really let the events of the dance effect me too much. Thursday and Friday take the cake of shittiest days of the 2007 by far.....
I let my jealousy get the best of me. How the hell did i let myself do that? I"m fully dissapointed in myself. THis caused trouble between two of my best friends and another really important person in my life. Things between him and i were great. But that caused him to think, at least i think that event is what caused his thinking. Friday at school we kind of avoided eachother, even though things with my friends were worked out, i was still worried as hell about what was going to happen between me and him. In the end we chose to stick as friends instead of more. We've had a great friendship for 9 years now I guess we don't really want to ruin it. We both agree that we want more but its just not worth it because as much as people say you can be friends after a relationship, you really cant, there are a few acceptions sure, but why risk it i guess.

My problem is i've wanted that relationship for so long. Its like wanting something so bad you'd do just about anyting for it. Once of you finally get it you couldn't be any happier. Your fucking high on life. But it gets taken away, out of no where. It hurts. ALOT. I know its for the best, I really really really really really do. Because he's right, why ruin a 9 year friendship where we're soo open with eachother and we get along well with a stupid 8 month highschool relationship? I just really have to get over it, which is proving hard then I hoped for. I am sooo happy i can still have him around as a friend though, because the friendship and just having him around means so much to me.

I feel awful because alot of my friends are trying so hard to make me happy again and cheer me up but honestly there isnt much that they can do. Its like when you hit rock bottom. You, and only you, can help get yourself out of that. Alex Pyskir taught me that. You can only help yourself, nobody else. and she's right. I learned that. I just dont know wahto to do with myself now.

++++++ anybody who knows how psycho my mom is knows how sucky she can be.
A few weeks ago i had Sam over and she told me in front of Sam she switched me to unlimited texting. and since i though i had unlimited i went crazy. i sent so many and texted alot. But, i got called home from Maddie's house early Yesterday only to come home and get yelled at and find out that she never really did switch me over. I was 1500 text over my original limit. 15 cents to send and recieve put me $225.00 in debt. My parents owe me $89.00 but that only puts me at $136. I really have no idea what i'm going to do. I get my paycheck friday but Dawn cut my hours down so much i dont know what the hell i'm going to do for cash.

Things to look forward to:
Bright Eyes?- No
Modest Mouse?- Not at the moment

ugh this suckss.

Here lies the destiny of two hurt souls afraid to be cured again

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 15:00:41 GMT

I'm so content with life right now i dont even know what to do with myself.
I've been having the time of my life hanging out with new people.
Sam and i have gotten really close. and its great because we can relate to eachother.
so much shit is coming up, i'm super excited :]

October 10th- Powderpuff Football Game
October 13th- Homecoming
October 14th- Brunch with mah Yellow Tang
October 22nd- BRIGHT EYES WITH MADDIE!*$@&#
October 27th- Kelly and Sandy's wedding with Davi
November 1st- Paramore
November 11th- MODEST MOUSE!!!!(#*@$&($*
November 28- Bayside!*@&$^!@#*$&^(#$&

This year has to be one of the best years of my life, and it's only just getting started :D

Here are some stupid random pictures i have from recent events.

Yep we're crazy

we jam to Boys Like Girls in her Jeep :]

She texts people while her grandma talks to me about Gravey and Cell Phones

Ha yep thats all for now
i'll have a picture update after homecoming :D

Eating Snowflakes with Plastic Forks

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 02:40:18 GMT

I'm happy again.

everybody who needs to know knows why
and i am soo happy with my life right now.
nothing could really bring it down :D

It's too late to apologize

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 21:49:56 GMT

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Last night was one of the worst nights of my life. Breaking things off with Alex was the hardest thing i've ever done. I think its for the best though. I feel like shit for what I've done to him. I hope he doesn't think this past year was a waste of his life because I'm very greatful for the year I had with him and all the expericences i shared with him.

That's what you get when you let your heart win.

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 01:40:25 GMT

Life is so fruatrating and confusing. I can't trust anybody to talk to about it either. So i've been wraping myself up in my books, as usual.
I FINALLY got a hold of the Twilight series. It was was amazing. i read the second one in 24 hours and same with the third. I like to wrap myself up in my books so i dont realize whats going on in the real world.

But in the real world i went Homecoming dress shopping with Gabby yesterday. and we couldn't find anything so my mom took me today and i got one. i'm quite pleased with it too :]
School is intense. I took Honor's Bio- Organic-Chem and i couldn't handle it so i dropped it and now i have two study halls, 6th and 8th hour.

I cant talk to anybody about this, nor do I want to. This is something i have to do on my own, and its going to be one of the hardest things for me to do.

"i would have made a great god mother"

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 01:36:53 GMT

GROUNDED.
Gay. for a long time too, leave the following
Things to do
Things to Make
movies to see
books to read

thank you :D

"We're On a Mission From God"

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 00:37:10 GMT

wow. first week of school is over allready.
Its not that bad either.
I see alex a few times a day in the hall but no classes :[
I have to make a Documentary with Joe Schultz and Kolubah in Media Studies
any topics we should cover?
we cant think of anything and we need to know when we get back on tuesday.
Sociology is awesome. i'm going to love this class. LeBre is the perfect teacher for it too.
Maddiieee and i have Math together. We haven't had a class together, EVER. it's swell :] hahah
English is gay as helll Sparks can go suck nuts. she bugs me.
Gym is going to be awesome. we're starting LaCrosse and CHEWBACCA will be excited to find what happens to her :D
Bio Organic Chemistry is going to be intense. and not in the good way. i'm not looking forward to it but i know that if i dont take it i'll regret it and its only offered everyother year so its my only chance to take it.
Spanish is fucking amazing too. Haubenreich made a Harry Potter refrence when comparing Ser and Estar. He won the "One of the Best teachers EVER" award from me :D

I basically just went over every class i'm taking this semester.

This week has been so intense and stressful. Its hard to get back into the swing of things with school back into action and my boss having me work 25 hours a week. I miss my babyyy and Alex Pyskir.

My Baby got me HP4 for PS2 :D
he's coming over tomorrow so we can both play it. hahahah i'mso excited.

The more time i spend with him, the less likely I am to letting him go. I am as far to say if i ever see a girl or hear of a girl messing this up they are going to pay BIG TIME. so dont even think about it.

Saturday- My bby comes over till i work @5:30-10 VISIT ME
Sunday- Work 2-7:30, VISIT ME
Monday- Work 11-4 VISIT ME
Tuesday- School, Work 4:30-9:15

Make plans with me for days to come and hopefully i wont be working :D

"SMOKIN OAKIN!"

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 01:00:39 GMT

So about 30 Seconds ago i was browsing people's Lj's and i just realized what a jealous fucking bitch i am. and how i dont trust other girls at all.
BACK THE FUCK UP BITCHES!
ok i had to get that off my chest :)

School Started. Today for the second day, wasn't so bad.
GOT MY BRACES OFF A WEEK AGO!!!

-Its not up to you to save me Jack. - Your right, only you can do that

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 21:08:03 GMT

Media Studies 1-Shannon
Study Hall
IMP3 Thomas
English 11- Sparks
Gym Deiss
Bio-Chem- Gilman
Spanish 4- Haubenreich
Media Studies 2- Shannon

Got anything with me?

wow i cant believe summers almost done. I've hung out with alot of people and made some new friends like Gabby and Ariel. Fixed old friendships like Chase and Jake W. I'm really happy about how this summer turned out. it seriously couldn't get any better. Well maybe it could, but if it doesnt i'll still be happy with this summer.

This Weekend i'm Working all Saturday and then i'm going to Johnsons Creek with Alex and his BBQ at his house at 4.
Make plans with me before summer's over ok? :D

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 05:15:21 GMT

I WISH I WAS 18 or YOU ONLY HAD TO BE 16 for TATTOO'S WITHOUT PARENT PERMISSION!!!

Thank You, that is all.

-Hows your Mother?-Good, tired from fucking my father

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 14:46:29 GMT

Summer is going by so fast i'm sad we start school soon. I've had a good summer so far. Alot has been going on.
I went to Falls fest 3/4 days, one of which i almost got into a fight with an old friend. Ick.

WARPED TOUR. Seriously amazing. Davi and i saw: Bad Religion, Alkaline Trio, Chiodos, Circa Survive, BAYSIDE, Underoath, Paramore, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. OOOOO amazing. I went to a Bayside Signing and got a picture with them too :]
the Chiodos Line was sooo long and same with RJA, but the sad thing is, The line to meet SCENE Queens: Hanna Beth and Audrey Kitching were longer than Chiodos and RJA. how fucking pathetic. ew. I had an amazing time at Bayside though. they were basically the reason i went so i was so happy to see them and get that close.

I got a new job! Michaels. the craft store over in Gtown. I'm really excited. i start on Monday. but i'm really sad because Tonight is my last night at Mojo's because there was no way i was going to be able to keep both jobs. I feel soo bad. I felt like my Manager was soo mad at me last night when i told her Saturday was going to be my last day. but whatever there isn't really anything i can do about it now anyways.

This Seriously has to be the best summer of my frickin life.

I didnt' get any pictures besides bayside and an underoath and like 2 paramore. but oh well:

Pre Signing. Ant and Nick were LATE. URGH. ahah

Me and Bayside!! i was so excited. i never smile like that. hhahahah. ew.

Yummm @ Chris :P

Ant=GOD. end of story.

Nick :]

PARAMORE:

Underoath:

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 17:55:34 GMT

EDIT!!!
BRACES OFF AUGUST 22 AT 12:40 NOW!!!
CHEYUHH!!!!!

My Craziness is only Beginning!!
Wed= HARRY POTTER 5!// NEW CAMERA COMES IN MAIL FROM BestBuy.com
Friday=Chillin with my BFFL maddie for my birthday friday// DINNER WITH MY BBY :]// GETTING MY TEMPS IF I PASS.
FAMILY BIRTHDAY PARTY SUNDAY + Alex and Maddie
Monday= Last day of drivers ed and leave for motha fuckin camping for a week :]
July 21st= FINALLY HARRY POTTER BOOK COMES IN THE MAIL
July 22nd= Come home from camping, get wired on sugar, Read the final HP like there is no tomorrow :D
Seriously i'm looking forward to so much right now.
I honestly dont even care if i miss Falls Fest. i shit always turns bad when i'm there.

Anyways. thats my schedule for awhile, Now. every time i update i'm going to list the books i ahve read since i last updated so.. since its the first time i'll list the book's ive read lately:
- Hey Nostradamus!, By: Douglas Coupland
-It's Kind of a Funny Story, By: Ned Vizzinni
- Gossip Girl: Your the One That I Want, By: Cecily von Ziegesar
and currently:
- Invisible Monster, By: Chuck Palahniuk

I'm Running out of room in my bookshelf's for my books and i will never stop buying books. haha oh well!!

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 04:33:27 GMT

BRACES OFF ON SEPTEMBER 7TH
HOLLA!!!

ps HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY TO MY BBY JADEE !!! <333333

Mon, 07 May 2007 01:07:22 GMT

haha somebody get me a layout
this shit is ugly as hell.

i'm soo lazy

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 05:15:06 GMT

wow i've basically been too lazy to update since i got back from Tennessee.
Tennessee wasn't too terrible accept the long car rides and the shitty weather they had down there.
My real favorite part was driving down to Oxford Mississippi and visiting Ole Miss.
My Uncle, Dad, Cousin Stuart (if he was smart enough), Cousin Drew ( if he doesn't sign with major's), have or will be attending this college. My Dad and Uncle were telling me about how amaazing it is and how they'd love for me to go there. My Aunt and Uncle said i could stay with them on weekends since its only an hour away from Collierville. I wasn't really convinced till i went down there. It's one of the most beautiful places I have ever seen. I wish i had my camera when i was there. The campus wasn't HUGE but it was a decent size, and it was soo green and colorful from tree's and flowers. I really haven't wanted to go to college out of state, but my parents are saying they won't help me pay my way unless i go far enough away because they want me to learn how to "live on my own". I'm not so convinced. ha. but after seeing this campus, its probbably the only out of state college i would ever seriously considder at this point in time. Yet it couldn't be any farther away from where i don't want to leave. Milwaukee is where i was born and raised till 1st grade. Menomonee Falls has become my home but i spend alot of time in Germantown and Milwaukee with family. I don't really want to leave this place. Wisconsin has become my home. I'd like to keep it that way.

Hmm, besides that, i've gone back to school. Its harder to sit through than ever before. It's that time of year where it's starting to warm up and its so enjoyable outside you don't want to be sitting inside. It's the same way with work. I'd so rather be running around outside in shorts with my dog or some friends than cleaning up after messy people and serving soups and salads. But i suppose thats just my luck. But Kat is going to start working at Mojo's starting tomorrow so that's going to kick ass because i hate working with stupid lazy people. even though everybody in the kitchen at work rules and one of the coolest guys is leaving in like 5 days.

Summer's coming soon, but not soon enough.

(yay for shitty camera phones!)

Pretty Pictures :]

Picture 1 is of the Student Union at Ole Miss
Picture 2 is of the Lyceum at Ole Miss
its soo gorgeous! i got the pictures from the Ole Miss website because i didnt have my camera with me. :/

"Sell Outs"

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 01:02:26 GMT

"I've been in this band for 7 years. I've been playing in bands sine I was 11 (13 years). I never thought that I would get to the point that I'm at. I always wanted to, but never actually thought I would get out of Queens or even out of the basement. As we got closer and closer to the point that we're at I saw what could actually become of this band, I knew then that one day I was going to have to address this. Selling Out. It's been on the tip of every one's tongue for ages.

What is it really? Am I a sell out? Are Green Day or Fall Out Boy sellouts? I have always thought of a sellout as someone who is going against their beliefs or ideals to make money. But even then, who the fuck cares? It is natural for people to claim ownership of a band during their humble beginnings. After all, that's what has drawn so many people to our scene and helped it explode over the last few years. Kids are growing up finding out about music from MTV and radio stations and by the time they find out, these people are huge stars and you have to camp outside their hotel for days to maybe shake their hands. They stumble across this new thing where the bands are just as good, if not better, and they can go to the shows and probably meet the band 9 out of 10 times and even have a drink with them. That sounds like a great thing to me. So it makes sense that when Fall Out Boy are playing at the Enormo-Dome and you can't get close to them anymore, you're pissed off.

In the unfortunate shambles that our scene is in these days, the term "sell out" is pretty much being used as an abbreviation for "band that got really big" which just isn't true. Being there for the paycheck, changing who you are for the money, that's what a sell out is. Working at Wal-Mart or Blockbuster or Starbucks or Target is being a lot more of a sell out then being in Fall Out Boy is. Not because those are big corporations or anything, because I shop all all those places almost daily. Because you are showing up, putting a fake smile on your face, wearing what you're told to wear and doing what you're told to do so that you can get your paycheck at the end of the week. Funny thing is that it's the kids that are working at these places that go home and post on message boards about how Fall Out Boy or AFI or, gasp, BAYSIDE sold out. I can assure you that when we played on Conan or when we play in arenas or when our video is played on tv, I'm fucking stoked. I wore what i wanted to, said what i wanted to and played the songs that I wrote and I love. I'm doing exactly what I want to do.

It seems as if bands are expected to just start saying no at a certain point. Do you want to be on the cover of our magazine? Do you want to be on tv? Do you want to do what you love and make some money doing it? What would all the scene watch dogs and sell out police do if they were faced with these questions? I don't want to say no. I'm right where I want to be. I had my picture taken for the cover of Alternative Press this morning and I had a whole box of free clothes waiting for me when I got home. On Monday morning I'll be filming a commercial for MTV, on Monday night I'll be hosting a show on FUSE and then on Wednesday I'll be flying to Europe for a tour and I do it all because I'm living my dream and I'm lucky enough to have these opportunities. Anyone who has seen us play, even up until yesterday knows that I'm still hanging out on the floor or at the merch table with everyone else meeting and talking to anyone who wants to talk to me.

We don't do anything we don't want to do, no matter what the money is. As for all the people calling bands sell outs on the Internet, can you say the same for yourself?"

i took this directly from an entry from the Blog the band Bayside keeps and members of the band keep updated.
i honestly couldnt agree more.

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 00:06:33 GMT

Spring Break! it finally started today!!! yayy
Thursday is basically when mine started though. i mean. i went to school. but @ like 6, Thomas and Sam picked me up and we went to AGAINST ME!!!!! it was awesome. we had alot of fun. It basically is the BEST concert i have ever been too. i only got one hour of sleep that night from all the excitement.
Yesterday, i kicked it off with Renee. We walked almost all the way to Sears after school freezing our asses off till Jake Baker and Chad turned around and picked us up and dropped us off so we didnt have to freeze anymore. My mom picked us up from Sears like 10 min later and we kicked it at my house till like 6:30 and Renee had to go home and i had Maddie over for a little bit and we went bowling with Davi, her cousin Justin and a few other people.
Today has been really slow. but i'm glad it has. i got to go see Alex for a few hours :] he makes me soo happy!
The rest of break consists of working tomorrow, easter sunday. and nothing else is really set in stone acceppt for the dreaded WEDNESDAY :[
My parents decided we need to have more "family bonding" as they put it, so they made plans for us to DRIVE to Tennessee to see my 1 cousin who isnt in jail and my uncle. i really dont mind seeing as my Uncle is awesome but a 10 hour car ride with my family is basically murder. but i suppose i'll have to make the best of it all. I come back sometime Sunday and its back to schoool on Monday. : /

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 22:26:19 GMT

Hmm so lately life has been fucking great. seriously. I have hit some rough patches, espeically with my mom but ive managed to get through them with the help of some great friends and people that care about me. i dont know, but lately, ive been looking for something. idk what i just need something new, fun, exciting. idk what that is though. but annywayysss

Thanksgiving Break has just begun!:

Friday: babysat all night. made $40.00
Saturday: babysat again made $40.00
Sunday: grandma's house for the day. boringggg
Monday: ran errands with my mommm. Alex is coming over possibly?
Tuesday: FUCKIN BRIGHT EYES!! i am super excited!*( #%&($*%&
Wednesday: did i even spell it right? ahha. nothingg LETS DO SOMETHIGN!
Thursday: Thanksgiving... everybody @ my house. bleh.
Friday: Spending the night @ Kristyns? hopefully
Saturday: nothing, LETS DO SOMETHING
Sunday: nothing, LETS DO SOMETHING

helll yeah so i'm free tuesday, durning the day, wed., saturday and sunday.
if you wanna do something definatly let me know!