Backtracking

Chickens

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 19:11:01 GMT

Ben got some chickens today so he can have organic eggs.

He let me name them, so I called them after items on the KFC menu, so now we have Twister and Zinger. I'll post pics soon.

Too Fat?

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 14:15:46 GMT

Well we went on Friday anyway, just to check out what was on and I was already in cyber gear, and it turned out to be a Rolling Stones tribute band night and I turned around and heard a group of girls muttering that I was fat and disgusying, so I asked them what their problem was and they were like 'do your parents know you go out dressed like that? I can't even look at you, it's sickening.' so what with recently losing my dad and being that badly insulted - I ran out in tears.

Then I went to a kebab shop in Wellingborough and some drunk 40-something woman sat next to me and starts going 'oooh like you need to eat a kebab - you're fat enough already, I'd have stopped eating months ago if I was your weight.' and carried on in a similar way for about 10 minutes then some guy jumped in and said 'excuse me, but I happen to think she's gorgeous' and some other random bloke jumped in and goes 'well i think she's an ugly, fat heffer...'
So I ran out crying yet again.

This is what I was wearing. Surely I didn't deserve such harsh words, but tell me honestly, am I too fat for cybergear?

Errors

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 18:37:38 GMT

Is there a limit to how many pics you can upload or can i give someone free access to my journal and let them add two entries with loads of pics. I've done most of the programming and i can send you that too, but it just needs something to stop it throwing up errors and i can't for the life of me remember what it is.

Ebaaaaayyyy (For Zollipops)

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 14:54:27 GMT

FAO zollipops

Hey - sign up to ebay then let me know your username so I can sign u up to my newsletter so you can see when i get new tongue bars and stuff in. cuz I've got LOADS of stuff on offer now, and I bet some of your friends would love it too.

I'm just buying in new shipments of curved barbells, coloured titanium bars and hoops, tongue studs, UV/rave earrings and tongue studs. It's like camden market but on my shop! lol. I'll send newsletters showing new products, and if you want to impress Steve at all, I'm also starting selling sexy undies!! ;)

Btw, had to post on here cuz your work email address isn't working for me again. Send an email to me off it so I can just hit reply on it in the future!

Oh and this isn't just limited to zollipops, anyone with any piercings who wants to buy cheap jewellery on ebay for them, just ask me for the address to go to. :)

I have flu.

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 18:17:42 GMT

I haven't updated in ages.
It's my nan's birthday. Wow, this means all the badly irritatinf members of my family will flood my house, moan that I have too many piercings or I've gained weight and generally pick apart every part of me/my life.

I got the bottom of my belly button pierced, and my Christina redone and my tragus. So I bloody well hurt all over, and the Christina's embedding itself in my skin again, the belly button one seems to be going infected and I finally got my tragus one changed to a BCR so it stopped embedding itself in my ear. Go me.

I have flu, so I feel like shit.

I had a panic attack yesterday cuz my liver sorta area started hurting and Richard made it worse by making a big fuss and making out like the pain was serious, despite me shouting 'shut up, I'm having a panic attack, no, no, no, shut up, shut up, you're making it worse, why won't you shut up? PLEASE just shut up, god, please just stop it, no, no, no, stop, please stop, just stop, shut up...' etc.
What a dick.

I have to start my new job next Monday and my car's still mangled. Joy.

Christmas cards!

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 23:33:34 GMT

I'm writing Christmas Cards!

If you want one off me (doesn't matter where in the world you're from) email me on iwantmymtv@hotmail.com (put the subject line as :Xmas Card Address) and I'll send you a card, only catch is... I'll send you my address back and I expect one in return and I want to see how many cards from my LJ friends around the world i can get!

Car Crash

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 17:02:08 GMT

Well I was involved in a bad car crash on Friday.
Not my fault but my insurance are saying it is, to get out of paying me anything.

So I have to pay recovery costs and whatnot at £208, cuz I so have that now First Point sacked me just before Christmas with the excuse that Phoenix forgot to fill in one form on my reference.

Oh whatever.

So anyway, Friday: i was trying to get out of going to hospital but they wouldnt let me. (I'd planned with Dave to go out every day for that entire week and Friday was the CyberKitten XTREME XMAS EXTRAVAGANZA) But no, i was strapped to a backboard by my ankoles, knees, thighs, then my arms by my sides, my shoulders, then i had a this plastic neck collar on and a big foam head brace wth my chin and forehead strapped to the board too.

Now imagine how chlostorophobic that is.. then imagine it for four hours!

Fantastic, I've got severe whiplash

Budapest

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 01:33:05 GMT

I'm off to Budapest in 7 hours. I'll actually be on the plane, scred stiff cuz I hate flying!

Then it's my birthday, the day I get back - Tuesday the 7th, and I'm still trying to see how many people I can get to send me cards! Any takers, come on.
If you're in the Uk, it's cheap to post a card!

Birthday!!

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 21:40:01 GMT

It's my birthday on the 7th. All those who know me really well, I expect cards off! :oP

Send me a message if you genuinely want my address to post me one!

I'm off to Budapest for my birthday though. Yay, go me! :o)

Oh, and rate me on here: http://www.hotornot.com/r/?eid=A8OQGUE&key=DSD
It's just a bit of a laugh I'm having with my mates over who's 'hotter'.
Lol.

Nipples!!!

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 18:44:30 GMT

No updates for ages, because have been too hectic with work and college and whatnot.

However, I made Richard get his nipple pierced today. And I have photos! Hehe.

Needle going in!!

Jewellery going in!

Eek! Bleeding!

All done!

The end result!

C'mon, get down with the sickness...

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 12:17:19 GMT

Well today I woke up feeling like shite.
Went to work, felt worse.

Then the board of managers turned up, at which point my body decided it'd be the most comical time to make me throw up.
Lol.
Pretty funny really.

But got sent home sick and I just want to sleep but I can't. :(

zoom zoom zoom

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 11:24:52 GMT

Loving having my new car.

Done 160 miles in the weekend - god only knows how!
I just remember driving places. lol.

Went to town with Dave on Saturday. Was boring. Dave's changed so he's not as much fun at all anymore. He did buy me a pair of boots though.

Sunday was alright. I decided to set up a bowlng trip which failed miserably cuz no-one spoke to each other, aside Richard speaking to Andy and Steph about war and weapons and crap which is like THE most boring topic EVER and his most talked about topic EVER. IT's sad and it's boring. Give it up already.

Drove home in a strop. Then Richard went and stole flowers out my neighbours' gardens to say sorry for ignoring me but I don't really care anymore.

He's messed up SO many times with me.

Aghhh

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 11:18:29 GMT

Crappy, crappy, crappy day.

The coke machine ate £1.60 of my money and gave me no coke.
The company about my car rang and said they couldn't do finance cuz I'd had an employment gap between this job and my last so they needed to get a payslip off my mom.

I tried ringing mom - no answer.
Tried emailing - no answer
Tried texting - no answer

So I called her company, they said she didn't work there, so I insisted she did and got them to give me the payroll number.

Rang payroll - they denied her existance too then stated that they COULD fax the payslip but they 'didn't really have time'

Then Richard's car broke down on my way back to work from lunch - so I had to ring work to say that I'd be late.

So we jump-started his car, then it broke down a mile later ON a roundabout. RAC were called and I stood in the pouring rain waiting for Richard's mom to come pick me up and take me to work.

So I missed lunch so I was starving.

Got to work, more calling of mom with no avail.

Then I got told off for sending too many outside emails and making calls even though I'd explained the situation.

Had to work late because I had to wait til Rich could get his mom's jeep to come pick me up.

Got home, blazing row with mom cuz I didn't ask her hw her day was but I was stressed and so on and so forth.

Vrappy, crappy, crappy day.

PAAAAAAAAAAAAIN

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 13:07:02 GMT

I’m very, VERY annoyed. The doctors won’t give me my painkillers even though I’m literally doubled up in pain with stomach cramps and PMT, all because when I went into hospital, my mom went through my room, found any medication I had (inc sore throat sweets and contraceptive pills) threw them away and reported to the doctor that I’d been ‘living off them all’. Now one of the things in there was a box of painkillers – so now they think I’m addicted to them. But if I was, would I a) not have had any left in my room, b) gotten over it since I haven’t taken any since I left hospital and c) shown withdrawal symptoms when I had to stop taking them?
Sooo grrrrrr…

I just feel it’s pretty damn unethical of a doctor to leave a patient in a lot of pain, despite explaining the mix-up with my mom, suggesting they lowered the dose/gave me less in a go/monitored my prescriptions – after I’ve tried paracetamol, ibuprofen, double strength ibuprofen, heat packs, hot water bottles, gentle exercise, hard exercise, back rubs, massages, baths, mefanamic acid etc.

I am NOT a happy bunny.

New Car

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 10:54:32 GMT

France was wicked - I'll post pictures later, if I haven't previously dropped dead of exhaustion. :P

Anywho, I found out how much it was going to cost to redo the locks on my car, and frankly, screw that.

So I bought this on a lease:

cool, huh?

Work-ah!

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 15:56:48 GMT

Wow, well on Monday, not only did I find out my liver is ok, but I got myself a new job too!
More money than I've ever earnt before with quarterly pay reviews and 25 days paid holiday a year! Ooh and a subsidised canteen! Yay.

Also, I'm starting college again on the 18th (the day I return from France) so I'll be pulling 13 and a half hour working days!

Anyway, Monday night to celebrate my job and my liver being ok, we opened a bottle of red wine and obviously after two months of abstaining from alcohol, 2 glasses got me very merry! Lol.

Yesterday, we travelled to Bacup, my dad's birth town in search of Whimberry pies (unless you're northern British, you probably won't know what I'm on about!) and I got a bit teary eyed as remembering my dad kinda hit a nerve, but it was still fun. I saw where my nan used to live and all the places I used to visit as a child and we finally found the elusive whimberry pies! Lol.
Went back to Richard's, played on guitar for a bit, chatted and then went to see The Sentinel at the cinema which was surprisingly good, if a little slow starting.
Back home, more jamming on guitars, then lay in bed.

Richard said that if I start going out with him, he'll move back south from Preston to be near me and pospone the Army and everything, which I'd like but I don't want him to throw things away for me. I don't want to be so responsible for such a big decision in his life and I don't want to tell him to just for my own personal gain. And Dave would be SO awkward if I told him I was seeing Richard cuz in Dave's mind all of a sudden, Richard is the son of Lucifer and the root of all evil in the world and so on and so forth.
Plus if Richard moves back, he has all the furniture from the house in Preston and is in the perfect position to move into a house in Northampton. Something I've been wanting to do ever since I've moved back from Reading, so we could move in together. IDEAL. But then there's Dave. He'd moan and whine and I know I shouldn't feel so controlled by him but I do and it's horrible.

Liver!

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 16:49:37 GMT

Just saw the doctor. My liver function is back to normal.
I've recovered from the overdose.
I'm fine!!

=D

Away

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 12:23:56 GMT

This evening, I am going to Preston til Thursday, when I return for an interview, then on Friday I am off to Bordeaux, so you may not hear from me for a bit. Will update, post pics and comment when I return. :)

MK

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 13:20:12 GMT

Had a fun weekend. Went to see Nicky on Friday. We went out and got masses of Chinese food from the KamYong. I had ribs in piquant sauce, prawn crackers, crispy seaweed, egg fried rice and spring rolls. mmm.
Then we went out of the town. Went to City Life, Lloyds, Wetherspoons and a few other bars scattered around the city then wound up in Revolution where Nicky got plastered, I danced my arse off and I met the cutest guy ever (looked just like Sezer from Big Brother), but I was too shy to talk to him!
Got home and went to bed - then Nicky in his drunken state kept shouting my name, then every time I'd say 'what?' he'd just fall back asleep. Pretty funny, really.

Then Saturday we woke up early-ish and went shopping. Nicky bought me loads of stuff which was sweet of him then we went back to his and chilled for a bit, then got all dressed up and went out to dinner at Frankie and Benny's. Where I wolfed down a 12oz rump steak with peppercorn sauce and finished with a toffee waffle and ice cream!
Then later we went to his mates' party which sucked cuz everyone had forgotten the date so no-one came, so we headed back into town. more bars and dancing and came home late.
Watched Ricky Gervais: Politics and back to back episodes of The IT crowd. Then Nicky fell asleep and made his usual vile asleep noises (Imagine a baby's gurgle but louder with snoring and CLICKY noises intermingled) which kept me awake! Finally got to sleep and was tormented by nightmares then woke up, boiling hot and had to wait for ages to get a lift home.

JEANS!

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 00:37:04 GMT

I bought butt-loads of designer jeans today. Go me.

Blood tests tomorrow again. ACK. They're so gunna have to use my hands and that hurts like hell.

Interview in the afternoon for a job that's SO totally over my head but I'll do it anyway just to say I've been jobhunting. Like hell will an 18yr old make an office manager! Ah well. It'll be a fun interview.

'so Jessica, have you got any managerial experience'
'...no'
'ok then, thanks for your time - we'll be in touch.'

lol.

BBQ

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 17:52:33 GMT

Yesterday was Bank Holiday. I decided to throw a BBQ. Was pretty cool. Dave and Richard, Chris and Emma came. More people promised to come but backed out in the end.
Dave drank 11 bottles of beer and got a tad annoying in the end, making tonnes of gay jokes and making snide comments to Richard.
Now like I've said before Dave doesn't like Richard cuz of things he alledgedly did but I'm ok with him so for my sake I asked him to be amicable around him, but he seems not to be able to do that.

Also, I find him a tad too attention seeking lately - I won't go into too much detail cuz I know he reads this, I just feel I can't let it go unmentioned as it's emotionally draining me. AGAIN.
And I get two sides of every story now. Richard says he made a comment to Dave about only staying in Northampton because of wanting to see me, whereas Dave said Richard was just constantly saying how much more time he spends with me than Dave does. And I don't know who too believe. And yes, Richard DOES spend a LOT more time with me but has Dave not thought it may be because of this incessant attention seeking and difficult attitude to everything that's making it hard for me to hang round him?
I don't think I'll ever sort it out to be fair.

Anyway, the BBQ went on til like 10.30pm from 3.30pm so it was all pretty fun. Lotsa food and drinks and music.

Today I've just been lazing around.
Got another company interested in me working for them.

And my bloody passport should have arrived yesterday but didn't, when I SPECIFICALLY paid extra for a week service. Grr.

I'm gunna take you to the gay bar!

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 03:52:02 GMT

Today was cool. Didn't sleep til god knows when due to severe panic attck, which I'm having again tonight, hence I'm up at 4.44am. Spent last night uploading photos (nobodys looked at my festival photos - see back two entries!) and applying for thousands of jobs online! Went to bed at 7am and slept til 1pm.

Went for my interview at MFI who loved me. YAY! They said they like that I'm young and they think I'm determined and 'can bring a lot to the table'! :D
Will hear back from them after Wednesday next week.

Then went for lunch which I bought at Maccy D's.

Back home, I filled out my passport application and Dave got in touch and asked if I wanted to go out so I suggested hitting town later.
Met Dave and we went out on the town. We were the first people in Motion so that sucked and we left, then I got chatted up by some old guy in the Penny who admittedly was kinda charming, but just not attractive, plus there was nowhere to sit so we left. The Goose and the Bantam were free of people we knew so we didn't stay there so I suggested walking down Bridge Street when we noticed a new club called Crush so we went in. Now the jury's still out on whether it's a gay bar, but it was fun. And I totally fancied the DJ. hehe. Left there and got a lift back with Richard quite early as started having panic attack and nearly got reduced to tears.

Back home we watched South Park then the South Park movie. Now we're just awake and chatting.

And bizarrely, Antnee started texting me. Baring in mind I haven't heard from him since way before I went to Reading, and he's working now and going for his Forklift license and is on £6.90 an hour. Good for him. Every time I speak to him just winds me up cuz it reminds myself of how bad dating him was and how I wished it had all never happened and how things would be had I never met him, cuz my friend group would be different and the paths I've taken so very different cuz so many things wouldn't have been available for me to do or see. I think it'd be better that way, though I can't dwell on the past.

Movies

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 03:55:07 GMT

Well, last night I totally freaked out. Not too sure why. Just started panicking over things then couldn't sleep so had to drive over to Dave's at 7am to drop of things related to things which made me paranoid, much to his confusion. Oh well, props to Dave for being a good mate and helping me out by taking my random package just cuz he knew I was worked up, regardless of the fact he had no idea what over.

Then I went to sleep at 8.30am as my mom kept me awake talking about how she went to the doctors but they couldn't do her thypoid injection as she needed antibiotics for her sinitis, and how the car came back from its MOT and various other crap which just merged into nothingness! Ben woke me up at 12pm with some supernoodles.

Later I got Richard up and we went into town and got my passport photos done (I've lost my passport and Richard's family are taking me to France in two weeks!) and I bought some new pyjamas and some hair straighteners. Yay.

We went back home and I got bored so I suggested we went out so we went and saw John Tucker Must Die, which is funny if a little generic American high-school comedy-esque.

At home, we watched South Park and various other junk and I went into a massive panic attack. I haven't felt so bad in so long. My entire body was shaking, I was being sick, I couldn't breathe; I felt like my entire body belonged to someone else and that I didn't know who I was anymore, so frightened it was something to do with my liver, I rang up the emergency doctor who cleared that it was just a panic attack. Still, I'm really shaken and now can't sleep. *sigh*

Interview tomorrow - with a company who I was fired from 2 years ago. Lol. Go me!

V festival!

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 21:12:31 GMT

So, the weekend saw me attend V festival in Stafford. Me and Ben made the journey down on Saturday and arrived making excellent time. We found a dry spot to pitch our tent but suddenly came across a large problem. Ben had forgotten the waterproof part of the tent - just as the heavens opened and we were caught in a torrential downfall which was not to clear until late Sunday morning. So Ben had to go off and purchase a new tent, for the pricey sum of £50! A rip-off when it was as big as a shoe-box and any movement seemed to wind up with one of us falling onto the other!
Then we headed off to the bands - we saw Hard-Fi who were considerably shite - with the lead singer being totally tone-deaf. But the comedic value was Ben had eaten about 6 pots of Herbal Highs stuff and ended up involuntarily dancing despite hating it! The rest of the day saw Paul Weller rock the house with old classics, Groove Armada funk it up, The Cooper Temple Clause play a wicked new song called 'Damage', and argue live on stage, and the highlight of the day, Faithless with a perfect, soulful set!

Back to the camp at around 1am to find we'd actually camped amongst a group of angry brummies who argued, shouted, kicked each other in the head, played guitars and harmonicas, sang, screamed about wanting more drugs and who had the beer, dropped a guitar on Ben's head whilst trying to sleep and moaned about spilt gin. Kept us up til god knows when and when I reawoke at 9am - they were STILL shouting!!

However Sunday was scorching and aided me to getting a sunburnt nose and cheeks! More greasy festival food and trudging in yesterday's mud, the an amazing line up of bands, including The Cardigans, Kula Shaker with a surprise comeback, The Ordinary Boys who pulled out due to a member being taken to hospital, Editors, Kasabian, Fatboy Slim and the ever-awe-inducing Radiohead. :D

Videos and pictures galore! (will post soon!)

Yesterday Richard came over and we hung out. Today hung out at Richard's then went blackberry picking with Dave and intended to make blackberry crumble, then shortly realised that our oven broke 4 months ago and we're too broke to buy a new one. *sigh*

Richard keeps asking me out, which I just don't know the answer for. I used to really like him but then he messed me and Dave around with all the texts and I've found he lies/exaggerates a lot of things, plus it'd put Dave's mose out of joint though I shouldn't really care what he thinks, but I just don't want him to get all whingey on me, but I do kinda like Richard still, if he could just tone himself down a bit, as I find him a bit in-my-face at times. But I don't see it lasting if we got together and I don't want another difficult relationship, and surely you shouldn't start a relationship with doubts? Hmpph.

i know what i know if you know what i mean

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 21:47:22 GMT

Yesterday went to the Jobcentre to look for more jobs. Got some info which was handy. Then I had to see Chantalle, who recognising I was about fit to tear my mom's head off for her constant arguing and nagging for money, said she'd put me on the council housing waiting list which will be a good step forward. Then Richard met me back in town and we had baguettes for lunch, then I had my second job interview for the job I really want, which seemed to go quite well. They should have got back to me by today though so it's not looking great for me. :S
Then last night Richard took me out for a big slap up meal at Frankie and Benny's where I gorged on a 12oz steak. mmm.

Today I had the doctors in the morning who put me back on medication for my panic attacks which has once again rendered me perma-drowsy and very sick feeling all the time which seems to be pushing me towards breaking point as I can't stand the fact that I always feel odd nowadays. I mean, I'd prefer to just have like flu or something and just get it out the way instead of the permenant feeling of unrest. But ah well.

Does anyone know who won Big Brother?