story-telling, at its worst.

i usually get annoyed when girls express how much they miss their long hair and then posts old pictures of them with long hair. well, that's exactly what im gonna do now. i miss it. i really really miss it. im not saying just so i could show off my old locks but i just realized that i had beautiful hair last time. REALLY REALLY REALLY IN NO WAY AM I BOASTING OR SHOWING OFF BUT IM GONNA PROVE IT TO YOU.

ahhh i'm made out of too much fats so i won't bother digging my old picture up on facebook. so, too bad.

i've been watching videos and videos of VW. i wanna get ticket as soon as possible.

mmmkay bye.

Bands\Artistes that should come to sunny fuckin singapore:

-Arctic monkeys (I hate people who spell 'arctic' as artic. Fuck that's not even a word)
-Vampire weekend
-mgmt
-crystal castles (so that my friends ben mofrad and midzi can be happy forever. Yes, I'm all about making my friends happy)
-chris garneau
-joy division (lol. K not funny)
-daniel merriweather
-the killers. (I'm not giving up)
-kings of leon
-metric
-radiohead (doubt it)

Midas needs to bring down 'real bands' for singfest. Wtf la wondergirls and 30stm (no offense but srsly they say they're a cult? You gotta be kidding me) People are cmg down not to see hot korean chix but to feel or find something that's worth living for. LIVE SHOWS + REAL MUSIC.

i've been telling myself that it's all a dream and it never happened. but now i can no longer do that. i want to jump into the sea and look for black rubbish bags labelled 'trinity' and fucking poke him in the face 10 billion fucking times for killing Rita.

i miss my bandom/fandom days. the last band that i really got into, and i really mean like obsessed, 24/7, can-t wait for school to finish so i can continue where i last stopped reading, watching, listening what have you was, the academy is. that was when i went for the very first singfest and met Beckett. oh my god you had no idea how insane i was. all i could think of was TAI TV every weekend. i would check the LJ comm every single fucking hour. i would watch the old episodes of TAI TV over and over again and still laugh like it was the funniest shit i had ever seen. but now when Beckett posts on Twitter, i would just skim through it. Tbh, i sorta stopped after Fast Times.. that album kinda sucked, sorry to say. the only track i like was 'rumoured nights' and that's it.

and i miss it. i read my flist and i felt empty. Azzy had her German Team, Yee See and her kpop etc etc. i am really into Dexter now and i feel very lonely. Hahaha. My younger sis is starting to watch it but I doubt she understands whats going on. I asked her to figure out what 'GSW' stands for and she wanted to give up! and whenever we do watch it on TV, she usually has her eyes glued to her phone. Well, i don't blame her. She does have other things to think about. There's a boy, or boys she likes in school and she has friends who usually text her so i can't really say she needs to be into anything else.

i'm gonna sink myself into some Dexter goodness until i find something else. ooooooh Control's almost finished!!

i cant stop thinking of you.

I really wanna turn my life around. I do.

I thought, tonight was gonna be the same. I'm gonna lie in bed, have one of those reflective meetings with myself and plan my day for tomorrow, or later. But tonight, it made me sit up on my bed. Somehow I felt different. I've decided, I'm gonna quit my job, look for another but we can think about that later. I'm gonna vacuum clean this room. I'm gonna go eyebrow threading cos I look like a mess.

Byt you know what, that's not gonna be enough. Mmm now I don't know how to solve this. I really wanna be in charge of my own life but I can't seem to do it. Am I too young to make decisions? I'm almost 20 and I can't even think straight. My mum says I think too much. That's useful and at the same time can be very disastrous. I'm a lot of things. Paranoid is number one. I'm even paranoid of making friends. Is it because I'm insecure? Cos people tell me about other people being insecure many times. 'she's like that cos she's insecure..' Do I put up a front to cover it? Well, I guess its gonna take time for me to find myself. Now if I'll just fall asleep so that I can save this for my future therapy sessions.

http://happyfull07.speedgabia.com/all/PS131.htm

i feel like getting the black pair. and theyre only at $35 bucks!

one more thing thats buggin me - i still havent seen the last episode of 90210 season 2.

So today I was watching 'Wanted' on TV and I don't exactly know what got me thinking but I realized that I really like train scenes in movies. Not necessarily trains but in buses or car rides. The ones where they sit down and reflect what happened. Even the ones where they stare at other couples making out, reminding them of their ex-lovers. Whenever I take the train on my own, which is all the time, I will cut away any sounds from my surrounding by listening to my ipod, I will feel like I'm in one of those scenes myself. I'll observe a grandfather and his young granddaughter having a conversation, a Rachael Yamagata song comes on and it'll remind me of my own grandfather. I will imagine a camera taking an MLS shot of me from my right left side.

I found a link about best train scenes but I don't think its the one I meant.
http://www.trainstations.com/history/best-train-scenes-in-movies
I remember one from 'Coyote Ugly' if I'm not wrong. One from 'Wanted' after Wesley killed the guy through the 5th window.

These will hopefully be one of my many train ride posts. There'll be more to come. ;)