||[Dec. 16th, 2005|07:37 am]
i'm sad right now and i wish i wasn't. |
i wish a lot of things were different.
mainly just one though.
of people.things.old times.
the memories sometimes arent enough to get me by.
i love dave
||[Dec. 12th, 2005|12:23 am]
i had a nice weekend.
Friday after work i went to Grants Farm with Kori, Kelly & Judy. We froze our asses off but it was a blast. We also went to hang out at THE CRIB of course. And to Kohls & Steak n Shake.
Saturday I cleaned around the house and did some studying. Went to Dave's house to hang out. We started March Of The Peguines buit ended up not finishing that...uhh...We met up with Kelly & Eddie at AB to check out those x mas lights. Hah that was an interesting hour..Ummm. At around 930ish we all went to JackSons to hear Daddys band play. Met Mommy,Aunt Mary,Rick & Andee up there. Daves friend Jake came along. He's a nice guy. That's Dave's drinking buddy. Jake left the bar around 1130ish and kelly eddie dave and myself stayed till after we heard SWEET CAROLINE bdsajhfdjhejhgej love. so that was like 1230 or 1ish? kelly and eddie went back home. I went over to Dave's. We started to watch the movie again but just ended up falling alseep till I got called home at like 3. Saturday night was the best with Dave. Let me just tell you all that just laying with him is the most amazing thing ever. Really.
Today I studied some more. Baked cookies. Studied more. Made dinner. Studied again. Ate the dinner I made with Dave, Mom and Dad. Then we all watched MARCH OF THE PEGs. I really enjoyed that movie. Sat by the fire for a bit and watched Family Guy + Sienfield with Dave. I also layed with him of course, because that is my favorite thing to do these days.
Alllllright. Good weekend. Goodnight.
||[Nov. 26th, 2005|05:31 pm]
dave told me he loved me
it all went downhill from there
ummm i'll work whatever i have to out with that.
i love dave.
i still tlak to sharon everynight on the phone in case you were wondering bc well, were bffs and thats how it goes
sharons hot and ive seen her everyyyy dayyyyyy since shes been home for break& i LOVE IT
shes leaving tomorrow sadface but ill see her in the morningggg and then only like 3 weeks till shes home again YAY god love it!
tomorrow im taking her by the crib bc she hasnt seen it yet
the crib is rockin along and its going so well right now and it looks hottttttttttt
just got home from starbucks with sharon she got her usual pumpkin spice and i got mine peppermint mocha hi i love you okay andddd uMY UP
TONIGHT IM HANIGNG OUT WITH KIRSTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE THAT WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and probably kelly kori jessie and mike? BUT WHATEVER KIRSTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
last night was fun time i had some college kids over. you know. all my girlfriends who were home visiting it was a nice timeeeeee and i liked itt and i miss them
um thats all.
ive been crying for almost a week straight now about dave.
||[Oct. 24th, 2005|12:30 pm]
Heyyyyy pretties! |
how you been?
ive been pretty good.
the cardinals lost. you all know by now. i was there. it was still a fun time. i did cry. bye bye busch.
well go white sox! chicago yeah!
school is going well. A's & B's. starting to figure out my schedule for next semester.
weekend was fun. spent most of it with dave.
and my other loves.
my work makes me happy happpy.
thats pretty much it.
k um pointless to update but im bored waiting till i have to go pick up kelly from meramec. k bye
||[Oct. 11th, 2005|09:59 am]
i dont write that often these days.
so heres a mini update for you lovelys.
whats new in my world?
.still "dating" dave. =] we have tried the boyfriend girlfriend thing but somethings not right in the boys head. so we let that go. hes cute. im lucky. were going to a sneak preview of north country tonight.
.im in love with my job. little kids make me smilesmilesmile. and smilings my favorite so yay.
.i have been having these weird headaches for a few weeks now. and im noticing that they are happening more frequently. sometimes daily. its starting to worry me. my mom is having me write down when i have them and what i was doing. hope they go away or else i mgiht be headed to the doc. hi i have a headache now. WOW ANNOYING
.school is going well. im in love with my oral communications class. still trying to figure out my life after meramec. feel free to help me anytime with this.
.i still talk to sharon every single night on the phone. she means the world to me. im glad were still bffs. its gonna be like that forever. shes coming home this weekend. im ready for it. we need to have one of our nice long face to face heart to heart talks. yum. im looking foward to it. we are painting my room this weekend!!yay. we are also going to starbucks bc she hasnt been in forever&aday.and were going to a haunted house. this weekend will be fab.
.im going to start doing things for myself. important things. gotta take care of this life i value
.been hanging out with eddie kelly schmidt and mark a lot lately& LOVING every minute of it. i dont like when i stop hanging out with friends(see above names)but when we strat doing things together again its the greatest. they make me smile to no end.
i guess thats about it. oh today i had to take mommy to the doctor and in the waiting room i saw a woman reading A Million Little Pieces and it made me grin like an idiot. bc you all know how in love i am with mr james frey!!! and thanks to oprah and that book club of hers AMLP is #1nytbestsellers. thank you very much. hah i loveitttttttttttlovehimmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i will meet him. when he comes to STL. and he is. we talk. no kidding. we do chat. emails. hes coming in the spring for paperback tour for My Friend Leonard. KTHANKYOU. mmmmm you should all check out those two books if you havent alredy done so.
||[Sep. 24th, 2005|01:25 am]
|||||freakin death cab yeah||]|
happy birthday to the studly mr mike on the 22nd.
if you know what i mean.
ummmm tonight was just a pleasent night with kelly.
we went out to get pizza and to walgreens.
went back to her house and made root beer floats and played uno.
we went to pick up gary and his friend from someones house and we had a sing a long in the car to greeseandiamnowgoingtowatchthatmovietoniightbciforgothowhotitis.
was home by 1oclockish.
tomorrow=cleaning. gary's soccer game. the zoo!!!!!!!!with the hoochies. dave might meet us there. and we are going to steak n shake on hampton afterrrrrr mmmm. AUBREY MIGHT COME WITH!!!!! :) and i think im hanging out with mark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! havent done that in a while! he did stop by the bonfire last friday for a bit though. and it was nice to see him. i love that boy! hah remember when i used to like him..awwww hes cute! and has a girlfriend now.what a cute kid. haha ummmmmmmm yeah
sunday=church.apple picking in alton!!!!and then homework like you dont even know!!
i like i i talk to sharon every single night. we have our nightly chats. and its the best. shes an amazing person and im lucky to have her in my life.bffs for real.
sharo is coming home the weekend of the 15th!!! YAY! HOTTTTSEXXXX. we are going to paint my room! go to paulett's wedding! andddd a haunted house all that weekend! SO THAT SHALL BE LOVELY. AHHHHH I MISS HERRRRRRRRRR. she is so yum.
yuh so uhh sarb has some boy issues going on. theres dave. and then theres josh. oh man watch OUT! i like dave like so much its not even funny. you all probably know that. but what you dont know is that nothing more is going to happen. we had our thing which was never officially antyhing other than dating i suppose but wow we have been through a lot and he decided to tell me he wasnt comfortable with the age difference. ummmmokay. and it sucks because i have to get over him. i cant like him like that. we are still friends for sure for sure! forever. i love him. just bites bc i want so bad for things to get better with our relationship. whatever it is. but oh well. it will just have to grow by being only friends. ah no kissing or holding hands or falling asleep in his arms anymore. BLAHHH fhdjhfdjhgf if you only knew how much it means to me..but it sucks bc now im starting to like my cousins friend josh and i feel like i have to get over dave before liking someone else or youd think that liking someone else would make it eaiser but not really actually its harder for me. maybe im still wishing that dave will someday change his mind...whatever..
i love my life. and the people in it. goodnight. sleep well.
||[Sep. 14th, 2005|11:49 pm]
i'm 19 now. |
sister,krystal,kelly&kori all took me out for breakfast this morning, since oakville had a late start and kelly and i dont have class till 9. that was a BLAST.
went to class.
went to jack in the box for lunch with kellllllllllly.
came home and chilled at my house for a bit.
went over to the cousins house for a bit.
dinner with fam was amazing.
hahahha no kidding.
i love them.
laughslaughslaughs. ahhhh i love my family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
called kelly&kori to come over for birthday cake! ICE CREAM CAKE YUMMMMMMMMY!
kendall came over also.
it was a very pleasent day.
i had lots of calls on my phone today and many lovely messages from sexy people i havent heard from in a while wishing me a happy bday. it was nice. i saved the messages.
SHARO EVEN CALLED MEEEEEEEEEE During the dayyyyyyyyyyy yay
nothing unusual bc i mean we talk everynight bc i would die if not.
but i get 2 calls in one day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! normally we talk late at night before bed. blah i loveherrrrrrrrrrrrrrsosososomcuCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just got off the phone with dave.
all is right with the world.
k.lovely birthday. thanks.im looking foward to 19..
||[Aug. 23rd, 2005|12:56 pm]
sharon left for college.
its been sad.
but she will be back in 2 weeks.
so this is just sort of like shes on a long vacation.
but after that. ah.
its okay though.
she has called everynight.
and we talk.
and its nice.
i love my sharo.
tim also left.
he left my sister.
we are all making it..
things change. friends leave. but the world does not stop.
IT'S GONNA BE OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
went to the movies with dave on sunday. thats the last time i saw him. i miss him. whenever im not with him or talking to him on the ph0ne i miss him.
he is too cute.
he was hanging out with his best friend cate and his other friend virgina and they were doing some sort of arts and crafts or something. and he made me something. i find out what it is next time i see him. which will hopefully be tonight or tomorrow.
he treats me well. he has a beautiful heart. im lucky to know him.
oh. so school started. MWF i go from 9-12. its nice. and then every monday night from 7-940 i like not having school on tuesdays and thursdays
dave wants me to take a ceramic class with him. cute. and would be fun. but i duno if i wanna. maybemaybemaybe
alright. well. i think its time to go hang out with the kelly
||[Aug. 18th, 2005|10:05 pm]
i got a job at FITZ'S.
i love root beer floats + the loop.
okay thats nice.
i like dave.
||[Aug. 13th, 2005|01:51 am]
went to see wedding crashers with sharo JOe & dave.
funny funny funny.
and will ferrell.haaaaaaaaaaaaHAHAHAHHAlovehimyouallknowthat.
dave is amazing.
tonight he called me beautiful.held my hand the entire movie.&kept randomly kissing me.
a d o r a b l e.
im having a blast with him.
he really is a wonderful person.
34958jdfkdjskgjd im sleeping in his yummy smelling t shirt.
i think im going to build a bear w him tomorrow afternoon. it will be lovely.
i think someones falling for dave...