Please anyone give me definition of "dead-open-and-shut"?! I don't quite understand this phrase...
Alone Again, Naturally
In a little while from now,
If I'm not feeling any less sour.
I promised myself, to treat myself,
And visit a nearby tower ..........
And climbing to the top,
Would throw myself off,
In an effort to, make clear to whoever,
What it's like when your shattered .......
Left standing in a lurch,
In a church with people saying .....
My God, that's tough, she stood him up,
No point in us remaining .......
I may as well go home,
As I did on my own,
Alone again, naturally.
To think that only yesterday,
I was cheerful, bright and gay.
Looking forward to, and who wouldn't do,
The role I was about to play.
But as if to knock me down,
Reality came around,
And without so much as a mere touch,
Cut me into little pieces.
Leaving me to doubt, all about God and His mercy,
Oh, if He really does exist,
Why did He desert me?
And in my hour of need,
I truely am, indeed,
Alone again, naturally.
It seems to me that there are more hearts,
Broken in the world that can't be mended,
Left unattended, what do we do?
What do we do?
Now looking back over the years,
And whatever else that appears.
I remember I cried when my father died,
Never wishing to hide the tears.
At sixty-five years old,
My mother, God rest her soul,
Couldn't understand why the only man,
She had ever loved had been taken.
Leaving her to start, with a heart so badly broken,
Despite encouragement from me,
No words were ever spoken.
And when she passed away,
I cried and cried all day,
Alone again, naturally .....
Alone again ................................. naturally.
Music Piece: http://users.cis.net/sammy/alonea.htm
I have had quite a hard time at work in the last week. The workload became much heavier and I was unable to handle... luckily, my supervisor helped me and we have the problem resolved. I was so grateful that she took action not only to help but to protect me against the troubles. I think my luck isn't bad at all ever since I left the old work place. I shifted my lunch time to 1:30pm and I got a more cheerful and funny lunch company. The group is more open in talking about the work place and personal feelings, so I started getting more emotional support from the lunch-mates. But there's still a long way to go for me to really settle down in the new environment. There are several tens of people I have to deal with, and I guess many new things gonna happen...
Met two of my MP colleagues for dinner on Friday, ha... it was such a big fun. The 2 of them are great joke-tellers and I couldn't stop myself from laughing and talking very loud in the restaurant. Hee...well, I knew that we drew other people's attention when we laughed too loud, but I don't care =P Just one thing I really dislike about, one of my colleague is a good in imitating people, and he imitated Rain all throughout the dinner. Gosh~! Rain is never so ugly as the way he did! He's really funny when imitating Rain's facial expression and gesture, but he was ruining Rain's image at the same time. I just can't appreciate that while taking it as joke and laughed non-stop in the MTR train. Hahaha....how can I forget MP with colleagues like that? People in MP are very special and nice to me that I can hardly forget. They made the place unforgettable and created countless memories in my mind.
Eventually, I will have a chance to perform on the stage in the choir (The Worshipers) in October. Pretty excited about the show and hope some of my dear friends will come and see me. In fact, it is my ultimate goal to be a solo singer in the worship team, but my time isn't come yet. The training in the choir is very useful that I am very much enhanced in the singing technique. I should say that I am getting nearer and nearer to my goal and hope that one day, my friends and family can see me singing solo on the stage. http://www.theworshipers.com/
Swing of mood:
Music Piece: Full House Theme Song
2 and a half weeks passed, and I turned out coping with my new job quite perfectly.
Just found that I got excellently nice colleagues and senior people in the company, what a bliss! The work is still harsh and tiresome, but time flies swiftly amid the hectic work hours. I consider it's over all a satisfying and fulfilling job, since the company requires much higher disciplinary level. Seems like I am once again under intensive training like being in high school...ha. For a lazy gal like me, it's not at all a bad thing, at least. =P
I initially expected a couple of "trouble-makers" at work, yet as far as I see, no one can make too much trouble to me though there's someone trying to be bitchy on me. Unfortunately, guess she can do no harm. And the "Emily" I was being skeptical is in fact, a very nice girl to talk to. Aha...
Music Piece: Chances - Athlete
Having slept too much today and I am staying up late now.
Tomorrow will be another day for fighting again... ever since I got into this new job, my work life is drastically changed. Since I left my old work place, I set off to a strange battlefield from tranquility. Well, that's the pay-off as everyone has told me. I am not particularly unhappy in the new company, but I am sure I was quite happy in the old place. Anyway... there's no turning back and I have to let the bygone be bygone?!
So happy to have revisited the ex-company again yesterday, things haven't changed much and the people were almost the same. What a pity that I couldn't squeeze more time to see more ex-colleagues in the short visit, while I got too much to hand-over to the successor of my place. Glad that I get along quite well with her despite her "too talkative" style. I don't mind to answer her of any more further questions in the future as she's quite a nice girl. I planned to take away all my stuffs by the visit, however, they were still too many for me to pick up all at once. I still haven't got back my pot of dear green plant and stuffs. Luckily, Yin-jeh, an aunt who is really fond of me, promised to take good care of it until I take it back. Frankly speaking, I miss the people, almost everyone, in the old company soooo much. I tried to deny it to myself, but fact is undeniable. *sigh*... It was so happy to have had lunch with 2 of my ex-colleagues after the visit. I miss the aunties, I miss my friends, I miss my buddies and I miss my neighbour in there... God knows what can I do about it!? I feel that I should go and see them more often in this circumstances.
There are so many things to think about... and I always wonder if I can really know what is good for myself. One time, I think I can choose, yet I don't think it is another time. Sometimes, it seems good to choose and reject all those I don't want, but sometimes I see that it is very wrong. There is a moment I should go for what I want, whereas it's completely a dangerous act in another moment. In a puzzle as such, I am still searching for an answer. In an attempt to make myself more at ease, I just want to strike a balance between the 2 -- going after or against the flow of life, which is seemingly not so easy to be achieved.
Swing of mood:
Music Piece: True Blue - Madonna
Awww... I can't go on-line in the new work place! A bit pissed-off at first, but actually it's something I knew before reporting duty. Anyway, I can be more focused at work, and I started to like myself being so concentrated at getting my job done. Aha... perhaps self-discipline isn't my strength at all that a more confined environment is good for me at work. The working hours passed swiftly and I got off much earlier than before. Yeah, it's great! It's still at day time when I stepped out from the office. =)
The new work isn't quite simple at all, and I guess I need more time to make myself more familiar with it besides coping with the new surroundings and people. Interesting that there's a colleague who looks very much alike Emily, a long lost friend of mine (some of you might know who I am talking about)... well... that colleague works close with me and we reciprocate duties. *sigh* I feel that I cannot like her very much as her face looks too familiar in this association with a "friend" whom I am not very fond of.
Swing of mood:
|» 山田洋次 Yoji Yamada.|
Booked tickets for the following 2 Yamada movies, which are the masterpieces that I've been waiting to see on the big screen for a long time. I always missed the show times, but this time, I caught them. Some of you might know that I've been a big fan of Miyazawa Rie since my school years, and I still like seeing her in movies. Recently, she has a brilliant cast in Tony Takitani.|
黃昏清兵衛 Twilight Samurai
2004 /日本Japan/130min/In Japanese with Chinese & English subtitle
Cast: Sanada Hiroyuki, Miyazawa Rie, Kishi Keiko
13 Awards by Japan Academy Award including Best Film, Best Director, Best Actor, Best Actress
Best Foreign Film, Nominated by Ocsar
Yamada spent ten years developing Twilight Samurai, his first foray into the samurai genre. The status of the titular samurai warrior, played by Sanada Hiroyuki, is among the lowest in the class. He rushes home everyday at dusk to care for his young daughters after his wife died, earning him the nickname "twilight samurai" from his colleagues. A long-lost childhood friend, now the deserted wife of a local bully, finds him and volunteers to take care of his daughter. Love gradually grows between them, but the confines of class, tradition and the notion of virtue prove impossible to break. Only when he is dispatched to suppress a rebellion, with death looming around the corner, could the samurai confess his love.
幸福黃手絹 The Yellow Handkerchief
1977/日本 Japan/108min/In Japanese with English subtitle
Cast: Takakura Ken, Baisho Chieko, Takeda Tetsuya, Momoi Kaori
Best Film, Best Director, Best Actor and Best Supporting Actor by Japan Academy Award
No. 1 of the Ten Best Films of the Year 1977, by Kinema Junpo Magazine
One of the most beloved romantic films in Japan, the film stars Takaura Ken, the go-to character actor for gangster roles at the time, as a stoic and weathered ex-con on his way home to his wife. He is joined by a man recovering from a broken heart and a girl he picked up along the way. The three of them embark on a road trip filled with uncertainties and yearnings. The titular handkerchief comes from the request made by the ex-con to his wife, to indicate whether his return is welcomed. Sentimental and poignant, the film is seen by many as the peak of Yamada's creativity.
|» Water Cycling :>|
Went water cycling on Sunday and it's really fun~! Just got this pic via email.|
My best buddy and I on the cycling boat in the Water Sports Centre
I knew that it's not necessary to wear that life jacket, but well, I was too afraid of wearing none on the boat...=P
|» Rice Paper.|
Cuisines: French, Vietnam
Choices : Western, Noodles, Desserts
Address : 3/F Harbour City
Went to this French Vietnamese restuarant for lunch today. They serves pretty delicious food and stylish environment. Look at its entrance? An irovy petition of detailed carvings, projected sheer elegance and exoticism. I tried the lunch sets of spicy noodle and curry rice, and they are not bad at all. However, the attraction came from its sea view, bossa nova music and Vietnamese interior decoration. I felt like having a holiday somewhere in S.E. Asia while eating with my friend.
BTW, my mood swing bounds back and I found myself feeling so great in these couple of days. Obviously, I enjoy my short break so much that I cannot feel sad over my movement anymore. *sigh*... I am a way too changeable, isn't I?
Oh, I am kind of moody over moving to the new company... Suddenly, I realized that I have difficulties in leaving my lovely colleagues and the 4-yr old habitual work life in my old company. Changes always arouse anxiety in me... *sigh* But it's me who chosed to have a change and stuffs... ironic, dunno how to say. When I think of the people and the place, it's weird to know that I am no longer involved. Seems like I've lost something, or just that I am missing something? or any other things?|