|Stand and be counted.
||[06 Aug 2005|02:41am]
I don't know about that last entry.
Perhaps it was a waste of breathe.
Perhaps I'm just tired and under the weather.
Anyway, my hypothesis is this.
I have now come to a point in which I cannot keep attraction unless God is in the middle of it all.
If she does not love God as I do, I don't know if I can keep things up.
Perhaps I just find it very unattractive.
I don't know right now, but time will tell.
Her potential is amazing, but there's still so much more to learn of.
So, now more than ever, I want to slow it down and just get to know her.
I definitely don't want to jump into things; not because I won't be able to get out of it, but because I wouldn't want to waste her time and dare I say even hurt her.
That would be unfair of me.
What a bummer.
That's so not healthy.
I think I really jumped the gun on my portrayal of her. I don't thnk she is what I assumed. Me, of all people. I thought I learned my lesson on that one. Though, I suppose I've made progress in realizing this now instead of later.. as I did once before.
Perhaps the case remains the same. I'm just not ready for a relationship yet.
Potential is nothing without God.
Everything and everyone is NOTHING without Him.
So, have a look at reality.
We'll talk potential later down the road.
Anyway, these entries should be more about God, considering I'm really trying to get to the end of this breakthrough. I think God is making some progress in me still, although, I'm not putting in much work as of late.
Anyway, I need some prayer.
I need to read.