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(no subject) [Apr. 3rd, 2006|02:44 pm]
ameliorate_
thanks to my move and lack of school involvement I have time for the Internet again.
I missed it to some degree; I think I'll up my ego by applying at some communities. That is mostly a joke, if you were not able to catch that.

I went to the doctor yesterday and he presented me with a clean bill of health. My weight is 'stable' and my iron/electrolyte levels are fine. Mom is satisfied and she doesn't sit me down at the table and pratically force feed me anymore. Lately I've been eating FRUIT. It's amazing. I really want to taake a huge watermelon to a park and eat it, maybe even by myself!

West Virgina isn't so, so bad. The weather is a wild card. Last week it was 75-80 by the end of every afternoon. It rained randomly last night, started out beautiful today, rained, and now it's just windy. I haven't found a school yet. I am thinking about a GED. Mom wants me to finish high school in a high school. There are crap private schools here.

I got a modeling job for a prom catalogue, but it is back home (Minnesota).
I don't know what to do here. I walk a lot, go to this mall in Barboursville.
I made it to two shows, but there's a large, um, very snobbish, unwelcoming population here, and I guess I am judged my style. That's lame. Oh well.

Onwards, to communities.
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(no subject) [Mar. 15th, 2006|02:54 pm]
ameliorate_
West Virginia is crummy, wahh.

I miss the lakes and the cold weather. I miss the Mpls Sculpture Garden and Starbucks.

Now I just have boxes upon boxes to unpack.
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(no subject) [Mar. 3rd, 2006|02:56 pm]
ameliorate_
I have to give away my dog.
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(no subject) [Feb. 3rd, 2006|03:00 pm]
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I found 3 pairs of Express jeans at Goodwill for $3 a piece!

I love red toenail polish. I want Spring to arrive so I can show off my pretty toes.

Moving less than a month.
I miss being in school.
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(no subject) [Jan. 17th, 2006|03:01 pm]
ameliorate_
Sometimes my head looks like an alien fetus.
Maybe they stopped mid-abortion.

I feel silly and high today.
I saw Shannon!! We really did get high and then we went bowling with her friends.
They are okay, but loud and remind me of kids in an American Eagle commercial.
Preppy preppy preppy, but pretty too.

Modeling=this weekend.
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(no subject) [May. 8th, 2005|11:51 pm]
ameliorate_
A Grand Entrance.
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(no subject) [Jan. 18th, 2005|08:01 pm]
ameliorate_
hurt me and just hurt me, until I get my/your satisfactionCollapse )
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(no subject) [Jan. 14th, 2005|07:56 pm]
ameliorate_
I've forgotten to update this, but I took an online quiz much to my dismay, which reminded me of livejournal. I find those things bothersome, too trendy, to be put in a journal which has always seemed like a heaven of free space to me, even if it is online. I'm rambling though and need to be hushed.

I'm constantly listening to old Mars Volta which is At the Drive In. I don't know which way the band broke up originally, who went where. The songs are so intricate and cryptic. I don't know what the lyrics mean, but I feel emotional, full, intelligent when I listen to them. It's my anti-hunger force.

It's contangious...
*sheepish grin*

I started back up studies with Aunt Cora. She was being a prude, bitchy even. T.T
Math is too complicated and mind numbing. I shall take a stand and not participate.

Jack and I are no more. I broke up with him. He's too dull, unpassionate. He didn't want to hold my hand or come over. He missed me going out with people and getting so drunk I couldn't remember anything. I missed him being simple. So, what? A misguidance of expectations. It's better this way.

I've picked up old habits. Running fingers over my body, mirror shots every five seconds, pilates, running, scratch, scratch, bruising. I even smoked a clove cigarette today, but it wasn't satisfying. Everything else is.

Spring, please come soon...
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(no subject) [Dec. 25th, 2004|07:50 pm]
ameliorate_
Dad did get me a car, but the thing is I don't have a license to drive it with. I don't know what he was thinking. It is a 2001 dark blue Jetta. Tres pretty, very sporty, and I suppose I'm in love with it. I just sat in it today, pretending where I might go in it some day, what CDs I will listen to, what conversations might be had. I surveyed the back seat and it has plenty of room for...intimacy *gigglesnort*

I also got a lovely puppy like I wanted. It's one of those adorable yappy dogs that you will all hate. But she is tiny and fluffy and white. I named her Madeliene because she was amongst 12 Maltese puppies. :)

Now that I've got a snazzy car and a rich lady's pooch, I just need some jewelary. Too bad I dislike expensive flashy things. I'd rather wear a ring out of a quarter machine.

My cousins were over today, and tried to get me to eat lasagna. Emily is twelve and already has the shape of a mature young woman. I just hope she takes care of herself, unlike me. Cassie is only eight and she asks questions about everything. She wanted to own me. Pest.

I'm always so tired; I even declined going out with some of Jack's friends since they are out for Christmas break. I just want to watch movies and be held. I wish my energy would come back...

Love,
Kumi
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(no subject) [Dec. 24th, 2004|06:40 pm]
ameliorate_
[mood |distressedouch]

Woke up with my blinds open, blinded by white. Snow up to the second steps.

My driveway is much too large for me to shovel. I'm too weak to shovel the area where four cars could fit, side by side. Daddy is silly for thinking I could.
Hahahh. At least I am strong willed in saying no -angel halo-

I'm so glad my Aunt homeschools me, so I didn't have to trek out there.

My body hurts.
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