She Dances In A Ring Of Fire

I'm really just over it all. I'm happy being single. I think I'll just continue trying it for a while.

Don't fucking bring my dad into this shit. Don't make me feel bad because he's dead.

It's my birthday. Last night was really fun. My roommates and I went downtown. I got really drunk. Today Jatin took me to the movies, and then I went out to dinner. I wanted to get really drunk tonight but I ended up getting really sick before I even started drinking. I'm not really that upset over it. I wasn't really that excited about my birthday this year. I mean, I'm not really spending it with anyone that important to me. I mean, granted I love some of the friends I have made.. But honestly, these people are probably going to be out of my life in a few months anyways if I get into a photography school around Syracuse. I do love my roommates. I get sad thinking of life without them, but I just do not feel complete here. And I'm really not that big of a party person. Honestly, if I could have had the perfect birthday it would have been to be with my mom, my aunt and uncle, Sydney, Jeffrey, and Steven. I would have gone to Roji with Mike, Eric, Caitlin, Jon, Julie, Sam, Stukey, Peter... I don't know.
I guess I'm always a little bummed on my birthday. It's another landmark in my life I don't get to spend with my dad. I really wanted to see The Bucket List today, but I guess it's really a movie about men with cancer, and I don't think I could have done that. My dads family didn't call me.. of course. I guess I expected that. Really, I just miss my mom. I'm just really homesick. I know none of my friends could have come down for my birthday. I mean, they're in school... and it's really hard it just sucks like not having my best friends here. I guess I don't really have best friends anymore, but my birthday was just so fun last year. It wasn't a big to do, but I was with Keisha, Petra, Mary, Kara, Mike, Kevin, and Anthony. Probably a few others and I just dont remember. I don't know. I'm going to stop complaining.
Overall, my birthday rocked. I got some sweet gift cards, Wicked tickets of course even though I got them in December, and I had a really good time with my roommates last night. The movie today was sweet. I love national treasure. I guess really, I'm just most upset about my dads family not calling.

the last thing i want in my life is to run away and start a family.
im twenty and in college. i dont want a husband or a kid.
i dont even really want any sort of relationship thats serious.
friends are good enough for me, so stop your whining.

im moving back to syracuse next year.
i have to. i can't live in this house anymore.
i suppose i can talk about it with my mom in depth when i see her next week.
i wish i could just go home next week, and never come back here.

School is somewhat delightful lately. The weather is getting much nicer and I am enjoying it. I am just ready to move. To start off fresh in Florida. I am 95% positive I will be going to Valencia up in Orlando next fall which excites me. Valencia offers dance. I would LOVE LOVE LOVEE to take a dance class again.

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wegmans is full of bums and isn't calling me.. or returning my calls. hmph. is anyones job hiring?? that doesn't suck and will understand that i'm in college and can't work 2983748327 hours a week??

my roommates been gone for almost a week now and i don't know why she chooses not to stay here.. but shes staying on the lease. she owes me $176 and i don't know what to do because... now i have like $15. my landlord also keeps calling because she needs bridget's half of the rent. she won't return my phone calls. I'm so screwed.

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