they only want you when you're seventeen

metronome burn.

2005-01-08T23:51:47Z

convervatory exams suck. the key of f# sucks.

_zombie @ 2004-12-26T02:23:00

2004-12-26T07:35:04Z

1. hair color: dark

2. eye color: green or brown

3. height: not so tall

4. six pack: no thank you
5. long or short hair: doesnt matter

6. glasses: doesn't matter.

7. piercings: not eyebrow or nose.

8. scars: good story

9. eyebrows: hopefully 2.

10. big butt or little: ?

11. chest hair: no

12. buff or skinny: skinny, not too skinny

13. straight teeth, gap, or braces: straight, but not perfect braces teeth.

14. funny or serious :both! obviously..

15. party or stay at home: at home

16. should he cook or bake: cook

17. should he have a best friend: yes

18. should he have a lot of girlfriends: doesn't matter

19. outgoing or shy: shy

20.should he love his mother: if it's possible

21. should he watch chick flicks: no

22. would he be a smoker: no

23. would he drink: casually. no "omg Im gunna get so wasted"

24. would he swear: only when appropriate.

25. would he play with your hair: yes. not obsessively.

26. one or more girls at a time: NEVER

27. would he pay for dates: not often

28. does he kiss on the first date: cheek or hand

29. where would you go to dinner: diner

30. would he bring you flowers: yes.

31. would he lay under the stars with you: definitely.

32. would he write poetry about you: possibly. nothing cheesy.

33. would he call you hunny, sweetie, or baby: very very very occasionally.

34. would he hang out with you and YOUR friends: yes

35. would you hang out with him and HIS friends: yeah

36. will he walk you to the door at the end: yes.

37. holding hands: always

38. soccer: sure

39. baseball: hopefully not

40. basketball: no

41. football: dont think so.

42. water polo: haha Prince Harry. no.

43. surf: could..

44. skateboard: as transport until he gets a car

45. snowboard: yes

46. sing: absolutely

47. play guitar: doesnt have to

48. play piano: very cute

49. play drums: doesnt matter

50. clean his room: not obsessively

51. writes his own music: as long as it isnt lame or cheesy.

52. use the word dude: as a joke?

53. use the word tight: please don't.

54. would he watch the sun rise with you: sunset.

55. what kind of car does he drive: really old,

56. how old is he: older by a couple years

57. what would his name be: the name of a famous composer or someone artistic

DEAR BEN

2004-12-18T04:28:10Z

this is all for you, because you are awesome

<3

you have acne of the soul

2004-11-15T01:57:42Z

today was pretty cool.
We went to toronto and saw hairspray. we were lucky to have gotten tickets.
I would also like the bring to attention the fact that I HATE HATE HATE hanging out with Chalaine and Dan. I'm happy Kylie was there.
The play was cool though, and I got a coat.

Nerd.

2004-11-12T03:30:50Z

Reasons why I am a bigger nerd than you are:
I play barry, alto sax, bass, contrebass, guitar and violin.
I am a member of 3 school bands, and enjoy it.
I have a lead role in Jesus Christ Superstar.
I am on the Nerd Bowl Team.
I have a 95% average.
I don't go to parties.
I don't do drugs.
I own a retainer, and sometimes, I even wear it.
I watch jeopardy religiously.

_zombie @ 2004-11-09T16:46:00

2004-11-09T23:18:07Z

Adam was being moody today.
I HAD CIVICS!! I don't like it.
Sean half came over but then was scared.
& I stepped in dog poo. it wasn't funny.

oh yeah and I made an A&P friend. CUTE.
yo report cards on friday what what!

_zombie @ 2004-11-08T18:34:00

2004-11-09T00:54:07Z

I freaked RIGHT OUT today
Joe is crazy. and shouldn't be allowed to drive.

see my eyes I can hardly see

2004-11-06T00:08:27Z

I am going to Quebec for the weekend!
I AM A LEPER.

_zombie @ 2004-11-04T17:05:00

2004-11-04T22:08:50Z

wtf is this?
people who aren't even voting age being all like
"omfg my life is completely ruined I'm going to slit my wrists now"
because Bush was re-elected.
FU, the only political education you've probably ever had is watching farenheit 911.

_zombie @ 2004-11-04T16:53:00

2004-11-04T21:55:30Z

my mascara is running
I learned how to do a back flip. just like THAT.
I think I broke my ovaries.

_zombie @ 2004-10-31T22:22:00

2004-11-01T03:25:31Z

it's like
Me+ Adam t = love
k I wish
I had to post because it's hallowizzle
Jessica and I did the trick or treatage.
uhmmmm we didn't see Brad. disappointment.

_zombie @ 2004-10-13T19:11:00

2004-10-14T00:15:32Z

on a less devastating note..

I got some mark updates that go as follows
Relig. 84% and highest in class
Math 95% and bound to decrease
Careers 100%
and music, I don't know, I'm guessing around 93ish

and the funeral is friday
and they didnt need a coroner.
and my dad is there now.
and my phone isnt working
which causes problems

and I have to go to trampoline now.

_zombie @ 2004-10-13T14:54:00

2004-10-13T19:57:59Z

this day isn't cool because my aunt died.
I'm not sad yet.
Like, it hasn't hit me, yet.
Know that feeling?

_zombie @ 2004-10-08T20:13:00

2004-10-09T01:16:44Z

Morgan and I went to the mall
just for the sake of getting out of the house
nothing happened of excitement
except when the American Eagle boys flashed us
how erotic.

_zombie @ 2004-10-08T16:17:00

2004-10-08T21:19:46Z

I think things
for the most part
are good.
I think
for me
I hope.
I don't know.

brooze!

2004-10-07T21:57:24Z

I have a bruise just above my eye.
I have a bruise just above my knee.
There was a collision.
And Sean is in Ottawa.

_zombie @ 2004-10-06T15:15:00

2004-10-06T20:44:04Z

- kristen. /watching newborn babies crack from work related stress. says:
where were you today! i missed you.
death like not on the news. death like right next door. WTF. says:
retreat.
- kristen. /watching newborn babies crack from work related stress. says:
ohhh. well you missed a killer music class.
- kristen. /watching newborn babies crack from work related stress. says:
wait, no you didn't.
- kristen. /watching newborn babies crack from work related stress. says:
although, pankey did crack open the jokes.
death like not on the news. death like right next door. WTF. says:
omfg really?
death like not on the news. death like right next door. WTF. says:
tell me one.
- kristen. /watching newborn babies crack from work related stress. says:
what does a drummer sit on?
death like not on the news. death like right next door. WTF. says:
what?
- kristen. /watching newborn babies crack from work related stress. says:
a thrown, and if he is bad he gets kicked off.
- kristen. /watching newborn babies crack from work related stress. says:
HAHAH.
death like not on the news. death like right next door. WTF. says:
I dont get it..
- kristen. /watching newborn babies crack from work related stress. says:
yah me either.
death like not on the news. death like right next door. WTF. says:
AHAHAHAHA.

This is just daily details.

Today was surprisingly a very good day. I thought it would be awful because Sean couldn't come, but I was wrong.
I spent the whole day with Dante, Richard and Marina. Marina proved herself to be not as bitchy as I had thought.
My whole movement to stop being interested in Dante was shattered by his "dashing good looks and boyish charm."
And his subtle reference to Starsky & Hutch and Night at the Roxbury (dissometer!..)
We went to the beach which was pretty.
My favorite part, though, was on the bus. The stupid douches at the back were singing "the song that never ends" and I started singing Oh! Darling, and he joined in. He likes the Beatles. wtf.
I'm kind of disappointed that he doesn't suck as much as I had anticipated.

I think this weekend is the last Glen Allan weekend. Sadface.

no

2004-10-05T19:43:28Z

since 2001 my aunt has been battling cancer and diseases and being fucked over a million times. It's almost been 5 years of her getting better, and then worse, and then radiation, and then "we found something else wrong", and then chemotherapy, and Benny Hinn, and pills and rest. And hundreds of thousands of dollars, and miles and love. She's so beautiful.

"Julia, everyone is going to Uncle Don's house this weekend. Sharon's coming from florida, everyone will be there. It probably won't be a big dinner or anything"

I'm thinking my mom is asking what Im going to eat since theyll order chicken or something and I don't eat meat. I'm sorry for being a vegetarian and always complicating meals.

"basically, everyone will be there to say their last goodbyes."
No.
What if I don't want to say my last fucking goodbye?
Things don't end like this.
Two months ago she was sitting on the patio with us. Two months ago she went to the Air Canada Centre.
You don't say a last goodbye.

_zombie @ 2004-10-04T17:19:00

2004-10-05T00:20:13Z

im burning like a bridge for your body... says:
its ok i had like a 20 minute crush on a handicaped guy once...
im burning like a bridge for your body... says:
he was so cute though
im burning like a bridge for your body... says:
he had those arm braces
your voice on a breakfastless morning says:
AHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA

George is bored. says:
I can be handicapped for you, baby
im burning like a bridge for your body... says:
FUCK YOU

_zombie @ 2004-10-04T15:38:00

2004-10-04T20:39:44Z

a telus commercial has a le tigre song.

_zombie @ 2004-10-04T15:15:00

2004-10-04T20:27:21Z

you know, I can be so girly sometimes.
my dog meowed today
I can't wait until rehearsals start.

Soon, Cory Flynn and I are having a KD party
And I'm invited

I have the girliest crush ever
- and Sean is awesome

today has been the best day in a long time.

2004-10-01T20:20:32Z

I was nervous and angry all day.
But really, it was a good day. In Music I got 100% on my playing test. I probably failed my quiz though. Nearing the end of sixth period my stomach was in complete knots. Like dropping on a big rollercoaster. It was awful. As soon as the bell rang I had to be courageous. I turned the corner to the drama room. 60 people auditioned. 8 got lead roles.
Annas: Julia Segal. I think I screamed.
I looked to the beginning of the list
Jesus: Adam Thompson
I turned around and he gave me the biggest hug ever.

Judas: Kyle Brown (:
Mary: double cast Charlene and Christina
Simon: MEG!
Pilate: Teresa :)
Ciaphus: Dan

Up walks Dante. What a cocky bitch. He knows he has it.
He sees his name
Herod: Dante
He sees my name
He gives me a hug
I like Dante. I think he hates me.

The problem is, when 60 people audition, and 8 people get a lead role, 52 people hate you. And now all my friends call me Anus.

_zombie @ 2004-09-30T17:57:00

2004-09-30T23:49:23Z

This will be kind of long and detailed so I'm sorry.

Today was the buyout. I finally got to hang out with Morgan, I miss her. I hung out with Aaron.

Afterwards was the big audition. It was in alphabetical order so I was near the end. It's crazy how so many amazing singers were compressed in that little room. Some Honourable mentions include:
Theresa; she's so amazing, she came up to ME after school and told me she thought I was good. She is too good for words.
Meg;
Heather Thompson;
Jessica Nicholson
Asian ninth grader;
ADAM THOMPSON WTF?!yes.
Kyle Brown; he wrote Kyle is hot on my arm. Had he sung another note, I would have cried. Oh mg.
sigh. Dante boys who can sing weaken my anterior cruciate ligaments.
I've figured out why he's so nice to me: He knows he's got the part. Oh well, at least he agreed to do Oleanna with me. Pourquoi est-il si désirable

Anyway, the first song I did was "Heaven on their minds", which I did terribly. Then I did "Pilate's dream", which I don't really remember. Then I did a duet to "I don't know how to love him" with Caitlin Gallager. She is awful, I felt sad that I was paired with her. Then I did "Heaven on their minds " again, and I did it very well. I dropped to my knees and stuff, dramatic.

Afterward I got pizza with Sean, John, Kyle Brown, Marina, Jessica, and Rob. I love Rob and his blurting "no wonder you don't have a boyfriend".

I love, I love how Sean is so protective. I think it's really cute. And on the other hand, I hate, I hate how John is so perverted.
Me: Did you see me?
John: I was watching you, then you bent down, and Sean told me to turn around or he'd kick my ass
Me: I don't get it
Sean: He was looking at your ass.

I just saw my neighbour who moved out a couple months ago and moved to Toronto and he is SMOKIN'. Like, he used to be fat and smelled bad. And now. Gosh. Gary Doucet Jr. you are one hunk of man. I think hes gay though. He dresses like Jim.

_zombie @ 2004-09-29T17:16:00

2004-09-29T22:23:37Z

Yesterday was my audition.

But apparently they liked it.
I GOT A CALL BACK.
I got the music for it, three songs.
We have to sing 2 out of the 3 SOLO tomorrow, infront of all the callback people.
It's awful, these people are AMAZING. I don't know why I'm there.
rruuugghhhrrhgh we'll see what happens, won't we?

_zombie @ 2004-09-27T18:04:00

2004-09-27T23:29:03Z

"first we'll do some stuff to loosen you guys up"
"I am loose"
followed by Robynne's uncontrollable laughter.

tomorrow is the big day! wish me some break a leg?