....regretfully yours....

I haven't updated this thing in what feels like forever. But until now, I guess I didn't really have anything exciting to post about.

Just the facts:
Found out we were knocked up: October 6th
First Doctor's appointment: November 11th
First heard the heartbeat: December 18th (and immediately cried)
Found out it was a boy: January 13th (and immediately cried)
Due date: June 11th, 2009

I try very hard not to be the typical pregnant lady. For the most part I think I've kept my emotions under control and my cravings to a minimum. I'm sure Brian really appreciates all of this.

Less than 5 months left to go...let the games begin.

so jealous.

i realize i'm super late in jumping on the bandwagon but guitar hero is super fun and it makes me want to throw a guitar hero party.

So it's official. I'm an old married woman. Signing my new name is still very foriegn too me as well as the words "husband" and "wife". But I'm sure the same goes for everyone when they take the plunge. It's a very strange feeling to plan a wedding. All together I spent a good portion of 15 months either planning or thinking about this one day and now it's over and it's kind of a downer. Not the being married part, but the not having something big and important to plan. Now I can kinda understand why a lot of people have kids right after they get hitched, because they crave the anticipation. We however are not going to be one of those people dont you worry. My big thing to focus on right now is finishing our yard/fence and completing the MT program. So for now I have something else to keep my attention.

Brian's big focus seems to be planning our next vacation. He's got his eye set on Cuba and I'm not so sure that I am sold on the idea yet. (oh I sure hope the patriot act people aren't monitoring my livejournal)

I've been offered a bit of a promotion at work. Which kinda puts my whole idea of finding a new job out the window. I'll basically be doing the same thing, but WAMU is going to pay for me to get licensed to sell insurance and mutual funds and things of that nature. It's something I'm personally interested in, so if nothing else I'll atleast learn something new. And I get to go to California for a week for the final training, so thats neat I guess.

This summer is flying by. I want to try and plan a trip to go camping labor day weekend but I'm not sure where or with whom. But Brian and I will both have it off so I would like to take advantage of that.

Yes, I do have a myspace now. So shoot me.

so i'm having a bit of a bridezilla moment. we still have a little over five months to plan the wedding. but theres just too many decisions that all need to be coordinated together that instead of just starting with something simple (like choosing the freaking colors) i've pretty much given up all together and have decided to just sit and frustrate myself. mindy has offered to go bridesmaid dress shopping with me on monday, so i guess thats a start.

i'm basically the worst bride ever.



i read a few of my old entries from like 3 years ago and some of them were so vague that i, honest to god, can't even remember what i was talking about. boy, am i cool.

Ryan is home. Holla!

It is absolutely ridiculous how many people were at the Muckleshoot casino last night.

Turkey dinner part two happens tonight. yum.

I cannot decide on a wedding dress for the life of me. Too many choices and they all start to look the same after a while.

I want to go to a Sonics game soon, and go skiing, and see a good movie, and live life.





"Hugs not Drugs" is my new motto.

death cab for cutie is headlining a show at key arena. holy shit.

10 months (give or take a few days) until the big day. According to all the wedding books and websites I should be pretty much in hardcore planning mode right now. But it's still so far away I just cant get motivated. I'm probably totally shooting myself in the foot by doing this, but I think I'll wait a few more months.

up until about 5 minutes ago i thought that "i write sins not tragedies" was by fall out boy. wow. i'm so out of the loop. so i searched for "panic! at the disco" on google and got to their myspace page (barf) and saw that fall out boy was listed as one of their top friends or whatever and people are commenting on how great they were at the VMA's. but i thought that panic! won at the VMA's and now i'm just really confused. if someone could explain it would make my day.

i've wasted enough time in front of this thing.

i can't stop starring at the back of my left hand. and i also can't stop smiling.

as far as i'm concerned i officially have the last piece of jewelry i'll ever need.













and they lived happily ever after.....

i never see anyone anymore.

but if you're reading this i've probably thought about/missed you atleast once over the past week.

i'm awful at calling people and even worse at returning phone calls.

but the next time you're bored and would like some company, give me a call and we'll go get a beer. i promise i'll pick up.

nothing sucks more than being a job where nearly every single customer asks you "How are you?", and you are forced to say something to the effect of "i'm fine", when you're really feeling like puking from trying to hold in your tears.

what a perfect start to March.

In honor of the fact that I get to see July this evening, when I was grocery shopping this afternoon I picked up a bottle of Arbor Mist and proceeded to drink the entire bottle.

Or maybe it's in honor of the fact that at work yesterday I had a man pass me a note saying "I want the 100's, 50's, 20's and 10's or I will shoot you". Yep, I'm not kidding. for the first time in 10 years the branch i work at was robbed. fucking scary shit. However with the amazing description that I gave the police, they caught him about 20 minutes later about 8 blocks away and I had to ride in the back of a police car in order to identify him. yep, once again..fucking scary. It was just like law and order though and i'm glad they caught the son of a bitch and retrieved the thousand bucks he got away with. He was willing to risk going to jail for a long time just for a thousand lousy dollars. i dont understand people sometimes. I tried to go to work today, but it was making me feel anxious just standing at my window...and I really couldn't miss the opportunity to get some paid time off, so I left after 3 hours.

i really think it was karma though. the one time in almost a year that I've shown up to work hung over, i get robbed. coincidence? i dont think so.

on a happier note...

Seeing ryan and jen this weekend was rad. i really do wish they lived closer by. instead of in shit brockport. however, i do believe i would follow in ryan's footsteps and become a fucking alcohol if they lived over here. In the three nights that I hung out with them i consumed more alcohol than i normally would in 3 weeks. but nonetheless i had such a great time that all the damage to my liver was worth it.

brian cleaned the entire apartment just so i wouldn't have to. and it was gross after ryan and jake got through with it. brian takes such good care of me, i dont know what i would do without him.

we had talked about having people over to watch the seahawks game, but i have no idea if anyone is interested anymore. god knows i'm not interested in watching the game, but i wouldn't mind having a few beers on a saturday afternoon. (it is this saturday, right?)

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we have less than 5 months left on our lease in this apartment. it's ridiculous that we've been living together so long. it seems like we just moved in. i love looking at houses online. and i can't wait to go look at houses in person.

amber mentioned going out friday night. should be good times. i like the "mike, matt, amber" crew.

cheers.

so my 21 run has come and gone and i must give a shout out to the following people for making it super fun...and buying me all those drinks =)

the following people are neat:
biggestegoaward, facingreality, gingericecream, rockthemike, justplainmatt, lisalou244, naked_doug, debomb, and Ben (who may or may not have a livejournal, I have no idea.

Out of the three bars we went to, I was only carded once, which was a little disappointing. But I suppose I should take it as a compliment that I dont look 16 or anything.

Lisa posted some fun pictures, but I shall steal my favorite one and place it here in my journal as well. I hope you dont mind Miss Lisa.


Rachel drinking her first Mac and Jacks. Yum Yum Yum.

I managed to make each and every one of my goals. I got good and drunk (13 drinks), i didn't do anything too stupid, i think everyone present had a good time, and i remember 95% of the night (the only real part i'm missing is between leaving the bar and waking up the next day).

So thanks again guys for coming out with me and making my birthday so fun.

My next plan is to go out on the evening of Christmas day, after everyone is done with family stuff. Assuming I can find a bar that is open. If you care to join, please do.

So I've been informed that my 21st birthday is this Saturday and that I need to make some plans. But being the underage little girl that I am, I have no idea where I want to go. Therefore, I am looking for some suggestions from you people for a classy bar that serves yummy drinks. It would be nice if it were in walking distance of more "drinking holes", but it's not necessary.

Oh, and if anyone would like to join in the celebration. Thats cool. Just call or comment or something.

Thats about it for now.

i was tagged by the illustrious a. keiko wilson so i guess i must post

10 things i like...

1. homemade cranberry sauce
2. our new HDTV
3. July (both the month and the person)
4. having friends who love me no matter
5. sex
6. being secure
7. cosmos
8. hearing him sing in the shower
9. sour patch kids
10. long walks on the beach

i would like to tag mr. lindy, even though he never reads lj, miss amber, and that one girl i know that lives in bellingham.

Tomorrow evening we are going to be celebrating Brian's, Matt's, and Mike VF's 23rd birthdays. Amber says we are going to be heading to a cafe in Renton and then probably back to our apartment for cake (??) and definitely drinks. Originally I had been hoping to throw a real party, but it seems like this weekend has just snuck up on me too quick and I never got around to inviting anyone. Basically I am lame. So if you dont have any plans for Saturday night around 9:00 or 9:30 you should call one of the individuals involved and come hang out and celebrate the birth of these three wonderful people.

22 days left of being a minor. Can you feel the excitement? Probably not. Especially since I can't.

next week i get to go to new accounts class. a week spent away from working at my branch is going to be nice. the week after that is short because of thanksgiving and then the week after that is Brian's birthday. so november seems to be pretty much done.

i'm not super excited about getting both of our families together for thanksgiving dinner. my father has been known to embarass his children on a regular basis.

brian just tried to hop over here and see what i'm doing. but i sent him back to his end of the couch. pretty much the only reason i'm updating is because the seahawks are boring. and football is lame.

my sonics are kinda sucking this year. but i still love them. and i will go see them sometime soon.

i would like to go back to school now.

that group health commercial with the goat gets me everytime.

raspberry beer is yummy and i'm looking forward to trying the winter ale's in our fridge.

keiko..i swear i really will call you soon and we really will hang out.

Another Saturday morning.
I need to find a new routine.
But until I do this shall be my plan for the day (as most Saturdays go for me)

1)wake up at 7:30
2)stay in bed until 10:30 watching tv/resting/dinking around online
3)eat a bowl of cereal
4)get extremely frustrated with how messy the apartment is
5)vow to never let it get this gross again
6)clean the entire apartment until it is once again livable
7)shower
8)go shopping and/or go see a movie until Brian gets home from work

wow. i rule.


I love, love, love the idea of Halloween. But deep down inside I hate it because coming up with a decent CHEAP halloween costume is one of the most difficult things to do. Amber and I went out last night to find costumes and neither of us were successful. But we did come up with a back-up idea in case neither of us can find a real costume.

Erienne is engaged.
Emmie is engaged.
Holy shit, I feel old.

I know that when I go to Emmie's wedding and watch two people I knew back in junior high/high school get married that it's going to be surreal. I'm sure I'll cry. Partially because weddings just do that to me and partially because I dont want to grow up.

Speaking of Emmie...I miss seeing her every day.
Speaking of people I miss...July? where are you?

Work is okay. But I swear if I dont get atleast a dollar an hour raise at my review that US Bank is going to be getting a resume.

My roommate and I are so in love. Wanna know how i know? probably not, so I'll spare you the gooshy details.

I've already staying in bed ten minutes longer than I said I would. god, i'm such a lazy ass.

I'm still looking forward to December. And that's a very good thing.

god i love being right.

amber...check out this website and it'll prove that fred savage was never on ER. You owe me $2.00. =)

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0472710/


P.S. it's really a bad idea to comment on people's livejournal when you're drunk. hmmm.....oh well.

I'm happy with my life and I'm done with this. I need to go wake up Brian now, since he's passed out on our couch. But he's so damn cute, it's going to be such a challenge to disturb his lseep.

i've had far too much vodka tonight. and my apologies if i called you.

at the risk of sounding completely stupid, i must admit that everything that hasn't killed me as made me stronger. so why should our relationship be any different. for the past eight months my significant other and i have consecutively watched all 6 seasons of Sex in the City. 5 of those 6 seasons were purchased as gifts for me, usually just for the hell of it because he knew it would make my day to get to watch the next disk. we just finished the last season this afternoon, and ever since he left for work i've been thinking about how fucking lucky i am to have him. it's all the little things he does for me that have added up to me being so content with my life. i live in the exact same town that i grew up in, i'm living paycheck to paycheck not saving a dime, i see very few of my friends on any kind of regular basis (not on purpose of course), i have an associates degree and i dont see any more schooling in my near future, and yet despite what might look to be a disappointing life...i am 100% happy. life is really really good, but sometimes i wonder if it's pathetic that i'm enjoying my life so much right now. what ever happened to little 17 year old rachel who vowed never to be financially dependent on a man and who planned to find an amazing career and be what society would deem "successful". all of those goals have pretty much gone out the window for now. i kid around with amber at how we both just need to find rich husbands so that we can just have babies and take care of the house. would i be so 1950's core if that was exactly what i wanted to do?

i love how this started off on a completely different topic and has now just turned into mindless jibber jabber.

if i dont get bumped up to 40 hours guaranteed at the wamu within the next week or so, i'm going to start seriously looking for a new job. screw this whole getting 30 hours a week bullshit. i hear usbank pays way better anyway.

death cab's general admission is already sold out for both shows. so i suppose that answers the question of whether or not i want to go see them this time around. but maybe with the money i dont spend on that bumbershoot might be in the cards instead. i can't believe that is next weekend. where the hell did summer go?

i need to get better at actually calling the people i dont see often enough. instead of just bitching about the fact that i never hear from them.

3 months and 20 days til the big 21. for some reason the excitement has died down and now instead i'm just really looking forward to seeing my brother. by the time december rolls around again, it will have been a full year of not seeing him and my good friend, that is way too long.

people who chose to stay in the path of a hurricane are idiots.

and i guess that is all she wrote, folks. until next time, cheers. (that was for you amber)

i really dont know where to start.