Jynx me something crazy

_xxoverated @ 2008-03-28T13:24:00

2008-03-28T17:33:26Z

So, this morning my mom called me downstairs and told me she had this dream that she picked me up from laurels house and I was drunk and high and we got into a fight and I was saying really nasty things to her and it was just a replay of what happened when all this stupid shit started. Well, I told her that I hadn't been doing anything but smoking pot and I hardly did that. (lie) I was contemplating not doing coke today but then she was being a bitch all fucking morning and that made me change my mind. Actually, I probably would've done it anyways whether she was bitch or not but now I won't feel as guilty. Seriously, she was freaking out over stupid shit and it was so annoying because there was no point in fighting back because shes always fucking right. Whatever. Anyways, we had a half day in school today which went by pretty fast. I was in a bad mood all day though, everyone was annoying the shit out of me. Natalie was standing by me and laurel when we were talking about doing the coke and shes like OHHH I wanna do it blah blah. I'm like oh well do you have any money? No? well too damn bad. skank. Agh she annoys me so much. Seriously I don't know why I am nice to that girl. She was always a fucking bitch to me and has never really done anything for me but stab me in the back. People suck. Also, Dillon just walks past me in the halls like I'm not even there, it makes me think that he doesn't like me then of course he texts me when I get home. its like hes scared to talk to me in person. I guess thats kind of hypocritical because thats kind of how I am but I'm getting over it and he's like 17 or 18, he shoulda grown out of that by now. I'm in a better mood now then I was earlier but its still not all that great. It used to be that when I was by myself I would be all depressed, well I still do get depressed when I'm by myself but people always put me in a bad mood. Not always, but most of the time. Idk, I'm done ranting.

so yeah.

2006-12-19T23:23:54Z

okay seriously im bipolar. right now im in such a good mood like im so happy. im really high though so that might be it. but its weird cause i was reading my journal and in the all my entries, im always in a bad mood. but now im in a good mood so its changing that. but anyways about the bipolar like seriously idk ive been in such a good mood. its so weird to read my last entrie cause i cant imagine feeling like that right now. anyways, so i met this guy tyler. hes pretty cool...=] and of course hot. he reminds me of one of those pacsun models lol. i guess hes kind of charming. i met him at that party i got grounded for. i seriously think that im getting over joe. its awesome i guess maybe thats why im so happy now. either that or cause im pretty damn high still. but i guess michelle talked to curtis and he said natalie told him that i like joe and when he was talking to michelle he said that he thinks that joe likes me because he talks about me a lot and is always at my house when he calls him and shit. curtis is like joes best friend so you'd think that he would be able to tell. ughh boys suck like really bad. >.<
anywaysss so details on the party i went to: so this whole thing started when i was doing bell ringing at bp for extra credit in mr. ladds class and when it was over and amandas mom dropped me off at my apt. well i forgot my key and couldnt get in so i was like well i saw michelle and natalie when i was at bp so i was like ill go over there and when i was walking there i see them walking back to her house also. so like we chilled at her house for a while then we came back to my place to get ciggs cause natalie didnt have any and we stayed at my house for a while then we went to bp to get a slushie or something idk i dont remeber. then we stopped and got danille from work and came back to my place and just hung out for a while. then gwen came over and we chilled at my house until like 11:30 which is when chester picked us up. we met up with dennis tyler curtis and ryan at kroger and then we went to laurals house and tried to get alcohol but we couldnt get any so we left and went back to kroger to and ended up getting someone to buy us some. we got a 30 pack and a box of wine. like idk there was a lot of us drinking but i got reeally wasted. so idk all went into this small ass room and started drinking. i think we actually picked the smallest room in the house for all them damn people to drink lol. so anyways i did a bunch of wine stands and i drank like 4 or 5 beers and idk it was fun. me and tyler were like flirting so bad the whole time idk. i didnt do anything with him cause how slutty would that be if like right when i first met him after like 4 hours of knowing him start making out? yeah no..i wasnt THATT drunk. ..maybe if i knew him a little better..idk lol jk. anyways i was all over him like yeah and he was the same way. kind of flattering i guess but he was drunk so idk. dennis and ryan left sometime during then and were gonna go back to dennis house prolly cause they didnt wanna have to give us all rides into town. anyways so dennis was driving all wasted and crashed into a ditch. what a fuckin dumbass like it was one of those T roads where the road ends and youve gotta turn..you cant keep going straight. well this happened to be one with a ditch on the other side of it. so hes driving along and he floors it like by the stop sigh and crashes into the ditch going like 50 miles per hour or something. so yeah idk the party was sweet as hell but im loosing my short term memory so i cant really remeber anything else. oh yeah i remember dennis spitting on me so i spit on him i was so pissed. yeah thats pretty much it for now im bored of updating. peace nukka.

i.hate.life. =[

2006-10-24T05:59:05Z

well..I'm moving back to richmond. I don't want to. AT ALL. i'm dreading this more than I was dreading switching schools. when I called to see what time my mom was gonna pick me up on saturday from richmond, Diane told me we were moving..I acted excited because amanda was there and I didn't want her to know I didnt wanna come back and after i got off the phone with them i started crying and shes like arn't you happy..so i had to tell her i was crying because i was so happy to be moving back. then my mom was happy i was excited to be moving back...she didn't get it that the moment amanda got out of the car i started screaming at her. I would have sat back and thought, hmmm amanda goes to richmond and she wants dana to come back, when i told dana amanda was with her, now amanda isnt with her and shes freaking out. MAYBE SHE DOESN'T WANT TO FUCKING MOVE!!!!!! I'd really rather live with my grandparents. In fact, these last two days that ive been away from my mom and sister and it was just me and them have been awesome, i love it. i really do.

but how unfair is this, she makes me leave my house out of the blue, we move in with my grandparents, live there the whole summer then i have to switch schools because i still live here which sucked at first then i get adjusted, make a bunch of great freinds and again out of the motherfucking blue i have to move back which i dont want to do, i was planning on talking to my mom about it and omg i regeret not doing it sooner because seriosuly this sucks. she ripped me away from my friends the first time and now she's doing it again and she's like well you'll go see them, i'll let you visit but ITS NOT THE SAME i dont get how she doesnt get this. and this is all because my fucking grandparents are smoking. i wish people would think. why don't they think?

right now i wish that fucking oxygen tank would explode and kill me.

_xxoverated @ 2006-02-18T13:49:00

2006-02-18T18:55:59Z

If you'll be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me and come out at night
when I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine

but you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by

if you be my boat
I'll be your sea
a depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity
ebbing and flowing and pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free
I live to make you free

but you can set sail to the west if you want to
and past the horizon till I can't even see you
far from here where the beaches are wide
just leave me your wake to remember you by

if you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me and come out at night
when I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine

but you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by
stardust to remember you by

&& if it makes you less sad...

2006-02-06T00:46:17Z

I've wished countless times for you to be happy,

To forget what we've had.

Now that you could care less,

I wish to do nothing more but pour salt in your wounds.

Because, when I wished countless times for you to be happy,

I forgot about me, and I'm far from it.

The truth is I miss you terribly.

_xxoverated @ 2005-09-27T16:27:00

2005-09-27T20:28:57Z

Friends only.

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