Rants and Reflections

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Thu, 12 Oct 2006 22:06:29 GMT

WAHAHAHA.

WHAT IS THIIIIIS?

A NEW LJ ACCOUNT?

OH YESS.

http://sabotenn.livejournal.com/

GOTHERE.

AND BE MY FRIEND.

YOU'VE BEEN -------

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 19:40:42 GMT

THUNDA'STRUUUCK~ 8DDDD;;

Okay sorry.
I've been listening to ACDC a lot lately. o__O;;
Usually it's not my taste, but, they fit my moods best these days it seems. o wwwo;;

Anyways - How is everyonnnnne~?
I haven't updated in awhile because I've been like, woah busy. @ www@;;
Work is keeping me occupied, that's for sure.
I have Thursday off, but chances are I'll be going to see Tara in the evening, and catching up on some much needed sleep during the rest of the day.

I have a doctors appointment Friday as well. 8D;;
Thank God, it's probably about time I hauled ass in there - As some not so good feelings in my organs have been coming up for...uhm...well a really long time. 8D;;;;;

I think I'm doing pretty good.
Actually, I think I'm doing great.
I saw Ryan last weekend for the first time in a couple of months. [And honestly, this time I'm not exaggerating. It had been months.] We chilled for a bit - talked about our lives, went to sev. 8DD;;
I missed him a lot, but, I didn't realize until I actually saw him again. XD
We have plans to visit our old High School in January, as one of our favorite teachers is coming back.
I'm pretty stoked.

I also saw Megz this weekend.
God I love that girl. She probably one of my very best friends - ever.
You know how, if you've ever graduated school - you tell all your friends "WE'LL ALWAYS KEEP IN TOUCH. ;___;" Even if it's not true? Well - I don't need to do that was her. I know it's important to work hard in bridging the gap in geography and lifestyle with old friends. The more you age, the more you need people that knew you when you were young. I honestly, in my heart of hearts, think we'll be friends for a really fucking long time.

Also, for anyone I haven't told yet --
September, 2007 - I'll be going to Lethbridge to start my schooling in Criminal Justice.
Lethbridge is about a six hour drive from where I live now, Calgary.
I'll be living in residence there - and my room mate will be none other than the lovely Megz I mentioned above.
I'm actually SO excited.

After that two years - I'll be going down into the Untited States to continue at a different school. But, there's no use getting into that now. 8D

I think that pretty much covers everything that's been on my mind lately~
So if you've gotten this far, leave me some love okay?
Take care everyone~

- Saraaaaaah

PS: If I haven't talked to you in awhile - it probably means I'm tired of trying to make an effort to reach you. Online or otherwise, you know how to contact me. Unless you've been stricken with a serve case of amnesia, in which case I can't say how sorry I am. BUT IF THAT'S NOT THE CASE - Drop me a line if you want to talk or just connect, otherwise you probably won't hear from me. OKAYBYE.

Some people are born into tradegy.

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 07:00:55 GMT

I've been feeling a bit low all day.
Not really depressed, but, just low.
Like - an overall saddess.

It's gone away now, but it was strange.
And in a sense, I welcomed it. As I haven't had a good cry in a long time.
And sometimes, you need a good cry.
...Though, I didn't cry.

crycrycry. :'D

Hmmm, well.
I love work.
And I love movies.
And I love Kirt, and Shean, and Tara - Who brought me cookies because I was sad, wtflove. <333

WOAH.
Death Cab is on Jay Leno behind me. Right now.
Singing "Into the Dark."
Strange. > wwww>;;

Well to me it is anyways.

You know, I need a good cry movie.
If anyone can recommend somethings, I'd be grateful.
Also.
If we haven't talked in awhile, and you'd like to try and reach me - I enjoy emails and such.
I'll reply, I promise.

Now, please comment.
As I'm trying to figure out which friends actually read this.
Much thanks, and much more love.

- Saruh.

The last love song on this little planet

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 01:01:59 GMT

Yessss~ Yet another cam-whore entry.
What can I say? Never leave me to my own devices. XD

Also, please comment not only on this - but the entry below it as well.

ALRIGHTTHANKS.
MUCH LOVE.

Sarah~

And sometimes you close you eyes.

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 07:23:33 GMT

I am displeased with my life, as a whole.

And please - Don't think I mean this in any depressive way, because I am not sad or upset at all.
Just displeased.

There are a lot of things I want to do in this year I've taken off. So many things, and though I have a whole year to do them - I want to do them all RIGHTNOW.

You might be thinking "What are these things she wants to do?" Well, I'll list them for you.

- Re-do my entire room. Paint. Furniture. Style. I want it to be kind of...Mana-Sama meets Lestat. Not dark in a sense that it's cheap goth stuff thrown into a room, but - tastefully dark.

- Purchase a whole bunch of "How to draw ____ " books, as I really want to improve upon the little spark of talent I have. Drawing brings me inner peace.

- Finally get in shape. LORD - I KNOW. I KNOOOOOW. I SAY I WANT TO DO THIS ALL. THE. TIME. But I mean, with a whole year off - I have no excuses. Annnnd, I actually -want- to do it now. Not just "Yeah yeah I know I will." No no. I WANT to do it. I'm excited for it.

- Buy whole new wardrobe. I am only pleased with one or two articles of clothing I have. And I have a lot. My style tastes have changed a lot, so, I'd like to try them out on myself.

- Meet new people. I've started working now, and that takes a load off this "ZOMGINEEDTOBREAKOUTOFTHEHOUSE" rut I was in. I'm really excited for it, as the people are amazing and so nice. But also a little worried, as the computer system I'm using is complicated as fuck.

Yes, those are the main things I want to do in this year off that I have. Probably not in that exact order, and maybe even more than one at at time - But in order to really feel happy about myself, and my life - I think I at least need to attempt them.

I'm hoping this entry not only relieves the urge I've had to get this all out, but also motivates me to stick to my word.

Alright, thanks for reading - assuming you've gotten this far.
If you have the time, also, please leave me a comment. Much thanks.

- Saruuuuuuuh.

New Color Scheme~ :3

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 00:32:15 GMT

Mmmmhm!
New colors!

More life, and a think they're pretty.
Even if they're a little bright. > 3>;;

Dark colors make me depressed. And it's not cool to make yourself sad. D;

SOOOOOOOO.
Today was my last training shift at BlockBuster - which means I'm moving on!
I still have no computer exprience, so, I hope it doesn't turn into a gong show when I start working. e 3e;
But I think I got it all down.

Next Thursday I'm going to a "New Hire" orientation at the downtown company location.
WITHSHAUN. :'DDDD <3333
Yae.

OKAY THAT'S MY MINOR UPDATE.
I'll probably post a rant I've been forming in my thoughts in a few days, just a heads up.

Don't be a stranger, leave a comment!

- Ja ne~

God knows I don't want to be an Angel.

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 02:48:16 GMT

lgkfd;kdgfds

Life is strange. And sometimes I really like it, and sometimes I really don't.

Like for instance - wtf.
I never really asked much of you, you know that?
Nothing at all.
And maybe it's because I asked for nothing, that's what I got.
And you know - I'm not really upset.
Because I don't care enough about you to feel that way.
More just really disappointed in the fact you're an major flake.
A major, major, doucheflake.
If I ever see you again - Which I don't plan on doing, I'm going to throw whatever's handy at your head - then run away.

Yeah.

On the up side, I've been able to see/talk to a lot of people I had been missing.
Some under circumstances that were sad, but - I still got to see them.
Like my Grandmama. And Josh.
I missed you Joooosh~ :0
Best of luck in your classes, yeah?
We still need to go to the zoo. *____*;;
THE SCREAMERS - THEY CALL MY NAAAAME~ :'D

Also, I talked to Kyari and Steph.
I get to see Steph this weekend I think - Hoorah~ <3333
And I missed Kyari [An online buddy in case anyone was wondering.]
She's super awesome. AND NEEDS TO TALK TO ME MOOOOORE~

Hmmmm, not to much more to say, really.
I have a second interview at BlockBuster too go to.
I'M EXCITED.
Wish me luck, yeah?

ALRIGHT.
LEAVE ME A LINE~~!
Unlessyou'reaflakeydouche.

Take care guys.

- Sarah.

dkjvgfl;djhdfg 8DDDDDD~!

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 02:02:58 GMT

We both draw back in our minds.

I have a prophecy threatening to spill into words,

this growing certainty of 'over'.

The swelling fermata, as the chord dies.

___________________________________________________________________

Toki is making me a layooooout~
And I'm excited~~~~
Because she's so good with things like thaaaaaat. :'DDDD

Uhmmm...
I don't have much to update with.

STILL LOOKING FOR WORK, LAWL.
I'm totally not trying that hard, but I have dropped a few resumes off.
When I was with Meaghan the other day - she mentioned she'd be able to get me a night shift job at Wal-Mart stocking shelves.
You're allowed to listen to your MP3 players, get in your own zone and do your own thing.
SOYAE.
That sounds good to me. Shift work is 11pm-7am, so....I WON'T NEED TO CHANGE MY SLEEP SCHEDULE MUCH. 8D

Speaking of Meaghan, she left of Lethbridge today.
For college. :'D
She's taking the same thing I'm taking~!
I wish we had talked sooner, so I would have known. XD
But I'm going to go to Leth. next year, SO I HAVE A ROOM-MATE, YAE.

I'm going to miss her a lot, but, we're going to keep in contact.
I promised to call twice a month - which is more than possible.
She's one of my best friends, so, durr.
LOVEYOUMEGZZZZ.

Uhmmmmm....uh....yeah!
Not to much more, I guess.
I bought new jeans? I KNOW IT'S SO EXCITING RIGHT?
Try to contain yourself.

Okay obviously I have no more to update with.
SO MAKE SURE TO LEAVE ME A COMMENT.
MMYUP. THAT'S IT.
Kaybai~!

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There once was a time I was sure of the bond.

When my hands and my tongue and my thoughts were enough.

We are the same, but our lives move along.

And the third one between replaces what once, was love.

Yeah, alright.

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 02:25:47 GMT

I promise to try not to fuck with your mind.

I promise not to mind if you go your way and I go mine.

I promise not to lie if I'm looking you straight in the eye.

I promise to try not to let you down, so, let me down.

_____________________________________________________________________________

I don't have much to say, really.

If you want to reach me, you know how.

I think.

Maybe.

Oh well.

_____________________________________________________________________________

I've got some friends who say they care, and they just might.

I'll run away if things don't go as planned.

Planning big could be a gamble.

But, I've already rolled the dice?

The more you talk, the less I say.

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 01:34:06 GMT

Today I went fishing with my father for the third time in five days.
I love it at the lake, and on this particular sunny afternoon as I cast out into the water, I noticed a little grasshopper fighting for dear life in front of the dock.

Of course, my tender heart began to bleed for the little thing so I scooped it up onto my fishing rod and sat with him for awhile.

I named him Charles, and we were buddies. :3
Best friends forever, yo'.

When the plague of locusts attacks all humanity - Even though grasshoppers are a little different, Charles'll put in a good word for me - and we'll be home free. :'D

SHUTUPILOVEHIM.

If you haven't caught on by now, I really don't have anything to update with.
Though Charles is awesome, it really isn't enough.
But for awhile I've wanted to update.

I cut my hair~! n___n'
It's really cuuuuute - I like it a lot.
I'll post pictures later this week, maybe early next week.

Oh and --

I thought I knew you
Long before you used me. :'D

OKAY THANKS.
And please leave me a comment.

Ja ne~!!

[HahaI'msojapanese.]

Burial.

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 00:42:37 GMT

Though we wish for the embrace of darkness

And would rather see nothing

The moon illumanites our scars.

And we are afraid.

Even now, you and I are still waiting for morning.

-Cough-

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 22:46:33 GMT

THIS IS FOR JOSH.
I'M UPDATING. KAY? ALRIGHT.

Yeah, but seriously.
My life is boring. :\

Not much is going on, really.
I'm house sitting this weekend, ANDOMGJESSEISSTAYINGWITHMEYAY.
I want to rent movies. e3e;;

Wow, seriously.
I have NOTHING to update with.

I'm going on a trip with my dad int he next few weeks, and Jesse asked if he could move back in with me when his dad left - Of course I said yes, but, I mean I need a date to tell my mom, right? :'D

Hmmm...
I've been thinking a lot lately. Not about any one particular thing - but just about life in general, and all aspects of it.
I've had a few anxiety attacks over the past week in a bit - So either I'm thinking to much about my life, or I'm thinking to little.
-Sighs-
I don't really know, it's like - and yes this sounds incredibly cliche, but ssh - But it's like being stuck at the crossroads you know? In some aspects I'm an adult, in others I'm not. My mom keeps telling me I am, but I still get treated like a 16 years old. And yes, there's only two years difference there - But it's a BIG difference.

I want things to be simple, and I want to go back.
And for whatever reason, when I think things like that - my heart hurts.
Probably because I know not all wishes come true.
And that's okay, too.

I'm not depressed - so don't worry about that. XD
More so, just a little disoriented, due to my blind thrust into "The real world".
Sometimes I think it's all going to end, and sometimes I want it too.
But then again, you never know what's going to happen tomorrow right?
Because I guess, as long as we keep going, I can keep living for "Tomorrow".

YAEEE PICTURES AGAIN.

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 00:04:50 GMT

Yae me. ewwwwwe;;

ANDTHENIFOUNDTHIS

Mmmmyup.
We're sexy beasts.
AND YOU ALL KNOW IT. >:0 <3333

PS: IRL friends of mine, I'll be talking pictures of you soon. ktx.

For the ones I love.

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 07:18:36 GMT

I was going to try and say a few things to both of you tonight.

But I never had the chance.

It was mostly about the past few weeks, and even though I'm not 100% sure you'll see this here, I can always repeat when we see each other in person again.

....In this life, there are a lot of things I'd do differently if given the chance. But I think a lot of people feel the same way. I've been up, been down. Been the victim and the attacker - The betrayed and the betrayer.

I'm sure there will be times I get mad. Or you get mad, or we both get mad. And maybe there'll be a valid reason - or maybe not. Sometimes we seem to argue like that. I can be spiteful, I'm well aware. I've started to see some of my own vices and short comings. And though I've got no plans on chaning them, I'm doing my best to not let them limit my existance.

After a long...difficult thought process with myself. I've come to terms with my yesterdays, because that's all they are. Lingering over petty things is something I just can't do anymore. ...There are a few people you meet in your life time, and those people - No matter what you say, or do to them - or what they say, or do to you - They will always love you. Always. And I just wanted you to know...I love you guys. Always.

If you've read this - and you're one of the two boys this is directed at, please leave a comment just so I know.

Jess, I look forward to our time together in August.
Josh, I was a screamer bad. So lets go to the zoo soon.

Love,
Sarah.

And how many time have your friends let you down?

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 05:26:56 GMT

Are you disappointed?
And have destroyed it all?
Well I've been stopping down this long and winding road.

You haven't seen the world outside for days.
You sleep, you hope, you wait.

These times are changing, and we're complicated.
And I just don't know want to know.

Confrontation is like a mirror
But I'm not trying to take your life away.

I don't ask you why anymore.
Are you waiting?

No matter what you say,
No matter what you do.
No matter what - I'm always right there behind you.

And is it getting better?
Can we live forever?
I'm still not sure what the hell we're fighting about.

Bombarded by the atmosphere -
Breathe, choke, breath again.

The panic of the future is,
You dig, you jerk, you find another way.

But when you're tired and alone.
Or if you feel like letting go -
Come home.

And if you can't take anymore,
And you're beat up and ignored -
Come home.

---------------------------------------------------------------

All of that.
Or most of it -
Is a mixture of two songs by Our Lady Peace.

"Will the Future blame us?"
And
"Right there behind you."

I donno.
I wanted to update with exactly how I was feeling.
About a big part of my life right now.
Bigger than I thought it was.

And.
I guess that does it best.

Leave a line.

Class of '97.

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 07:27:02 GMT

"Don't be reckless with other peoples hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours."

"Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself."

"Your choices are half chance, so are everybody elses."

"Get to know your parents."

"Be nice to your siblings, they're the best link to your past - and the people most likely to stick with you in the future."

"Don't think anyone will support you. Maybe you'll have a large bank account, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse - But you never know when either of them might run out."

"Understand - Friends come, and go. But with a few precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge gaps between geography and lifestyle - Because the older you get, the more you'll need the people you knew when you were young."

___________________________________________________________________________________________________

201-1441.
That's my phone number.
Incase you forgot it.
Alright? <3.

It must have love.

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 19:04:37 GMT

Woooo~
Well I haven't updated in a week and a bit because I've been house sitting/working - so I haven't had a lot of spare time. n__n;;
But seeing as I just packed up my things and am about to return home, finally, I decided to update here so I could just go to sleep when I arrive. XD

Uhmmmm, well nothing really...dramatic has been going on.
A few unmade, and un-returned phone calls - But one way or another I really don't care. I'm sure there's some prefectly-good excuse anyways.

Woooork~~~
I work four days out of seven per week, and even though I have three off - usually I spend them sleeping. Getting my body used ot this - Asleep by 2am, awake by 9am is not going so good. I need to start going to sleep earlier. ...But I dun wanna. ;o;''

House sitting, I didn't really like it.
Mainly because the dog is a PAIN. IN. THE. ASS.
There's no cable, super old MSN - And all the food was organic, so I didn't eat because it tasted like cardboard. :'D
I told my hairstylist/friend Louise I would house sit for her, too, at the end of the month. She has two cats - lots of movies, internet, lives close to where I work and doesn't eat anything organic. Sounds good to me, I like making money on the side. 8D

I don't know why I keep taking these little house-sitting jobs here and there. I guess I just like to get away as best I can, even without and real vacation. Plus, it's a good excuse to use on people you don't feel like seeing or talking to.

Now I guess I'm headin' out.
I'll probably update in a few days, if anything relatively important happens. Take care everyone, drop me a line if you find the time.

<3~

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 08:07:39 GMT

2am, and I'm still awake.

Sitting in a place I don't know - but love.

Thunder was rolling like some kind of warning.

And I know.

I know.

My heart is about to break.

Laadadadaaa.

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 00:02:34 GMT

Times up, move along.

You're not my hero anymore.

And I know you can't stop

After all, now you want it all full throttle.

After dark you've become that midnight terror.

Times up, move along.

I don't care where you go - but you sure as hell ain't staying here.

_____________________________________________________________________________

I started work today, and I actually love it. :'D
The people are nice, the work load is pretty easy - and finally I have something to do with my time rather than sit on my butt at home and prod over this and that.
Did I mention it's a little spare cash too?

I saw Cendra the other day and it was awesome. ;D
She's quickly becoming one of my best friends. We talked about problems we've been having with friends and family and what not, it was nice having someone besides my mom really listen to me - as I haven't seen a lot of people lately.
But then again, as of late I really prefer it that way. :\

Next week I'm house sitting for a family friend, she lives like....five minutes away from me so it's really cool. I'm going to eat, sleep, and do whatever over there. She said I could even have a few people stay over with me which is awesome - I told Cendra about it and she's totally stoked. XD
And I'm getting paid! Sweet~

I was going to rant about this and that, but I actually don't give a fuck anymore. n__n
I'm doin' my own thing now and I like it that way - If anyone wants to contact me they know exactly how to do so and I'll leave it at that. I'm having a great time all the same~

So i guess that's all for now? I donno if I remember anything I'll add it or some shit.
And leave a comment if you find the time, I like hearing from my friends. Most of the time.

KAYPEACE. <333

Sleeping on the porch again ~

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 19:01:37 GMT

She said
She said
She said
"Why don't you just drop dead?"

I don't blame you
For being you

But you can't blame me
for hating it~

So say, what are you waiting for?

Kiss him
Kiss him

I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late.

_________________________________________________________________

Argggggggggh - Hullo. XD
Life life liiiife, what can I say? I guess I could update in huge detail about all that's been going on, but that's pointless because none of it matters to me. :]

Seriously, earlier this week I was feeling pretty down and low about myself.
Like I was lost, I guess?
But recently, I don't really care either way.
Thank You - Saiyuki.
Sanzo, Kazuya Minekura - Whatever.

I was reading the ninth volume of Saiyuki when I came across on of my favorite parts - with one of my favorite zen/buddhist terms. [Note: NO I'M NOT A HXC BUDDHIST FOLLOWER LIKE SOME OF MY FRIENDS - BUT I DO HAVE SOME INTEREST IN IT, THANKS.]

It's called "Muichimotsu" - And anyone who has read Saiyuki before knows what it means.
But I'll give a brief history anyways.

More or less - the saying comes down to "Free of all, bound by nothing - Live your life simply as it is."
When I first heard this, I was somewhat...well I donno.
I guess I thought it was pretty profound, but then again - I think that about a lot of things.
And I wanted to live like that - it seemed simple. XD

But later on in the Manga, Sanzo says this --

"Muichimotsu, it teaches to live without attachment.
But..is it right th throw everything away in order to live?
I thought I'd gotten this far with my own interpretation of it -
But then I realized more than anything - I was bound by 'Muichimotsu'."

Again, I thought "OH WOW THIS IS SO DEEEEEP."
But you know, it's really not.
At least, not to me anymore - now that I've spent so much time thinking about it.

In the end, Sanzo says something like "I have no doubts, no regrets - And I have my own way of living. This is the Genjo Sanzo way of Muichimotsu."
And that made more sense to me an anything I can ever remember hearing.

I can't explain to you WHY I've updated my journal with this information.
Maybe to explain my new kind of...enlightenment? XD
I'm sure anyone reading this knows better than myself why I do the things I do.
So I'lll let you figure it out on my behalf.

Anyways - Take care everyone.
i hope your summers are something wonderful.
Leave a comment if you find the time.

Later~ <33

Ahhhh...

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 00:28:43 GMT

I might be stern.
And uncommonly vicious and cruel.
I often say the wrong thing at the right time -
And more often than not I tell myself "Why don't you learn to shutup?"

Maybe that's why it pains me so much.

I can't ever tell what you're thinking, you know.
But that's okay because they're your thoughts.
And some things are better left unsaid.
But they still turn me inside-out.

Say on thing, mean another.
Look for an answer without a question.

There are things I've never said.
Can't say.
Won't say.
But everyone has things like that kept inside.
Under lock and key.

But if you could spare the time, maybe.
Just one quick second.
Could you tell me...

Why?

The last that ever she saw him ---

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 05:01:41 GMT

OKAYSO.
Right now I have a bit of time to myself, without feeling obligated to like...I donno.
I've just been feeling obligated about everything lately.
Do this, do that.
BUT WHATEVER THAT'S NOT THE POINT.

I'm here to update, because I haven't in awhile.

I don't really know where to start, cause a lot of shit has been going down lately.
And I think 90% of the people that read this already know that. :'D

But lemme think, I'll try to relay all the days thus far of this week, and what went down, starting Wednesday.

Wednesday:

Jesse and I hung out with Michelle, for like...an hour and a half or something.
Jesse and her more or less played DDR the whole time while I hung back and watched - for dancing on four arrows isn't my thing.
After that, Jesse and I hung out for awhile until Ryan and Josh came on over.
We went on an adventure in the park, then to sev, then back again.
A CAT FOLLOWED ME TO AND FROM MY HOUSE.
It was so cuuuute~

Thursday:
I think this was the morning Jesse came and crawled into bed with me. It was so cute, and I enjoyed it very much. :'D
It was like, 9am or something, and we didn't get up till one or so.
Then we did nothing, more or less until we went over to Joshs near 8 for a little shin-dig.
It was actually really fun, I met a few really cool people, and Ed was there!
Later in the evening there was a bit of an incident with Jesse/Josh/Myself - But it didn't make the night any worse or any better, it was just an evennnt.

Friday:
More or less, the whole day was spent recovering.

Saturday:
That's todaaaaaaaaay~! Well Jesse woke me up early because I needed to help my mom out with a Yard Sale, and he wanted to go for a walk/jog thing. He poked me in the side and scared the shit out of me, because I was more or less completely naked under my covers. :'D
Later we went out for shopping, but I got really sick and came home.
(Said sickness was caused my a major lack of sleep)
When Jesse got back, we just hung out until he went out again with Josh - I gave him my keys and he hasn't come back yet.

SO NOW YOU KNOW WHY I'VE BEEN SO SCARCE. ;D
Also, there were a lot more things we did, but I can't remember which days they fell under and I really don't think it's that important to list them.

Anyways, take care everyoooone~!
I hope you're all doing well. n___n;;

<3

Aaaah, baesement. ;D

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 22:30:56 GMT

Hulloooooo~!
And here I sit in my basement, and with who you ask?
Who sits not even half a foot away from me?
OMG ITS JESSE :0~!!! <3333

....Uhmm, yep.
THAT'S MY BIG UPDATE. XD

I'll post pics laterrrr.

PS: Laptops are evillll. And Jesse's a biter! >:0

And I hear that sound.

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 06:31:53 GMT

So.
I put my number in his yearbook. XD
I'm doubting he'll call.
But I kinda have a back-up plan anyways.

....That's weird, isn't it?

Well there you go. :'D

I'm here; I'm wating for...

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 22:48:11 GMT

So, today was more or less uneventful until exactly 2:13pm.
But I'll still start at the beginning.

So today I had my Social Studies part A diploma exam.
It didn't seem very difficult, so I hope I did well.
Afterwards I left the school to get some lunch in the pouring rain.
I enjoy rain, so it honestly wasn't all that bad. n__n;;
I ate A&W alone, but it was still good.
...Though the bun was stale. D':

Afterwards I came back and hung out with Michelle/Amanda/Kristen.
Michelle cut her hair short! It's so adorable.
Actually, it looks REALLY good.
After Michelle and Kristen left to go back to Cos [They were making up hours I guess]
Nicole came down to the hallway and we all chatted for awhile, it was pleasant.

And then Social class, most boring shit ever.
More or less I sat there for an hour and half, doing jack-shit.
But oh well, only like...four people showed. XD

And then English, and because Mr. Neufeild didn't even show, Amanda and I went on an adventure.
And I saw Evan in a class, doing nothing. So I called him out to sign my yearbook.
We laughed and chatted, and then his teacher came out to get him - and I asked "Would it be okay if I came to join your class? I have now here else to go." And she said "Of course, come right in!"
And so I did.

There was like..four people in there too. XD
And one of them was this boy [and this is where things get interesting] that I had seen a few times in the hallway, he I often thought I saw him looking at me, but I'm paranoid like that.

Anyways, he was like...four desks away from me or something, and there was an empty one beside me and he was like "...I'm gonna come sit next to you in a second."
And I was like "Oh okay, sure."
Anyways, he got up right away and came to sit and chat with me.
And he was really nice. XD And really cute.
Though we never exchanged names, I know his is Kevin.
And I'm certain he knows mine is Sarah.

Anyways, I got really blushy and butterfly-ish when we were talking.
And that hasn't happened in AGES.
But I couldn't help it! Even though I heard he can be a real jerk sometimes (And a few times that showed in our conversation) He still seems like a really nice guy.
And I really would like to get to know him better.

SO TOMORROW I'M GOING BACK. XD
It's the last day of school, and I'm hoping he shows up [He did today, so...maybe he will tomorrow too?]
So we can chat some more.
And I'm going to try and look pretty, because today I looked like shit. D:
Oh, so shitty. XD

BUT YES.
That has been my day, and this entry was really long.
But I felt the need to tell everything - ....Because, well, because I just did.
Leave a comment if you got all the way through. ;D <3~!

Love you guys, take care.
- Sarah. <3~