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I already had a record deal and a book deal and all of that, but I hadn't yet put anything out. And suddenly I was really money hungry because I didn't want to only have $30 million or so, I wanted more more more. I wanted to be a billionaire. So I started talking to people about how I could accomplish this. Someone recomended that I design clothes. And I was supposed to be the person who chose them out but I was like fuck that, I wouldn't make any money that way, and so I started designing them myself. I came up with this skirt-shirt thing that actually looked a lot like something I already have, and I was drawing it on paper but I was also drawing it in the air around Jon and it was coming to life. Oh, Jon had some kind of connections to people at Hot Topic and that was how I had this clothes-designing deal. But yeah. It was like this white vest thing and this bottom skirt with a corset-tie at the top. The fabric was white but I wanted it to be in black when I sold it, and I don't know why it had to be white. And when I was drawing the corset, suddenly I couldn't draw it evenly anymore when I got to the bottom. Then I kept getting ideas in my head while Jon turned the design in to someone. I made a shirt that said "Love is the slowest form of suicide" and had the guy's name on it. I made a pen with skulls that had a black flower on top which was closed when the pen was closed and bloomed when you opened the pen. It was the weirdest dream because it felt so damn real. And I was bouncing around my house talking about how I wanted to go to Germany and buy really expensive things and lots of them but it hadn't even registered to me yet that I was rich. It was so disappointing to wake up -_-.
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My dream was very weird o_O; The first thing I remember is like laying in a big pile of leaves with Aaron. And it was really warm outside. And then there was someone else there (Why am I thinking Alex Way? @_@!!! My God, it's been like seven years since I've seen that kid) and I was all like O_o what the fuck are you doing? And I got up and I called Aaron and he could drive and he had a big, ghetto grey van and he came over to pick me up and we just kinda left the kid there. And then we were looking for somewhere, and we were driving on 94, and we took this turn and it was like the Southbound Picture or something like that and it was just this big water pipe... and we got out of the car and started walking on it and in my head I'm thinking that it's dangerous but in my dream, the both of us are just strolling down this big pipe like nothing's wrong. And we get to the end and get back in his car and we go back to my house and for some reason, Bradley gets dumped on us. And we were sent to Lowe's to go shopping for house-building things o_O; And we get to Lowe's and it's like a really small place, and all I can remember is the really small set of wood stairs that we climbed up, and Bradley was in a stroller for some reason, and we took him with us and we were looking at all these house things and all these people were looking at us and I couldn't figure out why. And then I remember walking out the door and I had the stroller and Aaron had this big basket full of housebuilding things and then this lady hands Bradley something and she's like "That's for your father" and smiles at Aaron and then it hit me and I turned around and I was like "Everyone thinks Bradley's our kid!" and we were both like @_@! and then we got out of there and I woke up.
It was really creepy, y0
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Aye, I don't remember most of my dream, but I know that I was in piano class with Nikki. And we were in this room with someone else, Betty maybe?, and it was like half water, and sand at the bottom, and then the ceiling. And I started flapping my arms and I could rise out of the water. And I kept trying and finally I could touch the ceiling, and then I would dive and I could reach the sand at the bottom and they couldn't do it, but I could, and I kept thinking it was so cool because I had touched both the sky and the depths of the ocean o_O; And finally Nikki learned but the other person couldn't.
And then me and Nikki went to our next class, which was piano. But Mrs. A didn't make us do anything, I don't know why. So we'd sit there and do homework. And when she'd go around to listen to people play, me and Nikki would sneak out of class and go to the lunchroom where we'd buy nachos and come back and eat them. And we did that every day, and I sat through quite a few days of my dream, where we only came to piano class and then left again. I'm sure other little things must have happened, but I can't remember them.
And then one day I was running really late for school, and I thought it'd be faster to drive there, even though I only live around the block. So I get in the car and drive and then remember that I don't have my license yet. So I start panicking and thinking that I'm going to get pulled over by the cops in this one little block, and I hear this cop sirens so I'm like oh shit! They know! And so I pull the car over to the side of the road and get out and take an umbrella even though it's not raining and I start walking down the street. Then this little crying girl walks up behind me and takes me umbrella away. So I'm like umm, okay. And on a police car I hear the thing say that I girl is wanted for unlicensed umbrella using, and I'm like shit again. And so I start running really fast and then realize I have on my Halloween costume. So I take off my wings and handcuffs and start running. And when I get to school, Stephanie's being thrown against a window and arrested, and it was her little sister. And I start talking to the police officer and he's like "Don't worry, she admited to stealing the umbrella, she said they weren't getting along very well." And so I just kinda nod and Stephanie smiles even though she's being arrested and I walk into school. And I go to the lunchroom and I'm really confused because they're selling all breakfast foods, and then I realize that I still have three hours to go before piano class and I get really depressed. And then the next thing I remember, it's 4th hour piano and me and Nikki and this kid Justin are in the room with all the water, except it's been emptied and now it's blood red with black curtains and these long black doors. And Mrs. A comes charging in, and she's dressed all Harry Potter-prof!like, and she's like turned evil. And she starts yelling at us for knowing Stephanie and we keep telling her we had nothing to do with it and she doesn't believe us and keeps screaming at us. And then she rolls her eyes and leaves.
And I remember something about textbooks, but I can't remember what.
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I had the weirdest dream, but it was like fun at the same time. Lol, that sounds stupid, but you know what I mean, damnit. I was angry that I woke up before the end.
It was like this chick had kidnapped Snape, or something along those lines. How that worked, I don't know, because I was still aware that he wasn't real, but I was so mad that she had done that. And she left me with this note thing that she had given him this poison and that there was a counter-one, and that it was in one of the shoes in our house and that if we could find it and it was the right one, we'd and he'd be okay. And she told us that the one she had given him was in a thinner shoe while the one we were looking for would be thick.
So me and this other girl, who was like my best friend but I don't really know who she is, ran into my parents room. And on this trunk that was their end table, they had all these shoes. And I was like "All right, look for a thin one that doesn't have a partner" and so we start throwing all these shoes around and we come up with this really thin black sandal and a baby shoe. So we take those and we go downstairs.
We get into this ghetto ass brown car that's being driven by Gabe (which is really weird, cause he's a guy from school who I've never talked to before but I think it's because Nikki has this huge ass crush on him and is constantly talking, hmm) and we're driving around. I don't remember this part, but I think I got mad and then he took me and this other girl back home.
So I ran downstairs to my basement and Dorothy was in our workout room, but she was making it into an office and so I walked in and I was like "Hey, umm, Dorothy" and she was like "What?" and I'm like "I know you're very close with [girl who took Snape] but it's very important that if you know anything about what poison she used, you should tell us" and she's like "I don't remember" and I got pissed off and grabbed her wrists and was like "Think! First letter, last letter, anything" and she's like "I think they started with A and both ended with E... and she mixed parts off these red bricks of crystal like things, I think one was... Ar...Argon or something like that" and I was all like "Thank you I love you!" and hugged her and then we walked out and the girl that had took him was standing there, and she looked very pissed off, and she was holding a game called "The Harry Potter Potion Making Kit" and we both stared down to it. And she's like "You have four days left and you're getting nowhere, so I thought I'd give you another hint" and we're all like suspicious and she's like "Go to Toys R Us and by the Professor Snape Potion Making Kit" (and she like gave us a vision of walking up to the stand with them on it) "and buy that... in it, there are six different potions for girls... it's one of those" and then she walked away.
So I go home and I remember that Prom is that night and I get dressed and Gabe comes to the door as my date (What the hell?) and so he puts out his arm for me to take it and I take his arm and pull him down the stairs and across the sidewalk as fast as I can and he's like "What are you doing?" and I'm like "Where's your car?" and he's like "I walked" and so I glared at him and then explained that I had to get to Toys R Us now... and so we started running, and it started raining and he was complaining that our clothes were getting wet but I wasn't listening. And I came to this corner and there was like Food R Us, Today Iz Us, You R Us and I'm like "Where is Toys R Us?!" and he sees it and he points and is like "Over there!" and we run out into the street which I'm pretty sure is Telegraph and the cars are all like slamming on their breaks and swerving and we run there and we run in and we're looking all through the foods and I'm like "Why are we looking here?! It's in the games!" and we run there and we're looking and looking and I finally find it and I'm running over to get it when I wake up.
I don't know, it was odd, but it amused me and I want to know the end =( But nooooo.
Yesh.
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I can't sleep and I'm far too out of it to actually study for my quiz tomorrow, so I'm going to write my dream down from last night, since I thought it was cool and I want to remember it, anyway.
At first, I was sitting at my computer and I was writing a LJ entry. (Hmmm, I wonder why that could have been in my dream? -_-) and then my mom comes bursting in and she's like "Melissa, you have to come here and tell me if you see it, too" and I'm like "See what?" and she's like "Just come!" So I follow her and get in the car and we drive like... down the street. Wow. And we get out and we're at this abandoned-looking house and she's like "Walk up there and knock on the door and tell me if your grandfather appears in the window" And I'm thinking "Okay, yeah, my grandpa's dead" and I say "Why can't I just ring the doorbell?" (Why did I say that?) and she's like "I think you have to knock on the door for it to work"... so I go up to the door and I'm completely unbelieving, and I knock and look in the window and I jump like a 39554 feet high, because there sits my grandpa's ghost in a rocking chair. And he starts to get up and walk toward the door, and so I turn around and run down the stairs and almost fall and I pull my camera out of my purse and the batteries aren't in right, so I put them in and then I try to take a picture and realize that it's not on, and my grandpa's just walking right in front of me, not looking at me, so I get the camera on and I take a picture and then I do a recording and then I take another picture and then he starts walking towards me and I start freaking out. But he starts talking to me and telling me how much he's missed me and how proud he is of me and stuff.
And there's a gap here... but next thing I remember, a younger version of my grandmother is there as a ghost. Even though she's still living in real life, hmm. And we were acting like we were really close friends, even though in real life we're not that close at all. And we were talking and I was telling her how much I missed her and we started to play cards. And then she said that she had to go back and I asked why she had to leave and I asked her to stay with me, and she told me that was just the way things were... and so she got up and hugged me and told me how much she loved me and that she'd always be with me, blahblahblah, and then she and my grandfather (who aren't husband and wife... my mom's stepdad and my dad's mother) turn back and go into the little house and wave goodbye to me.
And then I go back to my house and I'm sitting online again, typing an entry really fast and thinking about posting the pictures on hauntings and getting so excited, and then my alarm clock went off and I woke up -_-;
Ayeeeee.
I thought that maybe it was a prediction dream and that my grandmother might have died, but I haven't heard anything. And she's 70, which isn't *young*, but isn't really dying age anymore these days it seems. And she's healthy and extremely hyper, too. I don't think she's going anywhere any time soon. So I'm hoping it was just some weird dream, hmm.
See, I'm really afraid of ghosts though. Part of me reallllly loves "talking" to them when I don't have to see them or hear them or watch them move things around, that's when they scare me, even if they're nice. But yeah...hmm.
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[18 Sep 2003|05:57am] |
I just remembered my second dream from last weekend! See, Kristen really loves my slippers, and I'm sure I bought her a pair because I remember buying three of my friend a pair for Christmas one year and I can only think of two who I gave them to. Anyway, in my dream, I opened my closet and found every pair just hanging there by their little box thing on a hanger and I got all excited and gave her a pair.
And because I was thinking so hard about that, I've forgotten my dream from last night. Damnit.
[Edit:] Oh yeah!
Kristen and I were going to a Backstreet Boys concert because they were coming to town. And I was over her house and all of a sudden I started getting really depressed, so I told her I would skip the concert and I had my mom come pick me up. Well I went home and took a nap and when I woke up there was still time to go to the concert, so I asked my mom if she'd take me back to Kristen's. And she yelled and screamed at me, so I was like or not... and then she's like "You slept right through your first piano lesson" and I was like @_@ but "You still have theory"... and this scary guy came into my house and he had like 20 other students with him and we all sat around the old piano in my living room and he started teaching... and then I was in this library and it was like a game or something, and it's like "You've exceeded to the Woman's National Library level" and suddenly the library was fucking HUGE and this one girl goes "It's not that big"... and everyone kept telling me to read this one imaginary book because it was "the classic American novel" and I kept saying I know, I know... and I started reading it in front of this picture of Jesus and it was all about God and stuff and I was really upset with it.
And then I woke up.
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@_@; My dreams were so weird.
At first, we were all just in school like usual. And there were these camera things, and when you saw the flash, it killed you. And when you did something bad enough, that was your punishment. And a girl named Andrea was chosen to be killed and I was kinda sad, but I had only talked to her a few times so it was kinda like blah.
And then Stephanie walked up to me and she looked really sad and she was like "I've been chosen to be killed" and I didn't really believe her for some reason. And then she gave me a picture of Snape in chains (which she did in real life XD woo. okay.) so I was like okay she has been chosen, stupid liar. And I got really mad at her and walked away.
And then next day, Betty and Nikki walked up to me and they were all sad, and I was like, what happened? And they told me that Stephanie had been given the flasher thing and that she was gone. And my heart like.. broke. And I had this impulse to get revenge and I went running and the camera tried to flash at me, and I saw the first flash in a reflection of a mirror (I was in a laundry room, I don't know why) and then I closed my eyes and waited until the next went off. And I felt really sick, but I wasn't dead. And I kept running and Nikki was there again and she was like "I thought you didn't like her?" and I freaked out about how wrong I was and how much I missed her and that she didn't deserve it because she was one of the best artists I had ever seen, blahblahblah. And then I woke up, and I was really sad.
Then I went back to sleep and I know I had another dream, but I can't remember it right now.
Then I woke up from that and had yet another dream.
Me and Kristen were with this woman, I don't know how we knew her, and she decided that she was randomly going to take us to DisneyLand (but it was really Cedar Point o_o) and when we were there, I only had like $20. And I kept wanting to buy sometihng for Kristen because there were lots of England things but the sales lady was really mean and everything was really highly overpriced. And then we left, I don't remember riding any rides o_O; And in the car, we stopped at some supermarket type thing and the lady was like "I don't understand why you guys love Green Bay so much" (even though uh we weren't in Green Bay) "there's not much to do here." And we're like "It's better than Michigan" and she says something like "I know it's probably boring, but it's like the big D, man. You've gotta love it" and then we got into the car and my mom called on the cell phone and the ladies like yeah we're almost home even though we were like four hours away, and it was pitch black outside, and I remembered that Jack had said he lived between Cedar Point and my house (which is true) and I started getting really depressed, and the lady decided to stop at another supermarket, this one in front of this BIG ASS statue of something or another, and I got out and walked around in the rain and started wondering where he could be and it was all blah.
And then the alarm went off.
I know I'll end up remembering my second dream later... hmm.
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Me and my mom and Kristen were driving out to pick up my cousins. And we were switching through radio stations and I was listening to Lennon on my headphones. And then my mom climbed in the backseat and this cartoon started driving us, and this Arabic guy in the car in front of us was laughing really hard. And then we went to this movie theatre and it was really huge and we couldn't even find what theatre we were supposed to be in. And Kristen wasn't with us anymore, but Bradley and father-dearest were. And it was all rich-like and everybody was staring at us because we didn'r look rich. And the name of the theatre was something Cannon. And I remember these three preppy girls coming down an escelator and laughing at me, and Bradley was standing in front of me when that happened. And they had big machines that told you where your theatre was when you put in the ticket, so I took our ticket and did that..and it couldn't read it at first, but then it did.
And there was something about a mall and a rock band and waking up late, because I was panicking when I looked at my alarm clock.
o_o; That was really scattered.
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There was something about driving with Betty's mom and their car dying and it being dark outside and school and being late a five line poem and a pool. Yes, lol. But it's all skattered in my head.
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I had this dream when I fell asleep in the day yesterday, and I really don't remember it anymore. But I was trapped in a deserted Toys R Us type store. And I was with two people who I knew, but I don't remember who now, and we were trying to get out. And I remember climbing these stairs and we were sitting outside and there was this scary homeless guy with these... weird eyes. Like they were looking at you, yet they weren't. And they had no color to them. And I remember him being at the street one second, and the three of us who were together were sitting on those parallel bar things in a park and suddenly the scary guy was standing right there, looking at me with those big, scary, blank eyes.
Yeah.
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[08 Sep 2003|05:26am] |
o_o;
I was walking in a store and I was looking at one of those spinning card holding things and this really preppy blonde chick walked behind me and gave me this look and said "You look so stylish in your precious fake jewelery" and I looked up and said "Yes, why don't you come kiss this $100 necklace?" and she like... attacked me. And so I fought back with her and she ran away and was hiding in the store somewhere. Anyway, we fought like five times after that and then I went to her mom and was like "Your fucking daughter just fucking attacked me" and her mom was like "Oh no! Let's go look for her" so I followed her short and brown spikey haired mom around and she was looking in this dark room and she goes "Here, see if there's room in here for you" and I'm like "Do you think I'm stupid?" and then someone wrapped their arms around me from behind and I was dragged into that room, and it was the girl and she started whispering in my ear about how I had always been a brat, just a selfish little brat, and that she had always envied me, but she would have to no more... and I reached up and jammed my fingers in her nose and she let go of me so I turned around and started hitting her and she kicked me really hard or stabbed me or something because I fell over and she ripped off her human suit and became Brianna. @_@ and she was like "I've always been a lesbian and I've loved you for so long, you bitch" and so I thought I was being smart and I said "I've always felt the same" even though I didn't and she's like "You fucking pervert! You couldn't have liked me when you were nine! What healthy nine year old is turned on?!" and I was all like @_@ and she kicked me again and said "You'll die here" and left the room. And I was sitting on my hands and knees and my hair was all falling in my face and suddenly there was this knife like under my body, and so I grabbed it and I got up and ran out of the room and I was looking around and the hall was all creepy with like flashing lights and stuff and I was like "Come heeeereee" and then my alarm went off. Bastards!
There was also another part somewhere where I was sitting with my mom in a car and she like... hated me. And I was trying to tell her something and I was like "The fu..fricken" and she was all like "That's right you better say fricken you stupid whore blahblahblah" but I don't remember where that goes or exactly how that went. Hmm.
Will analyze later, now I have to go to school. -_-!!!
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I can't remember much of my dream, but I remember being mad because Nikki's Freshman, Jackie, just got a car and made her license plate "Valoom". o_o;
That will be all.
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[28 Sep 2002|09:17am] |
Woo... strange dreams.
This pregnant girl, Jessica, in my choir, who I've never even talked to before, was like a close friend of mine, and she got really pissed off at me, and that was like all I know about that part of the dream.
And then this guy Justin from my church died and I didn't believe it at first, since I had seen him just five minutes before, and then when I looked around, I realized that everyone was wearing black.
And then AJ of the Backstreet Boys died, and Mrs. Hinchman, my first sememster Freshman math teacher o.o;;;, was his mom, and she kept saying that he was "cracked out" and that he fell down the stairs... and I saw that happen five times...
And that was just... weird. Yeah.
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My dream last night really made me feel... like... alone.
We were in MB and they had just added on this big, beautiful mall to the airport (the weird thing is, it looked so familiar, too, but I know it wasn't real...) and no one was there... and every store had something I would completely adore... and for the first time, I felt really bad about leaving MB... and I was like... crushed.
I don't remember the plane ride, but as soon as we got home, Mom and Dad and Bradley all went inside to have a big, long conversation with Kristen's parents. So I walked across the street to Kristen's ex, Alex's, house... and we started talking about Kristen and the way he loved her blew me away. And I suddenly felt bad for being there... and I walked back over to Kristen's and the two of us had to go deliver some mail that had been sent to them accidently and Kris drove Keith's big ass van... and it just felt so empty, it was horrible... and when we finally dropped off the mail, we just sat there talking about Alex and all she could say was how much she hated him, and it broke my heart. And when we finally got home, we left... and that was it...
And it just felt so empty.. and so not there.
( signs! )
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I remembered the dream when I woke up, but it's kinda gone now...
I remember the first part was like I was watching a movie again... and it was me and Jack, running away together. And it was the first day and we stopped by McDonald's to get fries and we were feeding each other as he drove and we were cracking up together. And then we screwed later that night... and blah.
The thing is, in real life, he won't even talk to me anymore. And I wonder now how I could have ever loved him.
I'm trying to think of my dream, and the first thing that comes to me is colors... very, very bright colors... I wish I could remember the rest. Grr, I hate forgetting my dreams... I must start writing them down as soon as they happen!
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Wee... dreams again!
This one was really weird. The only thing I can really remember was that it it all basically took place in this little pink bathroo, lol. And Ozzy was my father. lmao...
There was this goth guy and he was like a vampire and he could disappear and he called himself the Date Rapist. Well, Ozzy wanted him to rape me and I kept saying "Daddy no!" and I was down on my knees, crying hysterically, and Ozzy told me that he'd just find me anyway, and when he did I said "I'm not afraid of you" and he went away, pouting, and then he goes "What about you Ozzy?!" and outstreched his hand, which threw him into the bathtub, laughing hysterically. Then he did something to the water, and Ozzy started changing colors and I was freaking out yelling "DADDY! NO!" and then he got out of the tub and appoligized to me, and so did The Date Rapist. And somehow I turned into a guy, and due to what he put in the tub with Ozzy, when ever we laughed, all our fat rolls would glow in neon colors. And then we all hugged on the bed while Ozzy proposed sex between the two of them... so Date Rapist said "gotta go" and disappeared. so Ozzy got all upset, and I hugged him and told him I had to go back to my wife and kids in the real world, so I shook his hand, he shook mine, and sent me through the portal. @_@;
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[08 Aug 2002|02:30pm] |
Making this a dream journal... woo.
Kay. Weird dream, heh. From the night before last:
Don't really remember it all very well anymore. I should've written it down yesterday and not waited this long.
All I know, was there was something with an airplane. I was stuffed in a car with a fat man, old and grubby, and his wife, who was very mascaline... and two people my age, both girls... I knew them in the dream, but I don't know them now... the man's mother, who was around 80, was with us, too.
We were driving in the car, and for some reason, we were stopped. The police arrested the man and his wife and the grandmother, but me and the two other girls got away. We decided that we wanted to break them out of prison, so we stole this airplane... I remember watching the blueprints, making sure we could fit the fat old man into the very small airplane with us.
We flew over the fences and crash landed... before we knew it, they came running out... and so did police... we pulled them into the plane, but it wouldn't start... I was so afraid, I didn't want to get arrested... and as the police were about to grab us, it finally started, hitting them all and knocking over the barbed wire on the wall... and all the woman could talk about was getting home to her son Mett... that he was a troubled kid and he needed help... and I remember asking her how old he was, and she said 4 at first, but then 24... and then rest is personal, so yeah...
( meaning, anyone? )
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