You'd be cuter if i shot you in the face.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-03-03T16:24:00

2005-03-03T23:22:23Z

Add my new journal!
It's friends only bitches.

xoxo___homicide
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_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-02-23T18:30:00

2005-02-24T01:27:45Z

So, Andy is truly amazing.
Saying goodbye to him was probably one of the worst things that i have ever had to do, though. I was trying so hard not to cry at the airport. I didn't want to seem like such a pansy. I was glad his flight got cancelled though, so i atleast got to spend one more night with him.

I had such an amazing time with him while he was here. I wish he didn't have to leave me so soon. I miss him so much, like i'm starting to go crazy because of it. I know this may make me sound like a pussy but i havn't been able to stop crying since he left. I feel like a peice of me is missing and i feel really empty.

Andy was my first kiss and the first boy i have ever held hands with. I have always been really nervous around boys, to the point where i would turn red just looking at them so that's a pretty big deal to me. I always wanted my first kiss to be perfect, and it was. Things were just so different with Andy. I clicked with him, i was never nervous and i'm so comfortable around him. He actually made me feel beautiful.

I really need to see him again.
I think i'm going to go and apply at a store so i can pay for a plane ticket to Toronto.

I think i am in love.
Acually, who am i kidding.
I know i am in love.

P.S I made a new journal. I'm going to stop using this one soon and my new one will probably be friends only. Add me if you still think i'm cute.
xoxo___homicide
xoxo___homicide
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_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-02-12T22:39:00

2005-02-13T05:37:42Z

DON'T POST YOUR SHITTY COMMUNITIES ON MY JOURNAL YOU FUCKING DOUCHES.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-02-06T17:32:00

2005-02-07T00:30:51Z

11 days until my life is complete.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-02-01T00:19:00

2005-02-01T07:17:49Z

Andy is offically going to be here in 17 days.
I am SO excited.

"On a scale of 1 to 10, you're the best."

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-30T12:49:00

2005-01-30T19:48:01Z

Sorry to everyone i punched, pushed, kicked, made fun of or yelled at yesterday.
Bad times.

HAHAHAHA. FUCK.
So many girls on Myspace fucking piss me off.
I wish i could punch bitches through my computer monitor.
That would be nice.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-27T23:55:00

2005-01-28T06:53:55Z

If you're in a shitty fucking community (that means the majority of them) don't fucking post your shitty advertisments on my journal. I don't give a fuck who's hot, who's the most scene or who has the most amazing hair. I will end up joining, applying and being a total fucking douche so get fucked sluts.

So i almost died today. Amber was curling my hair and all of a sudden i blacked out and felt like i was going to throwup, so i sat on the floor for awhile. I kept thinking i was going to puke, so i went and sat by the toilet. I couldn't even stand up because i was so dizzy. Then my skin went numb and cold and i couldn't feel anything and i kept blacking out. It was so fucked up. Ok, so maybe that's not exactally almost dying but it sure felt like it.

Also, i finished my Social diploma in 30minutes. I am not quite sure if that is good or bad. Oh well, fuck it.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-26T12:24:00

2005-01-26T19:22:48Z

If your in a cute little band and you have a DEMO/CD or anything, you should send that to me. Some distros i know are looking for some new stuff and i would gladly give it to them to check out.

On another note, someone should get me some Locust merch. Seriously.
I really want some and i can't friggin get any in Canada.
I would love you forever.

Acually, if you can get anything for free you should send that to me too, since i am the most amazing person in the world.
Yeah, you know you wanna.
Hahaha.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-23T23:49:00

2005-01-24T06:48:11Z

Whats' up fuckers?
I went webcam core.OMGGZZZLOLOL!!!11

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-22T12:59:00

2005-01-22T19:58:06Z

So i'm going to Ontario and when i get there i'm going to fucking murder this dumb slut. I am not even joking, if you want to start fucking bullshit with me you better be prepared to fucking face me with it. I don't tolerate that kind of fucking shit, so get fucked you peice of trash. Everything i said to you today wasn't half of what i should have said and it obviously proved how right i am.

Honestly, i have never said this to anyone but go fucking end your life. Once i'm done with your fucking ass, you will wish you ended your life before i got ahold of you.

& to the people who are friends with this girl, i don't give a fuck. If she or any of you want to fuck with me, do it. I fucking dare you.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-20T13:31:00

2005-01-20T20:29:35Z

Today is my mom's birthday. She is so cute and i love her so much.
It's her big 5-0.
On saturday we are having this huge surprise dinner for her and my dad has contacted a lot of her super old friends that she hasnt seen for like 10 years.
I'm so excited.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-16T15:56:00

2005-01-16T22:54:42Z

Andy James = Life.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-09T14:31:00

2005-01-09T21:30:20Z

If any of you fuckers have Myspace, add both of these.

1.

2.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-06T23:12:00

2005-01-07T06:11:12Z

I'm pretty sure im the toughest motherfucker alive.
Yeee boyeee.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-04T14:08:00

2005-01-04T21:07:27Z

I love it when my friends moms tell me that if they were boys, they would want to date me.
SOOOOOO CUTE!

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2005-01-02T01:13:00

2005-01-02T08:12:20Z

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2004-12-13T21:07:00

2004-12-14T04:06:59Z

Trying to hug someone who's in a school bus and leaning out of the window is pretty hard to do.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2004-12-07T23:38:00

2004-12-08T06:37:53Z

I GOT MY HURRRRRRRR DID.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2004-11-30T14:23:00

2004-11-30T21:23:25Z

DO YOU:
Smoke?: Never have, never will.
Read the newspaper?: Yes, if something catches my eye.
Pray?: No.
Been in love?: I think so!
Gone skinny dipping?: Heck no. Getting naked is for hussies.
Had a medical emergency?: Yes.
Had surgery?: No.
Ran away from home?: For a few days.
Played strip poker?: No.
Gotten beaten up?: No.
Beaten someone up?: Yes.
Been on stage?: Yes.
Slept outdoors?: Trampoline sleepovers are where it's at.
Pulled an all nighter?: Yes.
If yes, what is your record?: 4 days.
Made out with a stranger?: No.
Been on radio/tv?: Yes.
Been in a mosh-pit?: Only when i went in to punch this kid in the spine.
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Yes.
Pepsi or coke?: I'm addicted to Coke. For real.
Chocolate or vanilla?: Neither.
Internet or phone?: Internet. I HATE the phone.
Stubborn?: Sometimes.
Open-minded?: Sometimes.
Arrogant?: Sometimes.
Patient?: Very.
Hyper?: Sometimes.
Nice?: If i like you.
Happy?: Sometimes.
Shave your head for $1000?: No.
Like candles?: If they smell nice.
Believe in soul mates?:Undecided.
Believe in love at first sight?: No.
Believe in forgiveness?: Depends on the situation.
Want to get married?: Not sure.
Want to have kids?: Not sure.
Ever want to adopt kids?: Not sure.

ABOUT YOU:
[three words that sum you up]: Tall, gangster, asshole.
[jewelry worn daily]: Braclets Andy gave me and two other ones that are all tied weird.
[wallet]: Black with pink stars.
[coffee]: Gross.
[shoes]: Camo Phat Farm shoes.
[cologne/perfume]: A lot of purfume/cologne gives me headaches.
[clothing you have on]: Scooby Doo boxers, knee high socks, Buzzing Bee's shirt. So hot right now.

?IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU...?
[cried]: Yes.
[bought something]: No.
[gotten sick]: Yes. I have been sick for 7 months!
[sang]: Yes.
[eaten]: Yes.
[been kissed]: No.
[felt stupid]: No.
[wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't]: No.
[talked to an ex]: No.
[seen someone you have a crush on]: Jesse Mcartney.
[had a serious talk]: Yes, with ROBERT.
[missed someone]: Yes.
[hugged someone]: Yes.
[argued with a parent(s)]: No.

?SOCIAL LIFE?
[best girl friend]: Amber.
[best guy friend]: Cory & xMikex of course.
[boyfriend/girlfriend]: No.
[car you drive]: I have a car. I just don't drive it.
[would you rather be with friends or on a date]: Friends.
[job]: I don't really have a job. I work at the Okotoks Animal Clinic two times a week but that's all.
[attend church]: No.
[like being around people]: Depends on who i'm with. I don't like being in large groups.

LAST PERSON WHO
. Slept in your bed: My kitten and i.
. Saw you cry: Amber.
. Made you cry: Myself.
. You shared a drink with: Amber.
. You went to the movies with: Lane, Evan, Adam, Amber, Lauren, Read, Jason & a few other kids i don't even know the names of.
. You went to the mall with: Same as above.
. Yelled at you: No one.
. kissed: No one.
. hugged: Denise.
. held hands with: No one.

HAVE YOU EVER...
. Said "I Love You" and meant it?: I wouldn't say i love you if i didn't mean it.
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Yes. It happens a lot.
. Wished you were the opposite sex: Boys do have it easier.
. Had an imaginary friend: No.
. Do you have a crush on someone: Andy.
. What book are you reading now: I was reading Roots for the 3rd time, awhile ago. Havn't read much lately.
. Worst feeling in the world: Emotional pain.
. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: A pink Carebear, Scooby Doo, A huge Franklin the Turtle and a big stuffed dog.
. What's under your bed: porn? My spare matress, and usually my kitten.
. Favorite sport to watch: X-games.
. Siblings: Alyssa - 14, Michelle - 27, Sharron - 29.
. Location: Okotoks.
. College plans: ACAD probaly.
. Piercings/tattoos: Ears, nostril.
. Do you do drugs: No.
. Do you drink: Sometimes, not usually.
. Who is your best friend: Amber.
. What are you most scared of: Spiders, the dark, being in huge bodies of water, E.T.
. What clothes do you sleep in: Usually the shirt i have been wearing all day and either boxers or PJ pants.
. Where do you want to get married: Don't know.
. Who do you really hate: A few people, they know who they are.
. Been in Love: STFU.
. Do you drive: I only got my learners a few months ago. I have taken my car out a few times but driving scares me.
. Do you like being around people: Sometimes.
. Are you for world peace: It will never happen.
. Are you a health freak: No.

STUFF
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Uh, no.
. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: Many times.
. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Not really.
. Are you lonely right now: No.
. Song thats stuck in your head a lot: DJ Sammy - Baby You're All That I Want. FUCK! That song is ALWAYS in my head. Even if im listening to other music.
What color is most reflective of you? Uh. I don't know?
How did you get the idea for your journal name? The fact that i'm sweeter then anyone else.
What time were you born? In the morning sometime.
What song are you playing now, or wish you were playing?
Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry? Only over Jim Varney.
What color underwear are you wearing? White.
Do you want a baby? No. Fucking hate that shit. I HATE the sound of babies crying.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2004-11-27T22:35:00

2004-11-28T05:35:26Z

When i was reading the Bargain Finder a few weeks ago i saw an add for the Happy Cat Sancuary. I went to their website and clicked on the cats they had for adoption. As soon as i saw Goliath i litteraly fell in love with him. I told my mom about it and she called up the shelter. They took Goliath too a Petsmart in the northeast so i could go and see him. As soon as i went, i knew that he was the one for me. I found out that he was not handled as much as a kitten so he was very shy of people. The owner said that this is why people have been adopting all of the other kittens so quickly but not him. Being the softie i am, i told her that i didn't care that he was shy. I would just take my time and hopefully he would get to know me and my family and feel comfortable. I don't care how long it will take, just aslong as i know that he has a loving home.

He's only 3 months old and he's the cutest boy ever. He has huge feet and i can tell that he's probaly going to be a very large cat. The shelter named him Goliath but i am not sure if i like the name that much. I am havig a really hard time thinking of names, so if you have any suggestions please feel free to leave some!

I adopted him from a rescue shelter called Happy Cat Sanctuary. They picked up a pregnant mother off of the streets and in a few days she had a litter of kittens, one of them being the one i adopted. The shelter has only been running for a year and they have helped so many cats get off the street and into a loving new home. It's run by a very young girl out of Strathmore and you should all really help support them. It's for a really amazing cause. If you have any old cat toys, food or even litter boxes please donate them to that shelter. They deserve all of the help they can get. If you are looking to adopt a new pet, PLEASE stay away from places like Petland. They charge way too much for animals and are only looking for a profit. Go to pet stores that associate with rescue shelters like the SPCA, for example. Petstores that love to do this are Petsmart and Petcetera. If you have any of those stores in your area, please keep them in mind.

OH! I pretty much love Andy with all of my heart. I hope this lasts for a really long time.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2004-11-09T21:19:00

2004-11-10T04:19:29Z

"You are my life. You are my morning. You are my evening. You are my midnight. Every second of the day i love you and think about you. I care about you, you are my anything and everything. You put those random smiles on my face. You put those happy thoughts into my head. You do it all, you make me who i am. Without you i wouldnt be the person i am today. You gave me courage when i was down. You gave me light when it was dark. You gave me love when nobody else would. You stood near my side through hard times, you are my good times. There is nobody else in this world i care about more than you and without you, i wouldnt be here. Without strong thoughts of you, i wouldnt be here Without courage you gave me, i wouldnt be here. You are my everything and never my nothing. I love you kenzie conrad. I show you a side of me i never share to anyone. So please copy what i wrote and read it as much as you can because you need to always know that i will be there for you and you need to know how much you actually mean to me."

Could anyone more amazing, say anything more beautiful?
No.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2004-11-06T22:52:00

2004-11-07T05:52:20Z

Have you ever had a friend you would do anything for? A friend you could trust with your deepest and darkest secrets? A friend you could do absolutly nothing with, but it wouldn't matter because you're with them? A friend that would make you feel better no matter how bad things got? Let me introduce you to the person i am talking about.

I was in grade 11. I met a girl in English class, her name was Amber. She always sat alone, so one day i asked her if she would like to sit with me. This was unusual because i am a very shy person, and i don't usually talk to people i don't know. I am not sure what made me talk to a complete stranger that day but i am glad i did. That stranger turned out to be one of the most amazing and beautiful people i have had the opportunity to have in my life. Ever since that day, we have been best friends and our friendship is only growing stronger.

Dear Amber,
I have never met someone who is so beautiful inside and out. Not only are you freaking stunning but you have a heart pure of gold. I don't think anyone has ever cared about me as much as you, or atleast showed it like you have. No one has ever stuck with me through bad times or supported me through everything that has happened, as much as you have. Everyone either gives up on me, or fucks our friendship up. You're the one friend i have never had a huge fight with and you are one of the only real friends i have left. I cherish this so much, you have no idea. You have helped shape me into what i am today, and i wouldn't change a thing about it.

I don't think you understand or know how much i look up to you. No matter what happens or how shitty things can get, you always seems to pull through in the end. I know you have had rough times in the past, but these situations have only shaped you as a person. I wouldn't want anything to be different, you are perfect. When you care about someone, you make sure they know it. You have a very striking sense of humour but you also know when to be serious. You have amazing talents and passion for everything you do. You are amazing at art, you're an amazing sister and daughter, and most of all you're amazing at being a friend. I admire the passion you have for people you love and the passion you have for things like snowboarding.

I enjoy everything i do with you. Wheither it's driving pointlessly around Calgary, racing people in your car, going to shows, calling girls sluts in the hallway, laughing when zombies rip open peoples stomachs and eat their insides, having murderous photoshoots with ketchup, singing along to Funeral For A Friend, making fun of hardcore in empty parking lots or doing something as simple as sitting in the same room as you. It doesn't matter what i am doing with you because it's always perfect. Every moment spent with you is amazing and i would never have it any different. I would never want to share moments we have had with anyone else.

A lot of bad things have been happening to you for the past while, but i am glad to know that things have finally picked up. I have never seen you so happy with life, and you don't know how good it makes me feel. I love knowing that someone i care for so much is so happy. Everytime i think about it a huge smile appears on my face. You deserves every bit of happiness you can get and you definatly deserve things to always be this amazing. It's crazy to see a long streak of bad luck turn into something so beautiful.

Thank you for being so amazing and most of all, for being my friend.

To all of you who know Amber, i hope you realize what i do. I hope you understand what a great friendship you have, and i hope you never take it for granted.
To all of you who don't know Amber, i hope you have or one day find a friendship like i have.

Love,
Kenzie.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2004-10-24T21:47:00

2004-10-25T03:47:33Z

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2004-10-23T23:36:00

2004-10-24T05:36:19Z

I think i am really close to actually loving someone.
I have never been in love though, so i am not sure what to feel.
I hope i can share true love with him someday.
He would be the only person i could see myself falling in love with.

_xcoolerthanyou @ 2004-10-18T18:15:00

2004-10-19T00:16:01Z

I like this boy so much and by so much, i mean SOOOOOOOOO FREAKING MUCH! I mean, i even talked to his mum on the phone. I guess you could say i am pretty much obsessed with him. I am sorry if my constant talking about him gets annoying but i can`t help it & you are all going to have to deal because i am totally not stopping. He`s one of the few people who make me the happiest girl alive. I love it and if you arn`t down with that, i`ll fucking kill you.