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_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-09-07T17:49:00

2006-09-07T21:51:55Z

Well i guess its about time I update this thing, I really don't have much to say!

Senior year feels the same as every other year, nothing diferent except the freshmen really get on my nerves this year, there always in the way!!

My b-day is in 4 days I'll be big ole 17 lol

Matt and i are doing great I love him so much, and this 15th will make 5 months for me and him!!

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_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-08-21T18:20:00

2006-08-21T22:21:38Z

I love Matthew Andrew Culbertson!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-08-10T23:15:00

2006-08-11T03:21:18Z

Hey guys its been a while!

I don't really have much to update about!

It doesn'e fell any different being a senior, but i guess that will come with time! It was weird seeing the new faces at the High School!

Matt and I are doing great! Expect this one peorsn wont leave us alone but taht okay cause we both know not to listen to her stupid shit! I'm really tired of her! I love him so much! He is my world! Not only do i love him but I'm in love with him!

Nothing really is going different with me! I think that Allison and I are getting closer! and that is great! I have missed her!

iLyMc<3
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_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-07-22T14:58:00

2006-07-22T19:12:06Z

I really hate updating this thing!! lol

Lets do some randoms

♥I'm really depressed
♥Tasha is here
♥North Carliona w/Matt was great! SOme pictures in my yahoo photo thing
♥I really need a new cell phone
♥ My parents aren't being that mean now, but they still don't let me do anything
♥My realtionship is not going that great at the moment!
♥ I miss MoHo
♥And Alay
♥There is 70 cents beside of me
♥I REALLY need to clean my room
♥I need to strighten my hair
♥ I love Matt <3
♥I really dislike most of my family
♥I can't believe that I'm a senior
♥My feet are cold
♥I'm so emotional unstable (I think that i'm at my worse point)

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-07-05T00:03:00

2006-07-05T04:06:26Z

Time to update again!

I love my new journal so much!! Thank you so much my other half!!!

I have gotten so tired of my family these last couple of days!!! I know thats bad, but i just can't handle all the drama! I'm very emotional unstable and i can't handle it!! lol

Well Matt and I are doing great! I love you so much! I would not change anything at all about our relationship!!

I don't really have much to update about so i will update later when something comes to minD!!!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-06-30T16:32:00

2006-06-30T20:32:58Z

In the process of getting a new layout!!! Thanks to Alainea Short

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-06-21T18:16:00

2006-06-21T22:22:34Z

Well I guess I will update again..

I went to the doctor today cause i have been sick for a while, and Matt went with me which it was great having him there since I hate the doctor!!

Speaking of Matt, we are doing great, we do fight sometimes, like all couples, but its still great and i love him to death and i would do anything in this world for him!

Well lets see I'm going to go see Alainea today cause i haven't seen her in a while, and I MISS HER SO MUCH!!!

My dad and I arent fighting as much now but me and my mother are still going at it, I hate her so much!!! I can't wait to move out so i will never have to talk to her again! She gets on my fucking nerves so much that its not even funny, she does anything that she can to see me hurt and sad!

Thats about it!!
MaC && AmM 04-15-06

Randoms!

2006-06-09T03:56:25Z

♥ My dad and I are still fighting a lot!
♥ I really NEED a car
♥Open gym has started
♥ My grandmother is in the hospital again so please keep her in your prays
♥I hurt my ankle
♥I'm really tired
♥I love Matthew Andrew Culbertson
♥My mom is being nice to me...which is weird
♥I'm tired of livejournal
♥I need a haircut!
♥I need a tan
♥I'm on the phone with Matt
♥We have basketball camp Monday
♥I need a new layout
♥A lot of people hate me
♥but i really don't care
♥My toe is hurting
♥I'm not going to get to see Matt for 2 weeks :(
♥I miss Alainea!!! :(
♥ Some people piss me off so much!!
♥ I need to hang with Steph!
♥ No one is online
♥ My neck is hurting
♥ I'm done with this
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_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-05-26T22:23:00

2006-05-27T02:25:03Z

Does any one know were I can find information on Hawthorne Heights drummers death? I have looked everywere!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-05-26T16:01:00

2006-05-26T20:02:40Z

It Seems like everthing that I did is wrong! I'm SO Sorry!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-05-16T17:19:00

2006-05-16T21:30:15Z

ITs not been that long since I updated but I have nothing else to do, I'm waiting on my dad to call to see if I can go see Matt!!

Well in a couples days I will be a senior and that scares the shit out of me! I don't want to leave the life that I have right now! Like in a year its going to be so different! College, moving out and living on my own, I'm not ready for that!! I'm so tired of this year though, I'm just ready for it to be over it has been the worse emotional year I have ever had and plus my grades haven't been the best this year!!

We start open gym for basketball in at the end of theis month and I can't wait I love it so much and miss it!! I hope this years goes a little better and I hope that I can be mental prepared this year!

Well April now has an wonderfull boyfriend and he name is Matthew and we have been together for and month and 1 day it has been so great!!

Here are some randoms

♥My dad and I have been arguing a lot lately!
♥Allison and I are talking again!
♥I miss not being close to some of my friends like RAMBO.....I MISS YOU!
♥I have played basketball 2 days in a row!
♥I Miss Matthew
♥I think Tasha is pulling away from me she is not acting like herslef i hope she still wants to be friends!!
♥I'm so nerves about my Math Analysis exam
♥My parents are going out of town this summer...PARTY!!!!
♥I'm thinking about have a funeral for my journal!
♥I THINK THIS SUMMER IS GOING TO BE FUN!!!

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_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-05-12T22:08:00

2006-05-13T02:08:30Z

I'M SICK OF EVERYONES SHIT!!!!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-05-02T15:37:00

2006-05-02T19:37:59Z

I got a myspace!
But I don't know anything about it so can someone help me?

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-04-19T21:56:00

2006-04-20T02:06:22Z

Well its about time i update again!

I really don't know what to update about! I stop working at Arby's i was so tired of the drive up there everyday and the money that i had to put back for gas!

I have gotten closer to Tasha and Melissa and that has been great I never use to get to hang out with them, but the gang is getting back together lol, except one person is MissinG!!! PUDDIN!!!! WE MISS YOU! I never get to see you girl we are going to have hang like the hole day one day!

But on the negative side!

I Could Not Hate LIFE More Than I Do Now!!!

I don't know what i did to make him hate me so much!

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

That songs describes My dad and my relationship!! It means so much to me just to hear him say that he love me and he wants to see me happy, but most of the time he is screaming at me and telling me how much he hates me!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-03-23T18:20:00

2006-03-23T23:21:46Z

Well I guess its about time that i update this damn thing even though I don't want to!!

TO start with lets see I never have time to do anything anymore, I'm either at work, or school, or doing homework, nothing more then that!! Yeah I know that i have a boring life!!! SO sorry to everyone that i have not been able to talk to or see!!!

Second of All... I'M OVER HIM!!! I can finally say that and mean it!!!!! It took so long, now don't get me wrong i still care about him and i always will, and i would do anything in this world, for him but now its just a friendship nothing more. I would not mind having something with him in a couple years, but as of right now no!!! A certain person helped me with that by just being their for me, and telling me that if its was meant to be it would have happened!! Why did i have to go though that to be able to see that? Now its so clear!!!

Lets see....

I think that I want to pull away from everyone, and not be close to anyone, because I'm not good with emotional pain, as you can tell, and I don't want to have to go through leaving eveyone that I'm close to next year! I know its not a good ideal, but it does make logical since! Its going to be hard to do, but now that Allison and I are not talking maybe it will be easier because she was/kind of is my best friend and now that I don't have her to talk to and to listen to my problems i think that it is going to be a lot easier then i thought!!

The job life is going okay! its not great because i don't like working, but i like the people up there! There is also this guy up their, that I sort of like! BUT April is not getting attached this time! Like she did before!

As of my whole life it is okay, except that Allison and I are not on speaking terms! I really like the way, its going though, My life is changing so fast, not a day goes by that something new is not happening!!

I think that is long enough!!
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_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-02-21T20:49:00

2006-02-22T01:50:36Z

I don't know how much longer i can take this...........

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-02-12T14:11:00

2006-02-12T19:16:27Z

I HATE LIFE!!

I'm so tired of living in hell and never being able to be happy!!!

I don't know what I'm going to do if something happens to her! My Grandmother was sick the other day so we took her to the hospital, and they said that she was very sick, well Mom, Dad and i went to go see her today and when that told us what was wrong it killed me!! she has a partion collapsed lung and a blockage on her heart, and their is nothing they can do for her heart or her lung, they are just hoping that he lung heals by itself!

But how do i go on with out her? she is all that i have!!!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-02-08T20:56:00

2006-02-09T01:56:43Z

I think I'm done with the whole updating this thing!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-01-18T16:15:00

2006-01-18T21:15:49Z

Sometimes i wished i had to balls to kill myself........

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-01-18T11:15:00

2006-01-18T16:17:49Z

Falling for you was the biggest mistake I've ever made!!!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2006-01-07T16:10:00

2006-01-07T21:27:56Z

I have nothing to update about so i thought that i would do some Randoms!!

♥I really like this Semester!
♥I think that me and Steph are difting apart, and that makes me sad!
♥I haven't seen Amber this year!
♥I think that i have a sleeping problem
♥I like Ecology class
♥We played Apply lastnight and won
♥We play Gate city tuesday! grr!
♥I really miss Steph and Allison
♥I might be staying with Rambo tonight.
♥I think that i'm might have a funeral for my livejournal
♥I really need a car
♥I have three classes with Allison and lunch
♥I think that Allison and I's friendship is going down the tubes and i hate that, I don't why i think that we have started to change I dunno.. but it makes me super sad:(
♥No one has called me today.
♥I never get to talk to Heather anymore.
♥Tasha and i have like no friendship anymore and i don't know why.
♥As you can tell i have lost a lot of friends
♥I think a lot of people hate me
♥I can't unattahed myself.
♥I'm finished with this

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2005-12-31T20:47:00

2006-01-01T01:47:51Z

i don't know what to do with myslef anymore, i hate life more then i have ever had! and thats scares me!

and i have no one that cares about me anough to get to know the real me! i have no one that i can be completely honest with, their is NO ONE that knows the real me!! i hate myslef, i push people away all the time cause i don't want to get hurt! and damn and i don't want to hurt them!!, and even if their was someone that i could talk to, after i got finished talking to them they would think that i was a freak and hate me!

how do i keep everything inside and then don't let it get the best of me?

i just seem to be digging the whole deeper and deeper and no one tries to help me and no one cares anough to!

I HATE LIFE!!

i want to be happy, thats all i have every wanted!, and yet i never get it, everyone around me is happy and they have a perfect life, am i just a big swear up that god doesn't give a shit wheater i'm happy or not?? what have i ever done to deserve that?

i'm doomed!

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2005-12-31T19:05:00

2006-01-01T00:18:24Z

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2005-12-26T23:12:00

2005-12-27T04:12:29Z

vote for me so i can win a free Ipod please!! :)

_xbrokenpiecesx @ 2005-12-22T00:10:00

2005-12-22T05:10:59Z

new user info tell me what you think!