going through the motions

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 17:44:42 GMT

come to the new journal (makeyoulive)

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 15:48:41 GMT

it seems like every time i come to LJ to check out my friends' entries, someone is bitching and moaning about his/her life, friends, relationship, etc.

life has its ups and downs. that's life. suck it up.

you can be friends with good people, and you can be friends with rotten people. in the end, it's your choice. don't be close with whoever comes your way. cut out the people who aren't worth your time, but don't complain if you pick the asswads to be with.

relationships are work. enjoy it or get the fuck out.

personally, i have a great fucking life. i make the most of it, and i love it.

i have amazing friends and i am not lying when i say we never fight. i've known alaina for over six years, and i can't remember a single argument. i've known stephanie for four, and we've never even come close to a disagreement. there's no drama or backstabbing in these circles.

i have a boyfriend who i love and who loves me. we make each other happy.

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 13:20:18 GMT

my life, for the most part, is pretty amazing.

last night consisted of me plus four other people (cousin, cousin's gf, and two guys) and a bottle of johnny black and two bottles of jose. funnnnnnnn.

in china, people pretty much just love chivas and johnny walker black label. it's basically all we've been drinking... it's weird.

what i really want to get a picture of is the whole vip room set up thing with the little dish of nose tampons and the endless lines of coke(?) and all the bottles of chivas and fruit dishes and yummy little snacks and hired girls, but i'd still feel really weird taking a pic of all that.

should i get bangs? yes / no --- side / normal ?

Mon, 29 May 2006 14:11:37 GMT

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DJ DARA <3

i came back to the underground stage after the planet of the drums set to check out photek, but apparently he walked off stage or something and ak1200 and dieselboy were playing and dara came out and i was like afjapkurwaej;aowkeawoeioriawr<3 and he signed my ticket and gave me a hug and i was like *drooooool* i love you.

this one really tall kid took a pic for me and it's got dieselboy and dara playing in it and i took some pictures of the mc.

waheajwhejawhejakwheawehlw

i need sleep.

Fri, 26 May 2006 04:11:21 GMT

PLZ COME IN TO MY LIFE AND WASTE MY TIME.

THANKS.

Sun, 21 May 2006 17:47:39 GMT

I want something small, furry and cute that I can take care of.

But I kind of want a snake, too.

Alaina and I are going to China for sure this summer; our parents bought the tickets on Friday. We're going to be spending most of our time in Shanghai, but we'll see Beijing too and HOPEFULLY TIBET. My life would be pretty much complete if I got to see Tibet.

When I come back home, I'll spend one week in my house before going off to State for orientation and moving in.

Then I'll never really live at home again. I'm thrilled.

I'm going to miss cutiepants so much, whether he stays here or goes to Syria and Egypt.

Sat, 20 May 2006 04:52:08 GMT

sometimes i wonder if this is really worth it.

everyone tells me to just leave it, just give up. i'm sure if i was in my friends' positions, i would be saying the same exact thing.

i still feel like i have to keep holding on.

it's pretty fucking miserable 50% of the time.

Wed, 17 May 2006 18:56:34 GMT

i cannot wait to get out of this place.

Fri, 12 May 2006 00:14:49 GMT

Imagine the people who believe such things and who are not ashamed to ignore, totally, all the patient findings of thinking minds through all the centuries since the Bible was written. And it is these ignorant people, the most uneducated, the most unimaginative, the most unthinking among us, who would make themselves the guides and leaders of us all; who would force their feeble and childish beliefs on us; who would invade our schools and libraries and homes. I personally resent it bitterly.
--Isaac Asimov

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 22:21:46 GMT

does anyone know someone who does suspensions?

i am thinking about doing it for my 18th birthday.

yes, i want four meat hooks in my back so i can swing from the ceiling and bounce up and down.

i am pretty excited.

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 14:58:58 GMT

MY MOM IS MAKING ME DO MY LAUNDRY AND I AM TRYING TO LOOK UP HOW TO DO IT ONLINE AND HOW TO SEPERATE COLORS.

AHHH MY LIFE IS OVER. I CANT DO THIS. I AM TOO INDECISIVE.

BLEACH? DETERGENT? POWDER? LAUNDRY SHEETS? OMGGGGGG.

I AM GOING TO FAIL IN COLLEGE.

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 14:34:44 GMT

prdarkstar
2006-04-14 10:29 pm UTC (link)

Many people in here just enjoy getting on the "make fun of scientology" bandwagon. These are the same people whose family believe Jesus turned water into wine and actually came back to life.

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hahahaha, i liked this comment.

i bought a prom dress.
actually, i bought about a half dozen.

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 03:11:07 GMT

in demontigny's ap comp, i just scored 20/20 on two impromptus in a row.

I AM GLORIOUS.

i am writing that lord of the flies paper, and i'm ready to quit at life. UGH.

JAMAICA <3

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 01:18:40 GMT

if i don't get into a college i actually want to go to, i'm either going to do the internship at national geographic or go to china and volunteer, teaching english for a year.

i just want to get all this crap over with.

i'm going to be 18 in december.
i don't think i've accomplished anything so far in my life. i don't think i've done anything meaningful.

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 22:35:46 GMT

I'M ON GOVERNOR'S CABINET AT YOUTH IN GOVERNMENT.

i need to write some new bills, and i'm having trouble thinking of any.

please suggest some.

in case any of you guys aren't sure, i'm a social liberal, fiscal conservative.

THANK YOU.

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 01:27:47 GMT

WHAT ARE YOU ALWAYS CARRYING?

me (purse)-

mittens
wallet (gap giftcard, mediaplay giftcard, target giftcard, credit card, wash u id, lisense, adams id, roch library card, auburn hills library card, about $30 in dollar bills, some coins)
red mint lip tint
rose lip balm
compact w/ hair brush
pink highlighter
92348 pens
hand sanitizer
citrus lotion
sticky note pad
2 water bottles, one full, one empty
cellphone
ipod
books i am reading, currently: "more guns, less crime" ; "rape of nanking"
mints
caffiene pills
motrin
sleeping pills
picture of me and cutiepants
key ring: house, garage, car and control, cvs card, beautyfirst card, gym card, wash u safety whistle, engraved thing w/ my initials and "if found please drop in any us maibox blah blah blah"

good thing my purse is a beast.

TELL ME WHAT YOU'RE CARRYING.

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 04:17:10 GMT

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You fill every waking moment with activity.
You are a social person who likes to talk and meet others.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 18:54:02 GMT

i love all my friends- through the good and the bad, through the talking and falling out of touch and hanging out again, through all the drama, fights and trouble.

i love you guys. truly.

there are a lot of friends i see all the time, and there are a lot of friends i hardly ever see or talk to, but when i need you guys, i know you're always there and will always be there. even if i call you out of the blue ten years down the line.

<3

all my cranbrook friends
all my adams friends
all my wash u friends
and some of the party kids, lol.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 02:49:22 GMT

everything you think you know baby, is wrong.
and everything you think you had baby, is gone.

certain things turn ugly when you think too hard,
and nagging little thoughts change into things you can't turn off.
everything you think you know baby, is wrong.

do you really think i'm made of stone baby?
c'mon!
that we only love the things we own?
baby, you're wrong.

certain things just happen when you make no plans,
and love can really tear you up and it can break you down.
everything you think you know baby, is wrong.

baby, we're done.

if i could, i would,
i'd change everything,
cause i can't forget you though you don't believe me.
now i can't walk back,
i can't leave behind.
where does it go,
all the light that we had?

everything you think you know baby, is wrong.
and everything you think you had baby, is gone.

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 02:56:01 GMT

HURT HURT HURT HURT HURT

after all these years, this is what i'm left with.

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 19:01:30 GMT

it's been almost two months since we broke up.

half the time, i miss him like crazy, and the other half of the time, i want to wring his neck.

i never know what to do.

sched

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 16:12:52 GMT

physics ap
comp 12 ap
anatomy/physiology
bio ap (YESSSSS)
govnt ap
shakespeare

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 06:28:23 GMT

rydewitabrudda (1:27:20 AM): amo wuvs yoo a wot!

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 04:57:05 GMT

it's almost midnight, and i'm finishing up my iced mocha, and my caffiene pill is making me twitchy.

i really don't have anything left to do- i could go to bed and get a good six hours of sleep, but instead i'm staring at my computer, waiting for amr to sign online.

i hope he's going to sign on, but i know he isn't going to.

i sit around and wait anyways.

i think this is pretty representative of the past two or so years.

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 04:55:46 GMT

so jackie's been gone for two years, and i just talked to her.

her parents sent her to a boarding school based off of AA, she just got back this sunday and now she's all clean and doesn't do drugs or drink anymore. it's kind of weird, considering our memories, but whatever, i'm glad to see her back and i'm glad she's happy and whatnot.

it seems like a lot of my friends are sobering up / have sobered up, but these days, all i want to do is stick things up my nose.

that or blow my fucking brains out.

ugh.