_x& Here's the things I meant but never said...

You're so medicated...

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 20:15:12 GMT

Well! It's been FAR too long fellow LiveJournalers. lol.

I've been working a bit and when I'm not working, I'm trying to keep up with a so-called social life.
Brittany moved away almost two weeks ago. And I'm dying without her.
*Sighs*

I've been getting into the habit of drinking every weekend.
But not this weekend. I'm too poor. Sad day.

I started cleaning my room, but got discouraged, entirely. lol.
So...
Anyway.

:P

I'm going to take a nap! :)

I hope you know that this has nothin' to do with you.

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 15:55:51 GMT

Got my tonsils out yesterday.
It fucking hurts. Who ever told me I was going to do fine, was an idiot. lmao.

Although, the doctor said I was doing fairly well for the size of my tonsils. Apparently they were really big and swollen. And the tonsil beds needed to be taken care of, or something?

I had to share a room with three other people.
Three extremely feeble old ladies. Who didn't like to wear underwear under there backless dresses. Ladies who pee'd in bed pans, because they couldn't walk. But one was SO sweet. Her name was Doris, and she had an English accent, and I dragged one of my stuffies to join me overnight, and she said she liked Kurt, and thought he looked soft. I didn't let her touch him. He's mine!

And one of the nurses was sweet. She sat down with me, for about, 10 minutes, out of her busy night, because I was having trouble sleeping, and stayed with me for a bit, and we talked.

I felt bad because my mom was falling asleep in the chair, so I told her to go home.

Either way. I better be okay by 9 days. haha. I need to go on that pubcrawl!!!
lmao.

&hearts;

I've seen better days...

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 16:10:42 GMT

Well, well, well...
Seems like I've been up to everything BESIDES updating. lol.

I'm definitely getting my tonsils out this month. It's decided. And nothing will make me change my mind. They got to gooo!

I've been spending quite a bit of time with Brittany. It's nice. I'll miss her when she moves to Halifax...

Still no boys in my love life. Not a single fucking one. lol.

Still trying my hardest to decide what to do next year. *Sighs*
ANYWAY!

;D

Sleep alone tonight!

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 15:58:04 GMT

1. Name something that made you smile today.
My cat found a worm and was playing with it outside. That's about it... lol.

2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Sleeping.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Outside, having a cigarette.

4. What was something that happened to you in 1992?
Well... I was 4... Haha.

6. Three words to explain why you last threw up..
I don't remember. (HEY! It's still three words!!)

7. What color is your hairbrush?
Grey/silver.

8. What was the last thing you bought?
I bought some candy yesterday at work. lol.

11. Where do you keep your money?
Wallet or pocket.

12. What was the weather like today?
Looks pretty cloudy.

13. Where did your last hug take place?
Umm... Yesterday with my mommy in the kitchen, because I love her!!

14. What are you excited about?
Umm... This weekend!!

18. Are you very random?
Depends on the mood I'm having.

19. Do you want to cut your hair?
No. Well, maybe a trim. I want my hair lonnng.

20. Are you over the age of 25?
Not yet.

21. Do you talk a lot?
I can.

22. Did you watch The O.C.?'
No. Never watched a full episode in my life.

23. Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
Yes.

24. Do you know anyone named Chloe?
Nope.

25. Do you make up your own words?
I stopped doing that when I was like, 10.

26. Are you ticklish?
Definitelyyyy!

27. Are you typically a jealous person?
Very much so. And if I don't show it, it's ripping me apart on the inside.

29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "C":
Chris.

30. Who's the last person to txt you?
Aaron.

32. Do you chew on your straws?
When the mood strikes.

33. do you have curly hair?
No.

34. What is the next concert you're going to?
*Shrugs*

37. What is something you say a lot?
"Let's go to Hermies!" lmao...!

39. Have you seen the movie 'Donnie Darko?
Yessums.

40. Do you have to work tomorrow?
No! I'm off til' Fridayy!

42. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
My mumzie.

43. What should you be doing right now?
Showering.

44. Do you have a nickname?
Mouse? lol.

45. Are you a heavy sleeper?
Yes. I can be. It comes in waves.

47. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?
I don't remember what movies I watched lastnight! lol.

48. Is there anyone you like right now?
Yessums.

49. When was the last time you did the dishes?
I don't remember.

50. Did you cry today?
No...

How'd you get so fly?

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 02:49:45 GMT

Well!
It seems I never update anymore. Hah.

I've got some shit figured out for myself...

I'm going to Marconi next year, if I can. I'm going to be going in for Practical Nursing instead of doing my degree in Psychology at CBU. Cheaper, faster and easier. lol.

69 weeks, and I'll get a diploma. Woo? I think so.

It seems that all my friends are moving away this summer. And it saddens me, extremely. But, that's okay. I'll still have a few friends floating around... I guess.
I almost debated on going out west for a year or two. To get some hardcore cash, and move back, pay off my loans and save the rest. But then I decided against it, for the sheer fact I can't move out west by myself! I'd die of lonelyness.

Either way.

I'm in a decent mood. It seems like I know where I want to be, and how I plan on getting there.

:)

Annnywhosit!

Tomorrow's pay day! I'm buying a bar shirt! And hitting Hermies on Saturday! EVERYONE GO! :)
Ktnx.

We were all alone when I finally made a pass at you.

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 13:38:37 GMT

Q. Do you still talk to the person you lost your virginity to?
A. I haven't talked to him since it happened. Hah.

Q: What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
A: I don't remember.

Q: What is the best thing about your current job?
A: The people I work with... Oh! And the money! lol.

Q: Do you wish cell phone etiquette was a required class upon purchasing one?
A: No...?

Q: What's the most messed up food combination that you've had that was actually good?
A: Kraft Dinner and ranch dressing.

Q: Have you been on a date in the past week?
A: *Sighs* No.

Q: Where are you going on your next vacation?
A: Probably going to Halifax!

Q: Are most of your friends new or old?
A: A mix of both.

Q: What's one of your most random pet peeves (something that annoys you)?
A: Odd numbers.

Q: Do you own any furniture from the IKEA furniture store?
A: No.

Q: What do you wish someone would buy you?
A: A life. lol.

Q: What do you think of vintage shopping?
A: S'all good.

Q: What are you wearing right now?
A. Jammers.

Q: When is the last time you had Mom's home cookin'?
A: Oh jesus. I can't really remember. Since I became a vegetarian, my mom barely cooks for me anymore. lol.

Q: Do you like your parents?
A. I love my parents, more then life.

Q: Do you ever paint your toenails?
A: Not at all.

Q: What state/province are you from?
A: Born in Alberta, but raised in NS!

Q: Do you ever wish you were a guy?
A: Sometimes.

Q: Tell us about the last phone conversation you had?
A: I was at Brittany's and called my mom for a drive home. I think?

Q: Where do you see yourself in one month?
A: Paying off my debts. Haha.

Q: What is your favorite scent?
A: I like a lot of smells... Lately it's been Dove shampoo. LOL.

Q: What do people label you as?
A: People?

Q: Do you consider yourself bipolar?
A: Who would consider themselves bipolar? Either you are, or not. There's no in between.

Q: What is the outside temperature at the moment?
A: -100 degrees. lmao.

Q: Are you missing anyone right now?
A: Oui.

Q: What's your current problem?
A: Eh... I can't let things go.

Q: What are you doing right now?
A: Doing this quiz, singing and chatting.

Q: What's one type of person that really bothers you?
A: Liars and ones who can't make up their mind.

Q: What's one type of person that you enjoy being around?
A: Happy, fun and hilarious people.

Q: What random things make you happy?
A: Pictures.

Q: If you could go back and change something, what would it be?
A: Oh lord. A lotta things.

Q: If you could be any animal or creature for one day, what would it be?
A: A bird.

Q: Ever had a near death experience?
A: I wouldn't say near death...

Q: What's the name of a song that's stuck in your head right now?
A: Taylor Swift - Picture To Burn

Q: Are you happy today?
A: Not enough to get dressed and do something. lol.

Q: Do you believe in Heaven?
A: No.

*****

200. My middle name is: Sarah.

199. I was born on: April 6, 1988.

198. I am really: sleepy.

197. My cell phone company is: Aliant.

196. My eye color is: Green.

195. My shoe size is: 9ish?

194. My ring size is: I have no idea.

193. My height is: 5'7ish.

192. I am allergic to: Nickle.

191. I was born in: Calgary, Alberta.

190. I live in: Sydney, Nova Scotia.

189. The last book I read: "P.S. I Love You" by Cecelia Ahern. Just finished it lastnight.

188. My bed is: Unmade. lol.

187: One thing you hate about yourself: That I'm such a grubber. lmao.

179. My favorite Holiday is: XxXmas.

177. The last three cd's I bought : I don't remember? lol.

176. Last song that made me cry was: Songs don't make me cry.

175. Are you taken or Single: Single.

174. If your taken, by who?: N/A.

173. Do you like being single/taken?: No.

170. What did you do last night? Hung out with Brittany.

:::::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::::

142. Love at first sight? No.

141. Luck?: Yes.

140. Fate? Yes.

139. Yourself? Sometimes...

138. Aliens? No.

137. Heaven? No.

136. Hell? No.

135. Ghosts? Not ghosts. Spirits, yes.

134. Horoscopes? Yes.

133. Soulmates? Yes.

:::::Which is Better?:::::

129. Hugs or Kisses?: Depends.

128. Drunk or High: Drunk.

127. Phone or Online: Phone if I'm bored, online if I'm busy. lol.

126. Red heads or Black hair: Black hair.

125. Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes.

124. Hot or Cold: Warm.

123. Summer or winter: Summer.

121. Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla.

120. Night or Day: Depends.

119. Oranges or Apples: Apples.

118. Curly or Straight hair: Straight.

:::::Here's What I Think About:::::

116. Abortion: Pro-choice.

115. Backstabbers: Meh. No matter how much you hate them, there's always going to be someone waiting in the side lines to stab you in the back. Or in the leg. Yanno. I'm not sure of their approach.

114. Parents: Are wonderful.

::::Last time I:::

103. Went out of town: Hah. Sadly enough, when I went to Jamaica over a month ago.

102. Had food: Lastnight.

101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: Not really? I can't remember. lmao.

100. Cried in front of someone? Don't remember.

99. Grew: What?

::::MISC::::

90. Who is the ditziest person you know: Nicole Baker. Or sometimes Brittany MacKenzie.

89. Who makes you laugh the most?: Elise Rose or Jessica Corbett.

87.The last movie I watched: Mr. Brook's with Brittany MacKenzie, Mitchell MacDonald and his girlfriend.

82. What I don't understand is: life.

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received is: "No."

79. Something I will miss when I leave home is: My friends and family. The beach. Being able to borrow money from my parents. The people I've grown to see on a daily basis. Watching my little cousin grow up. As Brittany MacKenzie's little brother. My phone number. My room. Yanno. The usual stuff.

78. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: This month? Brittany's 19th Birthdayyy!

77. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: Working to pay off my loans.

73. Tomorrow: Is Wednesday.

72. Today: Is rainy! :(

71. Next Summer: I'll be a year older?

70. Next Week: Is the second week of June.

67. People call me: By my name, which I prefer.

62. The person who knows the most about me is: Brittany MacKenzie or Jessica Corbett.

60. The most difficult thing to do is: Say goodbye.

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: No! :)

56. My zodiac sign is: Aries.

55. The first person I talked to today was: My dad.

54. First time you had a crush: No idea.

53. The one person who can't hide things from me: Haha. I have no idea. Apparently everyone, because I didn't think people hid things from their friends!? LOL.

52. Last time someone said something that you were thinking? I don't remember?

51. Right now I am talking to: My cat, and some online perv.

50. What is your dream job?: Psychologist at a mental ward. Without the debt. lol.

49. First job?: Babysitting. Who hasn't?!

48. I have/will get a job at?: Zellers.

47. I have these pets: A cat named Bootsie and a dog named Goldie.

46. I hope: love to come my way!!

45. The worst sound in the world: ...Styrofoam...

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: N/A.

39. My boy/girlfriend is: Non-existant.

35. Florida or Hawaii: Hawaii.

33. My favorite piece of clothing is: Socks.

32. My favorite sport is: N/A.

31. Last time I cried: Meh. A couple days ago.

30. My friends are: Super! <3

29. My computer is: My boyfriend.

28. The school I go to is: In the air.

27. Last person I got mad at: My dad.

22. The all-time best movie is: I don't know. I like a lot of movies.

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: Sleeping.

18. The most annoying person you know is: You!

17. I lose respect for people who: Piss me off.

16. The movies I have cried at are: The Notebook, Georgia Rule and that one... At the drive-in...

13. Favorite web site: It's a tie between Facebook, LiveJournal and Kurt Halsey's website.

12. I want to be: Rich! Oh... And happy.

11. The worst pain I was ever in was?: Can't really pick one.

10. My favorite words are: Shut up?

9. My room is: Cozy.

8. My favorite celebrity is: Huge Laurie.

5. My weakness is: The sound of laughing. Love it! :)

4. What I like about the opposite sex: Arms, eyes, teeth, hands.

3. Who broke your heart: A boy.

2. One thing that makes you feel great is: Attention.

1. You filled out 200 questions because??: I have no life.

*****

LAST PERSON WHO
1. Slept in a bed beside you? Brittany.
2. Saw you cry: N/A.
3. You went to dinner with? Brittany.
5. Went to the movies with you? Brittany, Mitchell and his girlfriend.
6. You talked on the phone? My mom.
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it? My mom.
9. Made you laugh? Brittany.

WOULD YOU RATHER?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue? I have/had them both. I'd say... My tongue's my favorite!
2. Be serious or be funny? Both.
3. Drink whole or skim milk? Neither.
4. Die in a fire or drown? Fire.
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? Parents.

ARE YOU..
1. Simple or complicated? Both!
2. Gay? No.
3. Hardcore? No.

DO YOU PREFER. .
1. Flowers or candy? Flowers. <3
2. Grey or black? Depends.
3. Color or Black and white photos? Both.
4. Lust or love? Love.
5. Sunrise or sunset? Sunset.
6. M&Ms or Skittles? Skittles.
8. Staying up late or waking up early? Staying up late.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY !!
1. Do you like anyone? I do.
2. Do they know it? Iunno... Probably not. He's a little dumbfounded. lol.

DO YOU PREFER...
1. Sun or moon? Both.
2. Winter or Fall? Fall.
3. Left or right? Right.
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? Two best friends.
5. Sun or rain? Sun.
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Vanilla.
7. Vodka or Jack? Vodkaaa.

ABOUT YOU!
1. What time is it? 10:31 am
2. Name? Micki MacLellan
3. Nickname(s): Mouse.
4. Where were you born? Alberta.
5. What is your birthdate? April 6, 1988
6. What do you want? Money.
7. Where do you want to live? This is fine, thanks.
8. How many kids do you want? Two, maybe three.
9. What would you want to name a girl? Kimberly Elizabeth.
10. What would you want to name a boy? Haven't decided.

UNIQUE
1. Nervous Habits: Biting my nails, blushing, suttering, loss of words, figiting.
2. Are you double jointed? Only in my fingers.
3. Can you roll your tongue? Yes.
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? Yes.
5. Can you cross your eyes? Yes.
6. Do you make your bed daily? No.
7. Which shoe goes on first? The one that my dog took a bite out of. lmao.
8. Ever thrown one at someone? Yes.
9. On the average, how much money do you carry on you? However much I have/need.
10. What jewelry do you wear? Piercing jewellery, rings, bracelets, anklets and necklaces. The who sha-bang.

OTHER
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl.
2. Have you ever eaten Spam? No.
3. Favorite ice cream: Vanilla.
4. How many kinds cereal are in your cabinet? Iunno. I don't eat the cereal here.
5. What's your favorite beverage? Diet Pepsi, vanilla milk, flavoured water, fd's (R.I.P... LMAO).
7. Do you cook? Not usually.

IN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU? (YES OR NO)
1. Had a b/f or g/f?: No.
2. Bought something you didn't need: Yes.
4. Sang in front of people: No.
5. Been kissed: Apparently.
6. Been hugged: Yes.
7. Felt stupid? Yes.
9. Got drunk: Yes.
10. Got high: No.
11. Danced Crazy: Yes!
12. Gotten your hair cut? No, but soon!
13. Cried: Yes.

I wish I hadn't met you at all.

Thu, 31 May 2007 20:40:45 GMT

Lately, it feels as if I'm doing nothing. Absolutely nothing with my time.
I was talking to my mom who thinks it's a good idea if I go back to CBU for fall courses. Do English and my Fine Arts course again. That way, I'm not technically taking a year off. I still won't be paying interest on my student loans, and I'll still be getting a cheque from the government for my dad's disability.

Atleast, this'll take up some of my time. I'll get a full-time job, and do something with my time.
Maybe.

*Sighs*

I need a hobby.

Even when your hope is gone, move along.

Tue, 22 May 2007 10:39:37 GMT

Well!
It seems a while since I've last updated... Probably not as long as I think.

[-/+] I've been working a helluva lot, trying to pay off my loans.
[-/+] I applied for a Visa! And I may get it!!!
[-] My mom seems sketchy about me going back to university, because I won't get another line of credit. I'll get another student loan, but it'll only be about $3,000 and that's sure not enough to pay for my semester.
[+] I went to Dust 'Til Dawn on Sunday night.
[-] It sucked.
[-] I'm not having much luck in the boy department. Went on a date with an ex-boyfriend. Didn't think to much of it, but I guess he did.
[+] He bought me flowers!
[-] I told him I didn't want to be with him.
[-] He cried. ;P
[+] My monroe's healing quite nicely. I thought for a while there it was infected, but it wasn't.
[-] I have work in 20 minutes. Until 2:45! Sad day.

Anyway! I guess that's about it...
Seems as if everything's going along pretty well. Just need to figure stuff out for next year for school, and stuff.

I hope you all have a wonderful day!
<3!

He's making you scream with his hands on your hips.

Tue, 15 May 2007 23:46:30 GMT

I thought everything was getting better for me, but now, I just want to crash.
Crash into a fucking hole and die.

I feel as if I can't do anything. I can't keep my friends happy, I can't keep my family happy, I can't keep myself happy, I can't save some fucking money to go out on the weekends, I can't get a fucking boy to hang out with me for a couple hours, I can't hang out with my friends for a period of time because they all get sick of me, I can't sleep because I'm too mad at myself, I can't clean my room because I never finish what I start, I can't eat because I hate the way I look right now, I can't go for a walk because I'm a fucking lazy piece of shit, and I sure as hell can't fake a smile anymore.

I know I whine a lot. But seriously. I'm falling apart.
I want to cry so bad.
& I can't smile. & I'm not happy.

I tried to look so nice for him tonight. Because we had a date arranged, and he ditched me. Suprise, suprise.

I need a girls night, and all my girls are gone away, or with their boyfriends, or whatever else.
I need someone here with me tonight.

</3

Tue, 15 May 2007 06:04:11 GMT

& even though we're not seeing each other anymore. & I shouldn't let this bother me...

I can't believe it.

You have a girlfriend now... & I was thinking about you today, & how badly I missed you. & now, I sorta kinda hope you rot.

Yeah.

Rot.

& your name remains the same.

Sat, 12 May 2007 03:08:44 GMT

So!
I decided to spoil myself, and I got my Monroe done. Or Marilyn. Or whatever the fuck it's called!
Either way... I got it pierced. lmao.
Here's a SHITTY picture...

Hoorah.
You can't really see it, but you get the idea.
It hurt. Not gonna lie.
But I LOVE it.
EEE!
lol

Anyway.
Just wanted to tell you's about my awesome life.
lol!
<33

For heaven's sake, I know you're sorry but you won't stop crying.

Fri, 11 May 2007 03:16:27 GMT

Well.

Tonight was fun.

Since James didn't end up coming, Jess, Bryan, Andy, his boy Justin, and I went to the movies. We seen Invisible? It was stupid. haha. I did NOT enjoy it.

After that, we all went to Jess' and played Mario Party.
T'was good times.

I just got home not too long ago.

I may go get a random tattoo tomorrow, for my sorrows. LOL!
I think that's best.

<3?

BYE!

Forget everything.

Thu, 10 May 2007 05:02:06 GMT

Suprise, suprise.
I got jerked around.
& not in a good way.

Remember the boy, when was supposed to come visit me? Not anymore.
For "personal reasons" he's not coming.
I'm about to flip a fucking nut.

I don't want to do this to myself, ever again, I'm devistated. I thought things were turning around for me.

</3

Keep breathing, my angel.

Tue, 08 May 2007 17:29:15 GMT

I'm happy!
It's nice.
You should try being happy sometime!!! I highly suggest it!

Save your goodbye kiss.

Mon, 07 May 2007 00:32:47 GMT

I'm so bored.
Jessica promised me we'd go get cigarettes.
And she fell asleep.
I have half a mind to go there right now, and wake her up.
I'll FLIP if I don't have cigarettes tomorrow, because of her.
FLIP.
I swear.
lol.

I'm so bored.

</3

You're not at all what you seemed.

Sat, 05 May 2007 03:53:28 GMT

Well!
Lack of updating, I know!!!

I've been working, hanging out with Jessica, sleeping... And not all in that order.
lol.

I'm so glad Jessica is home. I missed her terribly.

So, my boy's almost here! lol! I'm very excited for him. I met him online a month and some weeks ago, and we talked online almost everyday. One day I mentioned to him that I was really lonely, and needed a hug. He told me he'd come see me, and give me hugs. Me, being me, laughed it off.
The next day, he came online and told me he'd be here the second week of May! Haha! His uncle works for the fair in New Brunswick, and he's leaving a week earlier, to see me! :)
How sweet!!!! <3!!!!

We decided to be in a long distance relationship until he gets here. But then after the week he'll be here, he's leaving for a couple months, for work.
And then possibly going to Japan? Iunno.
lol.

Either way! I'm excited!!

I seen Spiderman 3 tonight, and I liked it, A LOT!!! lol.

Lastnight, Jessica, Andy, Bryan and I hung out almost all day. We then ventured to Jessica's house in hopes of watching a movie, and then going home. Jessica decided to pull out Cat-opoly (JUST like Monopoly, obvisouly, but with cats...) And Jessica, Andy and I played. From 11:30pm-5:30AM! Yes. That's right. We played this game for 6 fucking hours.
After we decided we should put the game away, with no winners, we made breakfast, and went to bed for a couple hours.
lol.

*Sighs*

I feel... Content today.
Like everything feels like it's falling back in place.
Call me crazy, but my plan to get my life in track seems to be going fairly well!!

I'm happy with how my life is. For now, anyway.

But!
I have work tomorrow morning, so I'm going to bed!
Have a wonderful night/weekend!
<33

Never a night where I can sleep myself 'til day.

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 18:27:16 GMT

I've decided to make a few changes in my life.
& they include...

1. Getting in shape and trying to exercise everyday.
2. Searching for a new, better paying, full time job.
3. Trying to find a new place with someone.
4. Getting my life on track.

I failed three of my courses for school, and I can't forgive myself for it. I fucked up. And I can't let that happen. I'm in university, I can't be assing around anymore.
I also need to clean my room. Spotless from everything and anything that might bring me back to a place where I don't want to be.

I know I've said this before, but I need something to do with my life. I'm 19 years old, and I have no ideas for my future. I want to be someone. I want to help people. And most importantly, I want to be happy.
And I'm not.
Not at this moment.

I feel like everyone is passing me by. Doing good things for themselves, and here I am, left in the dust.
And I'm not pleased with what I've become.

Thus!
I'm turning over a new leaf.
Wish me luck!!

<333

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 04:03:30 GMT

Jamaica was beautiful.
I loved every second of it.
Every.fucking.second.

& I want to go back.
I loved getting away & having nothing to worry about. It was nice.
& then I come back, to this...

WHATEVER!

I'm in a goodish mood.
& I'm not letting it get destroyed by someone who doesn't care for me.
That's right, people.
I'm putting myself first today!!

...Besides, I've found someone else, who'll cross the country for me! :)

I've got the time & you've got the body.

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 19:45:04 GMT

JAMAICA TOMORROW!!!!!!!!

SO pumped.
I wanna go now.
lol.

I'm still not done packing yet! LoL! I'm gonna do it shortly, I promise! :P

I'm just to excited to pack! lol!

<3

...GUH!

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 15:23:44 GMT

One more week...
...Just ONE more week.
That's the only thing keeping me sane, is knowing that in 7 days, I'll be on my way to Halifax, and then 8 more days, and I'll be on my way to Jamaica.
Thank FUCK.

I need to get away.
For just a little while.

I'm in a terrible mood. It's awful.
I'm having a lazy day, and I feel rather pointless.
Yanno?
I'm sure you've all had these days. I know I have.

Maybe I'll go back to bed. Or maybe I'll just... go for a LOOOONG drive. Just to calm down...

...

Why do I allow myself to fall for people, who want what I can't give them? Or I want what they can't give me? I do this everytime. And I always end up getting hurt.
I fell for him so fast. And I ended up scaring him away. The farther and faster I go, the more he doesn't want to be with me. And I can't even help it. I love being with him.
But it seems like... he doesn't need me like I need him.
He doesn't want to be with me.
I'm so paranoid.
And I feel ruined.
</3... He doesn't understand...

You can't be close enough unless I'm feeling your heartbeat.

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 12:56:56 GMT

I had an appointment today, with the optomologist. He told me my eyes were in TERRIBLE condition! He said that I have viruses in both of my eyes, which is why my eyes are super sensitive. Wow. That's scary. He gave me anti-biotics, along with the other ones that were prescribed for me earlier. This is pretty damn serious, apparently.
I also had my other appointment, with the ginecologist yesterday. *Sighs*
And I have to go back and see the optomologist next week. Holy crap.

Appointments with doctors out my fucking ass, eh?

BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!

JAMAICA IN 13 DAYS!

Eeee.

That's the only reason I give a damn right now. lol.

I don't want to work tonight, at all. But I must. I must.

Anyway.
This is pointless.
And I'm getting cranky.
I may take a nap shortly.
<3 Have a great day.

I can't help but bother you.

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 14:59:09 GMT

So, Brittany just left!
We had a little sleepover, and it was fun. She came over around 9:30pm, and we talked and got some munchies, and I fell asleep at around midnight, and she sat on the computer until 4:30. LMAO.

Elise and I went shopping yesterday for our trip!
I bought:
-Two pairs of capris (A pink & green pair)
-A cute little sun dress
-A bathing suit top

Like, this is for serious, guys. lol.

AAAAAND 5 days until I'm 19, motha lickas!
I'm rather excited about that.

Dan and I are hanging out today, yay! I think, anyway...
Unless something on his agenda comes up. lol.

Aaaanyway.

I'm gonna go.
Have a great day!

<3

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 16:46:46 GMT

My body hates my life...

I have strep throat, REALLY bad this time, my tonsils are so swollen, it hurts to breath.
The HPV thing is still out there on thin ice. I have an appointment with the ginecologist on the 4th.
And I learned today, that you can get an ulcer in your eye. Apparently, I'm proof. I went to my eye doctor, because my eye was red, swollen, sore, sensitive and I couldn't wear my contacts. He told me that I have an eye ulcer, and if not treated could blind me... FOREVER!
So he gave me super strong anti-biotics and wants to see me everyday for the next few days.

*Sighs*
My body hates my life.
lol

Anyway.
School's so close to being done, I'm excited...

I ordered new glasses today, too. They're cute? lol. I was in a hurry, and grabbed the first pair that looked suitable. lol. I want them now, though.

I don't want to work tonight. *sighs*
Anyway.
Pointless ranting as of now.
So I shall go! :P
Have a great day, y'all!

& she gets the skills from the pills.

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 02:25:49 GMT

Today was a good day, to say the least.
Got all my money for my trip today! <3!!!
Jamaica, here we come!
I'm SO excited, too.
EEE!
lol.

I can't believe it's so effing closeee!

Anyway!
I've made enough of you jealous! LoL!

I have so many papers due, and so many exams to study for...
Poo.

My mom gave me a "go to class" lecture today.
And I continued to laugh in her face.
Which she most likely didn't appreciate.
lol.

Anyway.
I'm going to bed!
Just wanted to make a quick update before I headed off into dreamland!
Have a great night, y'all!
<3

So pretty & perfect due to your steady hand.

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 15:24:19 GMT

*Sighs*

I need to go back to bed.
I'm having, yet again, another shit filled day.
And I have this terrible feeling it's only going to get 10 times worse.
And the thing is, I won't do ANYTHING to prevent it.

I need to go out.
And do something productive with myself and my time.
I feel like my weekend was an ENTIRE waste of two days.
And I feel like going back to bed.

Maybe I will.
Yeah.
</3