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Weeeeh! Happy Birthday, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) chlare!
::Throws Confetti::
I made you a card but... Angel kinda broke the scanner. We're still waiting for it to get fixed.
Anyway, have a great day!
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[Aug. 5th, 2006|07:40 pm] |
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//Locked///
She lied. She lied to me. The first person I had allowed myself to have feelings for, the fist woman I had dared myself to love after…Tara.
She lied to me and then went out of her way to forget all about me.
What did I ever do to her? Why is she acting like this? Has she learned *nothing* at all from my past? Doesn’t she know what horrible things grieve can do, I told her about what I did. About how I killed a man and then tried to destroy the world.
I suppose I should be kinda happy that she didn’t kill anyone. Yet. And at least she’s not trying to destroy the world.
Aside from, y’know…mine.
I guess it’s all that Karma business and stuff. I guess I should’ve learned from Angel and Faith and their big mistakes to mankind. How you can never kinda escape them no matter how hard you try to atone. No matter how hard you try to be all goody good and help those who need help.
Whether they kinda want it or not. I put a soul into Fred, I damned her for all eternity. I guess Kennedy pulling away from me and hurting me like this is my punishment for that. But I really didn’t have much of a choice with the way Connor was pushing.
What was I suppose to do? Let some witchy wanna be from Wolfram and Hart do it? Yeah, that’d be so not of the good. They probably end up with a bigger monster then she already was.
So, I lost a friend, two others kinda totally died, my girlfriend hates me for a reason I don’t know about and my best friend is in the hospital after my girlfriend beat the…psht out of her.
Dawnie is upset, Buffy’s still not much with the waking up and Giles is frantic and ready for, as he calls it, ‘bloody murder’.
God, he was so angry at me and then so sad and then all with the huggy and now he’s just worried, hovering near Buffy. Dawn and me have to like pry him away from the room just so others can come visit her.
I just want things to be back to normal. Y’know? I want Kennedy to love me again, and Buffy and me to be laughing over some Bollywood moving again, and-and eating lost of chocolate chip cookies with Dawn.
But that’s not gonna happen, and it’s all my fault.
//Unlock//
Love. I’m totally done with it. No more for me. Nothing but a lie anyway and who needs love? You only end up with the hurt and totally alone. Might as well stay alone then. Right? Yeah. |
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[Jul. 24th, 2006|11:00 pm] |
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Kennedy?
Where are you, I need to talk to you.
Please sweetie, I kinda really need you now? |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2006|07:32 pm] |
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Oh gosh, I can't believe this is happening. I mean, it makes no sense and all. But nothing really does, does it? I just gotten to know Fred and we were gonna get some coffee next week. I don't have many friends that, y'know, can outbabble me, but... Geeze.
And Angel. I mean, sure he went all Angelusy on us and he totally killed my goldfish and Miss Calender and...stuff. But that wasn't Angel. I liked Angel, even if he did tend to replace his soul like a lot.
I don't think this really sank in yet. But that's so not important.
I need to know where Kennedy is, that's what's important. And-and, god, I need to find Buffy too. She needs to know, and not read it on here. Cause she deserves totally better.
And so does Angel.
Darn. Why is Giles always in England when you need him?
Kennedy? Come home soon, please. Or y'know, call? |
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[Jul. 1st, 2006|10:30 pm] |
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The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test |
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[May. 24th, 2006|11:22 am] |
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Oh. Well. I’m back? Yay? Okay. YAY! I’m back. I thought I just showed up to, y’know, surprise Kennedy? Not in the ‘Yay I’m back and jumping out of a cake’ kinda yay I’m back. But I thought I was gonna just show up and-and…surprise her.
Okay. Probably all kinds of lame, but she’s not here anyway. Not even a note of where she went. Uh. And why should she leave a note. Cause she didn’t know I was coming back today. Which goes with the whole ‘yay surprise!’ thingy I’m guessing. Drat. Now what? Where’d she go anyway? Oh, Oh! The kids aren’t here, I guess she’s out with the kids.
Maybe I can convince Fred to take the kids back for like one evening? Errr….night. Or-or Dawn. Cause then I can like make a surprise Dinner for Kennedy and really go all out with the ‘Yay!’ I mean, that’s kinda so much nicer then going out right? Cause then we’d stay right here. And Xander isn’t around anyway, so we have like lots of privacy. Yeah. Yeah! I’ll do that. Call Dawn, ask her to watch those kids and then make dinner for Kennedy.
Except, my cooking kinda boils down to…boiling an egg. I can read though! I can read cooking books. Yup. So how hard can it be? I’m gonna get starting with the cookery and make it a real ‘yay I’m back’ thingy for Kennedy
Oh this is gonna be so much fun! |
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[May. 10th, 2006|05:35 pm] |
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Giles asked me if I would like to come along to London, or near London, I think. Dunno. Anyway, there’s been some digging and stuff, and they discovered a really cool ancient witchcraft center. Some of the witches from the Coven I’ve…visit…have been called in as well. They’d like to use my ‘expertise’ too.
Nice words huh? expertise Not that I should be proud of that, considering…y’know. But still, seems I can sense stuff and what the heck not. So I said yes, mostly cause I’d like to see the friends I’ve made from the Coven again. I really owe them a lot. Like lots and lots a great big deal.
Giles is giddy. That’s a word I learned over there in the coven. Never thought I’d use it when it comes to Giles though. But he totally had everything already packed and was ready to go like yesterday morning. Geeze. I still have to pack!
I’m gonna miss Kennedy though. With Faith and Angel being kiddified, she can’t leave here. Guess she can ask Wes for kiddy advice, or y’know, Cordy. Or…uh, Lindsey, since Angel for some weird reason seems to worship him. Oh, I so wanna be in the same room when grown up Angel finds *that* out. Oh yeah, definitely.
But I’m still gonna miss Kennedy. :-( She’s helping me pack… I’d best go back and uhm…help…her. Heh.
See you all later. I got my cell with me and stuff, just in case. |
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[Apr. 28th, 2006|06:44 am] |
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Geeze. Taking care of Mini!Faith and Mini!Angel, though fun is...y'know...hard! I so suck with kids. Glad I can call Wes and Giles for help. Which I do, like a lot. But oh my gosh, I really would totally appreciate it if Giles would stop laughing and Wes would stop sulking. That is *so* a British thing to handle...uh, things.
Anyway, I think Kennedy and me are doing okay. Despite the whole Faith putting gum in Kennedy's hair. And Angel and her fighting a lot. They're like cats and dogs who been long lost friends. And they fight and then they don't fight and play and then they hit each other again and that made more sense in my head.
Uh.
But it's like lots of fun! They're okay kids. With, y'know, super powers and stuff.
Buffy and Dawn are back too. This has gotta be hard for Buffy. I mean, watching your boyfriend munchkinsize? Okay, I think it's funny. But still, gotta be hard for Buffy.
Wes asked me about Angelus and how this would effect him. Gotta say, he got a point there, cause I don't know. He said something he had a theory that Angelus was effected too, since it worked the other way 'round and there may be some really angry, hostile kid walking around there. Not good huh? Or, Wes said, he may have got back to being Liam, which means we got a really sacred kid out there. Anyway, he was gonna look in on it, and ask 'round and he so can.
Cause taking care of kids is like a 24h job! Totally!
Though, why both Wes and Giles burst out laughing, I dunno. Sometimes I don't get them Bits, same with Spike.
Also need to catch up with Dawnie. Missed Dawn too.
Okay back to the munchkins. Can't really leave them alone for like...one second?
~Willow~ |
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[Apr. 15th, 2006|11:55 am] |
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So the whole thing that’s going on? I dunno, tried to contact Fred, but she was busy. Left her a message that she’s supposed to call me back when she can. Cause I sure as heck would like to know what’s going on. Or y’know, if she has time and-and needs my help. Because other then some strange LJ message in Faith’s LJ? I have no idea what’s the what.
Called Wes, but he didn’t know either. He was suspecting the same as I did, and waiting for Fred to contact him. We both thought Fred probably had it under control or whatever, if she needed help she could call us. Thought about calling Giles, but well, what can he do. I mean, other then point at Angel and laugh really hard. No that he would!
Besides, I have better things to do. Kennedy’s back! And really I never thought I could be so darn happy! I missed, I had no idea how much I missed her till she was back here. I guess all those phone calls really don’t add up to like the real thing. No, scratch that, I know they don’t. Having her back here, where I can touch her again, and-and like see her face when we talk? *So* much better.
Things are looking up! Well, uh, for me and Kennedy anyway. Maybe we should like go on a…date?
I should probably find a job. Cause helping out Giles and all is good, it doesn’t get the rent paid. Don’t suppose anyone got a job laying around? I can do research and spells and I make a really good coffee latté! And-and I can be like really silent if needed.
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[Mar. 26th, 2006|05:08 pm] |
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Things are going a-okay here. I miss Kennedy of course, but I call her a lot. I think our phone bill will be going through the roof.
Been spending some time with Fred. The cure to most everything is lots of chocolate and ice-cream. *nod* We had fun. Faith's back now so I guess I wont be going over there at random no more. Bet ya life they'll be spending the rest of the week locked up in their room or whatever. *smirk* Well, that's what I would do when Kennedy comes back.
I've been looking at Wes' new house at his request. Nice looking house, perfect for his and the kids. Marilee and Alicia were sold on sight, kinda. Wes was a bit harder to convince, he like saw dangers lurking 'round every corner. Over protective much? There was like a ghost, but I didn't think it was evil or something. More like just...there, looking. A ghost that watches the Watcher, there's irony for you. Heh.
Met Lindsey MacDonald there too. He and Wes sure seem chummy, what's up with that? My gaydar was going totally off scale...but hey. Anyway, he seems like a nice guy. I think as long as we don't mention Tara we should get along...mostly. Can't exactly judge him on the 'formally evil' thing now can I? Kinda would make me a hypocrite.
And now I'm kinda bored. Haven't seen Xander in ages, no clue what he's up too. Maybe he's trying again with Anya? No idea, could be couldn't it? I mean, I'm gonna try with Kennedy again. Buffy with Angel, and Fred with Faith... Okay, that's not again but you get my point. So it could be!
I'm thinking of asking Cordy to go shopping with me. Yeah, I'm that desperate for a distraction. Ooh! Maybe Wes will let me watch the girls. We can make a sleep over pajama party kinda thing! I mean, he must be wanting some time with Lindsey alone rest sometime right?
Yup.
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[Mar. 3rd, 2006|10:40 pm] |
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Okay, kind of with the suckage, but what can you do? Giles called and asked if Kennedy can help out with the Cleveland hell mouth. He was going to ask Buffy, but she and Dawn needed some time away. Guess all the mess with her father and Angel and whatsnot kinda got to much. Besides, she kinda deserves a vacation. Dunno where they went, Buffy and Dawn, but I hope they have fun.
Anyway, that kinda leaves me without Kennedy here. I asked if I should come with, or ‘could’ I guess would be the right word. But y’know, too soon. I don’t wanna crowd her, don’t wanna push myself onto her to much. Need to give her space. Maybe I need some space myself too, guess that’s where it went wrong last time. We wanted things to work to fast and too soon. This should work out okay.
So, Kennedy is in Cleveland. I’m talking with her on the phone every night. And I’m here watching the house and…doing general witchy stuff. Which is kinda nothing at the moment. Okay, help out Giles, but there’s only so much helping out I can do with the whole Council thingies. Haven’t seen Xander in a long time though. He’s out of the house before we got up, and I never hear him come back. Hope he’s not in any kinda trouble. Don’t need trouble, nope siree, no trouble.
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[Feb. 15th, 2006|11:05 am] |
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I love Valentine’s day! I really, really do. Heh. Kennedy and I had loads of fun. Was kinda funny at firs, since we both made secret plans, but it worked out in the end. Gosh, it was so romantic. Makes me think there’s hope, y’know? Makes me think I didn’t like…totally messed things up. We so spend yesterday just with the two of us, and we didn’t talk much. No problems, no heavy duty future past talk, just us. It was nice.
Did feel a bit guilty about Xander though. He wasn’t there when I woke up. Wanted to make Ken breakfast in bed…kinda as a surprise. Bumped into her in the kitchen, seemed she had the same thought. Anyway, didn’t see Xander. So either left cause he didn’t want to be in our way or something, or y’know….Musta hurt to watch me and Kennedy together while he’s alone. Heard Anya was back though, not sure what to think about that. I just hope Xan knows that he can always talk to me. You know that, right Xan?
Anyway, yesterday was fun. Totally sappy, but hey, it was Valentines day! So who cares? Never did much about that before, but I’m so seriously already making plans for next year. Err…if all goes well, that is. And why shouldn’t, I’m kinda having my hopes up here as you can see. We had such a wonderful time. Sure I was nervous and like awkward and wishing fiercely that I wasn’t going to do the wrong thing, or say the wrong thing or…just totally mess things up. But I think I did okay.
//Kennedy only//
Thank you for the super day, yesterday. I had a great time, I hope you did too?
Love and kisses.
Willow
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[Feb. 11th, 2006|02:04 am] |
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Your Social Dysfunction:
Schizotypal
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[Jan. 17th, 2006|11:35 am] |
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//Xander Only//
Hey Xan? Kennedy says we can move in with her? She's got Buffy's old place, and it's got three bedrooms. Kinda perfect don't you think? Means we don't have to look much further and it'll be cheap to share with the three of us.
Whatcha think?
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Okay, Cordy and I have been planning Buffy's birthday party. We still need to go shopping for it (No Buffy, we're not telling you anything. Hah!) It's not a surprise anymore, which is kinda sad, but probably for the best. We all know how our surprises turn out don't we? Not of the good. Still, it's gonna be the best party since...since the last best party we had! I got no idea when that was, not important anyway.
I'm still reeling over the whole Tara thing and I've come up with this theory that maybe that wasn't her? Could be right? Right? Gotta be it.
Oh! And on a happy note? I think things may work out with Kennedy. We like talked a lot and... a lot and maybe I'm moving into her apartment. We'd be like roomies. I think we should probably take it slow this time since there's no, y'know, apocalypse looming anywhere.
Anyway, I'm supposed to meet with Giles for tea this morning, so we can talk about some watchery stuff, and then I have to ring Cordy and ask when she wants to go do the shopping. Better wear good shoes huh? I mean, it's only in three days! I'm so excited!
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[Jan. 12th, 2006|07:17 pm] |
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So totally out of the loop here!
I guess I was kinda in way to deep meditation, remind me not to do that again. Geeze! I miss out on all the juicy stuff everything.
Well, I'm more or less up to date now, I think. Though, there was this weird guy in my LJ who told me he's heard about me? Stalker much? Anyone know a 'Lindsey MacDonald?' Cause I sure as heck don't.
Anyway, back now and looking for a place to stay here in Los Angeles. I think Giles will remain at the hotel a bit longer, cause he's still thinking about going back to England or not. To be or not to be! Heh.
I have to say, kinda confused here about everything. So, Fred and Faith and possibly Spike? Angel and Buffy. Cordelia and Doyle and Wes is around too. Not sure what's going on there, or even if I *want* to know. Then there's this weird Lindsey guy What's with the girly names? And Xander is working for Wolfram and Hart? Kennedy should be around too right? I hope so!
Did I miss anything? I hope not, my head is already spinning.
Well, gonna have to find a place to live and possibly a roomie. Anyone? Anyone? huh? Cause did you people see how expensive this town is? Eepa.
~Willow~ |
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[Jan. 11th, 2006|07:52 pm] |
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Uh. Wow. Okay.
Eep! |
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[Aug. 21st, 2005|06:26 pm] |
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Okay, so far, Riley and his story? Not winning any points! He just let her stalk off into night in a car. In a car Hello? Under aged teen! She hardly knows how to drive! Sighing, I looked at him and shook my head. He was trying like really hard to make this a good case for him, but so far I wasn't convinced. So not.
And Oz was still not back. What’s he doing? Is he okay? I will always worry about Oz, no matter how much I loved Riley. Didn't I go through this before with Tara? Oh he better not! If that’s the case I'm so going to zap his-his-him! I will, I can do it now. And uh, actually turn him back after a while. Huh, lemma pause here to wonder if Fred still wanted me to turn Wes into a donkey's ass. I tilted my head to hear if I could hear any voices from the other room. But apparently Wes was much better when it came to convincing his girl not to worry.
Huh. Go figure.
"Riley sweetie. Not really soothing my nerves here," I told him, fiddling with the phone in my lap. I'd have tossed it out like a long time ago, but it gave me something to do. With my hands. Something to do with my hands. Running a hand through my hair, I totally cursed the chair. Cause it wasn't for that stupid thing, I'd so be out of here and looking for Dawn myself. I was just about to tell Riley just that. And-and to stop with the story telling and to get his butt in gear so we could go look for her!
When he kissed me.
Oh. Nice.
I smiled at him when he pulled back, momentarily distracted. "Don't think you can weasel your way out of this with a kiss buster," I joked and then noticed Oz standing by the door. Oz. Oh! Oz! "You okay now?" I asked leaning around Riley to look at Oz.
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