Do you have ideas...

its been awhile!

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 06:24:06 GMT

I haven't spoken to most of you for awhile.. so i'd like to hear what's new...

LOTS OF THIS....

BUT, DEFINETLY NOT ENOUGH OF THIS...

R.I.P. Drew

R.I.P. Pops

very very very very very very old photos

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 21:36:16 GMT

so i went through some OLD family photo albums...
i know nick and jake will enjoy the ones of B.C....
oh man...
they are intense...
and i had to share...

mustache.

my sisters favorite helmet.

i found my kindergarten class picture..

my old doggies.. Chloe and Dudley

for all of you that know my cousin Danielle... well.. this is her about 15 years ago...

and my hair has always been ridiculous...

INFAMOUS BUDWEISER SHORTS!!!

ridiculous uncle bill..

i was in a beauty pageant when i was one... "California Beauties". i won first place hehe...
i think it was cuz my fat rolls were so ridiculous.

(this one doesnt even need words)

(neither does this one)

being its almost halloween...

the one and only time it ever snowed in the san fernando valley.
me, 1988, Woodland Hills

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 10:02:55 GMT

nick has ABSOLUTELY beautiful teeth!!!!!!

hooooray for roy!
(sorry i cursed your skateboarding)

july two thousand and five

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 07:22:35 GMT

so far, summer is legit.
im leaving for 10 days on wednesday to go away on a cruise in the caribbean...
and i will most likely die either due to
1. humidity
2. missing the loves of my life (especially including sadie)
or 3. a hurricane
because, i mean, it is PERFECTLY natural to schedule a cruise during tropical storming, right?

anywho....

beginning

boys

crunk

old school

lovely

out of control..

mwah

drunk lazy

popSicles

eat face

i love you

skinny dip?

stoned immaculate

party gets started...

getting there..

still getting there..

..and we're there.

and one more thing...
this..

is NOW this ferociously beautiful beast...

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 10:11:19 GMT

go to

www.kittenwar.com

instantly.

revolution in the air...

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 11:58:52 GMT

ah, get born,
keep warm
short pants,
romance,
learn to dance
get dressed, get blessed
try to be a success

it was indescribable...
beautiful..
and rocky the hippie was fun.

better late then never..

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 19:32:29 GMT

sooo... i will be 19 years of age on tuesday..

this is what i will be doing...

and here is a taste of san francisco on halloween...

monica baptised me on san francisco ways...

a potential costume..

the girliest costume... and he did stuff his bra with socks..

so that was san fran...
im going to overload you all with photos today.. but this one is absolutely necessary....

everyone...

meet my new puppy...

SeXy SaDiE...

if anyone wants to come meet her.. you are more than welcome to..
she just likes biting...
but shes a lover not a fighter.

peaceloveunity xo

you were fun to wrestle.

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 11:33:05 GMT

first tell me which road you will take.
i dont want to risk our paths crossing some day,
so you walk that way,
i'll walk this way.

goodbye.

We love money, we love war. We love Cheney even more!

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 08:37:59 GMT

Washington DC is in a state of lockdown amid unprecedented levels of security.
Fences, barriers and roadblocks have been erected across the city and 7,000 law enforcement agents from more than 100 federal, state and local agencies are on patrol.
Heavily armed Coast Guard boats will patrol the Potomac River.
Snipers have taken up positions on rooftops, bomb-sniffing dogs are on patrol and so-called Patriot anti-missile batteries are stationed near the Capitol.
The entire area around Capitol Hill and the White House has been cordoned off, and more than 100 streets will be off-limits to traffic with the inauguration designated a national special-security event.
Flight restrictions over Washington for private aircraft have been expanded, and pilots are being warned that they risk being shot down if they stray into restricted areas and don't respond to warnings.

well.. happy inauguration mr. bush..
i'm so thrilled that you have made billions off the killings in Iraq, while ripping off American taxpayers and Iraqis, and never being held accountable. I’m sure you had a blast partying at your inaugural ball (which cost what, $50 million approx..?), toasting to another four years of profit from war... with your close friends and chumps Halliburton, Lockheed Martin, Bechtel, and CACI executives, squealing and rolling around in money to celebrate the next four years of war profiteering and corporate favoritism...
WOOO-HOOOOOO!

Coronation of Napoleon and Josephine Coronation of Napoleon and Josephine
Jacques-Louis David 1805-1870

... i know i see some parallels...........

headache.

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 07:48:17 GMT

YOU... why havent i seen you in forever?
we are hanging out everyday this weekend...

and for the rest of you....

yeah... fuckin' right, doggy.

!!!!!!!

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 18:35:09 GMT

ohhh man...
too cute.

(jamie=1, will=1)
it's gettin close.

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 07:27:46 GMT

hello.

this has probably never happened
in live journal history
but if it has then oh darn.
and that thing that has never happened
well at least i think
is that
i, William Carroll, am writing in
somebody elses journal.

it is actually quite enjoyable.
but no, i have not barged in with
a twenty two and half of a third foot
worth of an object.
i was asked to take a shot at
What Freedom really means.

first of all, i would like to show you
a photograph of which i took not long ago
of this crazy woman i am writing for.
ha. no no. i am only joking!
there is no need for alarm at this stage of
horror for that absurd comment i just made.

...now you can see why i would make such a comment.
ha ha. no no. i am once again only joking!
i am sorry Jamie, my greatest apologies
especially after i showed that photograph
to the outer-known comedians.

but truthfully,
that picture is not so bad as JAMIE would think.
i say everybody should comment about it.
it is a good comment booster (certainly the good comment booster).

well enough about ridiculous marvels.
I, as in me, am going to write you all a great story.
at least i hope you enjoy it.

It starts out in a balloon store (hey Jamie...im having trouble pronouncing that).
So you see, BALLOONS are great mystical wonders of the world. they can be inflated without a pop and still make it to a manageable state. They can also be inflated with helium to make it rise to the heavens.

Once Once Once Once Once, this magnificent harvard material creole was entered into the control panel of society. He did have reasons for his appearance though, so dont get carried away with being a Roman. A man down in the valley of mountains was making boots to sell for profit and slander of greatness. This boots making man needed help for he had no wise mans hands to work with...instead, he was stuck with price tags from a metal factory in Alhambra. The Creole was sentenced to five years in-handment to this man. Those who overlooked this concluded theory to the mans hands were nothing but JERKS.
The Creole was terrified to loose five years towards meticulous hand movement, but he also thought that there could not be anything much worse than working with leather boots when your a vegan like JAMIE. So he decided to fight for What Freedom is...

free·dom
Pronunciation: 'frE-d&m
Function: noun
1 : the quality or state of being free: as a : the absence of necessity, coercion, or constraint in choice or action b : liberation from slavery or restraint or from the power of another : INDEPENDENCE c : the quality or state of being exempt or released usually from something onerous like Jamie d : EASE, FACILITY e : the quality of being frank, open, or outspoken f : improper familiarity g : boldness of conception or execution h : unrestricted use

But What Freedom really is, is this live journal.
As an example:
i, myself, William Carroll, Double you eye el el eye ey em plus see ey arr arr oh el el,
am writing on JAMIE'S LIVE JOURNAL.
i have WHAT FREEDOM is with Jamie's live journal.
except nobody else can have this freedom.

well as a reminder to What Freedom is
Check out Jamie's Live Journal as often as possible for yourself
so that you can have the greatest updates on
WHAT FREEDOM
can possibly be.

Thank you all for your time and consideration for my 'LJ' post (Live Journal post) on Jamie's Live Journal.
i hope this was a great few minutes (for others though, such as a stupid person like Charlie Carroll, a few hours) that i accomplished into your thoughts on What Freedom is and what i am doing in somebody elses Live Journal. (and yes yes, i was only joking about that stupid person. as a matter of fact, Charlie is a good friend of mine, and i would never say anything bad about a person that isn't stupid and does not count his fingers every morning to make sure they weren't taken away from his dream again.)

This has been a enojyable time for me and i hope it was the same for you.

William Carroll, signing off.

october 9, 1940 - december 8, 1980

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 07:29:58 GMT

"i'm sick and tired of hearing
things
from uptight-short sighted-
narrow minded hypocritics
all i want is the truth
just give me some truth
i've had enough of reading
things
by nuerotic-pyschotic-
pig headed politicians
all i want is the truth
just give me some truth
no short haired-yellow bellied
son of tricky dicky
is gonna mother hubbard
soft soap me
with just a pocketful of hope
money for dope
money for rope
i'm sick to death of seeing
things
from tight lipped-
condescending -mommies little
chauvinists
all i want is the truth
just give me some truth
i've had enough of watching
scenes
of schizophrenic - ego - centric
- paranoic - prima - donnas
all i want is the truth
just give me some truth"
(it's unbeleiveable that after 24 years to the day,
his art belongs in today as it ever did)

rest in peace
October 9, 1940 - December 8, 1980

"Hold on world , world hold on
It's gonna be alright
You gonna see the light"

oh, how we could use you now...

following the white rabbit..

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 07:10:49 GMT

the box
the shield
the wind
the car

everything that is
beautiful
and
real.

and kissing the sky of stars.

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 07:38:17 GMT

oh god good god
shed greed on thee,
your shining sea turned a dirty green
from the industry off the shores of new jersey
oh god my god
give strength to thee
these amber waves purple majesty
are nothing but backdrops for disney.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 06:04:06 GMT

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 08:12:10 GMT

"i cant find myself and i'm not sure where i am..." "go... if you want to i never try to stop you know theres a reason, for all this you're feeling low. me... i dont show much its not that hard to to hide you see in a moment, i cant remember how to be all you wanted. i couldnt ever love you more. you want me to cry and play my part, i want you to sigh and fall apart. we want this this like everyone else, stay if you want to. i always wait to hear you say there's a last kiss. we want us like like everything else. me... i dont say much it's far too hard to make you see in a moment i still forget just how to be all you wanted i couldnt ever love you more. maybe we didnt understand not just a boy and a girl its just the end of the world." robert smith reads my mind.. it's heartbreaking

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 06:45:30 GMT

When one thousand lies are told as true
one thousand lies are multiplied
one thousand smiles turn into frowns
one thousand orphans wonder why
one thousand fears create a war
one thousand people believe the lie
one thousand soldiers prepare to leave
one thousand phantoms haunt the skies
one thousand hearts skip a beat
one thousand myths are sold as facts
one thousand mothers start to cry
one thousand soldiers start to pack
one thousand nightmares kill our dreams
one thousand bombs explode outside
one thousand prayers go unheard
one thousand widows mourn and cry
one thousand protestors fill the streets
one thousand questions go unasked
one thousand legs are blown clean off
one thousand drops of blood fall fast
one thousand hearts are bleeding
one thousand tears fall from her face
one thousand laws are broken
one thousand saints fall from grace
one thousand terrors haunt the land
one thousand men fear for their lives
one thousand hostages are bound and gagged
one thousand bullets go shooting by
one thousand weapons are piled up
one thousand politicians spew their lies
one thousand eyes close for the last time
one thousand lies are magnified
one thousand SUVS drive by
one thousand ghosts scare the town
one thousand flags fly at half staff
one thousand coffins drop six feet down
one thousand snipers take careful aim
and one thousand soldiers die in vain.

today marked the day that the deathtoll of our men and women in iraq surpassed ONE-THOUSAND lives..
and TEN-THOUSAND iraqi civilians have been brutally murdered for fucking GEORGE W. BUSH and every other greedy, lying, myopic, ethnocentric son of a bitch that supports him..

i wonder if this so-called liberation will ever cease..

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 05:50:31 GMT

bold the truth..

01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I don’t watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I’ve tried marijuana
09. I’ve watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome

11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I’ve been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I’m really, really smart
21. I’ve never broken someone’s bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I’m paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now (unfortunately)
27. I love sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow

41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot..
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I’m popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I’m obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal
58. I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I’m a pretty good dancer

60. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before

68. I’ve rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I’ve called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I’m not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube’s newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I’m online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past

85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal

87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum

88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friends
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist

93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all

95. I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy

97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend’s ex

99. I like surveys
100. I am happy at this moment

'twas brillig

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 04:05:29 GMT

hmm.. interesting past few weeks.
if anyone wants to visit me at my place of occupation, come on in to border's and keep me company and watch me sell my life away one hour at a time.
i just got promoted.. i'm wondering if that really is good?
i feel kinda empty.. like im running on empty.
strange feeling.
i miss mike a lot.
i miss ethan and i miss sean.
i'm going to miss jon a lot.
it's a very uncomfortable feeling..
i feel weird not having monica around too.. i miss her tremendously.
coming straight home from "follow your heart tuesday" and not doing anything feels eerie.
so did being there with five people.
its just a bunch of emptiness.
the only thing that keep me entertained is alice in wonderland..
and giving blood (which i now do every monday..)
weird.
one funny thing happened recently, and that was "Bat's Day" at Disneyland.
and some perverted bigot of a "man" that comes into Border's every week to buy playboy..
and ask me which "flavor cookie" i am..
its sad going to bed at 9:04 in the pm on follow your heart night.
goodnight.

gross

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 23:19:21 GMT

hmmm...

anywhere we go, we will make gardens with whatever seeds are available to us...

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 07:42:46 GMT

this afternoon, something very strange happened.
i think i became a new person.. and i cannot find the words to describe what i mean...
maybe if it was a result of some significant occurence.. but it wasn't.. it just happened.
i was with marina too.. i think she thought i went nuts or something when i told her.
so here it is..

i decided that i beleive in the viability of dreams, in and through and around the stuff of daily living, and even as the bedrock for our most solid practicalities.
and dreaming is a dangerous proposition; it dares us to risk everything, to walk blind into the hills, to do the hardest work in ourselves and in the world-- and to reap the richest reward.
sometimes, possibly, our dreams urge us to reveal ourselves intimately to an audience of strangers, and hope they'll meet us where we most want to be.
i decided that i (he, she, and you) will only live once. once.
and then i came across a quote at dinner said by jim valvano..
"be a dreamer. if you don't dream, you're dead".
take advantage of the beauty of dreaming and living those dreams.. and i am not speaking irrationally.. i'm speaking or breaking free from the ideals and ideologies of restrictions, impossibilities, and "reality".

this is what it means to be an adventurer in our day: to give up creature comforts of the mind, to realize possibilities of the imagination.
because everything around us says no, you cannot do this, you cannot live without that, nothing is useful unless it's in service to money, to gain, to stability..
the adventurer gives in to tides of chaos, trusts the world to support her/him--
and in doing so turns her back on the fear and obedience she has been taught.
she rejects the indoctrination of impossibility.. the worst idea man has ever thought up.

we're fed such false messages about success in life, made to belive it's a point of arrival.
so most of us spend out whole lives waiting to arrive.
we expect that once we get there, the long story of the life we just lived will be infused with meaning... but while we're waiting, our voices dry up.
they forget how to ask.. they forget how to listen.. they forget how to tell.
dream NOW.. for NOW.. not later.. because we're living NOW..
and i'm so happy that i have beleived in all this for so long, because today was like my revelation.. this is how i will live my life.

it is so easy to see that we are all in this together.
isolation was somebody else's bad idea.
and if we want the cracks to widen,
sometimes we have to show people where they are.

until the end.

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 06:07:02 GMT

no one knows who gave the orders
no one asks about the crime
no one looks behind the curtain
no one questions why
the only time we got
is right about now
i cross my heart
i take the vow

i'll never turn
i'll never bend
i'm with you now
until the end

tonight's the test
tonight's the time
i am the punishment
that fits the crime
i'll break the bricks
i'll pick the locks
i dont got nothin
but I'll give what I got

i'll never turn
i'll never bend
i'm with you now
until the end

ten trials whose outcomes
all fixed from the start
nine judges sitting counting
their money in the dark
eight towers of iron
surrounded the desert town
on a cold december morning
seven martyrs knocked them down
six fathers still waiting
for thier sons to come home
five mothers who know better
and accept that they're gone
four years I've been hunted
still I breathe free
three times I shot the sheriff
and did not spare the deputy

two prayers I'm praying
until we're together
one promise I'm keeping
tonight and forever

i'll never turn
i'll never bend
i'm with you now
until the end

- tom morello (the nightwatchman)
beautiful.

see ya

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 20:28:12 GMT

im going to miss this next tuesday.... :(

but i will be partying it up with this crazy ho right here down in mex-ee-co....

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 08:19:03 GMT

before i got these developed.. jon claimed that this one will be the best photo out of the whole roll...

i personally think that these two are pretty fantastic...

laura with her own personal "blue steel".. (or maybe this one is magnum..?) with my finger in the corner...
and paul just being paul...

and then boys just being boys at lampost pizza...

hmmm... i leave for mexico on sunday for a week..
i will miss everyone but i just might accidentally get lost there and never come home...

'til next time...
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