| the times they are a-changing |
[18 Jun 2004|01:28pm] |
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i'm killing _warpedrational. say hello to the39steps. she'll eat your babies.
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| wrath ... thumb |
[16 Jun 2004|10:31pm] |
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fuck it, if my work schedule doesn't fit my schedule better sometime soon i am going to quit. the money isn't worth the lack of fun.
today i did not have work, but i still had to hurry home because my parents are insane.
whatever, i still had a blast. there was fun times with meg, kir, and the long board. i still would love to see everyone else, if only my fucking work schedule would permit it.
i complain about work too much. i apologize.
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[15 Jun 2004|10:26pm] |
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umm, i was thinking about what to write, and then i realized that all i do is work. everyone played kick ball today while i worked.
it was so fucking hot at work. the air conditioning in the back for the employees is broken. so we are working in 90 degree temperature around grills, fryers, and warmers with no a/c. and then the customers complain about how cold it is in the dining room and make us turn the air down out there. thank god for the walk ins<3.
yup, i work till 8 today for the first time. this week is full of first for me (at work). i work 8-4 for the first time. it was fucking sweet. 2 hours without any god damn annoying customers.
so who wants to hook me up with some first outside of work?
i want my parents to come home from the red barons game and bring me to kirsten's!!!
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| she's lost her will |
[13 Jun 2004|12:39pm] |
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so my wish came true, i am not working 4-7 once next week. guess what i am working? that's right, 4-8. that's what made me happily hand in my application for the movie theater.
so my aunt and my cousin came in for a day. man, my cousin is only 6, but she is such a little bizzo. i love my aunt to death, though. she did what i want to do. she found a life for herself outside of scranton. a comfortable life. she's more busy than i would want to be.
work again today. i work everyday now. i should go shower, but i am thinking 'why bother?'.
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[12 Jun 2004|01:33am] |
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well i didn't get to watch rotk b/c i got too into cleaning, and then meg came to my house and invited me to the library. how could i refuse such and invitation?
i guess i'll sit in tomorrow, which sounds like a better plan anyway b/c i'll be working all day and i'll be pooped.
well, i am waiting for my latte to wear off and then i'll catch some z's.
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| regardless my pictures they don't line your mirror |
[11 Jun 2004|01:00pm] |
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hopefully starting next week my work schedule will be less spread out so i won't have to work 3 hours everyday in the middle of the god damn day. i'll probably also start working later, i don't know how i feel about that. oh well.
i think i am going to clean and work today, again. there is shit i have to get done before this summer can be fun. things like watching 'lord of the rings: the return of the king'. so if anyone likes me enough to come watch that movie with me i am watching it after work (7 pm) today. i know i'll end up watching it alone, but, hey, it was worth a try.
my parents forgot to bring my library books/cds back, and no one would go downtown with me this week to bring them back. i am going to have a fine =(. that equals fine number 2, because i let kirsten used my library card once. bad idea.
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| you just won't ever get it, will you? |
[10 Jun 2004|12:55pm] |
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i am so pissed off right now. i love you to death john, but i could shoot you in the fucking face right now. i had to put my AM up to avoid killing you.
anyway graduation was last night. the valedictorian started crying during her speech, and she made me cry. it is so hard to believe that jo is an adult now. she isn't a high school kid anymore. damn.
it is summer and i don't know what to do with myself. i guess i'll go to work. maybe i'll clean and shower before that.
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| kirsten and meg treat me too good |
[07 Jun 2004|10:14pm] |
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today was the best birthday ever. i never had such great friends to make it so special. i used to have birthday parties where only one person would show up, but today my friends threw a picnic for me.
when i walked out of school meg was there and so was a picnic blanket covered in food and presents. it all happened so fast, but it was all so great. i got so many amazing presents from even more amazing people. kir and meg got together and got me a whole beautiful outfit. i can't wait to wear it to graduation. they also got me a bunch of other things. chris drew me a picture, rachel gave me a card, javi gave me a bunch of stuff including a poster of aragorn, jo got me a cd & a penguin key chain, and my parents got me pants. i also got money from random relatives. meg and kir also dolled me up. tee hee. oh man, so much else happened i can't even keep track. i don't even care about my finals. i just wish things with joe and i had worked, or any boy and i b/c for some reason they make things more fun. i had everything i needed, though, the most wonderful super fantastic friends ever!
welp, back to regular workin' girl life tomorrow.
p.s. going going... gandhi!!
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[07 Jun 2004|12:36am] |
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i am 16 biotch!!
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[05 Jun 2004|11:20pm] |
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my tcm movie of today is 'papillon'. it was amazing, but it was so depressing. damn. another one of those things that was so amazing, but you wish you never saw. i see/read/hear way to many of those. i am currently watching 'the blob'. oh man, it is so cheesey.
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| list of shit to myself that you can read if it so pleases you |
[02 Jun 2004|10:57pm] |
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i am so tired, but i am too much on my mind to sleep. often it helps me if i just write down some of the stuff i keep thinking about. okay, so hopefully this will help me get some shut eye.
first off i broke up with joe. i'm sad that it didn't work out, but it is for the best. second i might get a job at the movie theater and i just keep thinking about if i really want it or if i should just stay at wendy's. i mean they pay even shittier than wendy's does. so if they hire me i'll probably just do both for awhile and see what i like better. third i have these damn poc's for work i have to fill out, but i keep forgetting about them. i think about them at times that i can't ask for help. god, fuck wendy's. fourth = finals. i had my latin final today, and it was super easy. on my birthday, though, i have my math and biology final. i'm just worried that my bio final is going to take me all day and that i am not going to be able to enjoy my bday. i am also worried that i am going to fail it. fifth i am hoping jo remembers to get conditioner because kirsten got honey in my hair, and i can't wash my hair without conditioner.
i also learned a lot of things today that i have to mull over in my head, and cannot discuss. man, lauren really felt the need to tell me some disturbing things.
i also took $50 out of the bank today. i have to make sure to put it back. damn me and losing my check.
i really need to buy clothes, why do they have to be so expensive, and why do i have to hate my body and not want to waste money on things for it?
i have to remember to give car her bday present.
i don't think i am doing anything for my bday =(. everything is just so hectic, work, school, graduation, finals, etc. (yes, finals and graduation are separate from the school category)
sweet sixteen my ass. it always seems so much cooler on tv. there is always a huge party and the person gets a car with a big bow on it. i hate tv giving you all this false hope about life. i don't think i am going to let my kids watch tv. i just hope i get a bunch of hugs and smiles. they are my favorite things in the whole wide world.
anywho, hopefully this is enough to subdue my mind for the night. good night self.<33333
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chicken and s'mores make up for my mom's bitchieness. she's back on my good side.
i just wish i got to watch family guy with everyone tonight. =(
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i fucking hate my mom so much sometimes. she can be such a ridiculous bitch. she makes me stay home all day on my day off. and the only form of communication she attempts with me is yelling at me. screw her.
i'm so bored it is painful. i actually hit my head of the wall before so i'd have something to do. i think i am going crazy.
i feel like a zombie.
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| don't tell my parents |
[29 May 2004|10:12am] |
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i fucking lost my check. how do i do the things that i do? i borrowed $20 off my brother thursday and promised i'd pay him back friday. i hope he forgets til next week. shit. i'm such an idiot.
i also lost the software for my digital camera, which my dad just had to fucking delete off the computer. god damn.
now i am never going to be able to afford an incubus ticket. =(
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[28 May 2004|10:45pm] |
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| take me with the sky |
[25 May 2004|11:45pm] |
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i had a lot i wanted to write about, but now i can't think of how to articulate it. i hate that. this is why i am never going to be famous for my writing. i can't even write.
well, i can write about what someone else wrote. i got this book from the library today, meg accompanied me, called 'hectic ethics'. i forget the author. anywho, it is 8 short stories. so far they are all very interesting, but disturbing. kind of like that picture that beth has in her journal. it's intriguing. it's hard to describe. it is one of those things you enjoyed, but wished you never read/saw/did.
apparently i can't write about what someone else wrote, but i am going to post in anyway. screw you.
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| i won't stop till i get them in their birthday suits |
[22 May 2004|02:57pm] |
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so yesterday i went to the zoo (the venue) in wilkes barre for the first time. it was pretty neat. the adventure to the bathroom was kind of creepy because there were signs leading to it, and i imagined them really leading to death. heh, horror movies have fucked me up. anyway once i got to the bathroom it was like one from my nightmare! did you ever have a dream where you were in a dusgusting bathroom where none of the toilets work, and the door is too small so you are completely exposed? yeah, well that is exactly what these bathrooms were.
the show was pretty good. the only band i really enjoyed was bob and the sagets, too bad they didn't play tinamen. anywho, SGR did a cover of 'domino' by van morrison. it was sweet.
lately after i eat, i've been getting stomach aches. i am afraid i am turning into jenn.
arg, i have work soon. fuck you wendy's!!
anywho, i'll be there till 7 if anyone wants to hang out afterward, i am bringing a change of clothes with me!
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| i'm feeling way to phylisophical tonight |
[19 May 2004|10:26pm] |
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today i randomly picked up the 'soul searching' book that i bought in 7th grade, and brought it to the bathroom with me. the chapter i decided to browse through was on religion. it just made me realize how much it burns me up that my parents force their religion on me, and won't even listen to me when i try to explain my feelings. they just call me a heathen and ground me. *sigh*
anywho, i really got interested when i started reading about buddhism. i even had to come online and read up on it. i agree so much more with it than christianity, but i still wouldn't want to practice it faithfully. i just don't really agree with organized religion. it is not my cup of tea.
i just know i could never reach nirvana, because i can't help desiring things. i don't know how people can live and not.
man, i have so much on my mind. i wish i could be as carefree as i thought i was. i really need to start living in the moment, and stop looking at the big picture. actually i need a happy medium. i look at the big picture and rationalize too many things, and make myself sick over a good thing i have, but am not sure i want.
hopefully this caffeine induced rant will help me sleep easier.
i had a nice day today. i love meg days. hmm, she still has my pants. oops. i also saw joe, jenn, and zack. kirsten was there, but she is gay so she doesn't count. we hung out downtown for a while, and then journeyed to sean's. the journey sucked, but his house is so cute. i also discovered that he is an AMAZING artist, just like kirsten.
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| if you can't be with the one you love honey, love the one you're with |
[17 May 2004|12:19am] |
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i'm so happy.
i think god has decided to let me smile for once. he can be such a good guy sometimes.
if only it was summer and i didn't work at wendy's life would be perfect. perfect is impossible, though, so this will have to do. =)
charlotte's dance party tonight was amazing, if you weren't there, you should just stop breathing.
i can't wait to see the pictures. i wish my batteries didn't die.
i wish i didn't have to write this paper for english. i also wish i wasn't a procrastinator extrodinare.
...so please don't be upset by this portrait that i paint
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| is it really so strange? |
[13 May 2004|05:48pm] |
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it's hot and i am cranky. bollocks!
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