I just wanted to let everyone know that I am working on a web transfer for TrueForm. Due to the decline and stagnant forum activity I will bring back the forums however in a different outlet. I do not really want to pay for godaddy any longer when I already have a TB of bandwidth a month over at dreamhost. I just wanted to drop by and let you know that TrueForm is not gone, just simply on hiatus until I can get to it within the next month.

- VK

I'm a semi-finalist as Fangoria's Next Spooksmodel, please vote for me and spread the word!

http://www.creationent.com/cal/fangocon/fango_spooksmodel/spooksmodel.asp

I moved to a new place in Studio City, check it out.

I haven't seen you all in a while, I have been busy. Allot of changing and I think I need to talk about it.

First a short rant...

We need out of here. I almost got in a huge car accident yesterday that sent me into oncoming traffic because some dickwad couldn't wait and had to pull out in front of me to get to the other side of the road (I'm fine and my car is fine). I am just tired of stupid fucking people not giving a shit about anyone but themselves. Sometimes I go out of my way to help people and don't expect anything in return other than the hope that they will help others later on in life.
People are always yelling at me for their problems and then "blaming" the economy because it's "outside their control". People having children at 12 years old and little male douchbags dating jail bait 13 y/o's because their bodies need attention. Low IQ cattle continue to breed, creating up to 14 even lower IQ children that will grow up to be on welfare which they can't handle and expect California to bail them out with Huggies and food stamps. THANK YOU. As you may have guessed it, you are an integral part of why the economy is the way it is.

I remain uneffected... maybe it's the industry I am in.

Apparently I am moving, we found a townhouse in Studio City so we can be closer to work and projects. It's been a hard past few weeks, but it's finally paying off. I have an awesome car now, a great fiance, a few good friends, soon a new home, and awesome potential. Want to know how I got here? I worked my ass off. It isn't easy, but if you have drive and passion you can do anything you set your mind to.

BTW, LAGtv is taking off, I am now the new IM Girl for LAGtv's flagship show and starting next week you will see me every Tues and Thurs night at 8pm with Becky and Steve.

So I have been procrastinating on almost everything. I am so worn out from working a solid seven days a week (full time 40 hour job with Ghoul Girls, article writing, and soon/slowly Lag TV). I'm beat and so I got to thinking, why do I put myself through so much torment. I guess it's because I want to be better than what I was told I would become by so many people. I don't want to be like countless others who choose not to work and then blame the economy for their problems. Like others who steal... yes I said "Steal" my hard earned taxes because they don't want to work and would rather be on welfare (fyi: which is being cutoff. ps: in your face.).

I am an artist, it is what I do, who I am and everything I feel that is right in my bones to be. I get up at the ass crack of dawn and sit in a chair for makeup and spend 6 hours shooting. I have sat on a set or stage countless hours under hot lights. I have been put through to worst torture of my mortal life done by high heels and platform boots. I have had buckets of blood dumped on me for the sake of art. I am bruised, beaten, sprained, and physically exhausted. I have been through what any normal person would consider weird (that one is for you Nikki) and I feel like sometimes I should be at least thanked for the work I do.

I am humble, I do what I do because I love it... even if I am being stepped on in the process I will always feel a grim satisfaction knowing that I am happy with myself and my work... and that the majority of people in this world are not.

Yes I work a 40 hour a week day job, but being an artist isn't all it's cracked up to be, it's hard work (yes, I said "work") and the majority of my paycheck goes to my projects. I hope someday that as I work now at age 21 that maybe I wont have to work as hard later on because I lived life in the rat race and will hopefully one day to become successful at it. Maybe people will start seeing me for who I am as an artist and as person, instead of walking all over me.

While I understand that many of you may not have any clue as to what I am saying, that is okay... this is for me. Just jotting down some of my thoughts.

PS: I wouldn't have any of this any other way.

I've gotten pretty serious with my modeling and photography in the last
few months. I have decided to turn over a new leaf of artistic
endeavors in the year 2009. You'll start seeing more of me and my
photography, I have quite a few things Ghoul Girls related to upload
and some photosets in the can that I have yet to edit.

Sometimes
I don't know how I juggle all of the things I do. We are getting pretty
close to moving, I know I keep saying that but it's becoming more and
more of a reality due to the past 6 months of work. In a pretty crappy
economy it seems Kurt and myself are actually doing better than we were
before while it seems everyone else is struggling.

http://vampirekitten182.deviantart.com/

I've really
missed deviantART and now with the new profile options I can display
everything I need to in an organized way. The new features are so much
better this way than before. I have done a bit more spring cleaning
around here. It seems like this time each year I dump crap and start
over. Out with the old, in with the new.

repost from myspace'

You may or may have not heard by now the announcement made by Macabre-Con.
 

...due to a number of factors beyond our control, the support for the show has not materialized as needed to insure a successful Convention as originally planned.

No one could foresee the economy taking a tremendous nosedive which, understandably, hurt investor and vendor confidence for a successful show...

For those who were also feeling the effects of a weakened economy, we say we understand and want to thank you at least for your thoughtful consideration in being a part of the Macabre-Con Convention...

It would have been a helluva show! :_(" - Macabre-Con 

 

My thoughts on the cancellation... ya I am dissapointed, especially this close to the event. This was going to be huge for Ghoul Girls, but we're just going to have to try again at Fango. We needed the calendar sales in December, I'm not going to lie.

 

For Ghoul Girls, this was going to be our big show, we lined up 15 models (which isn't easy to do). Ghoul Girls was in process of being stocked with wardrobe, gathering SFX make-up like crazy, and I now have a dozen different horror props in my possession (from bone saws to scythes). I took two days off and I went shopping two full days after Halloween to save myself some money. Yes, I came home with a very large haul of horror related crap. Christine came home with several t-shirt racks, shelves and etc. She also booked several rooms for the girls to stay with us in.

 

As of now we have very large stock of DVD's  (Thanks to Josh) we were going to sell at the show (the final cut is still in the process of being edited). We are probably going to sell these online alongside the calendars.

 

The plan now is that we are probably going to be getting space for the Fangoria Convention and just postpone and minimize our plans for Macabre-Con. We will still have models dressed up, but only a few.

http://www.creationent.com/cal/fangocon/index.asp

 

You can plan one seeing way more shoots from Ghoul Girls on the website. People have been bitching that you have to sign up, I don't give a shit... you sign-up (and participate) damn it! LMAO Just be glad it isn't a pay site anymore, then you wouldn't see shit. At least it's free. I don't think you people realize how much work and money goes into Ghoul Girls and for us to be giving it to you at no cost, you should be grateful LOL.
(LMAO I'm only kidding here people... jeeze don't have a heart attack. This is what was said about the site for those not in the know "On Mon, 11.10.08 22:12 The Rocket Jock rated this site 1 out of 10 IF you didn't have to register to check it out it might be cool as it it it's just folks hawking a calender. A cool calender, but still.")

 

Anyway... our plans for the end of this year aren't a total loss. I am going to see if we can get the cabin again to try and get some more video/sets done in order to do something that Macabre-Con weekend so it isn't a total loss since all the models already took time off from work.

 

There was also something else I would like to address since we are on the subject of horror. I have been following the Miss Horrorfest contest for the last month that is has been going on. While I was not chosen as a semi-finalist my good friend Demon was and I am ecstatic about that! I am VERY disappointed in the semi-finalists chosen and believe that After Dark Films has made a terrible mistake with the people they have picked. I'm not saying they should have picked me (well they should have lol), but even if they didn't pick me, they should have at least chosen some people who are actually into horror.

 

The some of individuals that have been chosen have been to more auditions than a prostitute has been around the block. Allot of them seem to be putting on an act and arn't true horror girls. Some of them are complete sluts and are already famous (yes, Shelly Martinez I am talking about you). Seriously, After Dark...what are you thinking?! I'm loosing my faith in you. I have been following the 8 films to die for since the beginning and I am so dissapointed with this whole charade you run (not following your own rules, dumbing down the contest every year, giving the girls less and less money) that I may not even see anymore After Dark Films. I want to try out for Miss Horrorfest again next year, but I don't see a point since all your going to have the girls do is make videos and never actually meet them in person. You can't tell a persons personality from videos, they are all acting and do you really want to work with people whom you've never met before? That sounds like a bad move to me. I guess we'll see when the time comes.

 

With that being said I am going to try for Fangoria's Spooksmodel this year. I know I probably don't have a chance in hell, with some of the other women who will try for it. I just can't seem to compete with stereotypical goth sex appeal. I don't know what it is... maybe I'm to... retro?

Well... I'll show them!

Repost from my myspace

I'm just blogging for the sake of doing so. I have allot to talk about so I am sorry if this drags on, I'll probably post it in several parts by topic today.

I've been doing allot lately, but I have toned down the amount of work I have been doing. Since I left Planet Paranormal (I left because I felt it was time for me to move on) I'm not as stressed as I used to be. Being back down the hill makes a huge difference on my life. I don't have to worry about my furry children or Kurt as much and I'm not alone. For those not in the know, I have been away for a while. Work took me about an hour away from my home and I was stuck, things got worse and I had to leave. I talked with my manager and DM to see if we could work something out otherwise I'd be job hunting right now. Well I am a temporary transplant back down the hill at some random store for seasonal and I am scared to death because I don't know where I am going next.

I want out of retail, very badly. I have been submitting my resume to various companies in the gaming industry (at this point a entry level QA position would be fantastic). I am trying to get myself a car, Christine is going to take me somewhere on Sunday to see what we can do.

My ultimate goal is to be moved out of this area and closer to Los Angeles by January or February 2009. My goal is to be at least making the same money or more by 2009. My goal is to work my ass off to be comfortable with life.

While it may be hard to understand what I am saying, it isn't hard to understand that I am setting my new year resolutions in record time lol. I'm a complicated person and just can't seem to work the normal "flow" that people are used to. It's difficult for me to follow the trend of the rat race in fast paced society. Even still, I try my best and it always gets me somewhere I don't want to be. It gets me higher on the food chain, but always where I don't want to me.

Things will be different I assure you. Ghoul Girls is taking off even with the Macabre-Con let down (I'll talk about in my next blog). My career is soaring with options to do nothing but move up. I am where I need to be in order to be somewhere else later on. 

Hey guys I started really late... again... so if you could spare a moment and vote me 5 stars as Miss Horrorfest 2008! You wont be disappointed...



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xQhbDxJ9sg&feature=PlayList&p=C03BE7F3AA422673&index=31

lookie what I got...



Viva la Steampunk revolution!

I don't know how many of you are keeping up with my exploits on The Girls Entertainment Network, but here is a list of articles so far. If there is anything on GEN that you would like to see involving the world of Star Wars, video games, and etc please let me know. And don't forget to Digg!

Blizzard inquires Diablo3.com domain. Promises no announcement soon.

The Sims passes 100-million sales mark

The Real Life Darth Talon - The Sexy Sith

Incredible Custom Console Case Mods

Pwned.com a Social Network for Gamers

Coming Soon: Fable 2

So it's been a long while since I have posted anything in this. In all honesty I have been doing so much I can't seem to put it into words. I am going to try the best I can to summarize the past few months since that GotCast/G4 thing. Be warned, prepare for allot of linkage.

Since Gotcast I have been writing for the Girls Entertainment Network , they are a fascinating group of young women who obsess over all things that are geek and visual stimuli. I love them to death and have loved every minute of working with the group, on the site and meeting the girls one by one. If you haven't checked it out yet please do so.

I have been working on allot of costumes for Labyrinth Masquerade, the 501st Legion and general cosplay. Currently, I am finishing a Steampunk costume, a pair of fantasy unicorns, Maris Brood and a few others for Kurt. I plan on attending comic-con this year for the first time ever. LOJ is just around the corner and I will be attending both nights of that event and I will be at Fangoria next weekend in LA.

Last weekend I attended the SoCal Cosplay Picnic with a group of friends as a preliminary test for our Steampunk group. It was recently announced that there were over 400 people in attendance, a record for the group. I have been attending for the past 2 years when it was only about 40 people then. I took home the "Firefly-Path Choice Award" for my steampunk costume and ended up with a pair of gorgeous wings for an award (they look like glass!). I want to wear them to LOJ on my dark unicorn costume (thus an Alicorn), but I need to find a way to make Nikki match (she's a light unicorn) after that. We'll figure something out.

The weekend before that I did a guest spot on a pilot for a new TV show with SoCal PRS. It's a skeptic based show, so I am a little worried about it, but I think it will end up for the best. It was on a paranormal investigation tools segment and we shot on the Queen Mary. Overall, it was a great day and I got to meet allot of interesting individuals.

I have re-worked VampireKitten.net a little bit, but still don't know when I am going to get it complete. I also worked allot on Ghoul Girls these past few weeks... so everyone will be seeing... well, something soon. I really don't know what I am doing with it as of yet. I'll post more as it comes up, sorry for the last updates.

The GotCast contest/casting is over and with every ones help I made it to number 15 of 200+ girls who entered and ended with well over 800 votes. Though G4 may never see me because I didn't make it into the top 10, does not mean that I have given up my "career" in gaming. I plan on creating a technology and video game blog in the near future and offer several writing positions to girl gamers that I feel know their stuff. This isn't for a whiles yet, but all in good time. I think you all might enjoy what I have up my sleeve.

I wanted to write to you all and say that I am SO sorry for all of the spamming lol. Those of you that know me personally know I wouldn't do that sort of thing unless it was important. I also wanted to give a shout out and thanks to the following people who helped me on my way to being number 15. Even though I didn't make it, it really helped in showing people that I am out there and here to stay.

Thank You: Joshua Evan (I wouldn't have video without you), Kurt WindFang (for all your support), Spooky Southcoast (for noticing me), The 501st Legion, My GameStop family, Pwned.com, GotCast, G4, The Kick Ass Girls I Met, and EVERYONE who voted (and spread the word) you guys rock my batprint socks SO HARD!

If anything else happens with this whole G4 thing, I'll keep you all updated! Thanks for all your help guys and you wont be seeing allot of spam from me anymore lol.

- Candace

I have 24 hours left in this gotcast contest for G4's Next Gamer Girl. I am currently at #17 with 688 Votes to my name. My goal for this thing is still 1000 votes (top ten would be better, which is really what I need), and I NEED your help getting there.

PLEASE go to
http://www.gotcast.com/lunessence

and click "vote"

Or click the banner below...



Thanks,
-VK

PS: What this is about. GotCast and the G4 Network are searching for the ultimate Gamer Girl for future G4 projects, that would include hosts and correspondents for current and upcoming programming. They are looking for young females that live and breathe the world of video games. They would like them to be able to play games as well as talk about the gaming industry.

Right now I am in the running for G4 Network's next Gamer Girl for X-Play and Attack of the Show. GotCast and the G4 Network are searching for the ultimate Gamer Girl for future G4 projects, that would include hosts and correspondents for current and upcoming programming. They are looking for young females that live and breathe the world of video games. They would like them to be able to play games as well as talk about the gaming industry.

Please sign up, if I can get at least one vote from every one person on just the 501st, I could have at least a chance at winning this. You do have to sign up but there are NO conformation e-mail... just pick a username, password, and makeup an e-mail if you want! but please.... PLEASE vote for me!

If I ever had a chance at winning anything, this is it! I just need enough votes to reach the top ten and I am pretty far behind seeing as the casting started on Jan 30th and ends at the end of February. You can vote once a day! Help me at least make top 10! Top10 Profiles are guaranteed to be submitted to G4 Casting!

Simply go to the page below and click "Vote" under my picture. Thanks again!

http://www.gotcast.com/Lunessence?cid=1003222

I saw Cloverfield (aka 1-18-08) last night. I had been following the movie since it's Transformers preview in hopes of finding more information, but to no avail. I went as far to see if I could find a message hidden in the coding of the www.1-18-08.com website that has since it's debut trailer has been slowly updating with photos of the "party".

I'm not going to spoil the movie, but I swear to GOD and to all that is holy... people are fucking morons about this whole movie. I am sick and tired of people comparing this movie to anything... it's unlike anything we have ever seen before! It isn't the Blair Witch Godzilla Project and it isn't a terrible movie like everyone has been led to believe by their peers. THESE PEOPLE ARE RETARDED AND THE MOVIE WAS EXCELLENT. If you have even close to 2 brain cells then you would know that this movie isn't about the monster, it's about the story. Simply put it's a love and survival story and at times was somewhat like Resident Evil. For being a handi-cam styled film, it was simply amazing, for lack of a better word... it was Intense. I was on the edge of my seat through the majority of the film.

I can't believe how many idiotic people there we're in the theater. By the way, it isn't Godzilla... it's far from it.

I forgot to mention that I finally got my drivers license... I am beginning to realize that ALL drivers in California are absolutely insane. I HATE when people don't use their turn signal, AHHHHHH.

Stitches health is improving and I have officially been hand feeding him for a week. He's almost strong enough to eat squishy solids on his own, YAY! He's actually getting better... he's gone from being almost comatose to moving around and being his hungry self once again.

I've been doing some math about the apartment and moving situation. As long has nothing stupid happens between now and the middle of February, we should be out of here. I totaled rent, bills and etc and we'll still have some cash to spare for savings at the end of the month! We're going to be pinching our pennies for the next few weeks to be on the safe side and have rent saved up a month in advance.

Stitches' health is improving, since my last entry he started making raisins, trying to eat on his own and defiantly has his appetite back.

I've been dealing with allot of things lately. I haven't all been myself and several individuals pointed this out to me. I realized that I have been overly stressed out with a combination of things. Feeding the rat everyday is so exhausting, on top of his current situation I am trying to move. Getting a deposit together for an apartment is very difficult and no one seems to want to pay me for any of my work during the month of January... so... I am stuck between a rock and a hard place right now. Next to that there is a whole shit storm of negative activities happening around me in my current living situation and some problems at work that involve Kurt. I don't want to talk to much about it, but I confronted him and he freaked out on me because I didn't believe him and he walked out on me.

That is my current situation and I need to take a break from life. I keep forcing myself to keep going and collect as many funds as I can so I can move. As soon as I move I am going to have a bit of studio area to work with as well (which helps allot with Ghoul Girls). I need to get more items up on Enchanted Masquerade so if there is anything you want to see or have any requests let me know.

I'm also in the process of planning some more shoots for Ghoul Girls. I realized I need to focus more on making monsters and less on making a strict way of putting sets together. I am going to try less nudity with the girls and more costumes/makeup. Some sets won't even be topless, so we'll see how it adds to the site with more "tease" and classic pin-up.

I bought some books for myself, some books I wanted and some I wanted to look into. I love Amazon, it's used book paradise. The following are on their way:
- Real Vampires, Daniel Cohen
- When I See The Wild God: Encountering Urban Celtic Witchcraft, Ly De Angeles
- Psychic Self-Defense; A Study in Occult Pathology and Criminality, Dion Fortune
I see how "When I See the Wild God" and "Real Vampires" are, the first is supposed to have some Therianthropy information in it, I'm really looking forward to it. The book by Dion Fortune is an obvious no brainer if your in my "line of work" lol.

Been working really hard on TrueForm Within lately and I am trying to get more of my Modern Vampirism book written. It's tough with such a hectic schedule, but I'll manage somehow. As I type this I have been working on another TrueForm newsletter that is going to be a long one. I've added allot of new features to TrueForm that include news articles from around the net, video clips, and adding allot more to the book database.

Work has gotten allot slower, so I am going to be focusing on picking Ghoul Girls back up. At this point in time I don't know if I'm going to even release the calender. Our sales would be slim to none because it's already the new year. I am however still trying to get some tables for promotion at different horror conventions (Fango, Frightmare, etc).

All the while I have been dealing with one of my rats (Stitches) suffering from a bout of pneumonia. We didn't know what it was until he got really bad about two nights ago. We have had him on erythromycin antibiotics that we found for birds at a pet store. Over the counter antibiotics are almost impossible to find for some reason. I refuse to pay over $200 for vet bills and a prescription when the Rat & Mouse Gazette says that the Ornacyn-Plus will work AND it HAS been working. I've been hand feeding him by syringe with baby food, fresh water and antibiotics for two days now. The antibiotics seem to be working and his health is improving, but he hasn't eaten on his own for little more than three days. He's gained allot of strength back in the past day, so I hope he starts improving even more. He has lost so much weight and I just want him to start eating on his own again. Send him some positive energy.

Last year we celebrated, this year were going full swing. We have decided that we aren't going to be tied down to anymore commercialized holiday madness and are exploring some different options based on our beliefs.

Today we are celebrating the Winter Solstice in our own way with traditional Yule offerings and celebration. We've invited some friends over (who are also our family) and are exchanging gifts, feasting, and celebrating the return of the light and the longest night of the year. Kurt and myself will probably do a ritual before the nights end... it's going to be a long evening.

I have two halves (some of you know what I mean) and one part of me wants the sun to return... the other part wants it dark and quiet. Sometimes, I just don't know if I belong anywhere because of the feelings that I have.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yule
http://www.circlesanctuary.org/pholidays/SolsticePlanningGuide.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Winter_Solstice
http://www.religioustolerance.org/winter_solstice.htm