I'm Only Half My My Mothers Daughter...

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 08:26:00 GMT

anyone intrested on staying honorable to what i ask of you, and plans on atleast pretending to care, Add me at industrikitten
if you plan on being an idiot, dont bother.
Add me, i will add you back.
Friends only, by the way.

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 05:21:51 GMT

I've so got my own computer now...-happiness-
Yeah, but im going to bed, considering i have to get up at 7:00 in the morrow, and drive to Tampa for a Martial Arts Compition...I'm going to get my ass kicked, but OHWELL!
Oh, I talked to my dad, and he is deleting my AOL account, so I will no longer be using Xanthialafae...
yes, sad.
however, my new screename is Industikitty 69, so add me, for I have most likely already added you.
Okay, So I'm considering getting a new *Secret* journal, for I found out one of you are telling Tim and everyone else every word in my journal. fun fun. no, really, its not. Whoever you are, I hope you die.
K, thanks.

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 21:16:01 GMT

fill ou this form via (*) for yes ...(m) for maybe....( ) no
Enjoy....
( ) go out with me?
( ) Eat tacos with me?
( ) give me your number?
( ) have sex with me?
( ) let me kiss you?
( ) Let me sit on your lap?
( ) watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
( ) take me out to dinner?
( ) drive me somewhere/anywhere?
( ) drink with me?
( ) take a shower with me?
( ) be my gf/bf?
( ) have a fling with me?
( ) listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
( ) buy me a coke if i didnt have money?
( ) take me home for the night?
( ) would you let me sleep in your bed?
( ) sing car karaoke w/ me?
( ) sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
( ) let me put make-up on you?
( ) smoke out with me?
( ) let me rub your head?
( ) re-post this for me to answer your questions?
( ) let me give you a piggyback ride or give me one?
( ) dance naked with me?
( ) come pick me up at 3 am becasue I can't stand it where I am?
( ) be my friend?
( ) steal something for me?
( ) roll down a hill with me even though you know you're going to get grass burns?
( ) cuddle with me when I'm all alone at night?
( ) Write me a letter? (I hold you to it!!!!)

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 03:12:05 GMT

This is my journal, So I'm going to write in it without the fear of prying eyes who will repeat its contents to Tim, amongst others...
I kindof have a little problem...

Well, Recently, I've been just feeling...Strange. Not really horny, but longing for the love of a girl... Ofcourse I Love Tim, but God, theres just some things I miss about dating girls. Just strange little urgings that I haven't felt In a very long time keep happening...It's quite embarassing...Today, in Karate Class, I was Sparring with A girl whom I've always felt strongly for, And goddamned it if I wasn't getting Almost turned-on by sparring with her...Shes just so...GAH! She's not even Gay, I don't even think she dates! Part of me wants to get to know her, to see If I ever would have a chance, but I know I won't...Shes so involved with her training...
Im so confused..
And urging...
And Lonely...
I need somebody to love me...and I mean, Really, Love me.
I guess my problem is the fact that Tim doesn't really Show he loves me anymore. We sit. we talk. We fuck. and thats about it...thats the end of our relationship...whatever happened to the wonderful experinces of The little things, like Making-out, and all that fun stuff. Why is it that when you become a part of a serious relationship, all you do is Argue and Screw? It pisses me off...
I think I need a girlfriend.

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Mon, 18 Oct 2004 22:03:43 GMT

My grandmothers back in town...
lol, i have to go visit for a little bit before work and Karate....HAHA, this should be intresting...
update later, loves...
-Scampers off-

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 21:37:02 GMT

Manson is Serial LOVE.
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I love Charles Manson...-heart-
He ish my true serial-killing love...

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 21:18:37 GMT

I'm cool.
I got My halloween costume today, and its completely Stellar, and you will all be jealous....Okay, maybe not, but I Do look completely hott in it.
I went from going to be a caberte' dancer/mime, to being A porcelain doll, to being Alice from Alice in wonderland, and back to the idea of a porcelain doll....The outfit that I bought was orginally a French maid outfit, but with crimson and black, and all velvet and silk....but When I put it on, I happen to be wearing my gaurder and White and Black striped stockings, with my little maryjanes, and The Outfit went so perfectly...I really do Look like a little dollie...I will soon to post pictures...

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 00:19:50 GMT

Oh my god....LOL....I went to Universal for my birthday in July, And a day or so after getting back I dropped the film off at CVS/pharmacy....and completely fogot it. Now, In Fucking october, my mom went to pick up her film, and they gave her mine aswell....I'm so happy.
Now oogle my Four month old Vacation pictures.....

Beetle Juice turns me on like woah.

Haylie, My sister, Betty Boop, and Myself...Notice the short crisp blond shehawk....

ooo...spooky...

And ofcourse, when you go on vacation, gotta be a camwhore....I like this picture though.

Three Witches In A Row..-snorts- god, I looked like such a lesbian.

The building in which the Scary Dinosaur as seen above was hiding.

-pokes- @_@ thats my mommmm....

I thought this building was So damn cool....It was the outside of a ride, inwhich had dealings with Neptune and whatnot...it was stellar.

Same Place as seen above...

Me and My sister haylie. god, we're hawt.

Me standing in front of the actual Carriage from Vanhelsing...

this is a dragon made COMPLETELY out of Legos at Disney Village.

Me and My mother standing in front of the actual car from Back to the future....notice how neglectful she is of me...-sigh-.

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 20:50:13 GMT

Your Erotic LJ dream by cozzette

username

you went to bed feeling

You began to dream about

kanamimi

who was

causeing you pain (the good kind)

your bed

with

15 other women

which made you

howl

but was interupted by

metalkirby

who began to

call in everyone else to watch

You awoke

hoping you dont talk in your sleep

and you hope

that dreams do come true

chance of that happening:: 67%

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thats silly. lol.

I finally bought my costume, believe it or not. I'm going to be Amanda Palmer from the Dresden Dolls [my favourite band], and Tim's going to be The Drummer, Brian Viglione.

[I would be the girl, obviously, Tim, the boy.]

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 02:52:21 GMT

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Fri, 15 Oct 2004 14:46:12 GMT

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Fri, 15 Oct 2004 12:20:31 GMT

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Your Name
You Should Dress Up As
You'll Hook Up With
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Haha, Who Wasn't expecting that one?

Okay, So I'm in my Pajama's [The silky ones with the Moo-Cows On them], Cooking German Potatoe Salad [my "depression" food] and Listening to Velvet Hammer, Sorrowfully Wailing into a Microphone. Good start for the weekend, huh?
Oh, I talked to Kyle last night, against Tim's wishes, Mainly because Tim wouldn't talk to me [He was too busy practicing with his fucking band] And Kyle called, because he ALSO was sitting home at 7:30 pm in his underwear, under the covers, sulking because he was lonely, not to mention his good friend recently O.Ded.
We had a long talk about sexuality, politics, All those "What-If" questions that are so damned amusing, amongst other things...

I think Im going to go to the mall today...

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 00:15:07 GMT

Most these Pictures everyone has already seen....but you all have no idea how Incredibley Down In the dumps I Am....I just Want someone to tell me I'm attractive...just a little bit?
Goddess, Now I'm starting to sound like the little Whiney-ass emo bitches at school that I'm constantly Making fun of..
Its just not a nice feeling, sitting at home alone on a weekend night, watching Golden Girls, and spontaniously bursting into tears...I despise being female...

Wow...My Own Spouse doesn't even want to hear me Bitch and Moan [I called him, he is currently at His Band Practice]....Strange....Only one Person actually came through for me, and had more to say other than "I'm so Sorry About Madonna"....Guess who...?
Kyle.
Strange, Huh?

Madonna Is Shining....

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 22:29:48 GMT

Tonight, October 14th 2004 a wonderful person is to pass on to the other side, Shinning brightly.
A good friend of Many, a Inspiration to all young Pagans, and A good mother to two wonderful Boys, Madonna, Is to Pass on to the other side, suffering from Liver Failure, and Enternal Bleeding.
The doctors have said there is still a slight chance she could survive With a liver transplant, But Madonna wouldn't have that, The stubborn Old Witch!
She requested the doctors to Unplugg all machinary, and Take out all the IV's keeping her alive, and Lock her in a quite room with her boys, whom she wants to play the Drums for her as she passes on.
Although there is A slight chance of survival on her own, It is unlikely.
She Is Still alive this very moment, But slowly, her body is slipping away.
This woman means so much to Me, as well as others, and her passing will affect many greatly.
I Ask of you now, To light a candle for this Brave, Spiritual, Beautiful, And Wise Woman, for her survival. Even If she passes on, I Ask of you to light a candle, guiding her way to the Other side.

"There is no Hell, we Do Not Die, We Are Not Gone, We are Alive, We Are Just on The Other Side, We are Not Dead, We are Alive, We Do Not Die..."

_____________________________________

[Madonna is the Shining soul In the middle, Dancing her heart out.]

"And She Will Pass On Shining..."

Shinning On...

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 22:28:43 GMT

I can't believe this. How can something so pure, and So good hearted Pass on So Young?
Madonna, A good friend of mine from within the pagan Community, at age 50-53 Is expected to pass on this very night, after being hospitalized for Serious Liver Disfunctions, and Bleeding Enternally. T
The doctors had suggested a Liver transplant, however it isnt Guaranteed to save her life....
She had already lost to much blood, enternally, and was in no condition for surgery....
For the last Couple of days she has been living on machinary and IVs...
Finally, This morning, Madonna told the Doctor she didn't feel up to fighting it anymore, It just wasn't satisfying her, The thought of possbiley passing away In a Room by herself with nothing but a machine to keep her company...
The doctors removed all IVs and Machines from her room, and As Madonna requested, Her two sons, Josh and David, Came into the room, and have been spending the day, playing the Jimba's for her to listen to, and dance to, in her mind, as her body passes away....
I can't take this. i Don't understand how something so Good can pass on like this! It isn't fair. I have no one to turn to, no One that understands how I'm feeling right now...I am Not sad, Not for her passing. If she can handle it, I can too. I am Happy for her, that she Can die in such a state, her boys with her, and Her thoughts Roaming peacfully, as slowly she shines on....
But why? Why couldn't she just stayed for another year? For another day? For another Festival? Why can't I Just see her One more time...

I need to do something...
I need to talk to somebody...

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 19:21:24 GMT

I had to pick Geri -My little sister- up from school today, and Watch her for a bit, While my moms at work....Ofcourse The moment we walk in the door, I tell her to get right on working homework, today being wednesday she has to Write sentences....
So, shes sitting on my couch, and reading her sentences to me while I'm cooking dinner...
she reads "I love Nuts."
"Nuts?" I said, Not in a sexual way, I didn't think I heard her Correctly..
"Yeah Shelby, Nuts, The Food, Not A Boys Tallywacker!"

This coming from my 7 year old sister...

GOD, Moms going to kill me.

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 15:41:55 GMT

I'm so terribley bored with my apperence right now...
-_-
I think Im going to Dye my hair. And Go on a Diet. And Get something Periced. Or shave my head.
Mom would just Love that, Wouldn't She?

I'm Feeling Ugly. -_-

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 20:40:02 GMT

Guess whos going to have a halloween party? Me. thats right. -impish grin-
Its going to be fun, and decorated, and costumey, and scary, and whatnot.
Oh My Goddess....I pulled into my front yard, only too find numerous eyes of various halloween decorations staring back at me...its rather scary actually. My mom went out and bought a 7 foot skeleton to sit next to the door, amough many headstones for our front yard, [which is already scary enough to mundane people because of our many Religious statuettes], And enough fake spider webs to knit a litter of kittens.
The inside of the house is just as bad. -_-
you cant even walk into the door without being attacked by fake spiders suspended from the ceiling, and everytime the Mr.Pharrow [the kitty] jumps up onto his usual perch in the dinning room table, he is chased of by a cackeling candy dish or something as equally amusing.

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 21:21:39 GMT

lol, gotta love zak.
bootcampmurderer=Zakk.

XanthiaLaFae [5:07 PM]: still doing all the fubu silly stuff? :-D

XanthiaLaFae [5:07 PM]: just kidding.

BootCampMurderer [5:07 PM]: Fubu silly stuff?
BootCampMurderer [5:07 PM]: Well, I
BootCampMurderer [5:07 PM]: grr
BootCampMurderer [5:08 PM]: I'm still dressing like a pimp, if that's what you mean.
XanthiaLaFae [5:08 PM]: no worries. you know me, i poke fun.

BootCampMurderer [5:09 PM]: You still with that psycho that carries the butcher knife in his boot?

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 22:02:13 GMT

I've put together a list of Men That Make me Moan....hehe.....worship it.

Surveyness, And a Raunt.

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 21:19:40 GMT

I want to do something with my hair....I'm so sick of the blondiness....It just doesn't look "meish" anymore, if you know what I mean...Ofcourse you don't know what I mean, I don't even know What I mean! but I bet your going to pretend you know what I mean, right?
Anyways, enough of the childish confusing Babbling, and accusing.
I'm drinking this stuff called "Albertson's Diet Orange" It's gross beyond all Reason. -tear-
As you can See, I haven't too much to update about, So oogle what the Bzoink[dot]com faerie randomly left here....

!The Magically Delicous Survey with Extra Cool Questions!
Created by nirvan7201 and taken 390 times on bzoink!
Yourself
How old were you when you lost your virginity?	12, almost 13...yes...Bad Me.
Do you like your name? Would you change it if you could?	Indeed. But considering I can't I might aswell learn to live with it.
If you actually be (not portray) a character in a movie, who would it be?	Juniper[Joon] from the movie "Benny and Joon."
Would you rather be a Music or Film Star?	Film Star.
If you could live in anyones body for one day, who would you be?	Keanu Reeves, because I'd Lie in bed all day, playing with myself.
Would you never talk to your best friend(s) again for $1,000,000?	Surely. I Don't really like my best friends. [Except for Anjelica And Veronica]
Would you live homeless in a foreign city for a year for $1,000,000?	Yes, because As soon as You give me my $ 1,000, 000, I'd by a house, Thus, no longer be homeless.
If you could be best friends with anyone, who would it be?	Probley Peter Steele, Johnny Depp, and Acey Slade.
Would you pull an Anna Nicole (marry someone really old for $$$)?	Never. Love isn't something to be tampered with for cash.
Favorites
TV Channel?	History Channel. [why yes, I'm a loser]
News Source?	Weekly World News.
Alcoholic Beverage?	Mead, Captain Morgan, Pina Coladas', and I've yet to drink a bad wine.
Vacation Spot?	Norway.
Website (besides LJ)?	www.rotten.com
Radio Station?	99X.
Movie (Drama)?	The Human Stain. [starring anthony Hopkins]
Movie (Comedy)?	Is friday the 13th considered humor?
Movie (Action)?	The matrix was a fair movie.
Cuss Word?	Fuck. ofcourse.
Girl Scout Cookie?	Those minty kinds...mmm....
Candy Bar?	Snickers.
Ice Cream?	Cookie Dough, or Superman.
Pizza Place?	Dominos.
Designer?	Though there Cheap, Tripp clothing sometimes makes some pretty intresting clothing items.
The Or's?
Gum or Mints?	Gum
Wal Mart or Target?	Walmart
Pro Life or Pro Choice?	Pro Choice, I guess.
Bush or Kerry?	Kerry.
New York or Los Angeles?	New York.
Unattractive with a lot of money or Poor and Attractive?	Attractive and Considerate.
Plane or Road Trip?	Plane.
Cruise or Backpacking?	Backpacking.
Polo or Tommy?	NEITHER.
Year without Sex or Year without Friends/Family?	Year without Friends/Family. [sorry]
Cold Weather or Hot Weather?	Cold Weather.
Rain or Snow?	Snow.
Lake or Ocean?	Ocean.
SUV or Sedan?	What?
Dreams	uhh....yes?
Dream Car?	Porches are Nice.
City to Live in?	New Orelands.
Boyfriend/Girlfriend?	Tim Micheal...-looks around- Or Keanu Reeves?
Job?	A professional Gothic Model.
Vacation?	Backpacking through Ireland.
Friends
Besides A Significant other, Who you want to be on a desert island with?	Anjelica, I get along with her the best.
Who have you known the longest?	Probley Avus.
Would have sex with if you could?	-looks around- Jim.....don't tell.
Who Knows you the best?	Tim, or Kyle.
Who do you wish you were closer to?	Veronica!
You won a trip for 4 to your dream vacation, who do you take?	Anjelica, Veronica, Tim, and Jim.
You won the lottery, what would u give your friends?	I'd Buy Anjelica an Art Studio, Veronica lots of Candy, I'd Buy tim Various Guitars, and Jim a Nice Bass, and A date with Any women he wants.
Would you lie to protect a friend from being hurt?	Yes.
Funniest Friend?	Ali Babwa.
Most Creative Friend?	Anjelica, Or Tim.
Most Dependable Friend?	Probley Tim, or Anjelica.
Randomness	Okay....
What's your biggest pet peeve?	Burping, and Pagan Imposters.
If you were on death row, what would be your last meal?	My moms German Potatoe Salad, my Fathers Famous Hash and Potatoes, Hamburger helper, and A Banana...And to drink? Cheap Wine.
Capital of Kentucky?	To hell if I know.
Favorite Saved by the Bell Episode?	The first one in which they start collage.
Favorite Cartoon Charecter?	Well, Old Cartoon's wise, asmuch as I despise Carebears, I've always been [unsexually] attracted to Love-alot-bear...But from todays cartoons, Mandy [GrimAdventuresOfBillyAndM
Do you like Spongebob?	He severley Pisses me off.
Why do you take quizzes?	Out of Boredom.
Did you see Passion of the Christ?	Not worth going to the movies for.
Do you believe in the bible as the word of god?	No. The bibles been remade so many times, Its impossible to actually believe anything "they" say anymore.
Favorite Country (besides USA)?	Germany.
Favorite Childhood Show(s)?	Rugrats, Salutte your Shorts, the Nanny, and Golden Girls.
Do you or did you play with Dolls?	Still Do, Damn' Straight.
Watch Porn?	Sure. Sometimes. [shrugs]
American Idol?	No. Never have.
Buy food at the movies?	Yes, lots of it.
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HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 22:14:13 GMT

BOO !!

ooo! did I scare you?

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 20:21:29 GMT

Vampy, We All Miss You! Return to Us! with a girl!

I didn't update yesterday... Tim was here, and I uh, Didn't get chance to. heheh.
So, I think Im going To have a Halloween Party this year. Woo and Hoo. Its going to be fun, and with lots of pumpkins, and in my backyard, with costumes, and Switchblade Symphony n' such playing rather loudly!
And everyones invited! Well, not everyone, but Mostly everyone.

I can't wait until Graduation....I'm so sick of school....-dies-
I was sitting in the Multipurpose room today, after last block, getting ready to go home, And a grounp of snickering children passed by me, with a picture that I couldn't see at the moment, And obnixously pointing and staring at me....It kindof pissed me off, like it would have pissed anyone off, So I looked over one of their shoulders (wasn't that hard to do, they were Miniatures') And Got a nice look at the picture that apperently everyone in the school has now seen...
The one back in July when I was at kyles house with Jezzabelle, and we were taking pictures of Jezzabelle and I being Idiots.... Well.... There was one picture, were Me and Jezzabelle were just playfully Licking each others' Tounges, which to many of you would be that big of a damned deal, but to abunch of Snickering sheep, like the fellow students at East Naples of mine happen to be, its a very big deal.
I was about to cry I was so humiliated, and not in the mood to chase them down...
Luckily Steveo and Caleb saw how upset I was and Chased the little pricks down for me, and snatched the picture away...But the damage, ofcourse is already done.
-sigh-
Ohwell....

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 22:29:03 GMT

Pictures of Homecoming...

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 21:46:08 GMT

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