Current mood:	exhausted
Current music:	green day - wake me up when september ends

wake me up when september ends.
I've had a pretty shitty last few days. And I am exhausted. There's no other word to describe it. And now I have the opportunity to sleep? And I can't. Why? Jaime's not here. Otherwise I'd be about an hour into my sleep.

This month is off to a shitty start. Real shitty. And I am exhausted. Have I mentioned? I'm exhausted, overworked, always low on money, and an insomniac. I can't wait to get out of this house. I can't wait until there's finally nothing I NEED to pay for (ie. gas bill, cable bill, electric bill, water bill, new rims for car bc 2 are busted, new fanbelt for car, get warning lights fixed, credit card bill, buying gas as high as it's prices are, etc, etc). I just can't wait. Then I can actually afford to save money. And maybe work a little less. I think it's finally getting to me. I can admit. I'm proud it took me this long to get tired of it. I held up pretty good. The last time I had only one job was August of last year. I've had at least 2 jobs since then. Since September 12th, when I started working at Wet Seal.

I wish I could just get promoted there, and cut it all down to one job. But instead I have to settle for a KEYHOLDER. I got keyholder twice. And funny thing is, both jobs I applied for assistant manager. Just tell me assistant's not available. Don't hire me and then be like, oh yeah, it's 3rd key. I can't say no. To nobody. I feel like I'm letting whoever down. Even if I don't know them. It just sucks. And I can't afford to say no. I need the money. But I can't take this. I'm run down.

I should go to sleep. It's one in the morning, and I have to be at work (which is a half hour away) at nine in the morning. And have I mentioned I'm exhausted?