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[July.22nd.2009 - 3.33pm] Mitch Justin Sean Zack* Chris TJ* Pete* Mike* Liam* Brian* Chris Jason* SOLD OUT (1) OF LOVE.

[May.21st.2009 - 9.52am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | the Stooges- Cock In My Pocket ] I'm starting to think that I should just try to be happy alone. OF LOVE.

12 Weeks Since I Looked At You [May.10th.2009 - 10.29am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Perkele! ] So. I'm not living in an apartment anymore. Just moved into Dani's place. Which is totally bitchin' so far. Work is a little slow because of the economy, but yesterday was good. I made a little cash-money. The dude I was seeing for a few months didn't work out. His life seemed... complicated, and he didn't want to work out those complications with me. I think he took the easy way out of everything. I guess that means it simply wasn't meant to be. I've been on a date with a handful of other people since. I'm on the verge of dating a metalhead, which will be a first. More on that later, when I figure out how things are going. Too early to tell. Cock Sparrer is playing in Chicago in October. I totally want to go. Also, I'm thinking about going to Mayhem Fest because I would like to see Slayer and Cannibal Corpse. I wanted to see Mobile Deathcamp, Beefcake from GWAR's band, but they aren't playing the Indiana date. They are, however, playing at Zanie's at the end of the month. A day before the Koffin Kats swing through. Nice, right? Audrey left the salon. We were bff at work. I miss her. I'm trying to eat a little better, and take on a "low fat" diet. We'll see how that works. It's a good thing I like chicken is all I gotta say. I've been at it for about a week. I feel slightly better. But I've also been drinking a lot of water, so I'm sure that has something to do with it too. I gotta stop slacking and start getting ready for work... Uuuugggghhhh. SOLD OUT (1) OF LOVE.

Ughhhh... [February.11th.2009 - 12.13am] Have you ever heard of something weird and embarrassing that happens to people, and think to yourself, "That would never happen to me."? Well something weird and totally embarrassing happened to me today... I'm just glad it's over. My pride won't allow me to say what it is, but goddamn. The human body works in mysterious ways. SOLD OUT (2) OF LOVE.

If Yer Gonna Be Dumb Then You Gotta Be Tough [January.21st.2009 - 1.22pm] So it's been about a month since I've updated. And making myself vulnerable WASN'T worth it. I ended up getting fucked over because I ignored my head, and most importantly my gut. A woman's intuition ain't nothin' to fuck with. I somewhat enjoyed the ride, and to look at the bright side, I learned my lesson. Even if it was the hard way. But... I'm seeing someone new. He lives on the East Side and seems sincerely into me, and I into him. He's cute, likes punk rock. He laughs at my jokes and likes my home-made pizza. He makes his own beer and cider and isn't a loser. He's super handy with cars (he works at an auto parts store) and hooked me up with a battery and put it for me in less than five minutes. So, I'm pretty sweet on him, I hope he sticks around for a while. Work is going good. I've been really busy. I'm behind on bills... Which I really feel down about, but rent and electric and food and gas comes first. I'm not going to fuck with that. Tax time is coming up soon though, so hopefully I can get a handle on everything then. Hope my few LJ readers are doing well. And I am in love with the Smut Peddlers! Over and out. OF LOVE.

[December.18th.2008 - 5.17pm] So much to say, so little motivation to type. I transfered salons, and am making more cash- which is awesome. Some chick I ran into at the Alley Cat told me I should check out a salon called Static. I was trying to ask her questions about it, but she was drunk and agreeable. I think she was going to tell me anything I wanted to hear. I'm thinking of going blonde. As I have not in blonde in years. My car sucks. I totally spun out of control on the ice the other day. I wasn't driving recklessly, and yes, it was on ice but I'm convinced if I had better breaks and better tires the spin would have been prevented. It's really funny now that I didn't kill anyone or wreck my ride. I need my tonsils out asap. I'm starting to sound like Kat Von D. That's all for now. SOLD OUT (1) OF LOVE.

Smitten! [November.18th.2008 - 3.36pm] It's Tuesday. I'm off of work. It's sunny outside. I'm in love. It's really all that I've been thinking about. Is such a wonderful feeling worth the risk of throwing my vulnerability away? This weekend all will be revealed. For better or worse. SOLD OUT (2) OF LOVE.

To my cure. [November.18th.2008 - 3.34pm] I don't care if Monday's blue Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too Thursday I don't care about you It's Friday, I'm in love Monday you can fall apart Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart Oh, Thursday doesn't even start It's Friday I'm in love Saturday, wait And Sunday always comes too late But Friday, never hesitate... I don't care if Mondays black Tuesday, Wednesday - heart attack Thursday, never looking back It's Friday, I'm in love Monday, you can hold your head Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed Or Thursday - watch the walls instead It's Friday, I'm in love Saturday, wait And Sunday always comes too late But Friday, never hesitate... Dressed up to the eyes It's a wonderful surprise To see your shoes and your spirits rise Throwing out your frown And just smiling at the sound And as sleek as a shriek Spinning round and round Always take a big bite It's such a gorgeous sight To see you eat in the middle of the night You can never get enough Enough of this stuff It's Friday, I'm in love SOLD OUT (1) OF LOVE.

[November.2nd.2008 - 4.18pm] I really wanted to update on more. but i am officially too fucked up to do it. OF LOVE.

Self Help [October.21st.2008 - 3.00pm] For the past few days I've been in a funk. I feel like I'm barely surviving. I'm not being smart with money. Work's been slow, but that doesn't stop me from going out. Finally, reality is catching up... Can't run, can't hide. It's gonna find you. So, I did something I said I was going to do a long time ago. I made a budget. My paycheck will cover everything. Capitol One First Financial Duke Energy Verizon Wireless Von Maur Polo Run Apartments Food, gas, nicotine... You've all got a piece of me. I'm working for you. I'll have next to nothing for fun, but I really need to learn how to help myself. All of my tips -can- be for fun, but I really want to save. So starting in November, because let's be honest, Halloween isn't the best time to decide to not spend money... I'm really committing to it. ...Which means I will probably be spending a LOT more time at the library. OF LOVE.

Today your love. Tomorrow the world. [October.15th.2008 - 9.31am] I'm a storm trooper in a stupor, yes I am. I'm a nazi, shatze. You know I fight for the Fatherland! I've been really good. Smellin' so fresh, lookin' so nice! (Oh yes i di-iiid!) Every Tuesday and Thursday are hang out nights with Dani and Dani. This consists usually of doing Carmen Electra strip aerobics, and slamming shots of Kettle One (classy!) and Sailor Jerry. The last hour is always best because we are smashed and act the fool. Somehow, I got the day off! Hurray for random Wednesdays off! Money really sucks right now but I don't mind too much. I bought a really sweet Sex Pistols lunchbox the other day so I can start bringing my own food to eat at work as opposed to spending 5-10 dollars every time I work. That should save me at least 100 dollars a month- which is ridiculous- but that's what it adds up to if you spend 5 dollars a day, 5 times a week. Budgets are responsible! Speaking of responsible, I'm totally psyched for GWAR next week. And I have two Halloween parties to go to! The roof is on fire, bitches. P.S. I'm talking to a boy. SOLD OUT (1) OF LOVE.

[September.30th.2008 - 3.22pm] I thought of a totally bitchin' back patch for my jean jacket. I got my inspiration from Furious George. I'm whip up some bad ass 'Betty Crocker, Punk Rocker' patch. I bought a trampoline to rock out on since I've officially decided I hate gyms and gym clothes and gym people. I also bought Rocky Horror Picture Show and Rock'N'Roll High School. Hooray for me! I think I might be a Pink Lady for Halloween. It would give me an excuse to make a jacket or cardigan... I feel like such a slacker, I don't know what I'm doing for Halloween yet! Maybe there will be some cool costume parties to go to... I get to see GWAR in three weeks- Do you? SOLD OUT (3) OF LOVE.

The skinny. [September.17th.2008 - 6.22pm] I don't understand how I get myself into these predicaments., and I don't understand what I want, or what I hope to get out of it. Yesterday I applied for a temp job at this Halloween shop right by my place- It would be fun and provide me some extra cash. Also, I'm thinking about becoming a stalker. More information later. OF LOVE.

Riff Randall, Rock'N'Roller. [September.9th.2008 - 3.58pm] Tomorrow's my 22nd birthday! What does this mean to me? I'm not sure. One full year of drinking legally? Supporting myself? Guys in their 30's are now not too old to date? Well, early 30's anyway. Tomorrow I get to spend time with some close friends at a trashy, punk rock bar. Nothing could be better. Pluuuuus, since tomorrow is a pretty great day in history, I will get hammered for free! I'm really hungry and think that one of those 99 cent Stackers from Wendy's sounds really great right now. Tomorrow is also pay day. Which is nice because I will feel less guilty spending half of my check on myself. Haha. I need to buy Rock'N'Roll High School. Right now I'm thinking that I should have made a shopping list because I'm heading to the store after this and I know I'm going to forget something. And speaking of shopping- I've been wanting to do a LOT of it lately. Maybe my womenly instincts are kicking in... So work is good. I've had a lot of repeat offenders- uh, I mean clients- which feels nice. Money is okay- I really wish I had a roommate- I could save like 200 a month. Maybe more. Then I could actually start saving and maybe get a new car or something... Anyway, I haven't ate since my bowl of Cinnamon LIFE cereal early this morning, so I'm gonna cut out. Fare thee well loyal readers. Oh, and I saw Alice Cooper and got in a car wreck on the same night! ...Ow, ow. Ow, ow, ow. I drop you like a hammer on a bed of nails! SOLD OUT (1) OF LOVE.

[July.15th.2008 - 8.32pm] Super short update. Work is good. Money is okay. I'm really happy. I figured out something the hard way last week. And all it took was me having to sort of spill my guts... I sure as hell didnt feel good about it afterwards but right now I'm happy that I can say I'm over it. I let my heart have the mic for too long. And while I hate to bash the loose-y goose-y, dreamer side of myself, I never should have ignored what my head was telling me. Not for so long... ANYWAY... I'm ...talking... to someone, we'll see how that goes. I want to see... Dark Knight Hellboy II Pineapple Express Step Brothers All look good! Well. I'm out. SOLD OUT (3) OF LOVE.

Where are you? [July.4th.2008 - 1.59am] [ music | My own. ] A song I'm working on. It's for someone who means a lot to me. You drive me crazy, you're the coolest guy I know Got holes in your jeans like Joey Ramone I wanna be your girl, I wanna jump your bones I drew you a picture of Joey Ramone I've wanted you ever since I can remember But I'm starting to wonder if things will get better Cause lately I've been blue- I haven't heard from you. And I've began to wonder "Is it time to let go?" I heard you taped up that picture on your wall And I keep hoping someday you'll think of me and call And tell me that you want me. And tell me that you need me. And tell me that you'll never, ever let me go, again. OF LOVE.

[May.31st.2008 - 9.52pm] Update! So life in Greenwood is much better. I don't hate work. I sort of walked into a war zone when I first started. New manager, lots of changes, lots of drama. But everything is cool now. I live less than five minutes from the shop too, which is great. I'm going to be able to pay rent, electric, school loans, phone bill, food and gas and still be able to go out and play. So on the work front, I'm pretty happy. However, moving is SO not as smooth as I would like it to go. I still need a few things for the apartment, and until I get my next check, I'll be scroungin'. So that means even though I've managed to meet a few cool people, I can't go out with them yet as I am pretty broke. Cool people, yes. I've had to meet people the old fashioned way... Like going up and introducing myself. Which is weird since usually these days you're internet friends first, or meet through mutual friends... Something like that. And I've already got myself into a lick of guy trouble. I met this guy and we hang out. Everything went great. He sand some Twisted Sister, we watched a movie, making jokes, laughing. Everything cool. I just assumed we were hanging out, but then he opened the car door for me when we went to go eat, and then he paid for my dinner... So we eat, and by this time he's told me I'm cute twice... We get home, I go into the kitchen to light up a cigarette and he walks up by me and asks if he can kiss me. So fast forward >> Two hour makeout session >> He is telling me all kinds of awesome things. Like, I can't even remember a time a guy was so attentive. Okay, so FF>> ...He asks if I want him to stay all night. I say no. Just in case this is all a 'wham, bam, thank you ma'am' kind of thing. I tell him that, and then he's worried about being too forward... Here's the rub- Now, it's been almost a week and I haven't heard from him. Maybe I'm just paranoid. It's not like we talked evey day, and his has been MIA for two weeks. Is he playing it cool? Is he just busy? Did he get what he wanted and I'll never hear from him again? I don't know. I guess I'm just more mixed up about this because I really thought he was a sincere, cool guy. Usually I'm pretty good at reading people, and this confuses me. But, if all he wanted was to get some, I'm glad I didn't give him any... And I got a free meal. Two points for me. :) OF LOVE.

Celebrate! [May.9th.2008 - 8.53am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Anti-Heroes "Carte Blanche For Chaos" ] I'm never hungry when I first wake up. It takes a couple of hours... And it's been a couple of hours. I want something fancier than cereal today. I want some fucking pancakes or somethin'. It's not even 9 and I'm posting, but two great things have happened already. Late March my parents wanted to get a 'family share plan' through my plan. I said okay and ordered all the phones. Then my parents decided to stick with Cingular, so when the Verizon phones arrived they immediately sent them back. Well, something at VZW went crazy and my return was never processed- Long, frustrating as fuck, several phone calls later story short, I am getting a few phone calls a day saying I owe like 759 dollars. So I call them up, all kindsa pissed off. This lady, who is an angel from Heaven, made everything right. She took care of my phone bill for this month and gave me an extra 500 minutes. How fucking awesome is that? You best believe I saved her extension number in my phone. This couldn't have come at a better time, considering I'm going to be STRUGGLING this month. The second awesome thing that happened today is that my BFF Kourtney passed her exam this morning! She's official! Drinks will be had! Shots will be taken! I went out with my coworkers last night and we drank about $70 in alcohol. We had to, it was like my "going away" party for work. I feel so adult like. So anywho, how about those pancakes...? SOLD OUT (3) OF LOVE.

I got you, and there's nothing you can do. [May.7th.2008 - 8.34pm] [ music | Baby Shakes "Stuck On Blue" ] Well, it's official. The lease, signed. The keys, in my pocket. The money, gone baby gone.  It's a clean, nice cozy studio. There's a washer'n dryer around the corner. Plenty of space for me. I move in on Sunday. I will be scrounging to make next months rent, but after that, I should be good. I've decided to get into painting again. Especially since I have a few things in mind, like painting a really sexy pin-up version of the Bride of Frankenstein. Maybe I could paint and sell too... Who knows.  I'm just so ready to start making money and being on my own again. Knowing that I can count on myself makes me feel really good. So excited. Fuck!!! If you want or need my number, or address- I'll trade mine for yours. email- LetsG0R0ckNR0ll@aol.com SOLD OUT (1) OF LOVE.

[May.1st.2008 - 2.00pm] I had two appointments today and one didn't show, the other canceled. Fuck this. This is exactly the time I wish I had a base pay. Something to depend on. I'm going up to Greenwood on Sunday to sign papers for my job and apartment. Then, the following weekend I'll be moving in. So much to do. Not enough money. Barely enough time. SOLD OUT (1) OF LOVE.

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