See the world through my eyes

_transmutation_ @ 2008-09-06T13:07:00

2008-09-06T20:09:40Z

I love my roommates more then words could express.. Going out with them is the best. Using my cool chick skills to help them find ladies, give me extra cool points.

My legs hurt from all the dancing, (yeah they even played Spice Girls, I went crazy) my arms hurt from Wii Fit. I'm full of Subway, and downloading Spore. I'm happy.

:)

Tonight I have the house to myself, where I will play games and paint and read. I'm so freaking excited.

:) Love!

Plurk is more addicting then myspace and facebook combined.

2008-09-05T16:47:40Z

i lol'd

This weekend Justin is going camping/wakeboarding with some of the guys, and i opted not to go. It would of been fun, but I'm lowish on funds and really want to work on my art. Tonight I have the option of driving out to Fremont to see some old friends and drink some beers, but it's so far, and I'd have to crash there.. If I stay local.. go out with my roommie, I'd know for sure I'd get home safe and can sleep in my own bed.

There are pizza coupons on my desk. They came to the office, but it doesn't even phase me. I have my lean cusines in the freezer, and home made lasagna too... Oh and at home, I can make my own guacamole. My arms are sore from the Wii Fit, I unlocked a Rhythmic Boxing game. I'd dropped a few lbs, but now I'm consecrating on toning it all up. I'm so very proud of myself. I'm uber motivated, with out being OVER THE TOP. Which was my real fear.

I'm going to go through all my clothes.. and take whatever I can to Platos Closet. I'll take store credit, why the hell not... Just buy new clothes. But I have a closet half full of shit I will never wear, no matter how much I love it. I want new stuff.. I'm cleaning my life up, and a lot of shit needs to go. Dan did say he could give me his dresser (I still don't have one!).

Hopefully by the end of the weekend I'll have some updated pictures of my art project for ya'll.

<3

p.s. Eating dinner in the living room last night, there was nothing on tv.. so I went to the box to see if it recorded the newest Gossip Girl ep, even though I already saw it. To my surprise it had several episodes from last season recorded (Not V,V sadly) and I rewatched the pilot.. and well...

S's hair was so flat!- B was so skinny!- B's mom, who was that lady?- C and N ride the bus to school?- C mentions his mom. C is creepy, but now that I know him better, I still love him.

Dork, fan girl, obsessed.. all of these are true. Can't wait for monday!

Really?

2008-09-04T17:24:18Z

I got a PO (Purchase Order) from a company we work with in India today, and hit "Reply all".

I write out an email saying the normal "Thank you for your order.. blah blah blah.. your shipping charges are blah blah blah. I made note of your shipping address changes and will give you an ETA when I receive one.. blah blah blah"

I send the email.

I get an email reply.. INSTANTLY.. stating "The message you sent requires that you verify that you
are a real live human being and not a spam source."

hah. This is my job. Being tested on whether or not I'm a real live human... in front of this computer... who knows...

I have home made veggie lasagne in the fridge for lunch. I'm a happy girl. I've lost 2 lbs, and am eating better. Working out a little everyday on the Wii Fit, and then again in my room. I'm feeling good.

Though sometimes I would just kill for a smoke I know I really don't want it. It's almost my birthday, and this year, I'm happy about it. I need to make more plans for the party.

Sigh. Back to being a real live human being.

Working on art again..

2008-09-03T05:15:29Z

Painting is my passion. Doesn't matter if I am not the best, or even close, but it's my passion..

Currently working on a few things, but this mask has been the main focus.. It'll be part of my first real 3D painting... I hope it turns out cool. Just wanted to share.

More to come as it works itself out..

Good night! <3

Cut for Spoilers.

2008-09-02T05:23:18Z

So, after all this time... months of reading spoilers, memorizing sides so that I could recite them along with them, (you know what part... "3 words, 8 letters") and seeing pictures that made my heart want to explode... it finally came. The new season of my beloved Gossip Girl.

I don't know where to start. I just finished "You're the one that I want" today, and am starting to have feelings for the characters in the book, that vary from those on the show. But that doesn't affect anything really. (I love Nate in the book, and Serena in the book. In the show I sorta find them boring)

Okay.. Umm... Little J... Other then being a bitch to E in the past, she wasn't too bad this episode. Good to know she's not done being a little bitch. She learned something from the Queen B. And I'm okay with that.

D became a man whore! Holy crap! (oh, btw, Dan in the books is so much more attractive imo. The addiction to coffee and cigarettes, and the whole crazy relationship thing with V, and that... mothy like poet with the yellow teeth... What a turn on. Angst is so much better written then acted.)

N... I hated him last season. Maybe cause I fell so in love with B... And then C/B... But his character was just so boooring. Being the hot guy was not enough for me. Reading the books this summer really made me love him. And even though the beginning of this episode didn't really make me care for him, the moment he asked S to get him drunk, I felt that heart pain that every girl is supposed to feel for Nate. But this story line with the cougar.. I think is stupid. Meh.

S is a good friend to N. S and D back together bores me. I think they should make S more like the books. The wild crazy fun party girl. She's sad and wants to be loved. But everything is just so fun and right now.. that she can't get tied down. That's the Serena I love. Not this romantic goo goo eyed girl.

B looked... fabulous. The whole episode. Her tan.. her clothes.. the headbands! I love her. I hate when C and her fight, but it's just too amusing. They have the best dialogue and chemistry. I think C is the sexiest guy on the show and the way he looks at B makes my heart melt. I know they have to create drama.. But I would just die for another kissing scene. Hmm like the one where they are laying in bed making out... When she's in those red tights... (that I happened to go out and buy some after that cuz they were just oh so sexy)

The whole thing with the Lord is boring. He's not as cute as Chuck, and Blair knows it. But, he is royalty, and that's totally up her alley. I know next week things will have to change. Come on, B/C is the best thing that could of happened to this show..

So, it's back.. that yearning for it to be Monday already. My obsessive searching for clues to what will be happening next. Texts with an old friend that I don't speak to anymore... Just to talk about the show. We fell in love with the show at the same moment, and she'll always be the S to my B.

Come on... why can't it be Monday already?

So much to write about.. So little time.

2008-08-28T16:19:25Z

Where to start... Hmm.. Fiasco with my phone, was distraught when an empty envelope came, no phone in it. I'm trying to get my money back, cuz the guy i bought it from obviously didn't pack it correctly. I'm in the shipping department, I know what can and cannot be placed in a priority mail envelope.

While distraught over not having the phone I wanted... Justin went out and bought me the phone.. Brand new, from Sprint (where they kill you if you don't buy it with a plan) So.... I have my phone. My gorgeous new lime green LG Rumor... I had to hand enter all my numbers and lost all my pictures and ringtones from the last phone, but it's worth it. I can't believe he bought it for me. Amazing.

Last weekend, my long lost cousin Kenny came to California for the first time ever from the East Coast (he's my cousin on my dad's side, I've only seen him once when we were all rather young, he's a few months younger then Andrew) Friday night Justin and I went to the 707 to hang out with everyone at the Creek Walk (it's gotten crazy big since the last time I've been there!) We hung out with the "kids" (really they are all Justin's age, and I'm the older one...) at Andrew's park. I had crazy memory flashbacks of doing Shakespeare in the park there, and hanging out with Kim, Alana, and Amanda in that park after a long night of being crazy girls...

Saturday a group of us (Justin, Andrew, Cousin Kenny, Chris, Sean, some girl, and I) all went to Marine World! This was my first time since that summer when Brad and Mattchuka and Courtney and I would go all the time. The rides terrify me, but I did it. I even got Andrew to ride Medusa (he's nervous too) and as we were about to drive down to our doom, he gave me the "Jacqueline... I love you" it was sweet. Oh and just so you know, the new Tony Hawk ride is shitty.. and broke down twice while we were in line.. CRAP!

We visited my dad and step mom... which wasn't as bad as I thought, except for the moment when Step said "What kind of idiot doesn't know where their quad is?" and the 4 Haines' in the room raised their hands. Meh. That night Kenny was pwnd by the Jagerator... and Sunday instead of going out to the city or something crazy, we showed in California food (never had In-N-Out or Jack in the Box!) and were nerds. Andrew wanted to go to the P town mall, so we did. Then we went to La Asia which was awesome and then Fantasy Comics in Livermore. It was a great nerdy day.

My legs are so sore. My house got a Wii Fit, thanks to Justin and his connections with Game Stop still.. My roommates and I are all going to get into shape, and have 3 months to do it. We were going to have this bet going on but I don't think it'd work. as Dan is in the "Obese" range, Nate the "Overweight" and myself "Normal" My thin little Mii next to their chubby ones, just looks funny. Needless to say we all wanna get healthy and fit. So I'm working out on it every day and my legs are SO SORE! I love the Wii Fit, it's a game that makes working out more interesting and fun then just going to a gym. The yoga and strength exercises show you where your body weight is supposed to be held and such.

Next week is CEDIA, and half of my office will be gone for that. Very exciting things to come from Fusion. (shhhh.... we got Blu Ray! YAY We're officially announcing it at CEDIA, but yeah, we can do Blu Ray!!!) (think I can ask for a raise yet?) Today Justin is coming over to have lunch with me before he goes to work. I'm excited.

Next week is also the start of September. Which means ANTM's new season, Gossip Girl's new season (Yay!!!!!) And that stupid new Paris needs a new bff show that I'll probably watch as I can stomach her now a days, and Zui will be on it, and my dire hatered for Scene Queens pushes me to watch. ALSO... my birthday! And my birthday party! Fuck yeah. Anyone and everyone is invited if you really want to come. It's going to rock, well it is a Rock Star party :) Hit me up if you want more info. I'm super excited to see Ash and her lady, and Celeste!!! Oh man. :)

Sorry for the long entry, I had ever so much to write about. <3 <3 <3

It's Monday, and all I wanna do is go home and cook.

2008-08-18T18:16:38Z

I made it through the weekend! A few little bumps where I started to freak, but mostly, I'm okay!

I think I'm in love with the Sac/Roseville/Davis area this weekend. Justin and I are weighing options of places to move... I like being more north. And it's less expensive then the East Bay. Plus, closer to my mom and family, and Celeste who is going to go to Davis. Easter Seals is out there in Sac too, WITH a theatre department. I'd love to work theatre disability services.

Tonight I am throwing together a date night. :) I really want to cook something delicious, and new. So after work I am going to the fancy market here in Danville and tonight will be a fusion of Thai and Indian food. Thai red curry chicken, vegetable balti, jasmine rice, naan, and some wine.

<3 it's almost lunch time, here at work. We've had 2 tech calls only, all day, one of which was so simple that I took it. (I know right... me a tech?)

I'm absolutely batshit about no tech calls! <3

cake

2008-08-15T22:23:08Z

I had the cake made, and the image was scanned on.. i wanted it to be frosting.. but whatever, so i added some flair... blood and the black and such. haha

He loved it. haha

_transmutation_ @ 2008-08-15T09:25:00

2008-08-15T16:36:41Z

It's Aug 15.. I'm at work. I dropped the full throttle i was buying today at the gas station and made a fool of myself.. i was just... shaking. All i wanna do is go home and smoke a cigarette. Not really, but inside that's all i want.

Instead I'm trying to forget what I'm feeling, and am throwing a co worker his early b day.. (road kill cake and a card i made with all his fav stuff on it..)

Good things, good things.

2008-08-13T16:08:46Z

Ash moved to Vacaville with her lady friend! So last night Justin and I drove out there to go to El Azteca and have dinner with them. Holy crap it made me soo happy. Then we went to my moms house to steal peaches and surprise her.. I went into her room and she squealed that I surprise visited, and I did the whole "come out here I have something to show you!" and there was Justin, Ash and Brittney. My mom freaked. She had seen Brittney's pics on myspace, so was happy to meet her, and hadn't seen Ash in years. My mom loves her. And Justin. It was a great evening.

Today is my anniversary. I'm dressed up nice cuz a guy is coming in to interview for our office. He used to work for the enemy company. So exciting. I got my hair curled and my ballet flats on. Though I'd rather be in my pj's cuddling in bed right now.

<3 Love!

Spats.

2008-08-12T23:35:04Z

I am suddenly in love with the idea of spats. Was searching Etsy and got some really cute ideas. Must make some myself.

An hour ago, I became "that girl" (as the guy at Peet's called me) that took the company credit card, and was sent walking in the heat to get drinks for the office. I don't even know what I got. I just asked for anything cold, with extra caffeine, and carmel. meh.

_transmutation_ @ 2008-08-12T08:50:00

2008-08-12T15:54:45Z

Went to Great America again last night, so my Season Pass really has been paid off now. I love scaring the shit out of myself. I really freak out on those rides, but I tried 2 new ones last night and rode Top Gun... eer I mean.. Flight Deck, and The Demon both twice in a row, at nights.... Screaming at the top of my lungs. It was.. amazing. :)

50 karma on plurk (again) Yay!

I can't wait for the weekend. Tonight I'm going home and going straight to be bed. Tomorrow we have someone coming in for an interview, so I think I shall curl my hair again, like I had it this weekend. Tomorrow is also my 6 month anniversary. :) :) :) <3 I'm so very happy. (side note, I just looked up at my icon, and remembered how funny it really is.. haha. Loves it!)

Okay, off to do some work. This month is so draining on me. This weekend is sucking my energy already.

Theme for birthday party is also still in the works.

<3

_transmutation_ @ 2008-08-11T09:20:00

2008-08-11T16:29:59Z

Friday night I ended up hanging out with my roommate Nate, and some of our friends. Real low key. Played some liars dice, went to dinner, got some drinks, came home and played dominoes. The boys were all pretty bummed because of their friend dying that day. She was so young, and it was hard on them. I heard how she was a great person, I love my boys so much. I'm glad I have the time with them that I do.

Saturday I had the house to myself for a few hours, and watched a lot of The Girls Next Door, and Keeping Up With The Kardashians, as I taped up the prints I got made on SnapFish to the back of my door, and the wall that it connects too. It looks so amazing. All these prints, all my friends. Moments from the last few years, and some art.. I'm so proud of it. That evening I spent forever in the shower and then curling my hair so I would look lovely when Justin came home from vacation. :)

Friday night we went to dinner and drinks at Fudruckers, then saw Pineapple Express (Jason is the coolest for always giving us free tickets). Sunday we went to San Leandro to see their family friend and his wife in a play. It's been forever since I've seen anything (Intimate Apperal I believe) so it was nice to be back in the theatre world. If only for a moment, I can't wait to audition for School of Jesus Fish. I want it so bad. The show we saw yesterday was Earth vs. Altair. Based on some old sci-fi Ed Woods movie. It was supposed to be TERRIBLE and campy, so it was good. The old people right behind me left during intermission, which was good cuz I couldn't stand to hear their bitching anymore.

Right after the show we took off to Great America, where I bought my Season Pass. With the lack of lines it was so nice to scare the shit out of myself. Haha, I can't wait to go back. We had Indian food for dinner in Livermore, (mmm left overs are in the fridge here at work, yay lunch.

ugh, am I really going to have to go out and buy a copy of the play I want to use a monologue from? Why can't I find it online? grr.. Off to work lovelies! Any by work, I mean time to plurk. :)

Even if I try to ignore it... I know deep down what month it is...

2008-08-08T05:45:18Z

I can tell myself all year that it's just in my head, I'll be fine, it's just a month, it's just a week.. It's just 3 days. 3 simple days. Mid month... Nothing happens, it's all in my head.

But my body, my mind and everything I know in life know that all of that is true. It is in my head, and it is those 3 days. And that is the most terrifying thing. It's all true. It doesn't need to "make sense".... I went for a 30 min drive tonight.. Just cuz I needed to get out of the empty house, and I had a full tank of gas. I had to stop myself out of driving to places where I'd see people I knew... Yes it was almost 10 at night, and those places would be the homes of my old friends, boyfriends or adults I know in this area..

Sigh. Next month my medical coverage gets changed to an awesome doctors office in my town (and not fucking Hayward)... I'm going to try and talk to someone...

But, that's next month, and I gotta survive those 3 Aug days on my own.

oh and if ya'll end up reading this, I do still love and miss you.

School of Jesus Fish..

2008-08-08T04:10:07Z

I wrote an email to the writer of the play, and he sent me the full script for "School of Jesus Fish". I figured I should read it first before I decided if I can really make the commitment to audition. (for those of you that don't know, I'm terrible at auditions, but I can rock a call back anyday. lol)

I just finished reading the play, and I'm in love. I started off wanted to play Sam, but at the end, I think I like Fish... But who knows. I can feel for everyone of the characters.

It's a female heavy show (only 2 men, both doctors, since it's a female mental hospital) oh did I mention it was a female mental hospital?! Shit. I have to audition. I HAVE to. I read the show and cried cuz I know what they are talking about, so well.. I've been there, it's my passion.. and this show.. inspired me.

Now I need a monologue to work on for the next month so I am perfectly ready. and to save up gas money just in case i DO get in.

Love.

Happy Birthday (Soon) to me!

2008-08-07T02:32:57Z

My Mark Ryden art book came today.. Oh man it's beautiful! The shirt I bought of Whiskey Militia comes tomorrow... Aaand I bought a new phone today. I figured, it's my (early) birthday present to myself. My phone is about to crap out and I bought a really cheap crappy phone to replace it, but it sucks beyond belief. So I sucked it up and bought the most expensive phone I've ever owned.

Yep. I got it. It's adorable.

In other news, I stayed at my mom's last night. Drove there straight after work, to see my cousin Charlie, as he stopped there on his way moving up to Oregon. We ate dinner and drank beers and it was nice. I left for work at 6:30 am (Ugh soo early!) And got to town at 7:10... WAY too early! I got McDonald breakfast, something I love and haven't had in so long, as it reminds me of last year... But I tried an egg mcmuffin (with no ham) for the first time ever, and I'm in love. So good. :)

I miss Justin. He comes home Saturday night and I can't wait. Sunday we are going with his parents to see a family friend in a play, then to Great America to kiss on the ferris wheel. <3

Pineapple Express comes out tomorrow! Holla!

2008-08-05T15:51:40Z

I'm still suffering from the right side of my throat being swollen. Something that was never fully taken care of before I went on vacation, and I just pushed through it while out there... knowing I couldn't see a doctor if I wanted to.

So now I'm on some day time meds and feeling loopy. At work, still catching up on stuff I missed from the last 2 weeks.

Most of the time, I hate this yuppy world I work in. And would much rather move out to the middle of no where and start over.

bravo!

2008-08-05T05:02:16Z

Go view and vote for Rob Dario's design. It's up for voting on threadless.. I'm so proud. I'd love to have a design up for voting!

Support your artists. <3

back from vacation

2008-08-04T18:38:20Z

I'm back! I'm tan! I can wakeboard (well.. I'm learning, but I'm pretty good.. hehe) And I've blown through a bunch of Gossip Girl books (so addicted it's crazy)

I'm still tired but happy.

Ordered the hardcover Mark Ryden art book, Ushigi Circus (Mysterious Circus)AND my brother's robot for his birthday (well pre ordered it. He's so happy) My little brother is 21 years old. I feel old, and yet, very very happy. I took him to buy his first bottle of booze, I took shots with him and his friends... And I just bought him the present he really really wanted. Though I had to pull some strings. Oh and I've picked out my board and bindings. :)

After reading so much GG in 2 weeks, I've came to a random conclusion. I always thought I was B. I wanted to be S, but that's B's thing... she is just her... and wants to be S... But can't. After vacation, and this weekend and all this reading... I'm totally, honestly.. waaaay more of an S then a B. Though B will always be my favorite character.

I missed Shaft and Silvia's wedding, though I hope it was amazing and beautiful. I probably would of cried so hard. They are so perfect for each other. They make my happy.

Back at work, and currently I need to go order lunch. I want Indian food today!

Nate: Dying your hair? I thought you needed another girl to do that. It takes 2 girls to dye, right?

2008-07-17T05:01:49Z

dyed it all darker then it was (the ends were sorta redish.. somehow) and added a few streaks of lighterness. when i get back from vacation I'll add more streaks or make them red or blue or something I dunno yet.

Tomorrow I go to work, then straight to my moms, eat dinner, go to sleep, wake up Friday and head to Amtrak.

It's vacation time!

OH! I went shopping yesterday!

2008-07-16T17:14:28Z

So after hitting up Big Lots, and Target.. I went to Plato's Closet. I really hate clothes shopping, especially alone, for I have clothes shopping ADD. I can't focus.. But, it was a sales day, and ended up getting 3 shirts for $2 each.

- An old worn in gray material with a pirate skull and cross bones on it (not too cute, but it looked so warn in and comfy.. i wanted it)

- A gray one with some hot pink and like.. stars and a guitar on it.. the usual trendy thing.. I just loved the way it looked.

-And this awesome random T shit... it's gray.. and all over it says this weird saying about being free and something. But the print is the same picture over and over again on the background, in all black... but I know that picture.. it's ANGELINA JOLIE! specifically the picture that I used to think was the best one of her ever..
which I can't seem to find in google images anywhere!

She was younger, with the tan tube top on, arms crossed, eyes closed, hair flying.. She looked, happy. I used to have that picture everywhere as it was, and always will be my favorite.

It's a cool t shirt. No one will know that it's her probably, but I think that makes me even happier about it. Or maybe i was just a big fan girl growing up. For a while there I had every picture of her i could find on the internet saved to my computer AND printed out and on my wall... :) I was so obsessed. She is just so beautiful. SIgh.

Anywho I got cool t shirts.

"Our band name will be A Handful of Bacon, and a Pocketful of Sausages" "Yeaaah!"

2008-07-14T05:03:20Z

I have so much fun when I go home to Fairfield. After an eventful Saturday shopping and eating at Chris' sushi place, we did our normal late night 707 event. Drinking beers.

My mom, Andrew, Chris and myself, drinking beers (there was some tequila involved as well) chilling at the dinning room table until way too late at night. Making jokes, talking about life, and love... About art and how it's so subjective. The night ended with me crawling into Grandma's bed (she was staying at our aunts house) and ranting to my brother about Scene Queens and how I think they are the root of all evil in this world.

This morning was started with a big family breakfast, then my nap in Andrew's room while the boys played Portal. Today was Miles' birthday party at the new Nut Tree.. the set up was pretty bad, but once we got our bracelets it was great. Unlimited rides. Hell yeah. I think we rode that roller coaster at least 17 times, and the bumper cars almost as many. It was nuts.

It was a hot and sweaty day, but I am now back home, a little tanner, and a little worried about this packing business. I have so much to do before Thursday night when I go to Fairfield to stay the night. Now I'm off to finish some laundry and start my piles to pack. I have one carry on almost packed, and there really isn't any clothes in there.. I get 2... UGH. gotta make it work!

<3

I STILL have 80's music stuck in my head!

2008-07-12T01:05:41Z

Justin leaves for vacation in the morning. That's a whole week with no J-Mo.. before I head up there to meet him.

I cannot wait for vacation.

Tonight's agenda you ask?

Tuna helper (mm soo good) for dinner
Relaxing bath with a good book (either Gossip Girl "Because I'm worth it" or Sex with Kings)
Animal Crossing up the wazoo!
And just all around relaxing and spending quality time with the dog. :)
Oh and do all my laundry! Gotta pack stuff for vacation, and sell some stuff to Plato's Closet that I totally don't wear.

Nate called when he left for the weekend, he's seriously the best roommate ever, and such a good friend. :) He dragged me to Gabe's last night to drink beers with he, Sean and Dave. So much fun. Hanging with the guys, drinking beers and making fun of tv. I love those guys.

So stuck in my head

2008-07-09T15:37:33Z

Saw this preview last night when seeing Wall*E with my friends.. Oh man this preview makes me so happy. It is time for the uprising of the chihuahua! It will probably be super dumb, but c'mon... at least it looks adorable and cute. :) They are my favorite types of dogs.

Wall*E was great. so sweet, so sad.

I'm at work, and I'm so tired. I need to start sleeping better or this will kill me. I need coffee but grabbed a soda instead of making a pot of it here... ugh.

Need to sell some things to Tom Nook..

Crazy people skyping me at work!

2008-07-08T17:15:24Z

Random people from around the world skype me all the time while at work. I use it only when here, to talk to co workers. Mostly for jokes and sharing lolcats and failblogs and the constant dirty jokes that make work amusing.

Randomly people with skype me about cybering.. which is pretty upsetting.. or foreign words will be sent to me.. this is what this morning was like..

Their profile says they spoke French, and i looked up the first skype.. something about shackled.. when i googled the whole thing, it said something crazy. but no real answer so I decided to indulge my interests.. they didn't take it too far. How sad.

I still laughed. Obviously you are angry sir.. your emoticon is banging it's head on the wall..

Oh work. Better get back to it!