Take everything you can find in me

What's your frequency?

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 16:33:53 GMT

so i guesssssss I'll use my new journal.
hah. sorry i guess it's an addiction.

__stereotherapy

add me

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 03:22:51 GMT

so uh
;dsngsrbn.;lgf
and&&&&&&&&&(haha NOT) im gonna start camping out at church and staying their forever. and i met a black boy tonight, dos actually but i already knew collin.but ANTHONY.oh boy anthony is a hoot! He looks blacker than any negroe ive ever seen but his dad is white and he talks so white and ahhhhh i laughed and laughed and hugged and I got to talk to Kevin and listened to rap in his car.
ummmmmmmmmk43jl54......amazing.
hey i got a new journal and maybe i s hould use it or something. HA.
oh hey mom......
DIE
please
*la la la la lalalallala. i need sleep.and im not so sure if i wanna go to mill creek anymore. hey thanks ryan i love you ,you make me feel like im a million BUCKS.and thank you christi for letting me come to your house on the nights when all hell breaks loose. BOOM. tomorrow.seeing nick's band play cuz he is so gorgeousssssss.then blair's coming over then megans coming over after that then umm we'll find something to do.starbuks or something.agh i feel like im on speed. wait i wouldnt know. onlnnkkkkkkkjb
perfect.

We need new noise. Real art for real people.

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 00:31:25 GMT

"Yeah Katie, you seem to be truly happier nowadays."

Someone said that to me today.
Yeah I am happier.
And I did it all by myself.

This could be your once in a lifetime.

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 18:08:28 GMT

So yesterday I hung out with this girl.(long time no see,, it was really cool hanging out again!):

Then I hung out with this boy:

psstt. Blair has a cutteee smile.

that's blair and my eye.

that's me being awesome in a motorcycle helmet.

that's a poor african boy and a girl who can wear keychains in her ear. Blair pointed that hottie out.

yes It is a foghorn

well that would've been a good pic...haha. Hooray for my picture taking skills with one hand.
So after that, I went home, got hit on by some negroes in a white jeep.
yeah,,It was a great day.

my mouth hurts.

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 14:21:17 GMT

So I guess I'm doing that whole 'pushing love away" thing. Ya know, put your guards up or else this dude might actually think you like him. (insane,huh?) but I've always had the vision that if you let a guy know you have the least bit of interest in him,,he's gonna get freaked out for some reason and treat you like dirt. i dunno,you guys help me out here and gimme your thoughts.
and this is all due to some guy that was in my past and is gonna stay there. but unfortunately he has affected the way I act around other guys. And it's all stupid and Im sick of not taking chances. So sayanara, old ways, You're gonna see me showing my emotions from now on.
end.

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 12:30:35 GMT

Oh geesh.Lately, Ive been so incredibly happy, except at school,cuz school is stress+boringness and stupid people. but oh goodness I love church more than ever. And i think im going put puting with kayla and callie and natalie this weekend.im supposed to bring a date,who would like to accompany me? And im seeing Blair this weekend. and I have an octupus necklace that rocks my world. and I really feel im getting back to the basics and I feel like im breaking through some strongholds. There's a weird man in Cici's. Jesus is the best. I really hope you all know how much you mean to me I dont think i show it enough.and I appreciate all the nice comments and stuff<3 I talked to skot miller last night for a few minutes because mikey was wrapped up in wrap and we were standing there talking bout bananas and we talked about mykull. I like talking bout mykull because it makes my heart warm. like a cookie. Except cookies have been gross to me lately cuz i have had like 5. Im gonna blow up like a balloon. There are times when I really really miss him a ton and wish I could talk to him and hear him talk. Hey i have a feeling this weekend is gonna be big smiles everywhere. I hope so. It's really pretty and in a few weeks Im gonna skip school and go to the beach again! and then in about a monthand1/2 Im going to arizona, which will be amazing. Arizona smells nice. Im gonna be tan by the end of the summer cuz im going to so many sunny places ,oh im going to disney world too, and im gonna invite all the people who mean a lot to me over and we're gonna go camping in my front yard,and stay up all night listening to the songs that mean alot to us. then we'll go swimming.
hey who rememebers the XYZPDQ,,thing? :-)

so my spring break > your spring break

Sat, 10 Apr 2004 04:43:34 GMT

So went to florida with callie. fun stuff.

the coolest burger king.EVER.
goorgeeous.

this is callie. Look closely at what she hauked up from the 5th floor.

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And today. Went to mykull's grave / Had a dream about him last night. It was deffinitely a very peaceful dream I loved it. Me and christi went to a country place and ate, then played on the playground and burned an effing load of cd's..
Hopefully I'll be able to hang out with blair tomorrow. That would be much fun.<3

so sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick.

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 12:26:21 GMT

it was 7am. nothing to do,,

thank goodness for natural highlights

P.E. is boring. and there was an amazing umbrella.

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Wed, 31 Mar 2004 12:04:05 GMT

just forget me

it's that simple

i feel pretttyyyy

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 13:02:14 GMT

I heard hanson today.
and my pants are too big for me now.
go me.

i.need.you.so much c l o s e r

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 02:20:58 GMT

This
is about new starts.

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 21:23:49 GMT

so tell me what's something you'll always remember?

AND WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?

AND would you like to beat the living crap out of pinatas with me?

and why do we never wanna go home.but as soon as home leaves we get upset.

and why is ryan so good at making me sandwiches and being ryan?

and why is garrick so funny?

and why do I laugh so much?

and why am i on the computer on such a pretty day?

and why doesnt anyone cool live in my neighborhood so i could go outside and play manhunt?!?!?

I wanna go camping someone's front yard.with a stereo.who wants to come?

answer those questions or else<3

mykull punch

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 12:51:52 GMT

rememebr the emails,rememebr the conversations. remember eevrything you have learned from him
rememebr him when life's tough.
remember where your gonna be when this 5minute life is over.

Livejournal controls children in this society. I HATE YOU LJ.

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 12:38:51 GMT

This has to be one of the toughest times of my life. For 100 different reasons. Thank you guys.<3

Thank you so much for warning me about the evil beast SASQUATCH in your neighborhood<3

Tue, 23 Mar 2004 01:54:14 GMT

Mykull Punch,,
I remember he was the one who told me about the songs "Rough Draft" and "On the eighth day",and that Pearl Jam song and that smokey robinson song. I remember staying home just cuz he told me to so we could talk all day, I loved this kid.I remmeebr the bracelets that were magic and made him "non-shy"
We had plentty of long convos, I always knew I could come to him with anything. He always knew how to make my day a lot better. The all-nighter convos when we'd spill our hearts out about crap going on in our lives...I owe so much to mykull, just like in Perks Of Being A Wallflower, as they said " He introduced me to good music and my life changed after that." Mykull was the one who did that, he introduced me to a new start, to a new mind frame, to just good freakin music,and i owe so much to him. Im all shook up,but i needed to share this with you guys for some reason. I was so lucky to know this guy and there's no way he is going to be forgotten<3

Yo yo yo!!!!
I had to get a shot and I was promised by a certain someone, dont want to mention any names, *cough* YOU *cough*, that I would get an email this morning. I get home, and no email. I was hurt just so you know. Thank you for breaking my heart. We will discuss this later young lady.
Myke

You need to just be very mean and yell if you must to Joey. Or possibly try to get him and one of your friends together, then it would be their problem and not yours. Eh? By FAO Shwartz do you mean the one at the mall? They have some cute stuff I could by for the ladies for cheaper you say? Ha, anyway, I guess I will talk to you when you arrive from school.
With Turkey and Mashed Potatoes,
Mykull

I like the name George. I bet this fella is a hottie. I can tell just cuz of his name. So do you like the book so far? I personally enjoyed it, the movie i think is best but the book is absolutly marvelous. We will have to see what you think when you finish. I would love to rule the world with you and your penguins. However, only if I get to eat some of those cows of yours!! O!!!! GUESS WHAT!?!? I was watching this show last night, and it had these penguins, real ones that is. And I cant remember the name of the female penguin, i think it was Cloey, but the male was Milkdud!! I thought that was awesome. But they were in seperate cages and it was Valentines day and the two delivery guys that were bringing them to the zoo let Cloey into Milkduds cage and I saw it run across the screen and it was so cute, then you heard all these screeching and stuff and apparently the penguins were seperated for a reason cuz they did not get along. IT was funny none the less. Ahh, penguins, you gotta love them. Well, Im bored, Ill talk to you when you return from school. I hope you and George hook up.
Word,
Mykull

hello there my dear friend,
you seem very hyper. you come home early on the worst days ya know? i havea doctors appoinment today. i cannot believe your timing. but maybe i will catch you before i leave. last night i was suppose to call that girl at 7:30 and my sister got on the phone at 7:20 and didnt get off until 8:30 and she knew that i got the phone at 7:30. I was mad. But megan did not get mad at me luckily. i was pretty sure that was all it was going to take to get her on my bad side. You dont promise someone you will call then not call. That is rude, so i called my sister a whore. Normally she would tell but i lucked out. Anyway, Im tired. Im gonna have a nap before my class. TTYL!!!
Mykull MilkDud Punch

Indeed I do have a sister. She is 18. She also happens to be a royal pain in the arse!!! I certainly hope when you say your coming home early tomorrow you mean earlier than today. Cuz today wasnt early at all. You got my hopes up and tore me down. Lets not make this a habit pleez!! Ha, j/k. Well, actually pleez dont but you know what I mean. I dont have a Valentines goal. Well, I really want to hang out with megan but my teachers called my mother today and im failing every class but one. So that kinda got her in a bad mood and I am scared cuz she said we would talk when she gets home. I hate when people say "we need to talk"!!!! Thats always horrible. I hope you get your hug though. Tell George I said hello also. Did you know goth people scare me. Is george goth, or just his g/f. If you like him Im sure you can steal him from her. Just be careful, you will want to watch your back, she could try and pull some voo-doo nonsense karate chop thingy on ya.My shoes are E`s. They are a skate brand. They are black with some red on them. School spiritish, but I love em. About megan though, hmmm. I think I am falling for her again. Im really trying not to, but its hard. I kinda think Im fine just being by myself though. I dont really need anyone. Just if she happened to like me and wanted to be with me then I wouldnt be against it ya know? Ill have to do some thinking about it.I told her I would call her tonight. She said she wasnt mad about last night but she said she wouldnt hold her breath for me calling tonight. Grrr, that darn sister. And you know whats really bad?!?! She wasnt even talking to her b/f or anything, her old highschool teacher called her and they caught up on the recent gossip in each others lives or some crap. Im like, you freakin nerd. My phone call is slighty more important. Anyway who? I will talk to you on im now. Well I already am.
Mykull Stud Man Punch

Hey,
Maybe you should just give in and become preppy. Its not too bad, or maybe you could try a preppy rock thing. Parents? Why do they do the things they do? Well, things with Megan are very good right now. The note basically said she knows that she messed up and she could have been with the most amazing, sweetest guy (thats me incase you hadnt guessed) and she knows she would just have to try and understand if I didnt want to have anything to do with her, but she really wants a second chance and stuff. And I told her that i havent really been ignoring her or anything its just been a kinda sick time for me lately. So as dumb as it sounds its not you its me... Blah blah blah, stuff like that. But today I dont think she went to school and after I went to the hospital we did some text message exhanging for awhile, and I was gonna call her but I had a class so I said when my timing got a little better I would call her. But just so you can have a sample of one of her messages to me, it was like " I really want to be with you and I miss you and I wish you were back at school more than anything" stuff like that. So I am in a good mood. But I have to go eat cuz my dad is having a cow, so I will talk to you later...
Myke

Hey there,
How are you? Ummm, TBS, Refused, Juliana Theory, Unsung Zeros, and Keepsake are freakin awesome!!!!!! Uh, yeah! Word, well. I dunno what to say. How are things with you and Georgey Boy?!? Alright, Im outta questions and outta here, check out my signature thingy.
xMykex
xThe truth is you could slit my throat and with one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt.x

ahhh!!! I just wrote this email and accidentally clicked refresh. Things will come around with matt and george.... I never called Nikki. I dont know if I should or not. ya know, she doesnt look like she is 14. She is so freaking beautiful, and she looks like she is around 16 or 17. I can honestly that I really think she is hotter than Britney Spears, or Christina whats her face, or the Olsen twins. I would pick her over anyone any day. And not just cuz she beautiful, i talk to her, i dont talk to anyone really, but i talk to her and we have real conversations... I think she is perfect for me. And now that I just heard she is 15 that made my day. Ya know what, her name is cool too. Nikki, Nikki, Nikki, Nikki. I could say that all day.Hey, Im not fixing above, but I was close to her age thing. One year off on how old she looks and really is, isnt that something? Well later...
xMykex

Hey there,
I dont know if I emailed you or yet not about lately but you havent been on so I will fill you in.I talked to Nikki a lot yesterday. She sent me some pictures that she and her friend were taking. I think I already told you about that, I dunno? But in this one picture she is so pretty, the sun is coming through the window and shining on the side of her face and her head is kinda tilted to the side and she has this really cute smile. "Smile when I think about, no I cant live without it. Laugh, and go on about this all the time. Never have I felt this way, always will I be the same." Thats Unsung Zeros. I thought it kinda went with the situation. But anyways. Yeah, I think I like her. If you can tell? After awhile though our conversation started to die down. So I just went ahead and asked if she would ever go see a movie or something with me. She said, and I quote..."Yea! of course" Notice the "of course" yep she said that. Haha, anywayz. Im going to my friends house today and we are gonna put some music and lyrics together. Then we are meeting some chics at the mall at 3. Normally that would be excited, but if ya havent noticed I have my eye on someone. I am looking HOT, so Im sure I will get hit on ya know? But trust me, I can resist. Anyway, tell me whats going on with you. Later....
xMykex

Yo! I dont have much to say. Whats going on with you? Why are you going to dump him? Fill me in chica, give me some details....
Well, I dont think Megan and me are friends anymore. She got mad because I dont like her anymore and yesterday she started bitching to me. I paid no attention to her though. It was pretty funny. Then out of nowhere she started describing the type of guy she wants, and she pretty much gave hints to my sisters b/f. I found that humorous. Then she asked me what type of girl I wanted. (It was weird cuz all of a sudden she started talkin to me like a friend)... But I said one that doesnt expect anything from me and keeps her mouth shut. Thats not true but I was trying to be mean so she would leave me alone. After that she did.
So now, as my friend Dave would say, "I am crush-less". Hmm, I like having someone to think about. Oh well. My friend Joe actually told me about this girl Jamie though, and she thinks Im a cute and stuff.... Yeah, she wants me! haha, I couldnt blame her though, j/k... But she was this girl at the mall when I saw How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days... I dont really remember her, but I remember that all the girls that were there were pretty cute, so yeah. But Joe thinks I should talk to her cuz he has gotten to know her better since he is dating another girl that was there and they are all friends and all. I dunno though....

I got some news today that this kid that Stuart and Dave know is gonna take pics of us and make us a website. He is really good at making websites too. Stuart sent me a link, and this kid starts from scratch and when he is done it looks like a Taking Back Sunday or Rufio website ya know? There is no pop-ups, and its a .com thing so its not under angelfire or anything lame.I thought that was cool though...
Write/back...
xMykex

Hey you!!

I dont have much to say, so this wont be nearly as long as your email. But yeah, talking on the phone with you was pretty interesting, even though you barely talked!!!!!(haha) And I still disagree with the whole never making out being a good thing, but Ill go with it for awhile... Hmmm, Ill email a longer one later, my brain isnt really "on" right now...
xMykex
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mkonghfdhvhbdfgsdfgedsfpg....WAITTTTTTTTT.

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 12:17:26 GMT

uh oh.

"I am anti-infomercial". ::downing pills and drinking booze::

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 00:55:43 GMT

Oh wizzzow. I dont think I have ever laughed as hard and as much as I did this weekend. So much fun this weekend. Seeing Ryan is good. He's sucha great guy. And mary,,oh goodness. mary golden...she downed herself and slit her wrists!! That's what infomercials will do!!!beware! haha oh goodness. Wow i met cute boys this weekend. I punched a fat guy. Did you ever think you'd really be this lucky when you were a kid? I mean goodness. and did you ever think you'd have a livejournal and be posting pictures and be everyhting you are today? I like Emery. And I like when Chris comes to my school and I get to ride in his little red car. Chris is cute,he makes me smile. Some people really make me happy, and everyone else is just making me tired and sad. So what's up with our little group fading away, hating each other. especially at the end of the year, I mean are we really gonna leave like this? I dont really care anymore though, I have the people I care about the most coming with me to Mill Creek.Ah im so excited about making new memories, meeting new people, getting away from faggets le lanier.
I got one word for you:
ARIZONA!!!!!!! oh my goshshshshshshs i can barely hold in my excitement.
I got a sewing machine and sewing machines make me happy.

hey just so everyone knows; I lie to everyone everyday.but for their sake. and because of my confusion. and I'm getting real tired.exhausted actually.<3
Just give me one night in the parking lot.

hehehehe

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 23:53:36 GMT

well. well. well.
and what do you suppose we are going to do about this

Falllling For Youu

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 01:41:03 GMT

that's right. pUmp it up

I like being at christi's,and jumping on her couches.

This is Christi. Watch Christi be rebellious and pick flowers out of people's garden.

This is us looking like pop-stars.

I also hung out with this little lady this weekend.

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pretty boys <3

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summer lovinnn happened so fassstt

Mon, 08 Mar 2004 14:11:43 GMT

WOW
my life feels like the ending of a movie.ya know the ending where everything is like a turn around in the persons life and they are happy and you know something big is about to pop up in their live's and go SURPRISE!!!!and you know that whatever happens after the movie credits, you know that they will be happy anddddd WOOHOO i <3 my weekend.I loved Dirty Dancing but it made me uncomftorable and he had scrawnylips. EW who wants a guy with scrawny lips? Wow you guys it is GORGEOUS outside and it makes me really happy and in a good mood 24/7, hey let's all go play outside. I gotta haircut. BAM.

"how are you?" "GOOD GOD!!!!!!" :-)

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 13:17:14 GMT

hisher0ine: katie is innocent!
hisher0ine: in a spice girl way

HEY YOOO GUYYSSS GUESS WHAT?!
i love you.
but um, also,,do you remember when I used to do my entries in a bunch of rambles. Well im'a gunna do it again!
I have plans this weekend with very cool people Im excited.
George isn't apart of my life anymore and that makes me sad.
Neither is kristen.Neither is blair.
IT SMELLS LIKE SUMMER!
IT'S ALMOST SUMMER!
and we alll know what that means!
sitting on grass,picnics, shopping, music parties!, going to arizona! meeting hot boys in arizona(cuz everything's hotter In the AZ!) hehe
and spenging the night somewhere else every night, and did i mention going to arizona! and going to Florida with all the high schoolers that we never see at church.annoying little ministry. ANYWHO.
and going to florida with my family. and and and the beach. and the smell of summer. oh oh and going to lake lanier and looking smashing in everyone's new bathing suits that make you go WOOO WEEE. and having people over every day and having more freedom and jumping on trampolines and watching the stars and falling in love,and having -4444 stress off your shoulders.
yeah that's exactly what summer means.
oh hey you guys, im not letting any of you guys leave me in the summer. Im not letting any friendships go down the drain.Im not seeing my friends slip away.
Oh i went through my old journals.oh goodness i was so nice. and now im all "rarrr!!!^&%" Well not really but kindov.I actually kinda like that immortal song. WOW it really smells like summer. I cant wait until tonight, or tomorrow, and then monday and then tuesday.hehehehe.
hey i love you bye.

I promise that I'll run away with you.

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 00:58:21 GMT

curly fry. I have been going through an 80's fetish phase. I got the Smiths cd and the cure cd but the The Cure is just amazzzinggg. Oh um I fell in love with a drummer,he can sing and play guitar too.tooo baddd. Have you ever thought about nightmares. i think right before we hit the line of concious and sub-concious we have a flashback of our life then hit sub-concious and that's why we have weird dreams sometimes,because we are reminded of everything we can't remember. I bet our brain remembers everything we ever knew,saw,touched,felt, but our mind just can't recall it. I really think some people treat the people they love the most like crap because,as the saying goes, "we accept the love we think we deserve." I think that's the reason people leave,, I really do. Because people will love you so much and as soon as you realize the love you flee from it. I really wish people wouldn't be so cruel. Hey who wants to come see Dirty Dancing with me Saturday? Wow I saw Passion and it put me on a whole different level with Jesus. And I'd love to see it with everyone I care about because there's an emotion that goes through the theater that only the ones in the theater could share and i think it'd be awesome to experience that with the people i care about. I really kinda like my hair flipped out.

So yea, I was gonna take a picture of me smiling for Chris but uhhh I just couldn't take a good pic because it's hard to have a good smile when there's nothing to smile for at the moment. That's why I hate just posing for pictures and such but I like the pictures of me truly smiling and you can always tell the difference when I'm really truly smiling and when I'm just smiling for the pic. So I went out found some stuff that makes me truly truly smile. These are the times and people that make me smile.I hope it will make you guys smile too.

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Hey let's be lovers.

Sat, 28 Feb 2004 03:27:21 GMT

So where do we go from here?

Do you ever miss it???

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 12:23:13 GMT

And I sware,,
In that moment

We were infinite

You would kill for this,,just a little bit.

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 02:06:27 GMT

Dear Jesus,
Thank you for good weekends, good friends, and dancing in pants. Thank you for donnie darko, thank you for laughter. Thank you for callie being callie and for tony's pager.Thank you for people who are just plain out nice, who will take the time to just introduce themselves,and just be a nice person. It's good to know that there are still people out there like that.Thank you for role models.
Thank you for Nick's angel face and angel eyes and angel voice. gigglygiggle. Thank you for Kevin being amazingly kevin and amazingly the best. Thank you for amazingly cute fun boys with pretty faces that make me feel pretty.Thank you for being there and showing me that it's not you who moved, but I who did the hiding. Thank you for music. Thank you for big big big hugs. Thank you for everything you do that I just shove aside,asking for more.Thank you for forgiving me from lust,cussing,and just flat out disgracing you. Thank you for hope, thank you for amazing courageous people. thank you for never leaving.