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[15 Jul 2004|07:14am] |
Hey Everyone.
I wont be using this L/J name anymore.
I changed it to ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) truely_unique
I only added a few people who I thought were interested in even reading my journal.
Go check and see if I added you and if I did please add that name back and comment to let me know, ALSO, if I DIDNT add you and you ARE interested in reading my journal comment and add me and I will be glad to add you back.
THANK YOU ALL!
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[13 Jul 2004|05:20am] |
oh my..
my periods are crazy. I just had a period 13 days ago.
Now I have it again.
I should have stayed on the birthcontrol.
Birth control makes me sick to my stomach.
So I have to choose between irregular and PAINFUL periods, or being sick to my stomach..
what should I do.
I hate both equally
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[11 Jul 2004|07:49pm] |
Ok I got some pics for you. There are some of me and kids at the daycare, and then I have some of little Johnathan. The one with meningitis.
( Enter at your own risk )
You know I bought The Believer with Ryan Gosling, and he looks like identical to my sisters ex-boyfriend who is now a male stripper. Umm.. I normaly dont go for skinny boys but Ryan is an exception. Damn.. Hes sexy// You know. I really dont like one certain type of guy. I think some black guys are hot, some hispanic, some white, and some indian. I have NEVER liked an oriental. They are usually all too short lol. I like guys taller than me thanks.
Oh the Funny thing about Ryan Gosling is I have thought he was hot for YEARS... and YEARS.. lol.
( Ryan Gosling. )
Goodnight
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[11 Jul 2004|10:29am] |
I was talking to April yesterday, and I was like "this might sound wrong but I am going to say it anyway" and she said "ok" so I said "I think I would have been a better mom than someone.." and she was like "probably".
I still sometimes wonder why God took my babies and let all these other dumb 15 year old girls who cant even take care of themselves have babies.
Why does God let these women who just throw their babies away have them.
Within the past 2 months in Colorado, there have been I think it was 4 babies found in trashcans, and closets and stuff.
Why does God allow them to carry those babys full term so that they can kill them, or throw them away.
Quite frankly it pisses me off.
Then there are stupid asses who do drugs, and drink and smoke and crap fully knowing that it could be hurting their baby, but do they care of course not.. Does God let them have babies of course.
If I even had the suspicion of being pregnant I would stop doing all that crap.
I did everything right in my pregnancy.
I took my vitamins, I obeyed doctors orders, I ate healthier.
OH well. I will live Sorry for the rant.
So, on the 17th my mom and dad are taking me to look at cars.
And in like a month the roommate is moving out and I am going to move in with my sister and bro-in-law and little rebecca.
Well. Yeah.. umm..
I bought 4 movies yesterday. I bought The Believer, Monster, In The Bedroom, and Antwone Fisher. I fell asleep watching The Believer cause it was 2 in the morning, and I LOVED Monster, its so sad I cried like a lot. You all should see it. You need to see Antwone Fisher, thats a REALLY REALLY good movie. umm. Dont bother seeing In The Bedroom. It was so boring and there were senes that really didnt make ANY sense and there was no music or anything. I would tell you if the believer is good or not but I didnt see it all the way through .
Well goodbye.
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[09 Jul 2004|11:44am] |
I just found out that my friends baby has meningitis (sp).
Hes only 3 weeks old and it has already affected his brain and he has brain damage.
It may not be permanent but could.
Please pray for that family.
I will post pictures of him when I get my camera to work.
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[09 Jul 2004|08:54am] |
wow. I dont know what to do.
My sister April and I were talking about my little sister Kathi.
We dont know what to do. We are scared.
She doesnt care about ANYTHING anymore, not even herself.
Shes getting violent.
She burnt some of my kittens whiskers off and used the excuse, I lit it and the kitten tried to sniff it.. Yeah.
Then how did the ones above her eye get burnt off?
It makes me so mad.
I really think she needs to be sent away or something.
She is going to end up hurting someone or something very badly and no one will do ANYTHING about it.
My moms like, oh she'll be ok.
Blah blah.
I told her that she doesnt care about anything and she went and told kathi shewas going to make another doctors appointment and kathi was like "no. I dont care" and my mom doesnt want to admit theres something wrong with her and it drives me insane.
Shes going to end up killing herself, or an animal or hurting me or something.
Really it makes me mad.
I am afraid to leave her here. she might hurt the animals while I am gone.
I mean I have seen her pick my kitten up by just her head, or hold her upside down by her back legs.
You can not tell me that that is not down right cruel.
She doesnt have a heart.
SHE DOESNT CARE.
Please pray for my family and her..
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[06 Jul 2004|11:04pm] |
I am tired of people who make promises and dont keep them.
I remember specifically talking to Andrew and he said "Do you approve of me?" and I said that he would have to promise me one thing before I would approve, and he did.
The promise was that he would not hurt my sister.
Guess what he is doing.. I think you got it.
He is NEVER around. He is always with Quin.
What Quin wants is what goes.
If Quin wants to go smoke pot, Andrew goes.
If Quin wants to go party and get drunk, Andrew goes.
The stupid Andrew is like "Oh I will come home"
Never shows up we sat there at the bus stop FOREVER and he wasnt on the bus when it showed up.
Well I dont feel good.
I have sharp pains all through my lower abdomen and lower back.
I can hardly sit here without pains.
I got all upset cause I just talked to Andrew and chewed him out.
I am tired of people I might go to the er tonight if these dont go away..
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[06 Jul 2004|07:42pm] |
Ok I have TONS!!!! of pics!
( Work )
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[05 Jul 2004|09:26am] |
If you woke up this morning with more health than
illness, you are more blessed than the million who won't survive the week.
If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony
of torture or the pangs of starvation, you are ahead of 20 million people around the world.
If you attend a church meeting without fear of harassment,
arrest, torture, or death, you are more blessed than almost three billion people in the world.
If you have food in your refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof over your head and a place to sleep, you are richer
than 75% of this world.
If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace, you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.
If your parents are still married and alive, you are very rare, especially in the United States.
If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful, you are blessed because the majority can,
but most do not.
If you can hold someone's hand, hug them or even touch them
on the shoulder, you are blessed because you can offer God's healing touch.
If you can read this message, you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world that cannot read anything at
all.
You are so blessed in ways you may never even know.
This blessing will only keep working if it is continuously passed around.
If you are a recipient of a blessing, keep the blessing working by being the source of blessing to other people.
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[05 Jul 2004|12:13am] |
SOK- Made Perfect
The girl you see in the mirror isnt who I see
when I look at you I see reflections of me.
you dont like your face,
you you paint over my masterpeice.
You hide your face,
So you hide my face
and failed to believe
That I made you the way that you would be most beautiful
And I planned you way before the universe was formed,
When you tried to change yourself
It only makes me cry
I dont know why
You try to make better what I made perfect.
You want more attention
So you uncover your skin,
Just to fit in
You think Boys are the answer
Well I was a boy once too and I love you more than they do
I made you the way that you would be most beautiful
And I planned you way before the universe was formed,
When you tried to change yourself
It only makes me cry
I dont know why
You try to make better..
I made you the way that you would be most beautiful
And I planned you way before the universe was formed,
When you tried to change yourself
It only makes me cry
I dont know why
You try to make better what I made perfect.
Oh HAHA
I have been talking to this guy.
soldierstyle2400: hey angel! its me daniel. i wanted to let u know that i leave to the field today for about 30 days w/o any contact. i wanted you to know so u don't think i'm trying to ignore u. with lots of love and God Bless, PVT Daniel
soldierstyle2400: p.s. i love your pics!!!
Ha he barley knows me. I met him in a Christian chat room.
Hes in the Army. MUAHA
Ok I got picsfor you all to see.
I had a blast tonight.
Went with April and Alex's to Ricky's house.
Well Ricky and Johns house.
Umm.
Yeah. It was funny I was eating and their dog started beggin.
Then there were fireworks and the dogs were flipping out and when they were done John started singind "they are all over now baby. they are all over now baby." to the tune of "happy birthday to you". hehe
Oh boy Ricky so amused me. Hes just all calm, and laid back and nothing seems to fase him.
John on the other hand amused me cause hes all uptight and a worry wart. lol
Well here are pics.
( Pics )
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[04 Jul 2004|06:43am] |
So yesterday.
April wanted to take me to go get her hair cut and then she talked me into cutting my hair.
I cut it short.
Then we went to Ross and I got a new outfit.
( PICTURES )
What do you all think. I dont look 15 anymore YAY
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[03 Jul 2004|08:35am] |
| My Best Friend is armywife | | Our 28 common interests are: armed forces, art, blue, boy shorts, candy, chicken, christmas, clothes, concerts, cuddling, dogs, family, flowers, freedom, god, hearts, hoodies, hugs, kissing, love, money, morals, music, photography, purses, romance, shopping, water | Who is your best friend?
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[02 Jul 2004|10:30pm] |
an angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth, and whispered as she closed the book 'too beautiful for earth.'
~Unknown
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[02 Jul 2004|08:49am] |
Stolen from mommykrysis
A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
::Girl hugs him::
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. 2 people were on it, but only 1 survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
If there is anyone in life you love this much, please repost this.
Everytime I read this I cry. Its sweet and sad at the same time.
Gah.. I am So SICK AND TIRED of guys who are JERKS
Dumb Andrew was like "I'll do something with you tonight"
Then he stays the night with Quina nd some Ricky guy..
Then he says "I'll be home in the morning to go to Elitches".
Well didnt do that either.
Then Kathi wanted to spend time with him last night and he had to rush off to go to his friend Peters house.
So I get a phone call, and its Quin wondering where andrew is.
I was like thinking "why is he calling MY phone for Andrew.
So I let them talk, and Andrew gets off and says "Oh that was Peter".
I am like "Peter yeah right, how would Peter have my phone number?"
His lame excuse was "well Quin and Peter are friends, so I guess Peter called Quin".
I was like "Yeah then why did you say 'did YOU guys start without me'?"
He then gave up his lying and said "do you know how many (I dont know that word he used) are on (something else I dont know)".
So Quin was there and Andrew was trying to hide it.
So Why is it that andrew can lie to Kathi about haning out with her but when she askes him to just lie and spend time with her hes like "Oh but that would be lying I cant do that"
Hes a dumb shit head. (excuse the language.)
Damn guys who lie.
Damn guys who cheat.
Damn guys who are jerks.
I HATE GUYS.. maybe I will go lesbian.
No I wouldnt really. I just hate guys who hurt me or my sisters.
I wish there were more good guys out there.
I miss Quin a little bit but I dont want to cause in all reality he was really just a selfish jerk.
I know the real reason he broke up with me was because I told him I dont think we should have sex.
[RANT]You know what I DONT CARE.
I DONT CARE WHAT ANYONE THINKS ANYMORE.
I ONLY CARE ABOUT WHAT GOD THINKS AND THATS THAT.
PEOPLE CAN LAUGH AT ME, OR MOCK ME.
I DONT CARE.
I KNOW WHERE I AM GOING WHEN I DIE DO YOU?
Its heaven or hell.
I hate the thought of anyone going to hell.
I have thrown up 3 times thinking about Quin going to hell and it really truely breaks my heart.
I sometimes just want to die cause in a sense I feel selfish knowing that I am going to heaven.
I am going to be where there is NO PAIN AT ALL.
NO CRYING.
NO HEARTBREAKS.
NO HUNGER.
NO DYING.
I am going where I will have a beautiful mansion.
I am going to walk on streets of GOLD.
I am going to have a crown that I get to lay down at the feet of Jesus.
I am going to live FOREVER in a place where theres no more hurt or grief.
And then there are those who keep rejecting God.
They are going to go to hell.
They are going to burn in an eternal fire.
In the Bible it says that its a place of eternal fire, gnashing of teeh, torment and pain.
Why would someone even want to take a chance at not believeing in God.
And I HATE that though.
I dont want ANYONE not even my own worst enemy to go to hell.
You all will probably think I am crazy, but I dont care,.
I love everyone and I want everyone to come to heaven with me.
I am tired of throwing up because of Quin and Andrew and all of my friends, cause I love them all so much and I dont want them to go to hell.
I have been worrying myself SICK for ever thinking about people going to hell.
[/end rant]
I love you all!
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[29 Jun 2004|10:39am] |
WoW. No one is on right now.
Hmmm.
I guess Tim is coming over today or something??
I have no clue.
I guess I am going to go to Elitches Thursday with Andrew, Kahsim, Tim, Kathi, and Angela.
I was talking to Kahsim last night and he was CONFUSING me. lol
The reason why was I was talking about Britt and he was talking about Kathi.
Growl .
I have known Tim since he was 12 that makes 4 years.
WoW. There are a lot of people I have known for a long time.
This guy Chris (i have NO clue how to spell his last name) Galusha?? for like 6 maybe even 7 years, and I knew about him a long time before I ever even met him.
I guess thats what happens when I like in the same neighborhood my WHOLE life. lol
Then there was this guy Chase, who one time bent me backwards over some shopping carts and started humping me when I was like 11 and I got mad and threw orange soda all over him.
And i "went out" with his brother Josh for like a day.. lol
MY sister april had the BIGGEST crush on their older brother Trey.
HmMmMmMmMm...
Then theres this girl Stacey and we ALWAYS got in trouble when we were around, and now she wont ever talk to me anymore.
Then theres this girl named Kendra I have know for a long time, and I heard she has aids cause she has slept around a lot and that she has had like 2 or 3 abortions, which makes me sick to my stomach.
Can I just say, I love Dharma and Greg. I laugh a lot when I watch that show lol.
I wnat to move out. But I would never be able to support myself.
I hate my job, but I am going to save up money, for a car. I just wish I was getting paid more so that I wouldnt have to save for so long.
Well I am done.
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[28 Jun 2004|06:58pm] |
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
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[26 Jun 2004|12:59pm] |
OH BTW I will probably go on anti-depressants cause my mom thinks I need then cause I am depressed like all the time.
So we will see.
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