I have been sitting here for a half an hour updating my blog with everything and anything wonderful. I got excited when the next song from my playlist came on, and my finger spazzed and hit a key that deleted the entire thing. I want to cry. Fuck that.

Okay - I'll attempt to start over. Disregard what I just told you.

I'm in a fantastic mood. I slept in until 10:00, which is unnaturally late for me. I feel like I wasted the day.

I have on a Hartland Soccer sweatshirt, my red sweatpants that I live in, and my hair is in a greasy ponytail. But guess what? I'm pretty anyway. It's a high self esteem day. And I'm in a "me mood". But I guess that's better than one of my self loathing fits where I fish for compliments and cry at random moments. Yes, I think we can all agree this Emily is better.

Weekend mornings make me so happy. I don't know why. I'm up early, and I just have coffee and read or do sudoku. I never turn on the TV. Sometimes the radio, but not even that, usually. It's going to be a good day. I can tell.

I'm going to do my DBQ, finish reading the perks of being a wallflower, and clean up the rest of my room. I think that sounds like an excellent day. For lunch, I'm going to have soup and french baguette. Then I'm going to make dinner for my family, because I'm fucking domestic.

Yesterday I talked to Carly. I miss my cousins and I miss the cottage. All of my cousins, not just ACE. Ryan has a job now, so he's busy and I never talk to him. But I love his girlfriend. She calls me 'cousin Emily' and it makes me very very happy. Kelly is getting married in July. I get to bring my boyfriend (he'll meet EVERYBODY) and wear a pretty dress. I love the Jensens.

My grandparents are home. I couldn't be happier. I love my grandparents. They rock.

Over this school year, I've lost touch with Kenny Chesney and the rest of my country. I got sucked into showetunes and stuff. Now I have my Kenny playlist going (Everything from Greatest Hits to The Road and the Radio). God damn. There are so many memories attached to these songs. I want to cry and laugh and jump around and dance. The song playing right now makes me think of sitting in the trailer park in my dad's car, drunk as shit, and Nikki going "GOD DAMNIT! DO YOU KNOW HOW GOOD IT WOULD FEEL TO GO UP TO SOME GUY AND JUST HUMP THE SHIT OUT OF HIM? ahhh!"

She might get mad at me for putting that in here. I think it's funny.

Speaking of Nikki, KMK needs to be done now. Wales, I know you really like her, but you're going to have to share now that the show is over. She was mine first, and as much as you don't want to hear it, she likes me better. So I get first pick NikkiandEmily time. Sorry buddy, that's the way it works.

Last night, I called Ashley to see if she wanted to do something. By the time I woke up and remembered, I was already at the movies. I didn't get her voicemail until I got out, and now I feel really bad. I suck.

I saw Ice Age 2 with Micah, Jeff and James and...Kerry? Yeah, Kerry. Cute movie, I loved it. Then I went to Little Chef with James Jeff and Micah and we ate brownie things with the money my dad gave Naughton. I came home and slept forever.

Good dance week.
Monday: 4-9.
Tuesday: 4-530.
Wednesday: 4-?. (Hol and Al are in Kansas, I'm sure I'll be teaching something)
Thursday: 4-8.

Teacher's retreat: May 25-27. So excited. But I can't go to the cottage. Not like it mattered, anyway...

May rocks:
May 5 - CF run.
May 12 - Prom. If somebody doesn't ask me, I'm taking Dan Baiter.
May 18, 19, 20 - Shows.
May 25-27 - Teacher's Retreat.
May 29 - Memorial day.
May 31 - David's 18th Birthday.

Yippy skippy!


x07QueenofHearts: Did you see KMK?
WiNgEdLoBsTeR55: Yes. Nikki gave me chills.
x07QueenofHearts: I KNOW.
WiNgEdLoBsTeR55: Her singing is immaculate.
x07QueenofHearts: That's the first play she's been in without you (since you guys met), right?
WiNgEdLoBsTeR55: Correct.
x07QueenofHearts: Did the pit band make you want to die?
WiNgEdLoBsTeR55: I slit my wrists only a couple times.
x07QueenofHearts: Better than I did.