05:56 am
I just finished watching the DVDs Cat let me borrow and now I am in tears and have been for almost an hour. I have not cried since the time at JP's party I cut my left arm, but I cried not because I was in physical pain. I hid that cut with a lie, but I could lie to the one woman I loved. I tried, but I could not I was still so much in love with that girl. She called me to sit beside her and I did, but as soon as I looked at her I could feel the tears coming. I had hurt her. Something I never wanted to do. As a man I held my tears as long as I could, but quickly found myself crying on her shoulder. I kept saying how sorry I was and she replied everytime with, "You're still here, Chris. That's all that matters." I still felt bad and in someways far worse about the thing I had done, but those words... They some how made me smile and feel truly needed in this world. She was and is still right. The DVDs she lent me made reflect on that memory. It is one I hold truly close to my heart and shall try dearly to never forget.
The Lost Angel
The Lost Angel
