Welcome to my Nightmare

JENNY'S (not so) EXCITING SUMMER!

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 22:02:12 GMT

Well, now that summer is slowly coming to an end. I guess it's time for an update.

Summer started off rather well. Went to prom, graduated, and got a job. Good sense of accomplishment, all was well.
But, because it is summer, I've been scheduled to work every day, about a 10 hour shift. During these long grueling hours at burger king, I realized how horribly this place is run, and that closing a kitchen by yourself on busy days is really frustrating! I also came to know my co-workers, and how much they suck. lol. It is true, most of them are old and toothless that never made it past grade 8, and a lot of them seem to be related, scary. As much as I hate the lovely B.K lounge, it paid my tuition and my tattoo! (took 4 nad a half hours to do, and Codey came with to hold my hand. lol.)

and I have some to spare. Which is good, because I gave my two weeks notice in on Wednesday, so I’m out on the 30th? I'm just counting down the days. (Don’t think low of me for quitting! I'm not quitting just because I hate it there, I have my reasons.)

Unfortunately, I have not partied nearly enough. I went to Erin's lovely new place twice to drink, and that’s about it. So bummer in that section of the summer.

I also found summer love. Kinda like Greece, but nearly as romantic. He's my next door neighbor’s son, and he’s like one of those really into drugs little white boys who thinks there black but with slightly better speech. I thought I'd try something new, it’s good for comic relief, and some free weed! lol. But sadly when summer is over, he leaves to go home with his mommy once again. Then I will be left to explore the world of ... Collage boys. ohlala! (More like community collage boys, but you see my fun either way)

Oh, I’m also getting a puppy! Well, she's my mom’s puppy. Her name is Rayne (a name I don't enjoy) and she will be part of out family in a few more weeks.

Let’s see, what else is there. Oh yes, I went to the NOFX show. Oh, that was brilliant. Crazy fun, I moshed, got covered in burses which I bare with pride, and I listened to great music. There were a shit load of bands there, it started at 4 and I didn't get home until 12ish. I was surprisingly and disappointingly not intoxicated. I was very disappointed in myself, but I still had fun. Even Ed was there, which was amusing to see, the more the night went on, the more bruised injured and intoxicated he got. Always fun to see.

The last thing I did this summer was go up to see my great grandmother, she turns 90 this year. It’s crazy. It wasn't the most exciting outing this summer, but it's still neat to her old people stories about raising kids with no power, and in her case, living in a light house!

And that’s all folks! Not to bad, not to great. But it was good. I hate to say it, but I can't wait for school to start!

Damnit all

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 22:27:45 GMT

Do you know what today is? Today is 4/20; pot day
I CAN"T BELIEVE I FORGOT ABOUT POT DAY!

So

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 04:16:07 GMT

...I bought a dress

Sleep

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 04:48:52 GMT

I wish it was warmer out, just so I could leave,
Just run away
For an hour
For a night

maybe, just to clear my head...

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 03:26:19 GMT

I realise today, after I got my grad pictured done that I really do look like a crack whore. Permant dark circles, pale complection, dark almost greesy looking hair. No wonder I get weird looks when I stand at a bus stop. I thought maybe it was because I'm pretty, but I maybe they really just think i'm stoned outa mind.
I looked in the mirror after I put my pjs on, even now i look like a whore. Big knee socks, Shapeless, lacey, short night dress, messy hair, and I know I reak of sex. It just adds to it.

This all amuses me, I think it would suck to look so normal. . . (I don't really look like a freak either)

Random

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 00:42:37 GMT

Ever have those songs that just randomly pop in your brain? I just had an odd one. . *peanut, peanut butter and jelly. Peatnut, peanut butter and jelly. First you take the peanuts and you crush em, you crush, you crush em crush em crush em. . . .*

this reminds me of every time I see the mail man, I think of the post man pat song.

Best fucking christmas present ever!

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 18:08:35 GMT

Okay, this is seriously the best thing in the world!

Thats right!! NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS BED SHEETS!

I got lots of other things too, like a leather jacket paint brushes and a few other things that arn't as cool as my bed sheets!! weeeeeeee

Feelin Fine

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 18:26:02 GMT

Everything seems to be going rather good about now. Its wonderful!

I'm haveing the best times with Codey. Everythings fine, greatly in love with him. Silly feeling, but wonderful. (btw, hes back in school)

Relationship with friends isn't bad either. I loves my Erin, but the rest of us are a little distant. But the times we are together is lots-o-fun!

NSCC stuff all signed, filled out, and sent away with a transscript and all. Just gotta wait for a letter from them.

It snowed last night. Was out in it, slid down a hill on my ass lol. Hopefully playing in it today before the rain will take it away.

Yes, life is good, hope I didn't jinx it. lol

Just for Clayton

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 18:19:30 GMT

Alright Clayton. Here is the boy that reminds me of the way you would look and such.

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 03:38:56 GMT

Seems like I only update when I"m feeling shitty. Sorry about that, but whatever, I think I need to get it out.

So the love of my life just failed his first semester and is not aloud to go back to school untill next semester. How did he fail, cause he just didn't go to school, missed a good amount of classes.
My reaction feels way to extream for this, I'm just really dissapointed. I had plans for us, now i'm not so sure that it can happen at all. He wont graduate with me. I'm going to be off to NSCC and hes still going to be stuck in high school. I have plans for the future, and he just doesnt care about his. Hes doesnt seems dissapointed about this at all, to him its like yay, I don't have to go to school in the morning.

I hate so much that people were right, and that I was so wrong. I guess he didn't really grow up as much as I thought, I guess hes not more responsible.
Its just ahhh. I don't know why, but it was just soo important to me that he passed. Its silly really. I think I'm just thinking to far ahead for my own good, or maybe not. After high school isn't that far. Its just after this is when you can actually start a life! I wanted to start mine with him. But I don't know if I can now that he will be behind me.

He just doesn't care, I guess thats what bothers me the most. And that he knew that it was important to me that he passed. I just thought. . . I don't even know what I thought anymore. .
I'm not going to stop loveing him for this or anything. Still love him with all my heart and all that mushy junk.

Its his life, he can do what he wants with it really. Its hurtful thinking that I'm not as much of a part of it as I think. . .

God, I don't think any of this actually makes scence. It feels like I said the same thing a dozen times.

You heard right folks

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 15:07:50 GMT

I got hit by a car. Yup, me, and a car. BOOM! It was a different expirence.

So heres the story:
I was going down to subway to meet Jessica so I caould bring her here to do this bio project. So I walked outa my house, down the street, and you know where the lights are? yeah, the cross walk there. Well there was a chick ahead of me that ran accross the street, so I figured that I could make it aswell. Which made scence, the red flashing hand was still goin. And there was a guy in a van that waved me accross the street, so I ran for it. But the guy in the little green car didn't see him wave me accorss, and didn't see me run for it, so when his light turned green, he went for it. then BAM! he hit me. luckey it was only a little car, so he only hit my knees, and also thankful that he wasent going any faster then like 20 or 30 or he could have broken my knees. lol.
When he het me, I flew about 4 feet and my shoe came off.
I only remember hiting the car, then waking up in the street with ppl around me, lucky me, one of the people who drove by was a doctor! But yeah, I knocked my self out pretty good, gave my brain a good slosh around the skull, how do I know that? because I barfed out everything that was in my tummy when I got to the hospital. lol, yummy.

I'm in recovery now, just chillin around, taken some advil every 4 hours or so. keeps the headaches to a minimal. Hope I'll make it to school on monday!

sweet weekend

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 01:54:40 GMT

I'm home now. Doing a shit load of laundry cause everything smells like cow. lol

If anyone is wondering, I did in fact pet a cow, infact, I pet 2 cows! I'm rather proud of me. That was a good day.

Kayce lives in a kick ass big house! I loves it! It would be wicked to have a house party in, thers lots of beds, LOTS of room, and almost nothing to break. Yes, one day, we will find a way to have a partay! woo.
Anywho, the weekend was kick ass. Day one didn't do much, just waited for her to get off work, wile she did so, I ate her chips, lol. But made it up to her with chocolate. We chated for a bit, then went to bed.

Day two was lots of chillin out. Kayce had to work then too, so Erin and I ate pop corn and watched betty boop, then around 4 walked the 45 min walk to Co-op to pick up kayce. Its a nice walk, but it feels like you make no progress, you like look at the same house for 30 mins before you actually get to it! funny though. After we got her, we walked around for a bit more, went to her prom dates house, he wasn't there, so we chiled out with his mom for a wile. Shes pretty kick ass too, when we came in, they just finished smoking a joint. lol. Then after that! we walked some more, to ksyces moms friends house. Grizz, ate some soup there. It was fun, but awkward all at the same time.
Do you ever look at a couple and feel bad for one of them? like Grizz's son has a girfrind that lives with them, (can't remember either of their names) but anywyas, she treats him like shit, and flirts with his dad, like big time, it was super awkward. he seems kinda perverted too, he was looking at us all weird when we were all eating pop-cicles. . . He seemed so much cooler the first time I meet him.
After that we went home, then to bed shortly after

Day three, our last day *sniffel* (wow, we were there for 3 days) We woke up a little later, and missed the farm boys, but thats okay, we seen one on day two. We had a massive breakfast, with eggs chesse hotdogs, sausges and more hotdogs, lol. Then called a few of her homies and after a long period of time, finially found someone to hang out with. Guy named Matt (looked just like nick, excpet way taller, lol) We got there, in the rain, and stood around watching him and his friend, Ryan, paly hockey for a wile, untill we got bored, and decided to go get something to eat. After that, we went to like every store in middle, which is like 3 stores, lol. Then journeied back to Matts. Man, we were really wet by this time, my feet were nasty, lol. His house is like right in the middle of being renovated, so her has no floors or walls. We played pool for the rest of the night pretty much. Lots of laughs, awkward picture taking, bad pool playing on my part *although I did win one game), lots of boob grabbing comeong from kayce, and one big fall on my part. Lol, silly me. Man, boys are so much cooler to hang out with then other girls, well, unless you've known the chicks for forever, new ones seem intimading. Anywho.

Well, thats it. Not to much detiall. If ya wanna read that i'm sure erin will go into extream detiall, lol. (I really don't know how to spell detiall, that just doesn't look right) But we had lots of fun, and thats all you need to know.

Man, this is kinda long, and i'm not reading it over. Hope it all makes scence. . .

So silly

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 20:43:20 GMT

At my lovers right now. Just waiten for him to finish eaten. Shouldn't take long, hes not much of one to chew.

But yes, I am back together with Codey. They say the third times the charm, lets hope its true. But right now, its goin pretty good. I just have to mind my temper, and he has to keep his dick in his pants (well not around me anyways) and everything should be peachy!

This weekend me and Erin are going to kayce. I think we shuold have a partay to celebrate our birthdays, but I don't think thats gunna happen. Concidering theres like no one around, but you never know, i'm gunna keep my fingers crossed.

And man, I"M GUNNA PET A COW! I will make one my new best friend. Thats right, best friends with a cow!

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 02:04:55 GMT

Yes, you heard it right folks. The hair is once again green! *cheer* Come one come all and view the greatness that is Jen's hair!

It looks pretty cool, and smells like grape kool-aid!

Its pretty much the same, just brighter!

Allergies?

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 19:55:18 GMT

So yesterday was tons of fun! We wen't to see the Courps Bride, I'm sure I had this retarted grin on the whole movie, but it wasn't as good as the nightmare before christmas. That would be a hard one to top.

I wen't to bad like a half hour after I got home, so about 10:30 - 10:45, which kinda sucked but I was mega tired, and my legs hurt so much. I'm like an old fucking woman I swear. I had these crazy boring ass dreams about math, weird eh? But it was so annoying, I wasn't quite asleep, so I would wake myself up thinkting that this would stop the dream, but no. When I wen't back to sleep, it started up where I left off, and wouldn't end untill I finishd this crazy long problem, it was really frustrating. I ended up getting up shortly after that anyways, because I couldn't friggen breath laying down anymore.

Today, when I woke up, apperenty look like death says my mommy, and feeling pretty much the same, lol. But anyways, we think its allergies. Which does make scence, my brother gets these same symptoms around this time of year too. I don't know which is worse, having the flu or allegeries? I think I rather the flu, that doesn't seem so permenant.

In honor if my me and my mom's sickness we rented a few movies, not the best movies, but its better then just sitting doing absolity nothing.

It smells like death

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 20:36:28 GMT

I just got back from the hospital. I feel so strange now, not quite upset, not quite sad, not at all happy. Its like pity almost. I walked into my moms room and my heart just sunk. I havn't seen her like that before, I mean she didn't even seem that bad when she had the car accedent.

If she wasn't wincing in pain, then she was sleeping. I'm so scarred that its going to be like that for a wile.

I'm over reacting. Its not like she's dieing

To a new year

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 20:32:42 GMT

Here is my loved schedual

A: Art
B: Bio 12
C: Pre Cal
D: Off! Whoo, with erin

Term 2

A: Off
B; English
C; Soc
D; Global History

Home again

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 16:01:54 GMT

It wasn't to bad of a vaction. It was the first time that i've ever really been to the Island. Its really nice there.

We rented this cottage thing wile we were there. It was cute. The bedrooms only had a bed in it, and a dresser that bairly fit in, and man, that bed was comphy. Unfortunility, the sleeping arraingments got messed up thanks to my nana. I was suposed to sleep on the fold out couch, my mom slept by herself, and nana and my aunt shared a room. But she didn't like that, so took a room for herself, leaving me to sleep with my mom. I didn't sleep much that weekend, except the night that I drank, I didn't wake up at all. Snoring has to be the worst noise in the world.

Oh ass, my brother is going to be here in 20 mins, so I'll finish this when I copme home. Damnit he wasn't supposed to be here for another hour. ahhh.
(that was fun, we all went to glow in the dark mini putting)

So we went to this wedding. It wasn't too bad. The cermony was only like 15 mins. Then we had a bit to drink, then we had supper. I got seated at the kids table, got asked dumb questions, like am I a tom boy, why is my hair green, and does alchol have caffeen. But they left soon after dinner. Which the damn cateriers forgot about my damn meal because she thought I was eating pzza like the kids.
My uncle bought me a few beers, and then the party got really boring, like everyone left. Then my uncle made a coment about weed, and i'm like yeah, that would be nice. So about an hour later, I got called out make to somoke some pot with my uncle and his wife. Man, thatwas prety good shit. But a little strange getting high with family. Then I had to go back in, and everyone knew. I have crazy bad red eye. I need to carry some visene. But the party was really shitty, almost everyone left, and one by one, my other uncles pot head friends came pouring in. So we ended up leaving around 1:30 in the morning. And man, I was tired, with the beer, wine, and weed. Yeah, I crashed when we got to the cabbin.

The next day was nice. We went to the beach, unfortunility, I didn't bring my bathing buit, so I just had my skirt on and went in to my knees. it was so warm. It was nice, and man, there are a lot, of really cute guys in PET, more so then here. And that was it. We went back to the cabbin, had some beer, then the next day we went home.

My mom might look into moving to the island. After I graduate of course. I would really like that, its really nice there, and I would be able to go to the university I really want to go to. I would like orgasm in my pants if we lived there. lol

I found out that to be a pastry chef, its a 3 year course. Wich is okay, I can deal with that. Wile I'm in school there, I'll be able to work with my uncle in PEI, becasue he has his own resturant. After I graduate, I can go live with my other uncle in Ontario, and work with him at his resturant. And he pays really good money. And with the expirence I get from there I can get my chef papers. Then, i'm off on my own to open the cats meow. Its nice haveing everything planed. I hope it all works out.

I think that is good enough for an entry.

Another new hair cut.

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 02:46:23 GMT

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 02:23:50 GMT

I feel like a god damn zombie. No matter how much I sleep, I'm still tired.

I want to go out, and so shit. Walk around, party, fly more kits, fuck, anything just not to be here sitting alone. It sucks, but when I walk around all day, I pay for it later in pain. I feel like an old woman. My knees ache, and now my hip hurts. I'm tired of that too.

I'm tired of being tired. I need a pick-me-up.

A weekend away.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 03:56:41 GMT

Spending a weekend with a bunch of old folks wasn't bad at all. Actually, I can say that I really enjoyed myself. There was no T.V, no music/radio, no computer, and bairly indoor plumbing. There wasn't much to do, but I really enjoyed it, except for the mass amounts of mosquitos.

But it is so encridbly nice there though. No street lights so the night sky was clear, nice and windy on the shore, so I could fly my kite! and a mass amount of humming burds, s I could just sit, look out the window and watch them fight over the feader. *sigh* it was great. It would have been so nice to share it with someone.

Unfortunility it did make me relise how much I hate it here. We got home, and the wether was hot and sticky. There was ants everywhere in my house because my neighbours put the friggen garbage on our lawn, and left out on the frount steps. They were playing there loud music, and they sit on the stairs, and can see right in our house if the doors open, so they just stare. And I think like a gun shot went off, but I'm just hopeing that it was a fire cracker. It just really sucks.
Put kind of a nasty end to a wonderful weekend.

I still have my kites. Ones a little broken, but I'm pretty sure it will still fly. I think we shold go to halifax and fly them some time this week!

Come fly with me

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 02:01:40 GMT

It's crazy! I didn't get the job I applied for, but I may be able to get a job at murfys on the water in hali. I hvae a friend that works there that may be able to get me something. I dont care even if it is a dishwasher, lol.

I went to the buskurs the other day whith Julie, Kelly and Tara. It was fun! I want to go again. And not see creepy man with the puppets, man, that dude was odd. We were scarred to get up and leave for fear of him yelling at us. But there was an upside, With the deathly skinny man laying on glass and such, twas funny, and I got another new bag, this on with the Misfits logo on it. And for a snazzy 5 bucks off, Oh I am full of charm. hehe.

I'm going to have quite the interesting weekend this weekend. I'm going into the middle of no where Amherst. To see my Great grandmother, and my fav grandfather. It should be fun, to walk along the beach and such, its usually really windy so I bought a kite. hehe, I can't wait to use it. And if we go to halifax, I want to go to cidital and fly it there too!

Well I'm to bed.

Oh no!

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 22:28:48 GMT

Oh god, this is horrible. I'm missing a spice girl album! I dont think I've ever had it! I have to have it. apperent;y its called "forever" and it was made in 2000. slightly more recent, and I dont have it. What ever will I do?

Oh but in more thrilling news, I got a nintnedo! not a new one, oh no. Mommy found me the first with mario! So I have mario, super mario 3 and tetris. It is quite amazing! But I do really want doctor mario. Ohh so many things I want. lol.

And! on odd news. I'm going to a zoo of some sort with my brother tomorrow, and jill and one of her sisters. WEird, I seem to be spending more and more time with my borhter. Its actually kinda nice. He doesnt seem to be such a jerk, or maybe I just got good at ignoring him, or maybe its because i'm alos a jerk and I just dont notice. hummm, so many possibilitis!

Todays canada day float perade thing sucked ass today, not fun. But still, over all, today is a good day! I think its the music!

Job interview . . .

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 02:19:01 GMT

Okay. I have interview at thriftys tomorrow. I'm so fucking nervious! It would be okay if it's one on one, because i'm so damn charming they couldn't help but love me. But in a group interview, all the others will steal my answers, and make me seem pathitic just like last time. I have a horrible feeling that i'm just not going to be what there looking for. But I'll jsut go in and smiole, and stick out my boobs as julie said. lol, and hope for the best. I really do need this.

Whish me luck damnit!

smile!

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 01:31:30 GMT

It was a good weekend. Although today is tuesday, I just havn't gotten around to updating. Kinda pointless any ways. Erin always explains everything in such wonderful detail that I just don't have to. Its wonderful!

It was fun hanging around with mal and kayce again, and erin of course. Much fun with the 8 count of us being checked out, and being scanned by aliens! Oh, and buying purple pants of course!

Anywho, thats about it.