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tonight i watched wedding crashers, and holy shit!!!the whole 2 hours of that movie i could not stop laughing that shit was the funnist shit have seen in a long freaking time......just watch it..........so heres what i typed tonight..this is for my parents so they can understand where im coming from because i feel that they dont even know who the fuck jay is anymore.but im still going to write more later its kinda like 230 in the morning and i kinda work at 9 thats in just a few hours golly!
To my dear mother and father:

As you both know that I am getting a little bit older and perhaps a bit wiser as the years progress and none of us in this world are getting younger. Anyways you might be wondering why I might be writing a letter to my own parents when I can just go and talk to the both of you. The thing is, you don’t listen to your own son. I know that might sound a bit harsh but its true. All you do is shrug your shoulders and don’t bother what the hell I just said 5 minutes ago. So that’s why im taking the time to write this and hopefully what I will begin to say will really make you understand what im trying to get my point across.

Education for one is the only way to succeed in life. As the saying says “the pen is mightier than the sword” I have in my mind a very successful student coming from two loving parents who were there for me every step of the way and I thank you for everything you have done. From taking me to karate lessons, piano lessons or sports activities you were there. Family bonds are strong in the Escaran Residence so lets please keep it like that for the rest of our lives and for more lives to come. Maybe this letter to you is just another way for Jay to suck up so he can get what he wants…see that’s what you might be saying right now in your head “this is just a letter so jay can go to college where he really wants to go.” That’s why I don’t bother doing anything anymore… I never get the chance to make my own mistakes except the one where I should have given you the trust so I can study abroad. All you think is I am some party animal that one day ill mess up so big that I will get married before I reach 25 and all you worry about is me not finishing...you want me to become a nurse..thats a good position, but not every 10 billion people in this world will become a nurse. I don’t understand you, you tell me to become a nurse, but in reality who is going to live the life of Jay Escaran? ME! Not you, I appreciate the input but I want to do things my way with your support behind me. I know I cant stand on my own 2 feet, but it will be one hell of a try. What is 3-4 years of you life? Its practically nothing, that’s exactly what im trying to get across, it be nice to become a nurse is just that I don’t think I can do it here, there is to much going on around me in West Palm Beach that is making me get sidetracked all the time. And its not helping me a lot when you compare me to other kids my age. For example “ oh see look at him , he graduated top in his class, or look at him now, hes a nurse at 21”it seems that you care more about their lives then mine, you just like what their have accomplished because I think you are ashamed of your own 2 sons..so what if we are not the top graduating students, or going to yale or Georgia tech and making 18501285217507120 dollars a year. I really don’t care about them, congratulations on their accomplishments but It be nice to focus whats in front of you once in a while. Perhaps oneday you can say, see I let him go to the school he wanted and now he is the top nurse,business man ever.He knows how to run his life. That’s what I like to hear from my own mother and father one day. To be proud of me..not someone elses kids.