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It's kind of funny when it takes someone who doesn't even know me in person yet (they know me pretty well otherwise)to point out the one thing about myself that i still keep failing to be able to admit to myself. Like admitting to myself exactly how broken I am. How hurt I really am about certain things. That maybe just maybe I'm too soft (too nice) about most things. Basically that maybe I'm just a doormat. 
I'm pretty thankful to this person for being blunt and honest about it since no one else seems to be able to heh. I'm honest about everything else, except when it comes to myself. When it comes to pointing out the thins about myself that I don't want to acknowledge... the things that I don't want to deal with, even though I should. I really need to be more honest with myself. 
It's pretty bad that I still let the things that happened in my past get to me. As tramatic and most of it was unfortunately I let a lot of it still dictact my future. I worry far too much about it repeating, and that ends up ruining quite a lot of things for me. 
I guess I don't know myself as well as I thought I did.