an update!

i'm such an old lady. its 11pm or so and i'm tired. ive been going to sleep early and waking up the same for the past few days. and school has been alright. i did all my homework already. i haven't made any friends or anything and i barely talk to the ones i already have. i'm just in this zombie stage....sleep....school....sleep...school. something i probably shoulda done at UT! but this is only the second day, perhaps a change is in order.

i found out robbie joined the air force. my heart broke and i was relieved at the same time. relieved he found some direction in life, heart broken because i mean, come on. there's still a sick, distant, morbid and masochistic love deep within my pathetic existence for him. very deep. and very bloody. but very real. and i hope he can find some oblivious, simple girl that will put up with his shit. well, he did, but this girl doesn't put up with anything anymore.

i was ....making a point but i forgot. no more attention span. probably the reason i can't write a decent live journal entry anymore. in minutes, it will be Sarah's 18th birthday! she is free to watch, buy, and star in porn now! legally anyway! not including our side projects.

so this weekend, i'm partying in austin. i've promised everyone my presence, rain or shine. "unless i die." "by any means necessary", in the words of MLK. i apologize but that's all i have to say. sorry for wasting your time! :) i love you!