| Life is suffering |
[Aug. 16th, 2008|07:15 pm] |
As some of you know the ache in my arms got so bad that I had to forbid using the computer from myself. I was dreaming of filling a bathtub with muscle relaxing ointment and diving into it. That would have been sweet :D I used the ointment much more than is advisable, which may have been the reason why my dreams got really weird one night. First they were nightmares, then they got surrealistic and it all ended into an apocalyptic vision. Okay, maybe it was because I watched the movie "Constantine". I should not watch that kind of movies. It wasn't too scary for me, I don't think it was scary at all, but that kind of movies have such a great impact to my dreams nowadays. The movie wasn't scary, but my nightmares were. I was completely messed up when I woke up, I was sure I had overslept, which I of course hadn't done because I was on an evening shift that day. Anyway, my arms are much better now, but not completely healed. I reserved a massage for myself, I'm going there on Thursday.
Speaking of sleeping, I have been feeling strangely tired. I was feeling tired before my holiday too, but I thought it was because I was exhausted from work. Now, after a long summer holiday, I'm feeling more tired than ever. I have slept quite well at nights, but yet, especially on morning shift, I'm feeling very sleepy and when I get home I go straight to bed and fall asleep. On Monday I slept an hour, on Wednesday two hours and yesterday I think I slept over two hours. And yet already at 11 o'clock, when I was trying to read your entries, I was struggling to keep my eyes open. But there was no other option than going to bed. And I won't be able to stay up late today either, I can tell. Maybe it's the medication I take for the stomach or maybe it's because I gave up all exercise after the stomach ache got back. Maybe whatever is causing the stomach ache is causing the tiredness too. Or maybe it's all these things combined, I don't know. I have been thinking about my health problems lately and I have started to wonder if I've had a problem with my digestion system for several years now, but I haven't realized it, because there hasn't been any aches before this. I think it's odd that I'm normal weighed though I eat quite a lot and I love sweet and greasy foods. So I've started to think that maybe my system is not able to digest all the stuff I eat. I'm going to a doctor on Monday. I have to ask these things then. I have to complain to him/her as much as possible about the ache. |
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| After the first week |
[Aug. 8th, 2008|07:57 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | holiday, work | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The Doors: Waiting for the sun | ] |
The first week of work after holiday is finally over. On the first day of work I was hoping it was Friday already. And the week went by so slow. I was working on the customer service on Monday and I guess other people had returned back to work too and had the idea to visit the library, because it was a really busy day. Too bad my brain was still on holiday. I was absolutely exhausted when I got home. The whole week has been really tiring, my brain has not been working very well at all, not even today. I feel like the crappiest library worker ever and for a good reason too. I forgot to say hello to people, I had forgotten even some of those faces and names I actually was able to remember before holiday, my breaks were a bit too long and I didn't feel like serving the customers at all. I didn't understand what people were asking me. When I was not on the customer service I sat in front of my computer and either tried to figure out what the hell I was supposed to do or slept my eyes open. I tried to watch the opening ceremonies of the Olympic games while working on the customer service and was feeling quite annoyed when someone came to the library during them (very few came). Luckily both of my co-workers were on holiday so they were not there to prove what a slob I was. But maybe we'll be correcting the mistakes I made next week... We had a substitute worker who was really nice but she was naturally asking all kinds of questions and they were hard to answer because I had forgotten almost everything. I think my holiday was pretty successful. I also think I need a new holiday. This getting back to work after holiday is so exhausting. Not only my brain but also my muscles were shocked about the sudden change. My shoulders and arms are killing me (I should not be on the computer...) Library work is surprisingly physical.
There's something about this work place that I really like - it's ridiculously easy for me to be "the nice one", thanks to my co-workers. I had a discussion about my co-workers with the new employed person already on Tuesday, she asked a question about them. My co-worker is nicer to the employed people than she is to me, but she is still quite difficult. And the boss is under her thumb, almost always agreeing with her. She also has an annoying habit of reminding people constantly about stuff they remember very well. |
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| The end of the summer holiday |
[Aug. 1st, 2008|07:21 pm] |
I'm back to Lapland and on Monday I'll be back to work. Wohoo. Yippee. Hooray. My parents came here with me because I had so much stuff I had to bring here, like the bike. My father has caught a horrible flu but he was determined to come here anyway. I feel sorry for him.
I'll try to keep on being on a good mood anyway. Watching these videos helps (no music videos this time).
This one is in Finnish:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Da2CV97D3eA
"Nurkkiinhan lika kertyy itsestään vaan miten on sielun laita?" xDDD
A collection of Ted and Ralph sketches from The Fast Show (Ruuvit löysällä) wich was on TV in the 90's. The squire Ralph is desperately trying to make friends with his worker Ted. Maybe he's a little bit attracted to him too :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEBdi6Xffd0
Jim Carrey makes a great imitation of Horatio Caine from the CSI Miami:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJSqkwyL1Zo
And lastly Ode To Joy by Beaker. I don't think it's a big spoiler if I tell you that everything goes horribly wrong in the end again :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xpcUxwpOQ_A&feature=related |
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| Blaah! Big time! Sorry. (And this has got to be the worst title of all times) |
[Jul. 27th, 2008|01:37 am] |
It is time for an update. We were a bit undecided about going to Kaustinen Folk Music Festival because of the weather, but we decided to go and I’m glad we did. It’s not my favourite kind of music but it’s always nice to hear live music. ( Read more ) |
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| A trip to Vaasa and something I bought |
[Jul. 18th, 2008|02:33 pm] |
Last tuesday me and my parents visited at the home fair in Vaasa. It was pretty interesting although there's no way I can ever live in those kind of luxury houses. I don't understand how there cab be so many people who apparently can afford to buy that kind of home for themselves. Are people really so rich nowadays or do they just get humongous loans? After the fair we went to see the bridge of Raippaluoto which is the longest bridge in Finland. It connects the island of Raippaluoto to the mainland. I wasn't expecting much but I was pretty impressed actually. The bridge was really high and narrow so I have to admit I was clasping the steering wheel a bit harder when I drove on it. I suddenly remembered I had seen nightmares like that, driving over a very narrow bridge that went higher and higher... It's hilarious how the municipality of Mustasaari got a bridge like that. All you need is a local politician in the Parliament with a lot of ascendancy ;)
The picture doesn't do justice to the size of the bridge.
And now, ( behold my new bike which I bought yesterday from Seinäjoki ) |
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| Five days |
[Jun. 27th, 2008|08:27 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | holiday, work | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  restless | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Placebo: Every you every me | ] |
Only five work days left and my long awaited holiday begins. My brain seems to have taken a false start and is already on holiday, I'm being even more absent-minded than usual at work. I've also been snappish. Today, when I got to work and went to ask the boss if all the books had already been put to shelves, she did what she often does, started blabbing about nothing important and kept on blabbing when I was already walking away. I went to our work room and said to the employed person: "She just keeps on blabbing though I'm already at the other end of the library." That was not a nice thing to say. I blame my being very exhausted. I slept over two hours after every morning shift last week.
The strange thing is I'm feeling slightly depressed. I guess my mysterious stomachache is getting on my nerves, but I think partially I feel depressed because of the holiday. I've been working so long that I don't know what to do with all the free time. It's unnerving to think about those four weeks of not working. Very scary!
I'm probably going to spend all four weeks at my parents' and maybe make a couple of trips from there somewhere. Almost everything is closer there and I can borrow a car if I want to go somewhere. I also want to be near a lake instead of a river. Rivers are boring. I don't want to make any specific plans for my holiday, most of the time I just want to sleep, eat, sit in front of the computer, maybe read something and that's it. That's my idea of a perfect holiday.
![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) magic_potion visited me on last two weekends. We had a great time. We talked a lot, laughed our arses off, drank humongous amounts of tea, watched videos from YouTube and a couple of movies and analyzed everything thoroughly xD We cannot even watch a movie without analyzing it, and especially not a historical movie with all the mistakes xDDD But to be honest, I found our analyzes more interesting than the movies, apart from the parts when Alan Rickman made his appearance of course ;D |
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| "Those who are dead, are not dead, they're just living in my head." |
[Jun. 17th, 2008|06:23 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | coldplay, midsummer | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | at work | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Coldplay: Life in Technicolor | ] |
I haven't had time to read everyone's journals, but I will catch up today or tomorrow, I promise. As some of you know magic_potion visited me last weekend. She is most likely coming here again on Thursday and we'll be spending the Midsummer eve and day together. Yay! ^^
Coldplay's new album Viva la vida arrived on mail yesterday and I've now listened to it about four times. So far it's sounding really great, in fact I think I love it! The first time I listened to it was at work, I had ordered it for the library too. The music was so touching that my heart started to ache and it was really hard to concentrate on working. I can't wait to get home so that I can listen more of it! |
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| Problems |
[Jun. 7th, 2008|07:12 pm] |
Okay, now some people here are getting a little bit too friendly, or at least one is. My door bell rang last Sunday evening and when I opened the door there was the old man who lives in the row house next to this one. He said he had come to pay a visit. In one-hundredth of a second I tried to come up with an excuse for not letting him in, but I couldn't think of any. So I had to let him in. Shit.
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| Progression |
[Jun. 1st, 2008|12:06 am] |
I had to go to a graduation party today. My boss' daughter graduated from lukio and I was the one to pay a visit on behalf of all the workers of the library, including one cleaning lady. My co-worker asked me at the beginning of the week if I was going to go there and I said I would probably go. I really have to wonder the hell was I thinking when I said so, because I don't like that kind of occasions at all. They're often so formal and what's more important, in this case I didn't know any other visitors. Me and my big mouth. I guess I was hoping to get someone to go there with me. I forgot that the co-worker would be on her summer holiday starting from that weekend and she most likely wouldn't even be here then. But I had to do what I had said I would do.
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| The book fair and the nonexisting bike |
[May. 22nd, 2008|11:53 pm] |
Sorry about not being active here for awhile. I've been lost in YouTube again. Last weekend I didn't do much of anything else except watched videos there. A weekend well spent! :D
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| My visit, my bike and other stuff |
[May. 11th, 2008|12:15 am] |
Last weekend I visited jalokivikyynel and mrs_downhouse was there too. Let me just say once more I had a great time! Six hours on a train is a long time, but it was definitely worth it! Usually when I'm travelling on a train I am bored to death, but this time, when I knew I was going to see some of my friends after a (too!) long time, it was just great. During the weekend there were several times I laughed so hard my eyes were tearing. We didn't get to dance very much because the music wasn't very good (and I'm still bitter about the woman not playing Dimmu's Mourning Palace though I explained to her it was my friend's birthday and the song was supposed to be a gift to her!), but it's alright. I've always thought it's "etkos" and "jatkos" that are the fun part of the evening out :) As I said, next time we see should be sooner and I offer my place for that purpose. There is just one place we can go here. But I think it would be hilarious if we would rush there. It's not that awful after all, the owners are very young (and the other one is pretty good looking if I my memory serves me right). And as I said I have a sauna! I love my sauna very much!
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| Warning! Will cause compulsive drooling! |
[May. 8th, 2008|10:44 pm] |
I cannot believe you two huge Buck-Tick fans there haven't shown me this! I mean, if you really want to turn a Bowie fan into a Buck-Tick fan, this might be the right video for it :D
*dead* |
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| My memory and the way some people think about Mannerheim sucks |
[Apr. 19th, 2008|10:12 pm] |
I'm having a bad conscious because I still can't remember some customers' names and faces though I've lived in the municipality over a year. Actually I can remember some names and I can recognize some faces, but I can't remember whose name is what. I remember I once talked about this, when I was still studying and I remember I said that it's like some kind of dysfunction in my brain. I really feel I'm somehow retarded in that way. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, but I can't help it. It also explains why I like so much about people who have the courage to look different - I can remember them much better! But if those people suddenly decide to change the way they look - even if I had seen them hundreds of times, I would have hard time in recognizing them.
I'm visiting my parents this weekend and we have been talking about all kinds of things and also about the animated movie made of the war marshall Mannerheim. The movie suggests that he was gay. My dad told me something that I had never heard before - there is a rumour that Mannerheim died of syphilis in Switzerland. There is also a rumour that when Mannerheim was living in Pispala in the city of Tampere, there were reds executed against the wall of his house. Apparently those people who have lived in Pispala have a lot of rumours about Mannerheim. I'm not saying they are true, but I believe there is still a lot we don't know. And I think it's also interesting how angry some people got about the animated film, people who have been concidered to be open minded. It seems to me being gay is alright for them, just as long nobody is saying Mannerheim was gay. Sometimes it also feels like Mannerheim is almost like a god in this country and nobody should say anything bad about him.
History is interesting. |
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| Work, work, work |
[Apr. 12th, 2008|02:49 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | work | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  silly | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | David Bowie: Big Brother | ] |
Alrighty then. What should I tell you this time. About work (again, what else).
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| My friend's visit, the alien that lives in my kidney and salmiakkikoskenkorva |
[Mar. 31st, 2008|11:33 pm] |
My friend HM visited me last week.
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| What I have been doing lately |
[Mar. 16th, 2008|12:56 am] |
I have been pissed off about the situation in Tibet and many Chinese people's opinions about it.
It all started when I heard that Björk had given a concert in China and all of a sudden she had declared independence for Tibet, which of course had insulted the Chinese government and many ordinary Chinese people as well (I'm not saying all of them). I instantly became a fan of Björk. Way to go, Björk! \o/
I have been angry as hell about the situation in Tibet for long. I was appalled when they decided to let China organize the Olympic games. Money talked, once again. China is opening up and all the Western companies are eagerly rushing there, because China has enormous markets. So who cares about some sorry nation somewhere in Himalaya?
Let's think how things would be if Finland had lost the war against Soviet Union completely and the Soviet army would have conquered Finland. Many Finns have visited Estonia when it was just a part of Soviet Union and also soon after it got back it's independence. Pretty much all Finns know how bad things were in Estonia, how backward country it was only ten years ago. And things are still not as well as in Finland there. It is horrifying to think how close it was that Finland would have had the same destiny. We would have been just a small part of great nation of Soviet Union, never mind about the fact that we have our own language and culture and national identity. Finnish language would not have been taught in schools, instead we would all be speaking Russian. The biggest economical gap between two neighboring countries wasn't between some African or Asian countries somewhere far away. It was between Finland and Soviet Union. That's how things are in Tibet now, with one exception: things are much worse there. Soviet Union is nothing compared to China what it comes to oppressing other nations. But it doesn't matter what they do, because they are such a great nation, so many buyers for Western products. So what if it was the same with Finland? Finland would be under other nation's rule and oppressed by it. And other countries would not give a damn.
In the Buddhist religion the next in order after Dalai-lama is Panchen-lama. Dalai-lama recognizes Panchen-lama and vice versa. There were two Panchen-lamas, when there should have been only one. Other was recognized by Dalai-lama and the other chosen by the Chinese government. Yes, communists (=atheists) chose a religious leader. The whereabouts of the Panchen-lama recognized by Dalai-lama are unknown. He was arrested by the Chinese government in 1995. He was six years old. It's not even sure if he is still alive. You can guess how bad things are now: after Dalai-lama's death the next Dalai-lama will be recognized by a man who was chosen by the Chinese government.
You might think it would have been a great event when Dalai-lama visited Finland in 2006. After all he is the leader of a religion which has over 300 million followers. However, the leaders of Finland chose not to meet him.
I am an agnostic, but I respect Dalai-lama very much, more than any other religious leader. I think it's amazing how patient he is with China after all that he and Tibetans have gone through. However, my patience is running out and now it seems so has many Tibetans' as well. In my opinion the right thing to do now would be to boycott the Olympics, but I bet that's not going to happen. What we can do personally is to boycott products made in China, companies that have moved their production in China and also companies that are sponsors of the Olympic games. This can be hard, I know, but we can try at least. I personally just became consumer of Pepsi instead of Coca-Cola. And I won't eat in Chinese restaurants anymore, unless I know for sure the owners do not support the policy of China.
Here are the sponsors of the Olympic games in Beijing: http://en.beijing2008.cn/90/53/column211995390.shtml |
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| A New kind of bellyache, my friend and Kauko Röyhkä and too many books |
[Mar. 11th, 2008|06:51 pm] |
I didn't go to work today. I had a strange bellyache through the whole night last night and they were so bad that I didn't sleep almost at all.
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| A chicken wrap, a golf ball, the man who fell to Earth, Otto and Marc |
[Feb. 24th, 2008|03:20 pm] |
I'm visiting my parents now. I got to leave from work already half past twelve on Friday so that I could catch an earlier train.
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| A rant that I started writing yesterday |
[Feb. 16th, 2008|12:48 pm] |
A week has gone and it has been a very busy week, because my co-worker has been on a holiday.
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| Add Finnish curses here (= vittu, perkele, saatana, jumalauta, persesilmukka, vittujen kevät, etc. ) |
[Feb. 10th, 2008|02:37 am] |
It seems I only find time to update my journal on weekends and if I'm spending my weekend elsewhere, no update. Sorry about that. Like I've said, having to go to work is seriously restricting the main purposes of my life - my hobbies :D
The main reason why I hate Januaries is that in my case they seem to be cursed. Something awful always happens to me on January.
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