So pardon me while I burst into flames

i came here to make you dance tonight...

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 07:35:30 GMT

i dont care about my guilty pleasure with you.

my mind doesnt work anymore. nothing i think makes sense. come to think of it, nothing i do makes sense.

u of i was ok. i think the best part of the trip was falling into mud puddles and not being able to get out. or the fact that the door guy at CO's clearly knew i was not 21 and i was using a fake ID. COLLLLEEEEEEGEEEEEEE

so the whole england letter came blah blah and it all kinda hit me at once. being over there is going to be the strangest experience of my life, yet probably one of the best times of my life. i wish i could take all my friends with me. but january 5-march 22 is not that long. [dana this brings problems with you coming because your spring break starts the weekend i'm supposed to come home. but i will make something work somehow]

apparently my boss realizes that england is going to smash my bank account because he has hired me as a marketing dude for his credit card sales company. ten bones an hour + 50 for every company i get an appointment with +25 for every company that hires him? if i work my charm i could make 200-500 bones a day. two days a week. we will be going to about 25 business a day, AND he is gonna take me to lunch daily. i think thatll be fun because he is my boss and all, but hes only 24 and isnt really like a normal boss. i love chatting with him and hearing his hilarious COLLEGE stories. now lets discuss the fact that ill need to be up at 7 am. i have a feeling i will either stab him, or a business owner one day.

speaking of college. where the fuck am i going next year? msu keeps emailing me to ask if i'm changing my admission semester. bleh. i've never been one to give up on a dream though..

although 6 months seems like forever, i think its been just enough time for me to adjust to things. i brought myself to read some old conversations saved on this lil computer thingy and instead of crying, i am honestly laughing for the first time.

get up shan 29:	i am gonna go fucking bananas
KilliansIrish19:	are you gonna split? BAHAHAH

sigh. if i could only turn back time.

i am going to fall into a state of depression when i am not able to talk to may daily. and if i am home when he gets home i will be in fucking san diego waiting for him. mark my words live journal. i really hate the military. then again i hate the US. and the world. and people at war. i think im going to move to canada.

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 22:18:26 GMT

The Hills season 3 premiere on MTV was the highest rated telecast of 2007 for MTV, attracting more than 3.5 million viewers that tuned into MTV to watch the back-to-back episodes of the season 3 premiere, The season 3 premiere of The Hills outdrew ALL broadcast and cable networks in the same time slot with viewers in its 12-34 age demographics.

now thats what i like to hear.

sooo...

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 05:06:33 GMT

happpppy birthdayyyyyyyyyyyy kevin!!!!!!!!!

i can only hope the end result of your birthday ends in...

im pretty sure...

Wed, 09 May 2007 22:49:07 GMT

it's safe to say its been one of the hardest months of my life. im convinced the months of april/may try to kill me on purpose. the same damn thing happened last year. fuck this season.

every song, every food place, every tv show, everything reminds me of him. i keep sitting here trying to connect the dots and i realized his favorite song was "heaven" by the los lonely boys..i just dont get it....a little over two weeks ago we were sitting in portillos talking about moving out and college. we went to class and he hit me with a mountain dew bottle and it exploded and went all over him. he exploded with laughter and i fell off the bench. thats the last memory i have. i think thats why i'm so fucking angry. they are all memories of us laughing. we never stopped laughing. my text message count is literally gonna drop about 1000 per month, thats so sad.. i wish i wasn't half asleep when he was texting me so i could have done something. i'm so sick of thinking. thinking needs to stop.

bleh. spiderman 3=big let down. why did they have to kill harry? hes so beautiful.

jills parents being gone= me maz dana and perino regulating mass amounts of liquid and mass abouts of slip n sliding. in other news, i hate clouds. but i do really like dressing up and not making sense.

i havent slept in my bed all week and i wont until probably sunday. i love it <3

dear maz,
your nipples are MINE.
love<3

L JAY?

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 21:47:40 GMT

in the words of maz, "lj's come in handy"

i need something to take my mind off the fact that i have a 10 page paper, a 9 page paper, a huge speech and a 100 pt test to do. FUCK COD.

memphis was fun, felt a little out of place because we were the minority. our hotel room was pretty delicious and i had a lot of fun jumping and screaming avril lavigne like a 10 year old with dana. i also enjoyed watching maz jump so many times he was about to throw up, crazy fucker. i sometimes don't understand how his body works, before i go to sleep after drinking i eat something but he just downs whiskey. i want his liver.

speaking of organs, the probability of me ripping my kidney out soon is very high. who needs two of them? not me.

the college decision is tough. my heart tells me MSU, but i also got into some pretty sweet schools. FSU? hello beach and sunshine. ASU? hello falling into a cactus while drunk. NC? meh, basketball blah blah. loyola is pretty much out of the picture now. my dad said if i stay around here and go to benedictine or NCC he would let me move into an apartment...and my two best friends are moving home so that might be pretty delicious.

life is pretty crazy lately and i am loving every minute. boy is good. had a rough week but i realized i couldnt be mad because i was doing the same thing. pretty annoyed that boy is going to prom...

did i fulfill the LJ criteria? i wish i had maz's life...mine is boring.