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[05 Sep 2008|04:21pm] |
i'm dating an older guy, and our life plans don't jive because of the inconvenient age gap. and like. i want to move out of this country, he wants to stay because his family are here and he's a complete mama's boy.
i'm sorry i secretly was slightly comforted by the fact they were old and going to you-know-what.
i feel terrible. :(
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[05 Sep 2008|12:01am] |
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i think i'm finally going to start my life.
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[05 Sep 2008|01:32am] |
Listen, I know you're not going to listen, but i need you to know.
I want you.
I would love you so completely.
I know, because I've loved you for years.
So stop "thinking about it" and love me back.
I can't take much more of this.
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[05 Sep 2008|06:08am] |
"I haven't seen you in awhile and I knew you had class here so I thought I'd walk this way"
The little things you do make me fall for you ALL over again. Here I thought you reduced us to a "summer only" relationship.
Ugh but I can't help but think it's gonna somehow end badly AGAIN because I never take things as a lesson learned. =/
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[04 Sep 2008|10:05pm] |
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i wish i could tell her that i could be one of those people who care about her. i wish i could tell her i genuinly do care as person and as a "friend". i wish i didn't know her at all sometimes. i'd be super miserable though if she up and left one day.
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[04 Sep 2008|09:26pm] |
I don't like crying. I don't like having sex dreams about you and your ex. I don't like those. They're nightmares.
Tonight is going to be a horrible night. I can't even think optimistic without the possibility of you being there...
Fuck.
I need some sort of medication.
Even just strong sleeping pills.
Someone knock me out?
Hit me hard enough so I don't wake up until tomorrow. Please.
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[05 Sep 2008|12:16am] |
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I failed to mention how long i sat preparing my "8 reasons i love you" texts this morning. you probably would have thought i was a total dork if you knew i spent almost an hour writing out reasons and picking the best 8. its just because i love you that much, i had to make sure it was perfect <3
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[05 Sep 2008|03:55pm] |
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I am socially retarded, espically when it comes to relationships =/
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[04 Sep 2008|11:53pm] |
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1) i don't like the person i've become. 2) there are to many lies i've told to the adults around me to keep them from finding out stuff, i can't even keep them straight anymore. 3) i'm so so so sorry for making you worry about me. it was never my intention. i wish i could talk to you about it. i just dont know what to say.
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[04 Sep 2008|11:41pm] |
1. i can not believe you. i care about you FAR more than you deserve.
2. im tired of trying to figure out what it is that makes me so un fucking likable. My family doesnt want me. Not my mother, my grandparents, any of them, apparently not my friends. I am not good enough for anyone.
3. I want to move far away, get a new life, and be someone else.
4. Im tired of even the "easy things" being so god damn hard. everything is a battle. everything.
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[04 Sep 2008|10:59pm] |
sorry another post
you just made me feel the happiest i've ever been and all you did was call me baby i should probably worry about getting a hold ofmyself and making sure i don't fall for you but to late and idc beacuse im so damn happy
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| Soldier Suicides |
[04 Sep 2008|10:56pm] |
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This is sad, and not something an army wife needs to read two weeks before a deployment.
I missed his call tonight. :(
I'm okay, though. Had a good day, and Sammy got to play with Calvin tonight at my mom and dad's. Is it the weekend yet, though?
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[04 Sep 2008|10:55pm] |
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I think that cazz is attractive i don't like him or anything but he is just so unconvensional to me
and Dear K, please don't repeat this
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[05 Sep 2008|10:36am] |
I went clubbing with 2 couples last night, I felt extremely outcasted. I broke down in the cab. My ex was there, with her hands everywhere on this new girl.
I just wanted to make out with somebody infront of her. Bitch.
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[04 Sep 2008|10:27pm] |
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i really really dislike mccain but i think palin is hot
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| We're Not Worthy Of Love |
[04 Sep 2008|10:17pm] |
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Does THIS anger anyone else but me? It all just seems so biased and insulting. Yeah, I guess the author was hurt badly by one of us, but I think it's unfair to write about it in this way. I've been in relationships where my partners weren't diagnosed with anything, yet were fucking babies and were hard to deal with and really acted like the crazy ones. I guess my point is, people that aren't clinically diagnosed with anything can be just as bad, or worse than us, so I think this site/book is shit.
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[04 Sep 2008|10:05pm] |
1)Seeing that picture of him and this other guy kissing some girl I don't even know on the cheek definitly killed my night. It's depressing how easily he can do that without even knowing it.
2)Talking to you is making it so much better already though. Even my 'feel-better' song wasn't helping, but a minute of talking to you, girl, and I feel happy again. Thanks babe. Feel better♥
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[03 Sep 2008|09:55pm] |
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i wanna do it again.
i WANT to SO BAD
but i'll feel so weak
this is all about defeating my demons
but it would make me feel SO MUCH BETTER it scares me to think of never doing it again.
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[04 Sep 2008|09:19pm] |
I'm really scared I'm going to completely pull out my eyebrows one day.
I already pull out like, six hairs a day from each brow D:
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[04 Sep 2008|09:15pm] |
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It wasn't a promise ring like you told me it was. It was an engagement ring.
And now you're with her. Instead of me. I would have said yes. You know I would have said yes. I'd STILL say yes.
Why did you have to tell me that tonight?
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