Journal.

Finally ...

2008-05-29T22:12:46Z

I have gone two days without any access to a computer. Yes, I know it's only two days .. but, when you're at home trying to access personal information for random things, it seems like an eternity.

My computer crashed. No fucking clue as to why, but it did. Well, it lasted over six years, so I should be happy with it. The thing I am not happy about is the fact that my shit-tastic self forgot to back up all of my photos from the past year on our external hard drive. So, all of the pictures from my first wedding anniversary and back to around my wedding last year .. gone. All of my wedding pictures that I photoshopped for a special album for my mom .. gone. All of my pictures that I received from other people from my wedding and other events .. gone. Argh.

So, after vowing to only spend money on home improvements this summer .. Nick and I took a thousand dollars of our money and bought a new laptop. I love it, but daaaaamn I hate when we have to spend money like this. Plus, now I'll be saving to fix my other computer because I really don't want to take any more out of what we have saved. I was going to buy one of those new heavy duty Singer sewing machines, but I guess that will have to wait.

Damnit.

.. Wow.

2008-04-11T01:49:49Z

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080409/ap_on_re_mi_ea/egypt_hiv_trial;_ylt=ApXEB8e6w0cqpCPDi83W6QW9F4l4

I really don't know what to say about this.

Cough x 100000000

2008-02-28T02:43:59Z

My absolute least favorite part of getting over colds? Cough and congestion. Blah!

I guess I should be thankful that Stormy uses doggy poo pads to pee on because this has been a really easy way for me to keep up with his UTI. He's peeing a lot, still has a lot of blood in his urine, but he is acting more and more like himself. He's also starting to not resist the medicine as much - which I am hoping means he knows it's helping him. Probably not, but I can wish. I just want my baby to feel better soon.

We're going back to work tomorrow. Don't know how well it's going to work out, but we really need the money. Hopefully, we can complete two days of work without this crap interfering.

AMANDA AND ANTONIO: I don't know how close of tickets you want for Jeff Dunham, but the tickets go on sale Monday at 10am. I am obviously not going to be around a computer at that time .. but, if one of you guys are, let me know and I will gladly PayPal you some money.

Oh, snap!

2008-02-20T23:15:43Z

Via hollywood.com :

HOLLYWOOD - Johnny Depp, Jude Law and Colin Farrell have signed up to save the film their late friend Heath Ledger was making before he died.

Ledger was shooting The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus in London just days before he was found dead in his New York apartment last month.

Director Terry Gilliam was determined to salvage the unfinished movie--and has asked Depp, Law and Farrell to pay tribute to Ledger by taking turns to play his character in the scenes the Australian never got to shoot, reports AintItCoolNews.com.

Toxicology results released earlier this month revealed Ledger was killed by an accidental overdose of prescribed medications.

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It really, really sucks that Heath Ledger died. Buuuut, I hope everyone does realize this is like a quadruple eyegasm for me .. all in one movie!! I was eager to see the movie when I heard Heath was filming it and read the synopsis .. a little bummed when he passed on because I thought it would never come out now .. and, now, I am even more eager to see how the movie and all of this plays out.

Rest In Peace

2008-02-07T20:28:43Z

I forgot to mention this, Tinkerbell passed away some time this morning. She was ran over on the highway that Eddie and Teresa live off of. She was such a good kitty, she just had a small problem with going away and whoring herself out to every Tom cat around. We thought it was just the neighbors beside of us because she has always been afraid of the highway, but apparently, she grew some balls. She left behind six beautiful cats that are just as gorgeous and loving as her.

Rest in peace, Tinky .. we'll miss you.

(Last year, before her babies grew up.)

=(

2008-01-22T22:18:24Z

In case you haven't heard ..

Heath Ledger was found dead in his apartment today. No news on what happened or how long he'd been there, but they did say they found sleeping pills beside of him. Apparently, he's also been dropping roles left and right, but that was just put in for speculation as to what might have caused this. He was 28.

This news has caused Missy to be very sad today.

Nothing better happen to Johnny, damnit .. I can't take this! =(

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I also found out that Daniel Johns and Natalie Imbruglia are getting a divorce. This .. doesn't make me sad at all.

Happy New Year .. soon!

2007-12-31T21:03:31Z

So, there's a lot of things (and some people) that I plan on leaving as 2007 history. I have a whole crap load of stuff that I want to post in here to get off my chest, but I really don't have time for that right now since I need to shower and everything for the game tournament tonight. Anyways, I shall write tonight after midnight or tomorrow, and just call it a belated last 2007 post. Ha!

Love you guys!!

_sugarsnatch @ 2007-10-24T17:02:00

2007-10-24T21:04:23Z

I don't really have the time to blog right now because I am already late. I am on my way to Gastonia to spend the first part of my birthday with her. In any case, I just want everyone to know that I really am super happy right now. I'm very content with life. It seems like the only time I ever write is when I am in a bad mood and it just seems like my life is full of bad things - but there's a lot of good in it, too! I swear! Anyways, I'll write bad AND EVEN MORE GOOD when I get home tomorrow. Love you guys!!

Me against me.

2007-10-22T00:43:48Z

I don't even know what to say anymore. I apparently screwed something up .. Karma has PMS and is out to get me. Everything I tell people I am going to do/buy .. they do/buy it behind my back. I am in the middle of a dog war. I am somehow forgotten when it comes to parties and social events. My favorite programs are slowly but surely leaving me. Argh, it's just a bad time for me ..

I want my Amanda, Antonio, Chase, and Rachel .. I cannot live without them any longer!!!!

.. I'll post more to this later. If I get a freakin' chance to.

What .. the .. hell.

2007-10-10T23:35:22Z

I thought getting an answer and straightening out this whole name change thing would solve my problems. Damn, I was so so wrong. Alright, so everyone knows that I had my name changed. When I went up there, the chick told me I couldn't have my four names (Melissa Jean Parker Wadkins) without it being hyphenated or whatever. So, I told her to go with Jean so my mom would be happy .. even though I hate Jean. Immediately, I regretted it. It only got worse once I told my mom because she said I should have kept my maiden name, she didn't want me to be stuck with Jean (my dad named me that after my mom), she hates the middle name and that's why she dropped the Jean when she got married. So, I sent an e-mail to the SSA. Today, I got an e-mail back saying all I had to do was go up there and get a name correction. I was ecstatic! But .. I was the only one. =( Nick, apparently, is very upset by me being so happy about getting my maiden name back. I get that it's a man thing .. but, I'm not wanting to drop his last name - I just absolutely loathe Jean. It's Britney Spears' middle name, for pete's sake! So, I don't know what to do now. I know what will make me happy .. but, I just don't want Nick to feel like he does. Why can't I just have all four fucking names without a hyphen? Oh my gosh, I hate our freakin' government!!

Good morning and good day to you, sir.

2007-09-26T01:55:47Z

As much as I [will always] hate to admit it, I find Britney Spears' music catchy. But, then again, anyone with millions of dollars and awesome producers can have exactly the same - and possibly better, considering her singing voice really sucks. I just like the beats. =) Having said that, why is this bitch not in jail? Or rotting under it? I don't give a shit which one - as long as she is somewhere in which she cannot hurt herself, her kids, and all of us [for that matter]. I don't know what is wrong with celebrities these days. However, it all supports my "take away their money so they can't do this shit" theory. Whatever.

Speaking of which .. what the hell happened to my Jenna Jameson? I have always admired her and looked to her as an idol - now, I don't know what to do with her. I was never a fan of porn, I just liked her as a person. And I do give her major kudos for quitting porn and taking her implants out .. but, what the hell? The plastic surgery, botox, and diets have to stop for her - she is looking completely scary. I miss my old Jenna .. even if she did do porn. Bleh.

Atleast my Johnny is still beautiful. Seriously, how can you go wrong with Johnny Depp? I don't think you can.

Nick and I took a little trip to Greensboro this weekend and I enjoyed every little second of it. The best part? Spending time with Amanda and Josh, obviously. Kicking everyone's asses in bowling on the Wii was pretty cool, too - but seeing them was by far the best part. I also got to see Chase who I never get to see enough of. It was great. I hated leaving. We came home and I _thought_ I was going to get some rest .. but, Nick decided to put up Halloween decorations. So, I came home to nothing being done that was promised and a bossy bitch of a husband wanting to put up Halloween decorations to keep up with the neighbors. But, after the weekend, I was in a great mood and I made the best of it.

Now, I am having to put up with a pulled muscle in my upper left leg that I have had for close to a week now. It's getting more stiff than what it used to be, but it's slowly getting better. This weekend, MOMMY AND DADDY! We're also having a Wii party with our Sunday School class .. but, my parents are the more important part of the weekend. ;)

Pink .. is the color of my ski-in.

2007-09-16T14:55:43Z

The Auto Fair was fun .. minus the constant menstrual groans from the sister-in-law. I got to see all I wanted to see and then some - the only issue I had is that no one had a freaking Corvette split-window, which is only my favorite classic car. But, guess you can't have everything that you want.

My arms are dark pink and very sore. I don't think it's sun-poisoning, but let's just say that Missy is not going to be playing her Wii today. =(

Sunday School was a blast today. Chris stayed up late last night playing his PS3 and ended up falling asleep in class .. and he was called out on it. I think the exact words were: "Chris, wake up man .. we're about to start discussing sex!" LOL. We really didn't, but it was funny. We decided to skip the sermon for Chris's sake, I didn't want him to have to struggle to stay awake .. plus, I think he was a little embarrassed.

Besides that, normal Sunday. My arms feel like they're about to fall off, but that's what happens when you spend a day out in the sun without protection. Yes, I am a dumb ass. ;)

Religion & Mortal Flaws ..

2007-09-09T16:04:22Z

I always find myself discussing religion with people. I don't know why, but I think I attract it. One thing that seems to be the biggest topic of discussion is my religion. Atleast, that's what people say - but, it seems to be more of a question of my character. One thing in life that you learn is you will always be judged, no matter what, and you will judge yourself. You may not mean to, but it's just how society is and the way that it will more than likely stay. This weekend, I was judged by my own family and my character, as a Christian, was questioned. I found it to be one of the most insulting conversations with a hypocrite that I have ever had in my life. So, now, for your reading please - since I know my friends are more open minded and actually understand where I am coming from - I shall discuss my religion and my own character.

What I am is a twenty-three year old woman that has finally learned what her religion truly means to her, personally. I have believed in God most of my life - only truly questioning once when my grandfather was taken away from me. I felt betrayed and confused, had no guidance, and didn't really know what to do with myself. My parents never regularly attended church because of bad experiences in the past, but they always encouraged me to go to church if I felt as though it was what I was meant to do. I went to church as a child and was discouraged. When you go to a church where a preacher is telling you to never sin, get saved or you're going to Hell, all the while boinking and impregnating his wife's sister behind closed doors - well, all I can say is hypocrisy discouraged me and made me believe that nothing was holy anymore. As if that wasn't enough, I went to another church with my family that I found decent, but the kids always made fun of everyone - not to mention, I found out my family was only going there to lie and get free handouts from the church for Christmas, then they stopped going to the church. Needless to say, I never wanted to set foot into another church. I was convinced from then on out that Christians were worse than those that didn't go to church, so I surrounded myself with as many non-Christians as possible. I strayed. I grew up still believing in God, but never really associating with any church. My parents supported this unconditionally - as parents should.

Years down the line, I met and started dating Nick. When we started getting serious, we started talking openly about our religion and our views on things. Come to find out, we were both the same - the only difference was Nick was a lot smarter when it came to the whole church thing. As he explained, you kind of have to take the good with the bad. In today's society, it's not the same as it was back then. There are people at church for the right reasons, and then there are some there for the wrong reasons. The preacher is the same - he is well educated and guides you, but in the end he is still just human like everyone else and has his flaws as well. I started going to Nick's church and took his advice. He's right, you just have to take the good with the bad and accept who these people are - just like you accept others.

I am also human, and I have my flaws. So, out of all of this - let me tell you what I have learned. I am a Christian .. a Southern Baptist, to be exact. I believe in God and also believed that Jesus died on the cross for my sins, as well as everyone else's sins. I believe in eternal life. I do sin, but I am not a sinner. Everyone sins on a daily basis, whether if you realize it or not .. and that is just the way it is. I accept people for who they are - I may not agree with how they live their lives, but it's not my place to judge. I believe that I can have a drink every once in a while and still continue to be a good person. I believe that saying "shit" or "fuck" does not make me an evil spawn from Hell. I also believe that people should lighten up on the whole religion thing, let people be and stop trying to be the one who places judgement and tries to change people's fate. It's all bull.

Moral of this grand story?

You're human, and so am I. I don't care what you do and you shouldn't care what I do. If you believe in God, that's cool. If not, that's cool, too. I'm not going to try to change you and you shouldn't try to change me. I am comfortable with myself, and you should be comfortable with yourself. If you're not, then you need to look internally and not externally. Nothing in life is guaranteed and the fact of all of this matter is none of us knows what really happens after we die. I believe what I believe, and I am not going to press that on anyone. Please, do the same.

What's two things that we can do and are guaranteed? Love and acceptance. Try it, please.

One night only ..

2007-09-06T03:11:23Z

I've posted a blog on my Myspace and I'm too drained to do another for here. If you'd like, just check out the one on Myspace, thanks.

www.myspace.com/synplicity

The only thing I really left out is that I laid out of work yesterday because I threw up like three times and my eyes were almost swollen shut, thanks to allergies. But, I figured I'd save a little for here. ;)

Labor Day: Hooray for days off!

2007-09-03T13:14:56Z

Sadly, today is my last day of the four-day weekend. Boo. But, that just means that I have 10 hours of work today, and Friday will be overtime. Hooray! My little brother, Chris, is here. Sadly, I lost him to my husband and those damned video games. So, I'm forced to update my journal out of boredom. It was either that or cleaning, and I REALLY don't feel like cleaning today. Fuck it.

I had a really weird, but cool dream last night/ this morning. I had a dream that Nick and I went to some home improvement store and Kasey Kahne (a nascar driver) was there. I went up to talk to him and noticed that he was doing promotions, but he had to have his baby there because his wife left him and no one would watch her. So, I volunteered to watch her while Nick and I shopped. So, we shopped and afterwards, I talked to Kasey for a while.

It seems like a boring dream, I know. But, I think the lack of social interaction is starting to get to me. I miss my friends dearly. Family is always great, but you have to have friends. The people at work and church just don't do it for me. Half of them are snobs and think they're better than everyone. It sucks that people are that way in church, too. The weekend I get to see Amanda (and hopefully Rachel!!) can not come fast enough! I have missed those two drastically. Not to mention, not seeing Antonio in so long is freaking killing me! Sometimes, my only wish is to have the good old days back. The days where we would work then meet each other at Carson and watch movies all night. =(

I've decided to not go to the Mandy Moore show. As much as I want to see the chick, money needs to be saved right now. I don't love her any less, I just have to look at my finances - especially with the plans for the two upcoming weekends after that. I was out-voted on the car show and I am definitely not forfeiting a weekend with Amanda. Fuuuuck that.

Tara taught me how to play SkipBo last night. It's fun! I thought it was just a kids' game, but it's fantastically wonderful when you have some time to play. Of course, this is coming from someone who loves Uno and Go Fish, too. ;)

I really cannot think of anything interesting to say right now, so I might as well stop here. Oh, I ordered a free sample of Gwen Stefani's fragrance, L by LAMB. I had a tester in one of my magazines and I am in love with it .. it's divine. www.lambfragrance.com for anyone interested. Alright, going, bye.

Yay Friday!!

2007-08-31T18:34:42Z

I'm getting my hair cut today! My eyebrows as well, but more importantly - hair! I haven't had a cut in quite some time. I'm going to try to keep the length, just put in some layers and maybe have some bangs. Not short, longer than eye length and to the side. I don't know. I have a pretty good idea of what I want and I just found it in Tara's hair style guide, so I should be all good. I have decided that I may go with a short cut next Spring/Summer. It's obviously to late in the season, so I'm sticking with the long hair for now. But, a change for next time should be fun. =)

Speaking of change, I just went through and got rid of about half of my wardrobe .. again. I have just decided that it's time to let go since I don't wear the stuff. Not to mention, my thighs hated a few of the things. Some stuff even still had the tags on them because I bought it on a whim but never wore it. I let Tara go through and get whatever she could wear and wanted. The rest, I guess, will go over to my parents' house if they want to sell it for a little money to help pay on the bills. Most of it was never worn or just worn a few times - it's sad, actually.

I'm really excited about my hair. After that, I'll be driving to Gastonia until tomorrow. In any case, I need to go. Cuddle time with my babies!! =)

OMG ... TMI !!

2007-08-31T03:50:33Z

I have to share, even though it's probably TMI for a lot of you crazy people. I'll be gentle. ;) I just went to adameve.com because I wanted to buy some things for myself and Nick. In any case, in all, without all the discounts, I would have just spent well over $100. HOWEVER, with the deals for Labor Day (free shipping, etc) and the handy dandy internet - I just paid a whopping $48.66 for the whole shebang! I'm just too happy about this .. which is probably why I am posting. Well, that and lack of sleep. Did I mention I got a free DVD and Toy with my purchase? I don't know what they are because it's "Mystery" gifts, but hey, it's free!!

But, for a tip to anyone that may not know, always look up coupon and discount codes for websites before you purchase. I usually just google it, and I found a code for 25% off the entire order, 50% off one item, and free shipping. It's saved my ass a lot of times .. I've saved a ton of money over the years.

Melissa Jean Wadkins ..

2007-08-21T23:39:13Z

It's my new name because the social security office sucks. I couldn't have both last names without a fucking hyphen. Bleh. In any case, with all of my troubles with "Melissa Jean Parker" in the past .. I decided to drop Parker altogether and just keep my middle name. I felt guilt doing it for some reason. But, it will always be half of me no matter what .. so, I should just get over it.

Oh, and by the way - if you didn't know .. ever since the day I was born, I have been cursed with the fact that another Melissa Jean Parker was born the exact same day in the exact same hospital to parents with the exact same names as my parents. The only differences is the last four digits of our social security numbers and the times we were born - but, no one really looks at that. She has bad credit .. and, ever since we turned 18, she's had bad credit and they somehow always contact me. So, maybe I can see some peace. =)

Also, and some people think this is weird, but I have always liked the name "Parker" for a boy. So, if Nick and I ever have a son - like it or not for Nick, our child is going to have Parker in his name somehow, some way. Probably middle .. like Nicholas Parker Wadkins or something equally adorable. ;)

Edit: Oh, and since my last name officially starts with "W" now, I can go by my gangsta name .. M Dub. Haha. I really have to stop watching Girls Next Door ..

Freak.

2007-08-17T00:06:33Z

The oddest thing happened today. I went to give my phone to Nick so he could call his dad when I noticed that it was turned off. So, I turned it on and pressed SEND to find his number. When I did, I noticed that it said I had called Rachel about an hour earlier .. even though I hadn't. Well, I decided to call Rachel to see what was going on. I guess my phone just went insane, but I am glad that it did. We ended up talking for a good while and it made me realize how much I have missed talking to her. So, hooray for freak phones!

Country living.

2007-08-14T23:41:53Z

I figured out one thing that I absolutely can NOT stand about living in the country: bug bites. Mostly just mosquitoes. It's annoying. Sure, there were and still are mosquitoes in the city .. but, I swear, they're like a thousand times worse in the country - especially around all of the trees. My legs are absolutely covered in little red bug bites. However, it's not only from that. Thanks to the beach trip, our poor little pups have fleas and that's making them miserable with their sensitive skin. =( We've started washing them every other day and have them on flea medication. We haven't seen any the past few days, but they're still scratching themselves a lot -- probably little scabs or something.

Anyways .. my weekend was fun. =) With the excitement of Dave moving out, everything has been running smoothly. Nick and I don't argue a fraction of how much we used to. Even Nick and Tara don't have as many quarrels as they used to. It's just nice to come home to a quiet (and calm) house, eat great food, do some chores with no bickering about who should do what, then settle down and have some good quality, stress-free family time. Nick and I ended up working a few hours on Friday, then we ran some errands before I made my way to Gastonia. While I was in Gastonia, I just basically had some quality time with my parents and helped them out with some stuff around the house - mainly just helping Dad get more of the patio completed. On my way home, I dropped by Concord Mills and picked up Chris. He came home with me and just chilled with us for the weekend. He even went to church with us. Before we took him home to Salisbury, we went to Albemarle and watched Rush Hour 3 (freaking hilarious, by the way). When we came home, we basically crashed for the night and that was it. I actually think that Chris is planning on coming back next weekend, which would be awesome.

The work week has went by fairly smoothly. We have started on a million dollar house on the lake. The house is crazy, but really pretty. The insane part about it is the people that are having this house built actually own a house and live on the beach - this is just a weekend house for them. What the hell is that about? I wish I had the money to blow like that. It's sad enough that they are installing a $23,000 elevator in it .. just for two floors.

As far as end of the week plans go, I'm trying not to make real definite plans because I know how things come up. However, we are working longer hours to have Friday off. So, if this goes as planned, then I am going to take advantage of Friday by going to the DMV and Social Security office to have my name officially changed to Parker Wadkins, and my address changed as well - I think I have procrastinated long enough on this one. My name on my license and everything is going to be so long because I am not willing to give up any of my names, I'm just adding Wadkins to the end. So, I will be Melissa Jean Parker Wadkins (no dash, I hate dashes) for the rest of my life. Hooray! After that, I think it's back to Gastonia to help Dad and then home to see Chris.

Rinse, lather, and repeat.

!@#$%!!!

2007-08-08T21:24:58Z

With the exception of the top tier that is wrapped tightly and stored securely .. the fucker ate all of my mother effin' wedding cake that I was saving in the freezer for mine and Nick's five month wedding anniversary -- which just so fucking happens to be my birthday.

And I know, deep down, this is my fault. Why? Because I asked him one night if he would like ONE SLICE of my fucking wedding cake. It was a whole banquet size aluminum pan stacked FULL of individually cut pieces of my wedding cake. I'm sorry, but I don't see how he justifies eating all of it .. well, minus the two slices that Nick found stashed away. Did he really think me telling him to eat a slice means "Hey, could you please eat this whole cake that my mom and dad spent $250 dollars on?" Yes, I'm sure my parents would LOVE to know that their hard-earned money went to feed his sorry, lazy, good-for-nothing, piece of shit ass.

GRR! !@#$^&*!

Happy 2 Months!!

2007-07-26T01:09:19Z

So, I don't know why .. but, the date just came to mind and I realize that it has been officially two months since Nick and I got married. Hooray! Time has actually flown by. Nothing has really changed. I'm just still madly in love with him and I'm certain it's a permanent thing.

I was just thinking and I realize that I am in a very happy state and I'm living a very content life right now. It's amazing what steps you can and people that you can meet that just make your life turn into something either really right or just really wrong.

About five years ago, I was in the most miserable state of mind that I could have ever been in. I was in lust with a guy who was just using me and manipulating me to get whatever he wanted -- as I am sure he was doing with quite a few people. I was hanging onto his every word and giving him whatever I could .. and all I got in return was a broken heart, being used, and my name was defamed in every sense of the word to people I didn't even know. Do you know how heartbreaking it is to find out that the guy you lost (not gave, lost - it was a very tragic mistake on my part) your virginity to was going around to all of your mutual friends telling them that you raped him and that he was a drunk .. all the while messing around with some of your "close" friends behind your back? Stalker .. bitch .. psycho .. pathological liar .. I think I was given every name in the book. It's so funny to look back at it now and see how pathetic it all really was - and how low and pathetic he had to be to do those things.

Thank God that I just so happened to have friends that supported me to the fullest extent. Antonio .. Matt .. Amanda .. Josh .. Kristen .. Ben .. hell, even Heidi was there for me. I don't know what I would have done without them. Antonio had always told me to lose the jerk, and I should have listened because, ever since I have met Antonio, he has been nothing but the most sincerest and dearest friend .. and he always had my back, no matter how stupid I was being. But, I was young and stupid and had to find out everything the hard way. Leave it up to Matt to be stubborn as hell in his ways .. he saved me. My relationship with Matt was amazing, especially in the beginning. We were both going through some things and decided to go through the changes together - we practically dedicated ourselves to helping one another through the change. And, of course, my other friends (even if they didn't know what I was up to) were always right there for me throughout it all.

Matt went through an operation, dedicated himself to being healthy, came out, and moved on to conquering all the challenges in his life with ease, mainly school. I dumped the guy and some not-so-good friends, found myself .. changed myself, met the love of my life and the rest of it is history.

Like I said, I have it pretty good. Great, even. I have an incredible life. If I had to change anything, it would be getting to see my friends and some of my family more - everything can't be perfect.

Anyways, I didn't want this to run on so long. I just wanted to state how happy I am and how wonderfully content life is right now. For those of you worried about my little "D" situation, I'm just taking that with a smile on my face and I know that, soon enough, I will prevail. Mwah!

"I C U .. P?"

2007-07-15T23:20:34Z

Mommy can see now! I'm so happy, there's really not enough words for the positive emotions that I feel. Honestly. The surgery didn't take long at all (30 minutes), though the doctor said it took longer than most because my mom had a full cataract. It was the freakiest thing ever - when they dilated her eye, all you saw was white instead of black. She now has an artificial lens in her eye. The day after the surgery, she had 20/150 vision, which the doctor said was fabulous seeing as how she was completely blind before the surgery. She goes for her one week post-op on Wednesday. The hardest part of the whole thing for her was the pain when the feel good medicine went away, and then actually applying the eye drops. My mom has always had really bad nerve problems and since the cirrhosis, she cannot take anything really good for it because they don't want her to be on any medications that process through her liver. So, she has shaky hands and couldn't do the drops. Besides staying just Monday and Tuesday, I ended up staying all week for her and dad because I knew dad couldn't miss any more work. Then, I had my own doctor's appointment on Friday, but that was just them refilling my anti-baby prescription. ;) But, I did see Kristin at the doctor's office, even though she didn't see me. I miss that girl so much. It's funny how you go through friendships with very rocky issues, yet you miss those people so much when you're not actually around them. The week with my mom was fun. I tried to keep myself busy most of the time so I didn't feel so guilty about missing work, and there was plenty to keep me busy! I also made sure to keep Mom well rested, but I let her do some things as well. Since the surgery, she's actually starting to talk about the beach trip. Yay!

Since I got home, I've been keeping myself busy. Clothes are never-ending around here and so is the small little chores that only Tara and I seem to be able to keep up with. Ahh, the joys of being wives. ;) We went to Velocity last night and even though it wasn't that crowded (probably because of how early we went), it was a ton of fun, minus a few depressing moments that seem to only happen to me. But, whatever. I figured out that I can get a small tipsy buzz going if I chug a glass of wine and follow it with a Pucker on an empty stomach. Tara and I also both realized that we are slightly addicted to the tingling sensations we get from the lip plumper lip glosses, though they do absolutely nothing for the size of our lips - but, we think it may have something to do with our lips already being plump naturally, or the product just sucks. Velocity has had a complete make over and it looks awesome, I can't wait to see the final FINAL product.

And now, I'm going to relax .. then it's back to work tomorrow, then back to Gastonia on Friday for the weekend because Nick is working the club. I'm planning on spending some quality time with my little brother and just focusing on family for a while.

Half way there!

2007-07-08T19:39:50Z

I have a shower! After two weeks of not having a shower and having to use my mother-in-law's, I now have a freaking working shower in my still-torn-up bathroom!! The walls are still bare sheet rock, the toilet is still outside in the building, and the sink is still shut off and ready to be taken out .. not to mention, the floor is still tile-less with just the simple remains of grout. I love it, though. I am excited about completing this project, though finding a match to the orange paint we have seems to still be an issue. I think I'll just peel some paint off of the wall and take it to Lowe's to see if they can match it.

I'm packing up right now to go to Gastonia. My stomach is in knots. I am so excited about my mom getting this damned cataract out of her eye and getting her vision back, but them messing with her eye still scares the piss out of me. Losing your vision isn't cool at all. I know that no matter what, my mom will be strong, I just feel as though she deserves a bit of a break. I want her to be able to see the beach when we go at the end of the month, I want her to be able to see Taz when he's with her, I just want her to be able to go out into the sunlight without having the darkest pair of shades on and still having a headache-causing glare in her eyes. And, God willing, when the day comes that I decide to have a kid, I want her to be able to see him/her and watch him/her grow up to be a strong adult. If I decide to have a kid. ;)

Anyways, so I am going to Gastonia and I am hoping to have a great week. I know I will because I'll get to see my mommy, I just hope everything else goes well.

"What make baby cry?!"

2007-07-02T03:43:29Z

So, I think that I am finally getting over my little summer cold thingy-mabobber. It started out as a sore throat that began about half a day after our little ordeal of getting high at the beauty shop. It's amazing how much that shit will sneak up on you. By the way, if you paint with Kilz .. wear a mask! Unless you like killing a million brain cells and acting like a ten year old for hours.

The kittens at Nick's parents' house are officially outside now. They're so cute playing in the barn! And, they're all still counted for, so that means they're doing pretty wonderful outside! As far as the kittens that were born next door, we have no clue what the hell happened to them. They left the box outside during a storm, though it was under shelter. The next morning, the box and ALL of the cats (except for Luna because he/she belongs to someone else) were gone and have not been seen since. It's sad, but I'm glad.

My bathroom is completely demolished now. All that's left is half a floor, a toilet, and a sink. The tiles on the wall have all been taken off and so has most of the sheet rock .. we just have a small portion of the bathroom walls painted the pretty orange still - which, by the way, we're painting the bathroom back to the pretty orange! I'll be honest, no one likes it as much as me .. but, it's amazing how far you can get when you bribe your husband with sex. Har har. ;) I'm kidding .. Nick really likes the color, so all I had to say was I liked it too to keep it. =)