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i am a workaholic.....

bob died this morning....they were married for about 2 months :(

so basically my mother hasn't been home in like a week.
bob is in the hospital.
hes not doing good at all.
he asked to b taken off everything this morning.
this means hes is only on morphine for pain and to make him comfortable and oxygen.
each day is a blessing...
my mom is a mess but a strong mess...
she is still caring for him and doing whatever she can for him.
she's amazing.
i've been at the hospital for about 90% of the time since thurs.
i missed work which sucks. two shifts so about $280 i'm not getttin.
but ill try to do some extra ones to make up for it.
im losing my mind.
my family (my new family) is a complete mess but again not blubbering idiots.
its killin my to see everyone like this... esp my mom.
i love her and i feel so bad....

im home from school. i got home the 17th which was nice cuz finals were hell...altough home hasnt been great...i have no car so i cant really go anywhere which sucks but i should be gettin a car soon...hopefully...depending on bob...
bob isnt doin so well hes been in and out of the hospital but the majority of his issues are all in his head.. like he thinks that if he sleeps all the time that hell feel better but all it does is give him blood clots in his legs... also he dont eat or drink.... but he needs so get out of bed and do shit.... but watever
my mom got gizmo back from joe about 3 weeks ago so he was here wen i got home... wen i got home giz got sick and we ended up having to put him to sleep on tuesday (may 22)... and it was a reallly sad and emotional time for me and my mom :( i never realized how much she actaully loved him...this is probably on of the worst moments of my life... the gave him sedatives and i was holding his head and i could feel how lifeless he was...and i broke down.... i brought him outside on a leash thing before all that and we walked around for a long time and he ate grass (he loves to eat grass and we would never let him so that made him happy haha) and then after like and hour he lead me to the door of the hospital and i open the door and he walked right in and waited for me to open the next door and then walked right into the exam room.... i put him on the table and he laid down and didnt even try to move...(all day he would not stay on the table.)so it was really weird...and sad cuz he like knew wat was goin on and he knew that i would never have gone inside had he not led me there....i cried so much....i miss him... i jus got him bak and now hes gone again... it seems like all my life he has been taken away then given bak to me, and now its over n he gone forever... i cant cry anymore tho i miss him so much and it hurts to come home and not see him on my bed....i love him so much and i cant stand him being gone......RIP my gizzy i love you with all my heart :(
anyways im goin up north this weekend with bobs mom and my step sisters... it should b fun we will b water skiing and kneeboarding.... and ive never done any of it so ill prob b in pain haha but itll b nice to get away for a lil bit.... well im done for now....

i really should b doing work but im so god damn lazy haha wtf i over tired and bored and i wanna do something... i kinda wanna go home...i no weird i thought i would never want to go home...i miss senior year i miss how things used to b i miss the way rachelle and i were friends at the beginning of senior year but thats gone i miss richie maddie shelly sam i miss living in danville.. i miss workin at dominos i miss joe and gizmo....i miss this summer with casey... i miss spain everything and tayla babes im good tho.. i can deal things change ppl change gotta deal...

oo shit im in class n i think im still drunk.. i feel like shit ewww ewww oh no

fuckin A! im sick
kill me pleaseeeeee!
coming home the 20th! six flags wit mom n her new boy n his kids wikid excited not.
this weekend was good i went to dads then casey picked me up drove everywhere. got megan the wasted time till 10 to go to ihop. so we went to plaistow and saw richie for like 5 mins god i miss that kid and i met his girlfreind.. shes quiet but i dunno im sure shes fine...ugh! i jus dont like him haveing a girlfreind... then we went to ihop till bout 1100 then droped megan off and went home because a certain someone kept changing the time.. ugh
then sunday we went to see caseys grandparents and then wen to visit DAN!! hahah omg i no we saw him after like 2 years. his dad dont no tho haha and then we allwent to the beach n he kissed casey twice ahh omg i no... then we dropped him off and headed bak to mass and then that certain someone said i should go over so casey and i went to walmart and to mcdonalds to change headed there at like 7 or 8 then we went home...then monday we went to nashua toget casey a new phone went bak to get my stuff and heeaded bak up to plymouth and then went to eat and then to hannafords to buy me food so i can live this week...
so ya this weekend was pretty sweet... yup and now im sick all because i went home ugh

goin home for the long weekend
casey is amazing we r goin to c Hinder @avalon on nov 26!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh cannot wait!!!great way to end thanksgiving break!!
this weekend shoud b reall fun wit my girl casey!!

ya so i don think my life can get any worse...
* i broke my camera today
* my mp3 player got stolen friday at school
* richie is fuckin gay

o AnGeL x8: hey
RICHIE874: hey who u wit
o AnGeL x8: no 1
o AnGeL x8: y?
RICHIE874: sneak out
RICHIE874:
o AnGeL x8: its thunderin n lightening
RICHIE874: sooo please please
o AnGeL x8: n wat would we do
o AnGeL x8: sit outside?
RICHIE874: yea and make out
o AnGeL x8: lol
RICHIE874: i am serious
o AnGeL x8: ya
RICHIE874: would u
o AnGeL x8: make out or sneak out
o AnGeL x8: ?
o AnGeL x8: lol
RICHIE874: both
RICHIE874: ??
o AnGeL x8: ya
RICHIE874: ya to which ?
o AnGeL x8: both i suppose....
RICHIE874: do u like me at all as more than just a friend
o AnGeL x8: ya
o AnGeL x8: i have
o AnGeL x8: for a while
RICHIE874: really?
o AnGeL x8: ya
RICHIE874: y didnt u tell me
o AnGeL x8: cuz
o AnGeL x8: i dont want to do much about it cuz ill fuck it up and i dont want to
RICHIE874: says who
o AnGeL x8: me
RICHIE874: so do u just wanna be friends but a lil bit more
RICHIE874: and see what happens
o AnGeL x8: ya
RICHIE874: were u mad when i kissed u
o AnGeL x8: cuz i sux at realtionships
o AnGeL x8: no
RICHIE874: so r we gonna be friends wit benifits
RICHIE874: ?
o AnGeL x8: ya iguess
o AnGeL x8: sry i took so long
RICHIE874: took so long bout what
o AnGeL x8: answering
o AnGeL x8: i went upstairs
RICHIE874: ( . )( . )
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RICHIE874: ()
o AnGeL x8: lol <~~~~he didnt get this soooo im conpletely lost
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i dunno if im soposed to sneak out or wat he jus left im confused

ya so i snuck??? out again on monday night with casey...it was fun we get there n we decide to go get me sum food cuz im hungry so its like 12 30 1 or so n we drive to cumbis which i must say was interesting and richie n his frind eric?? i dunno but wwe will call him that decided it would b fun to light my lil animal things on fire n shit wowso glad my car is not fried then richie gets a slushi and we head to DDs and i get a bagel and we head bek to the beach n shill in my car for like the next hour jus light shit on fire and mixin bug spray with fire lol fun really surprised we r not burnt.... they finally stop burning shit n casey is like burn something burn something lol fuckin pyro lol the we chill chill for a while n me n casey head home rich said hed call me the next day n he never did o well and get bgot mbak in the house fine n shit the next day was HELL cuz i was soooo fuckin tired i slept all morning while logan watched tv...... thats about it..... me n rachelle r scrapbooking so imma go

ya soo yesterday i went a family cookout thing wwhich was slightly boring... then went to chunkys wit casey and aw wedding crashers and im soo surprised i wasnt carded but luckily i wasnt n then i went home and did nothing richie called at like 1230 and wanted me to sneak out AGAIN n go swimming with him n someother ppl i told him i couldnt bcuz i was already in bed n i had to get up early n told me to call him later today..so i guess i will.... im tooo chickenshit to sneak out by myself n i wanna c richie again but i have no1 to sneak out with ahhh o well

MY MOTHER IS A DOUCHEBAG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya wow ive had a busy weeek....

Monday: i babysat elena n logan and then met up with casey... we took the kids swimming then brought them home and headed to my house.  we went to get some ice cream n then watched Hide and Seek, then chilled for a while. then richie imed me n men casey ended up sneakin out of my house... ya o god he says to push the car out of the driveway in neutral n we shouldnt get caught so we do so n omg is my car heavy we barely got it a carlenght out of the driveway bfore we gave up and just started the car we met richie at the end of my road n followed him to angle pond beach he decided we were goin swimming i was so not goin in n richie made n he swam me out to the dock n casey met us out there.. we chilled for a bit the he swam me back n we chilled a lil bit more n casey and i went bak home snuck bak in successsfully and it was all good... then went to sleep

Tuesday: casey n i babysat till like 1 wen i drove her bak to my nannies n she left to go to sylvan and i chilled at the pool wit the kids like like 5 then i went to paiges and chilled with her kristinn some guy they r friends with then i went hom at like 10 n went to bed....

Wednesday: rachelle had to babysit the kids she watces n said that we should all our kids together but she ended up not needing to babysit so she came over to swim at my nannies then we went to james and chilled for a while then watched racing stripes and went swimming then left at like 1030 11 didnt get to her house till like 12 then we went to sleep....

Thursday: babysat again with rachelle and went swimming at nannies again.. dropped the kids off then went to my house n got ready n went to richies n chilled wit richie n pat for for like an hourn half  they threw berries at my car :( and went off roading for like 2 seconds n chilled rachelle was in a bad mood cuz james was mad.... so we left n went to c james n they talked n everything was good again n i passed out like the  whole time i was there then i woke up wen my mum called to say i shouldve left by then and so we left n got stuck waiting for like a 500 car slow ass train to passs and then went n got some wendys cuz i was starving n like FLEW home like 80 90 the whole way got ome in like 30 min wen it takes like 40 to 45 lol wow n then we were gonna sneak out but i got in a bad mood  cuz richie went gaga ova rachelle but ya we i got over it n then we decided we were too tired to go so we went to bed n i guess richie called at like 2 am and i guess i answered n talk but i dont remember watsoever 

Today: rachelle and i babysat the kids jus like i do everyday  we chilled till like 1 30 2 n went to the pool again my nannie watched the kids n we went to meet james the came to the pool the i had to go to my appt for talking abiout my senior pics ywa gay but ya made an appt then headed bak home nt he went n vaccumed my car then came home n chilled.. ya great huh n now im doing this

 that was my week...quite busy for me lol

 

RICHIE874: hey\
o AnGeL x8: hey
o AnGeL x8:  wats up
RICHIE874: nuttn u 
o AnGeL x8: nuttin
o AnGeL x8: tired
RICHIE874: who u with
o AnGeL x8: no 1
RICHIE874: o i c
o AnGeL x8: haha wats the face for
RICHIE874: i know
o AnGeL x8: yes u no i dont......
RICHIE874: i
o AnGeL x8: huh?
o AnGeL x8: im confused
RICHIE874: i see u
o AnGeL x8: no u dont
RICHIE874: i kjnow 
o AnGeL x8: lol
RICHIE874: were u really gettn mad that we thought ur friend was cute
RICHIE874: ?
o AnGeL x8: noo
o AnGeL x8: everyone like sooo falls for her wen they c her
RICHIE874: o because u know i think ur cute too
o AnGeL x8:  im nothing compared to her
o AnGeL x8:  i no that
RICHIE874: yea u r babe
o AnGeL x8: no
o AnGeL x8: not really
RICHIE874: yea u r '
o AnGeL x8: ....
RICHIE874: home
o AnGeL x8: home wat
RICHIE874: do u like me
o AnGeL x8: ya but im not gonna do anything about it tho  he didnt get this tho cuz he signed off
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^^ ya so i dunno wat imma do i really dont wanna have a bf but like i wann ab like together but not i no  i make no sense ahhhh

1. Napoleon Dynamite
2. Saw
3. White Noise
4. White Oleander
5. Anger Managementb
6. 50 First Dates
7. Jason X
8. Scream
9. Scream 2
10. Scream 3
11. Scary Movie
12. Scary Movie 2
13. Scary Movie 3
14. American Pie
15. American Pie 2
16. American Wedding
17. Harry Potter
18. Harry Potter 2
19. Harry Potter 3
20. Resident Evil I
21. Resident Evil 2
22. The Wedding Singer
23. Little Black Book
24. The Village
25. Donnie Darko
26. Lilo & Stitch
27. Finding Nemo
28. Finding Neverland
29. 13 Ghosts
30. Signs
31. The Grinch
32. Texas Chainsaw Massacre
33. White Chicks
34. Butterfly Effect
35. Thirteen going on 30
36. I, Robot
37. Dodge ball
38. Universal Soldier
39. A Series Of Unfortunate Events
40. Along Came A Spider
41. Deep impact
42. KingPin
43. Never Been Kissed
44. Meet The Parents
45. Meet The Fockers
46. Eight Crazy Nights
47. A Cinderella Story
48. The Terminal
49. The Lizzie McGuire Movie
50. Passport to Paris
51. Dumb & Dumber
52. Dumb & Dumberer
53. Final Destination
54. Final Destination 2
55. Halloween
56. The Ring
57. The Ring 2
58. Harold & Kumar Go to whitecastle
59. Practical Magic
60. Chicago
61. Ghost Ship
62. From Hell
63. Hellboy
64. Secret Window
65. I Am Sam
66. The Whole Nine Yards
67. The Whole Ten Yards
68. The Day After Tomorrow
69. Child's Play
70. Bride of Chucky
71. Ten Things I Hate About You
72. Just Married
73. Gothica
74. A Nightmare on Elm Street
75. Sixteen Candles
76. Bad Boys
77. Bad Boys 2
78. Joy Ride
79. Seven (SE7EN)
80. Oceans Eleven
81. Oceans Twelve
82. Identity
83. Lone Star
84. Bedazzled
85. Predator I
86. Predator II
87. Alien vs. Predator
88. Cujo
89. Independence Day
90. Darkness Falls
91. Christine
92. ET
93. Children of the Corn
94. My Boss' Daughter
95. Maid in Manhattan
96. Frailty
97. Best bet
98. How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
99. She's All That
100. Calendar Girls
101. Sideways
102. Mars Attacks
103. Event Horizon
104. Ever After
105. Forrest Gump
106. Big Trouble in Little China
107. X-men1
108 X-men2
109. Jeepers Creepers
110. Jeepers Creepers 2
111. Catch Me If You Can
112. The Others
113. Freaky Friday
114. Reign of Fire
115. Cruel Intentions
116. PI
117. Swimfan
118. Miracle
119. Old School
120. Ray
121. The Notebook
122. K-Pax
123. Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
124. Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
125. Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
126. A Walk to Remember
127. Boogeyman
128. Hitch
129. Super troopers
130. South Park: Bigger, Longer and Uncut
131. The Fifth Element
132. Star wars episode I
133. Star wars episode II
134. Star wars episode IV
135. Star wars episode V
136. Star wars episode VI
137. Starwars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
138. Swimming with Sharks
139. Trainspotting
140. People under the stairs
141. Blue Velvet
142. Sound of music
143. Parent Trap
144. The Burbs
145. SLC Punk
146. Meet Joe Black
147. Wild girls
148. A Clockwork Orange
149. The Order
150. Spiderman
151. Spiderman 2
152. Amelie
153. Mean Girls
154. Shrek
155. Shrek 2
156. The Incredibles
157. Collateral
158. The Fast & The Furious
159. 2 Fast 2 Furious
160. Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
161. Closer
162. The Sixth Sense
163. Artificial intelligence
164. Love Actually
165. Shutter
166. Ella Enchanted
167. Princess diaries 1
168. Princess diaries 2
169. Constantine
170. Million Dollar Baby
171. Life of David Gale
172. 25th hour
173. Vanilla Sky
174. Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind
175. Boogie Nights
176. Braveheart
177. The Anarchist Cook Book (not exactly a movie)
178. My House In Umbria
179. Double Jeopardy
180. Monsters, Inc
181. Big Daddy
182. Little Nicky
183. Waterboy
184. Billy Madison
185. Nightmare Before Christmas
186. Pirates of the Caribbean
187. Willy Wonka
188. Fight Club

 

 

102 deff a movie whore ;)

omg ya so im on my way to school and i waqs goin down the school road and umm i def rear-ended some1 ya omg i wasnt really goin fast but fast enough where the seatbelt made a mark on my shoulder... ya nothin happened to my car but i think i cracked the bumper on the car i hit or it was there bfore i dunno.... but they didnt take ne of my information unless they took license plate wen i was leaving... ahhhh ya and i didnt tell my mom soooo.....if they did im screwed.

ya so im grounded again yya we and she didnt let me go to the kiss concert with rachelle bri n jess sooo that suxed but at least she is paying for it ya im boredn i dont feel like doing this ne more so ya

goin to get my license today!!!!! I hope i pass.... wow im like freaking out i hope i get it!!!! wish me luck!!!!

look at waat my wonderful best freind who loves me o soo much did for me shes sucha cutie ily MY LOVER!!!!

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