my favorite picture ever.

running from hobos is hard work. Its a good thing there were 5 people there instead of 2 or 3 because there was some god damn teamwork and i love it.

broken glass and shattered dreams

my name is # 7...come # 7.

ok so running from hobos in a skirt and a white shirt...with out getting dirty.  Thats straight up skill.

aw jeff

trapped under the floor board

Bams house knock first

awwwwwwwwwww! thats cute.

tar dizzle

skeet skeet mothafucka

that was the worst movie ever.

so tell me what u think of my pics (drew..becuase ur the only one who reads this)

[	mood	|	awake	]
[	music	|	dashboard confessional-the good fight	]

The oracle once told me that dreams are only real when there is no moon. But when there’s a full moon the dreams you have are your fears and just a bunch of lies, things you shouldn’t worry about. What was your dream the night of the full moon?? Mine was bad. Jeff’s ex-girlfriend , Beth came into ihop and was giving him a hard time, making him feel like shit as always. It interrupted our flirting and it made me mad. So he went over to see what she wanted and she told him she was pregnant with his child. He stayed and talked to her for what seemed like hours while I watched from afar. Finally he came over and told me what happened and told me that we would have to break up due to Beth’s pregnancy. I freaked out and cried and cried. But he still did it. Later I remember them being in someone’s closet. Because whoever lived there, well their parents either didn’t like Beth or couldn’t find out she was pregnant. I have no idea why I was there. So it went from ihop.. to me slipping a pregnancy test under the door for her. Jeff came out and told me that Beth, in fact, was not pregnant she was only saying that for his attention. And trying to get rid of me. But he never got back together with me. Instead he stayed with Beth. I woke up crying that morning until I realized it was a dream. That’s what I’m afraid of most. The full moon has the power to affect tide. Since humans have a lot of water in their bodies does the moon affect them just as much? I told Jeff this dream the next day. And he thought it was crazy and assured me it would never happen. which made me feel a bit better about it. I wonder what I will dream of when there is no moon out.

[	mood	|	depressed	]
[	music	|	my chemical romance	]

i  i'm thinking its a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss their perfecly aligned.

my dad is an asshole and im moving out as soon as i make enough money. I will never hit my kid. no matter what they do. 5 more months and im hella out.maybe even sooner.

e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.  l.o.o.k.s.  p.e.r.f.e.c.t.  f.r.om.  f.a.r. a.w.a.y.

MSG: you are the greatest at cheering someone up. Thank you for being there for me. You're such a wonderful person. i love you.  12:21 am. 6/29/04

it warms my heart.

jeff

marmar

coffee anyone??

aw

talking shit about a pretty sunset...at the ihop parking lot

aw jeff dont cry

: )

mar and patricia! lol she closed her eyes. I blame Bill he cant take pictures right.

[	mood	|	indescribable	]
[	music	|	rilo kiley- hail to those who have come from the sunlight...	]

Out of my noebook.....

Between dreams and reality i've found a place for myself...stay until forevermore. Dreams are our world turnes  upside down.

In a little pink apartment.with writing on the wall.a roommate and a fish.who sleep against the wall.theres no need to sneak through trees. no notanymore.

I went ot to find a corner, my scarf tethering in the wind.  I walked through the woods and found one and went around to see what was on the other side.  A little pine tree with pebbles and some dry grass.  I walked along the river and sat on the rock watching the leaves dance aroud in a litte circle near the shore.  Then it started to rain. I ran quickly to your house..as quickly as i could.  I was all wet when you opened the door.  I went inside and you told me a story while i waited. The rain soon passed but i already feel asleep in your ams next to the fireplace and you brushed my bangs aside and kissed my forehead while i slept and dreamt...dreams of chocolate trees..and rivers of blood...we met the next day, and the day after that, soon becoming inseperable  They spent hours together just talking, and dancing till the music ended. 

He walked her home afterward, and then paused on the porch nd kissed her goodnight for the first time wondering why he had waited as long as he had.

Fade me away to a beautiful somewhere.

[	mood	|	creative	]
[	music	|	modest mouse-out of gas	]

He said i was his iris and that i defined beautiful. Good night my love the sky will shower us with shhooting stars until all or dreams come true.

The notebook by Nicholas Sparks is a good book it is now a movie. I ant to see it becuase the book is good. It makes me happy. :D

Yeah so 600 saved up??? job paying off??? apartment soon??? getting the hell out of here???

Yes to all of the above.

[	mood	|	crushed	]
[	music	|	ani difranco-plastic castles	]

its so cool how a whole 4 people remember your birthday. Its ok tho.

Heather thanks for the letter i'll write you back soon. 

Drew you're a sweetheart and im sorry i wasnt home yesterday.  i wanted to go to walmart with you and john but jeff kidnapped me.

It was cool because i didn't know where we were going. It was supposed to be a surprise. so we went to the lake and had a picnic it was sweet. and we listened to coldplay and watched the waves.  : )

Jeff-thanks for kidnapping me.

Angie- i still love you!!

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mood

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angry

]

ok so all these people are getting mad at me because because im busy with work and hanging out with jeff. It makes me so mad  because not a single one cares and they know it because if they did they wouldnt bitch at me they'd come get me and hang out.  and whenever i can hang out they can't.  I've been replaced withother by now.  And all they're jealous little comments can go to hell. for the first time in a long time i'm happy and they should accept it.  Im happy not because i spend endless days at ihop doubleshifting my ass...but because i've got someone who cares.  and that im saving toget the hell out of here in 4 or 5 months.  I mean the last time i went to feed the ducks? um never.  The last time i got a text in the middle of the night asking me to go to the park? never. Last time i walked through the forest holding hands? never.

I wonder how many will remember what tomorrow is??

It makes me so mad because its bull shit and people cant be happy for me. I always have to be happy for everyone.  Its amazing how much pple change.  my worst fear..people i care about forgetting about me...is coming true.

[	mood	|	calm	]
[	music	|	muse-sing for absolution	]

The cutest things said to me recently:

Take my hand
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning's light, we'll be half-way to anywhere, where love is more than just your name.

...But i never promised you a rose garden...

But when I call him tonight my voice will give no hints. And if he guesses I'll deny it.  I wish I could tell him. That I'm breaking inside. And im madly in love with this gorgeous boy. We're such pretty boys and girls, we laugh in the sunshine ...we laugh like little children. sitting on the ledge Smoking, hardly staring at the blank wall in front of our faces.  Silence falls upon us. no words are spoken. I know what your saying without you having to speak.  And i take what i can get.  Enjoying every minute.  You can always make me smile with your random acts of kindness. I swear theres something there and I know you can feel it too. So meet me at the traintracks my darling, lead me into the night, where dreamers sleep and I long for one innocent kiss. Maybe im spolied? yes that must be it.  I just dont know any more. the perfect melody. We sing under the beautiful stars, you are no stranger.  It must be something in the way you move...in the way you dream...should i put mine up for sale??  whisper something sweet. thats when i'll look for my star in the moon lit sky. Its buried, but its there. and yours right next to mine. these are all the things i've wanted. come along now we'll be under the weeping willow and you'll wait for me to fall asleep in your arms while you speak of tidal waves, trees of chocolate, and shadows that move across the moon. i know that i'm a fool. but there's not much i can do.

to be continued...