got a new apartment with ann-marie in the north end of fall river. [rolling green drive] it's cozy and cute.
met john's mother a couple weeks back, which was pretty nice. stayed at her house for two days and then went back home. met his brother too.
john has been coming with me to the apartment during lunch, which is always fun. we have two days off together next week that we're going to spend hanging out too. that makes me pretty happy. he says, "things feel like they're finally moving along" which is true... and it's a good feeling. he keeps insinuating that before long he'll be living there, too. that would be really nice to have him around like that. i hope that he chooses that path, instead of his mother's house. we'll see though.
other than that, everything is everything. can't complain. well, could, but what's the point...
the seventh or eighth of august will be the last day that i see john. he already told me that he's going to get me good. i need to think of a way to get him good. he keeps wiping his sweat on me, and pinching and tickling me. i'm trying to think of something incredibly good, but who knows if i'll figure out what that is in time.
any ideas of how to get him are welcome. here are things i've done in the past, that aren't that bad. i want something incredibly awful this time.
- put green icing on his box cutter (which is green) so he didn't notice it until it got all over his hands.
- threw flour all over his back / the back of his head (he's black, so it looked funny as hell.)
- hit his bottle (several times) while he was drinking.
- taken his plastic bags & knife at work and hid them on him.
i'm trying to think of something good, but not harmful. i want to get him soooo bad before i no longer see him anymore. he's like a big brother to me (i call him my big black brother.) any ideas?
I just found out tonight that someone whom I had talked with for so many hours of the day over the last few years, died in February.
I have honestly, without a shadow of a doubt, never met a more kind, compassionate, non-judgemental, accepting and forgiving woman with so much vibrance and shining beauty than her.
The world has truly lost a beautiful and amazing individual.
TOOL in CT sucked. We traded our tickets for $50 at the door, and got third row seats (instead of Section 118) and the sound was just so awful. The view and setlist was the same as Mansfield. Waste of time to go there, really. Mansfield blew that concert out of the water.
Finally got to cut some loose ends from my life. That felt REALLY good and necessary.
You know, I only keep this goddamn livejournal to read/comment to everyone else's. It seems like I am the ONLY LOSER on here that actually updates deadjournal more (or has a deadjournal.) Mmmhmm.
So... I need to download AIM for this. Computer got formated, new hard drive installed. All music is gone. If anyone with a good connection wants to send me some stuff, it's bobdylanmelts. :|
Stinkfist The Pot 46 & 2 Jambi Schism Lost Keys Rosetta Stoned Wings For Marie 10,000 Days Lateralus Vicarious Aenema
Fucking AMAZING. In 2002, I was dead front in Lowell against the barricade with some crazy guy with three ft long hair, whippin it all around. The sound & experience of that concert was AMAZING! This one, I was 6 rows back, and the entire crowd was excellent. I loved the whole fuckin crowd, not an asshole in my sight (which is so rare for a tool concert.) Those were my top 2 Tool shows, by far.
The lasers were fuckin interesting, especially if you checked the ceiling/back of the place. They had lots of energy, but Maynard didn't hit a lot of the high notes. The poor Mansfield weather got him all chilly. He was really funny today, probably the most interesting I've seen him (aside from when touring with APC.) But he seemed genuine. Normally there's some kind of hint of him being an asshole. And PA, we were louder than you - eat it. :p
HIGHLIGHTS : Lost Keys/Rosetta Stoned, LATERALUS!, 10000 Days, Aenema
Lateralus will never, ever, ever get old for me. Saw the club date and dates in 2002, and I still firmly believe that Lateralus should be the closer every night. It would make every concert go out with a fucking BANG! Not that I don't think Aenema is a great song, but I don't think it fits well with ending.
I reek of pot. Thanks bastards. Can't find a better high or what? Just kidding.
I'll be seein them Thursday in CT. Can't wait. WAy shittier seats on that day, but I'll be able to fully enjoy the lasers/projection on the stage/etc. The lasers + fog = clouds was pretty cool too, during 10000 Days.
I can't remember any of the shit Maynard said right now... "Peace the fuck out"? Internet porn, pre-marital sex, can't remember anything else. "It's fuckin cold"? Can't remember things word for word but there's the jist.
Loved it. Amazing power and the band did excellently.
By the way? Isis were good performers but I didn't dig the vocals. Same feelings I had towards Meshuggah in '02. Hope everyone else enjoyed it as much as I did.
The Bob Dylan concert was pretty much what I expected it to be. Lots of shitty artists before he went on, and then me thinking that he'd be as breathtaking as in the mid 60's. For some reason, I kept picturing a 21 year old man with sunglasses and frizzy hair, wailing away on guitar and screaming at the top of his lungs, in time to the songs. Unfortunately, Bobby's 65 now and it's just highly unlikely anyone will ever see that side of Bob again. His band performed the songs in excellent time, however, Bob kept singing in different times with different emphasis on particular words. It really put a damper on some of his songs (all except for Tangled up in Blue - which I love sped up/misplaced anyway.)
Too many fucking potheads. I hate getting high off pot, let alone being "half high" and just irritable/craving a better high.
Setlist:
1. Cat's In The Well 2. You Ain't Goin' Nowhere 3. Tweedle Dee & Tweedle Dum 4. Just Like A Woman 5. Just Like Tom Thumb's Blues 6. Masters Of War 7. Highway 61 Revisited 8. Shelter From The Storm 9. I'll Be Your Baby Tonight 10. Tangled Up In Blue 11. A Hard Rain's A-Gonna Fall 12. Summer Days
(encore) 13. Like A Rolling Stone 14. All Along The Watchtower
I mean, it was okay. It was a pretty good performance, in general. I just don't like how Bob delivers his songs now, at all. I think if I found a Dylan tribute band who sounded and had the energy and passion of early Dylan stuff, that I would pay just as much to see them. I know I'd get a hell of a lot more out of it. Overall, it was pretty good, but not the best.
kevin: that time with you was one of the best kevin: you were so happy kevin: i was so happy kevin: i just got even higher because you were high kevin: it was amazing kevin: it was the most bonded experience i've had on e kevin: i really felt like we were one person kevin: for that time kevin: you know? kevin: did you feel that? kevin: when we were together the first time? me: i don't remember kevin: like...one mind kind of? kevin: well, i did kevin: everything was really smooth me: yeah kevin: not like random me: i remember that
Well, what's been going on lately? Still crazy interested in The Beatles (what else is new) and still wishing I could eat Bob Dylan's talent.
No new Tree Flower songs. Had expectations of doing some on my birthday, but got majorly sidetracked.
Took some MDMA, and a few pills that turned out to be caffeine/methamphetamine/mdma. Hmmm, yeah, not too good.
I fucking love MDMA to no end. Really. Fuck everyone that likes to mix shit and be cheap bastards. Anyway... I had a fucking amazing time, regardless. Tripped hard for 15 hours with my best friend and a girl that was my best friend in my childhood. Kevin was so far away but I still enjoyed what time I had spent with him.
Went to see the fireworks, looked at the stars, went to club Energy in Providence, went to work to visit, probably more things.
I had a blast but nothing will ever beat the feeling of MDMA, or that experience, ever. Can't wait to get some pure stuff again. Other drugs aren't worth it. . . k, maybe some psychedelics are.
To let you in on how amazing my birthday was, well... my hangover lasted for four days. Had a good ol' panic attack with it too. Oh, meth&caffeine&my paranoia, FUCK YOU!
I'm back to normal now. Functioning fine. Columbine shit released. Kinda interesting, but overall nothing new to me.
Might go see SIMON POSFORD in New York on Aug 20somethingth. Looking forward to that. That will be amazing!!! New Tool tour dates are coming up. Keeping my wallet nice and fat with cash for that one... thinking of a vacation from Wal*Mart to help me miss many days and attend many concerts. Wee.
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