Maybe our love will catch like fire..

Holy hell

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Sun, 18 Nov 2007 01:52:02 GMT

Well Hola LJ!

Its been like 7438925789347589348537489 years since Ive logged onto to you!!!

Good friday

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Fri, 06 Apr 2007 15:39:11 GMT

I have teh day off today..

Im spending it by reading..and watching trashy t.v..lol

Speaking of trashy t.v..Im wathing Jerry Springer..its about bad girls..lol
Theres this one dumb bitch on there whos pregant and still drinks and smokes!
She's like. "Ya know Jerry I can hold my liqour!"
Shut the fuck up and go eat some birth control pills..

She needs to be shot in the vag..seriously..

Ugh so fat

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Fri, 16 Mar 2007 02:51:12 GMT

Iam sooo effin' out of shape...lol

I've been working out lately..yah know gotta shed some pounds...

WELL. I've been trying to work my way up to 15 mins on the elipitcal.....lol

SOO fat..god..

Pisser

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Sat, 24 Feb 2007 13:09:23 GMT

Soo..I finally found out who's been pissing on my white rug in the downstairs bathroom..

ITS SONOMA! Pisser!!

But how can you get mad at him..he's way to cute...lol He's currently sleeping on a box in the closet...lol

Awww....lol Im way to into my cats I swear..lol

I hate people...

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Thu, 25 Jan 2007 00:27:49 GMT

This story pisses me off..

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/16785254/?GT1=8921

It died. I mean c'mon..don't move the poor thing leave it alone.

I'd get back to you..god knows I've tried..

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Tue, 23 Jan 2007 18:51:56 GMT

So, Luis, is it love after all...
              ...or is it just lust?
              Is there a difference?
              Oh, yes.
              To love someone is to give and then want to give more.
              And lust?
              What is lust, Alan?
              Lust is to take and then take more.
              To devour, to consume. No logic, no reason.
              So...give, take.
              Which is it?
              Both.
              I want to give her everything.
              And I want to take everything from her...

I was watching "Original Sin" last night on AMC..and I got to tell you...I loved it. I know it was WAY edited..but my god what an awesome movie. That last line is so true about love...

Anyway. I think I should clear up my last entry...lol yes..yes I was drunk. Very drunk to say the least. I didn;t even drink all the much really(well not much for me) I had 2 cans of diet coke mixed with like...oh gosh...6-8 shots of some shitty ass vodka..lol I wasn't really measuring it..lol yeah..Im retarded.

But hey. I had fun. And thats all that really matters...haha...

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Sun, 21 Jan 2007 09:43:02 GMT

Why am I aopm Lj..Im so drunk..I actually nust thrwq up a bit.

But tonight was fun....saw some peeps..hugn out with Mike Jones...got him some beer so he kissed me on the cheek..lol...I threw uop a but,,whoops..thansk Stepahn Andrew DAvis and Nick P...got to go to bed...good night Josh I love ya,.,

what goes around comes all the way back around

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Fri, 19 Jan 2007 00:42:16 GMT

So......JOSH IS HOME!
:-)

This saturday is his PARTAY! Gonna get druuuuuuuuunk..lol what? I drink? Why yes..yes I do..lol

Last night we all went to Wild Woody's..and man..that place is weird.
All these weird looking people doing weird things..lol just a crazy place.
I got a shot..dont know what was in it..but it was good!..haha I like the booooze.

OH! And they had a bikini contest and all these dudes were up by the stage watching..so Nick P drags me up there and first of all I was the only chick watching..lol
Then this creepy guy "accidentally" bumps into me. Checks me out. Then says, "Oh god..Im so sorry"..then still stares at me. So I grabbed Nick P and stared back..hahaha...guys are lame man..

Thats it really.....lol WEIRDEST ENTRY EVA!

Stolen words from mouths of fools..

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Sat, 06 Jan 2007 15:33:15 GMT

Long time no post.

So whats up with me..well things are good. Could use more money (who couldn't these days) but other then that things are good.

The holidays were wonderful. Nick and I got to see all our family which is always fun. WE also got closer to his Aunt and Uncle...we went over there Christmas Eve and we just talked a bunch. It was great. I can tell it meant alot to Nick too..he really loves and looks up to his Uncle John. Not to mention that they have a really sweet HUGE house..lol :-) WE also got to see Chris on christmas night..we all went to Denny's and I ate most of his pie..lol I miss ya buddy! Cant you just go AWOL..lol jus' kiddin' On New Years Eve Jen and Dave came over..Jen and I drank and took silly pics while Dave and Nick played Ps2..lol thats typical.

Work has been good. I can feel the love from the kids lately. Like last tuesday Jillian(a 5yr old) came over to me a picture she had drew..she gave it to me and I asked who the girl in the picture was and she said, "Its you Miss.Holly..your a princess"..:-)..how cute! Then just yesterday I was talking to Lexi's (a 2 yr old) mom like I do every day and she said, "I know Lexi likes everyone there but I think she loves you the best"..aww..that one has my heart let me tell you.

Wedding stuff. We finally booked our photographer AND Dj...Im so like, less stressed now. Were about 80% done...yay! 7 months guys...:-) Now I have to work on getting motivated to get in shape...lol Im so not motivated at all...lol

Josh comes home soon too! I so excited! I miss him soooo very much...:-( Life really isnt the same without him here..let me tell ya. Mine and Jen's goal is to get him drunk..lol he needs to get smashed a bit..haha

Oh yeah. All our fish died...lol..dont ask me why b/c I dont know. I can't think about it...dead fish creep me out. I cried though..I felt so bad..I loved them (Im sorry Oscar,Pickels,Ketchup and Mustard)

Alright. WEll I should clean-up this house a bit. Thanks Stephan for letting me use your computer. Ours will be ready soon

Life

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Sat, 18 Nov 2006 00:59:31 GMT

Man, I haven't updated this thing in a long time!

Things have been great lately! My 21st birthday was this past tuesday...:-)
:Having my BIG party this saturday! Woo!!

Tomorrow Nick and I are going to a Brial Expo to get some more vendors for the wedding..(8 months!)

But yeah..thats it really..lol

You won't see right through me..

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Sat, 28 Oct 2006 03:16:04 GMT

Life has been..well life I guess lately.

Busy busy busy. Go Go Go. Thats the pace to my days lately.
Life has been coming at me fast..and I like it..but yet Iam amazed at how quickly time does pass. As soon as I start to enjoy the moment another one hurdles in and blows me over.

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Title : See Right Through Me

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Genre : Modern Rock

At the wake of the storm
Many flurries of cold and furious thoughts
Hardly managed to drag me down
I heard it all from another room
Stolen words from mouths of fools
So what else is new still they can't keep their cool

I live to justify to give the reasons why
You won't see right through me, see right through me

All of this can't be real the poor state that I am in
Discomfort in my sleep may have brought me here
All the vows are broken, all the guilt that I'm wearin' of bein' here
Of being here so unprotected

I live to justify to give the reasons why
You won't see right through me, see right through me
I live to justify, say the reason why you may sense my fear
But you won't see right through me

Overhead and closer up there
See the earth's fadin' nations
Shuttles, spaceships, satellites
All gathered up there hypnotized
I may climb the highest fences
Face the worthless consequences
Obscured, shattered is the sky
Another lesson learned in time
Many lacks of confidence
In hidden useless conversations

I live to justify to say the reason why

You won't see right through me,  see right through me
I live to justify to say the reason why you may sense my fear

But you won't see right through me

Im so naive

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Mon, 23 Oct 2006 05:18:03 GMT

I thought there would be a point in my life where I would just magically change into a woman.I thought that I would have the poise and grace that I sought after. I can recall on the eve of my 20th brithday..going to bed and thinking.."this is it..tomorrow I will be different". Much to my surpise, when I awoke I was the same exact person. Same thoughts..same fears..same dreams and same worries. Im just a glorified child..

Too cute..

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Fri, 06 Oct 2006 02:05:49 GMT

Last night..when Nick came home he called for me to come down stairs..he said he had a present for me..

I run down the stairs and he has his hands behind his back...I ask him what he has for me and he says I have to come closer to get it..I get closer and he wraps his arms around me and says,"The hug is your present"..

aww..lol hes so cute..
:-)

So

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Thu, 05 Oct 2006 19:55:15 GMT

I have decided to become a vegetarian.

I was doing some research last night and I things I found were utterly disgusting.
You all know me..Im not much of a meat eater. I hate it.

Now I just have to get out of the whole, "Oh..shouldnt I be eating some chicken with this" attidude.

Be my friend..

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Thu, 21 Sep 2006 17:58:55 GMT

This past week has been such a whirl-wind.

Sunday night I worked up enough strenght and walked over to Jen's house.
(I was just so sick of talking just on LJ)
I walked over there..biting my nails the whole time.

I walked up onto the porch..took a deep breath and knocked.
A few seconds later she came to the door. We just looked at eachother for a few seconds..when she realized who it was she said, "Oh my god"..

And then we just talked. And it wasn't awkward..or weird..it was like how it used to be.I mean you would think after having no communication for almost 2 years that it would be weird..but it wasn't.

We agreed to put the past behind us and to move on and be friends again.
And I honestly couldn't be more happy about it.
I feel like a huge part of my life is back...

Soo tired

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Sun, 17 Sep 2006 05:58:33 GMT

Damn my stomach hurts..

Nerves+Blueberry streausel cerial = worst tummy-ache EVER!

Im so tired.
But I cant sleep.
Too much on my mind....

blah.

Best line from a movie...ever

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Sat, 16 Sep 2006 20:05:47 GMT

"I should tear your eyes out right now, but how would you look at yourself in the morning"
-Brittney Murphy - Little Black Book-

11am on a saturday

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Sat, 16 Sep 2006 16:05:20 GMT

My goal(s) for today are

-Get all lauandry done and folded and in drawers.
_clean our room

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it

Oh how I love you..I love you soo..

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Thu, 14 Sep 2006 22:32:33 GMT

Austin called me today...

It was so nice to hear his voice..
So nice..
You dont know how nice it was..

It was a short conversation but I feel better.
My stomach is a mess..but my head and heart feel alot better...

City And Colour

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Thu, 14 Sep 2006 22:25:58 GMT

I love this band.
I recently discovered them on AOL music the other day..

Just wow....amazing..

Day Old Hate

So lets face it, this was never what you wanted
But I know that its fun to pretend
Our blank stares and empty threats
Are all I have
Theyre all I have

So drown me.. if you can
Or we could just have conversation
and I fall, I fall, I faulter.
I found you before I drift away

Now you still speak of day old hate
Though your whole world has gone up into flames
And isnt it great to find that youre really worth nothing
And how safe it is to feel safe

So drown me and if you can
Or we could just have conversation
And I fall, I fall, I faulter.
But I found you before I drift away

The things we do just to stay alive (x3)

The things we do just to keep ourselves alive

Just..wow. I feel this way toward alot of people. Its amazing to find a song that says how I feel..but better.

The Grace

In better days I've been known to listen
I go to waste all my time is missing

I'm mapping out my ending,
it's never gonna happen now
These things are condescending
with everybody backing down

You pray to stars that can help you get by
And all at once you forget to try

I'd go there if you let me,
they're never gonna find me now
My life is always empty
and in and out of doubt

Your not coming back for me, these things they will never be
I'm so used to being wrong, so put me where I belong

I'll get back to you,
God knows I try,
but I still lose
And I get back to you,
these days run by,
but I still lose

Angels say they can make you suffer
They give and take like a vicious lover

When all this loses meaning,
You'll never want it back somehow
Awake but still I'm dreaming
And never waking up

Alone...Where I'm not alone

This one makes me cry..

Anyone else like this band??

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Tue, 12 Sep 2006 02:43:20 GMT

God.
I hate all this 9/11 stuff.
It makes me so depressed.

I dont think they should be allowed to show such graphic footage on t.v..

they should show memorial stuff..not the planes crashing into the building.
Showing it doesn't help..

All bullshit beside it is a sad day...

Lie in bed at night..think about your life..

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Thu, 07 Sep 2006 22:44:24 GMT

Holy crap.
Iam so tired.

I got sick at work yesteday.
I literally threw up at work.
Yuck.
I got to go home an hour early though..

I feel better today though, so its all good I guess.

Im so happy tomorrow is friday.
I just want to stay home all weekend and chill..
I dont want to have to do' my hair or my fucking make-up.
I just want to lay around and sleep and eat..lol
Im so fucking lame sometimes...:-)

Today at work Dez "bought me presents" for "my room".(the baby room).she got me cd's for the kids to listen to and a nursery organizer.
Iam way to excited about that!
lol..

Bury me

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Thu, 07 Sep 2006 02:37:48 GMT

So my new favorite band is 30 Seconds To Mars..
And my new fav song is by them..called "The KILL"..

The Kill"

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.

Ah, ah
Oh, oh
Ah, ah

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)

(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me

*droos* not to mention that Jared Leto is effin' HOT!
lol..

Seriously..chek em' out!

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Mon, 04 Sep 2006 18:52:06 GMT

Rest In Peace Steve Irwin...

One pic

Hollyp20@hotmail.com — Wed, 30 Aug 2006 02:07:58 GMT

Me and the girls!